one word to describe today: fiasco.
i was super tired, exhausted, and wasn't in a good mood. and my auntie came to find me and i definitely don't like her. she brings trouble.
chinese lesson was alright. at least i answered a question normally, and i think i got it half right. here and there, i guess it's ok. but i stayed back after school waiting for annies to finish her chem test and finish my comprehension.
maths lesson was sucky. it was terrible. i got scolded for talking to jasmine, and i had to stand for a few minutes. then, the gorilla made me solve sth, and i got it wrong AGAIN. careless. and he asked others to point out my mistake. guanlin was right, he was looking for things to pinpoint at me. and then, he asked those behind me whether they could see anything. again, this inflicts damage on my self-esteem, beacuse i know i am FAT, and i am opaque, and i don't eat glass for a living. so when he asked,"what do you think phyllis should do?" (obviously, he is planning to humilate me further and use that as a way to let me sit down) and i snapped,"i'll stand at the back." but the people behind wanted me to sit down instead. thx a lot people, and i love you:D i was fuming for some reason. maybe firstly because, i was NOT in a good mood (and usually being in a bad mood pulls my self-restraint and endurance shorter and more limited) and secondly, i didn't like the way he gayly scolds me, and gayly tries to let me sit down. i rather stand. and then again, who will like being scolded by a gorilla? lol. alright, thinking it over, i know it's my fault, but today made me hate gorillas a lot more. extermination of the gorillas operation 1:D
lang arts was bad. i didnt do the hw, and i wasn't listening at all:D
geography was bad too. gorilla let us off late for his class 5 minutes, and we had to rush to the LTs. so obviously, we will be late for at least 10 minutes or so. nice mr chan never scolds us, and i appreciate that of him:D however, i wasn't listening, and i wasn't attentive at all. i didn't learn anything today. how?
chemistry test was another fiasco. luckily, i finished it, but i didn't have time to check everything through. but still, i have NO confidence of scoring good for it. and i am so tired, i may need the smellingsalts to wake me up. but i didn't use it. i was still on blank mode when i saw the paper, so i skip it and went to other questions. at the last 5 minutes i went back and cleared it up. lol. but i couldn't think clearly. that's one failure now.
bio was scary. mr chow was fuming beacuse we didn't complete our work. urgh, i forgot the part on the functions and the ws. oh man. but the chim terms he said made me really scared. what if i failed bio?
i had public duty today too. but most of the time we were watching the RV match. god. RV (totally) thrashed the other school. best not to mention the name actually. and estee and lixuan were like pro. scoring again and again. i found it really cool, though i would prefer a close match between the two instead of a thrashing match:D RV netball is really good, and i am proud to say that!
I love 3J now. everyone's warmed up and stuff, but i am lagging behind now, because i am a little moody nowadays. reasons are unknown, but it's mostly because of jane and jily. it's alright if you dunno what am i saying:D

wadever i say below does not apply to anyone, and it's just a normal rant you see from excessive emoing:D

i guess i am being selfish like this. but i really don't want anything to be like this. for years and years, i thought we would stay tgt no matter what. but you let go so easily, and i wanted to hold on. but i couldn't. you were already out of my reach. be happy now, because it will take time for me to find another person as special as you. i tried not to hold on, but my heart tells me to. it is a torture, doing what our heart tells you not to. being friends is more than enough now, but why am i being sad over it? someone, save me. and i am sorry for not letting go.

CYA!:DDDDD