i doubt i can sleep today, though i'm really mentally tired and worn out.

and oh yeah, happy 400 posts lol

i don't like it. i don't like it. i bloody hell don't like it. somehow, my heart hurts from knowing that too. i don't like to even feel like this.

i'm really, really hoping i'm just being childish, and my mom's just suppressing her feelings. perhaps adults have a different view about life and death? nobody's that horrible right?

shit la needa chiong work later on!

uhhhh. ytd was school reopen and it was really fun in the morning, eve and i were extremely high when we went to the other block then saw pnghang with cut hair hahahaha!

in class was fun too, siyi and jasmine and i talked like hell, like one whole month's worth of words, nck had to tell us to keep quiet a lot of times XDD plus there's tiny eve at the diagonals, can bully her if i feel like it heh heh! not bully literally, it's nice to see her expression when i bully her haha!

then had new LA teacher, i forgot her name though.. the class was in dead silence when she was in the classroom. i guess we all miss mr hor? i do, at least.. he was probably one of the teachers i would gladly do hwk for? the new teacher seems nice, but i just cannot get used to the fact that mr hor ain't teaching us anymore, and how i actually look forward to LA lessons, just a bit.. people probably just come and go right?

math had new teacher tooo LOLL. and plus we are very ahead of time, so the next few math lessons probably would be just sian.. i want calculator games NOW. XDD or maybe phone games, i dun mind :P talked to siyi and jiayi like hell today HAHA.

anyway, watched transformers ytd, i didn't find it awesome or anything? maybe cuz i didn't watch the first one, but the second one seem to be like, about running, action all the time, but no much development? i duno leh, was bored in the midst of the bomb fighting LOLL. smuggled KFC into the cinemas too muahahaha.

had free tickets anyway hahaha! :X

tmr is sjab day!! :D somehow i'm looking and not looking forward to it :S

i'm currently craving someone to rant to, to find out if my view is just warped.

hmmhmm. let me blog about thursday first :)

THURSDAY, 25june
LOL. okay. it was the day of the performance!! OMGOMGOMG. i guess the ones who are most nervous are probably the children themselves and jiarong and ruth, since they were the ones who did the most of the performance. but anyway, before that, the girls were doing make-up, and i was like stunned. wow, they are like 5 years younger than me and they use make-up already?? i don't even know what is a mascara whatever that is -.-

but anyway, jack and maiyuan look super cool in their suits :) vischal looks normal.. XD maiyuan's blazer had no buttons though :S HAHA. ok no photos yet, maybe some other day :X

the thing itself was super funny, vishal almost ran out a lot of times, zi yan was lagging everywhere, yi qing blew the whistle out of nowhere HAHAHA. it was damn hot too, sweating like hell sia. woon neng was super good, she kept asking them to keep quiet :) maiyuan oso hahaha!!

the 2nd one was more screwed than the first i think XDD

went home and slept on the bus again hahaha. somehow i woke up near school.. i think cuz got sms or sth like that :)

TODAY:
had appointment, and the doctor said that my vertebra's cartilage is a little deformed, and is pressing against a motor nerve which links to my leg.. so yep, leg hurts, back hurts a bit too.. my back didn't hurt that much i guess but i think i got used to the pain until it didn't hurt anymore hahahaha. the leg one was worse :) but anyway, i need to go for physiotherapy every thursday from now on, to reduce imflammation of the nerve?? o.o i duno why LOLL. and the problem cannot be solved, unless i go for operation.. i guess i'll only do it when it gets really, really bad. LOL. yeah, and i'm really relieved it's not some degenerative disease!!

WHEE. chemistry test on monday. LOL. gg. :)

"We were strangers starting out on our journey
Never dreaming what we'd have to go through
Now here we are and I'm suddenly standing
At the beginning with you"
- Anastacia, At the beginning

what the hell is wrong with me? i'm like, playing battleon, a game that should have dissolved from my game list since primary school?? i can still vividly remember how everyone spammed battleon in the comp labs after PSLE. and somehow this time, i feel like becoming a pro in it XDD hardcore playing then :) at least there's something to do now right? :X

and nck's email made me itching to delete his email. LOLLL. stupid idiot, i don't want chemistry test to be on the first day of school! it's inba, i'm not anywhere near studying, except chinese because it's the way i can on my comp at night -.-

cca are all cancelled, sian.. that probably means no sjab day parade.. and that's perhaps the last few sessions we have with the juniors? oh well. we'll leave anyway someday xD will miss the sec 3s alot, especially those i'm closer to, and the sec 2s and 1s which i have grown slowly attached to.. but some things just can't change right? even though i want to take responsibility.

yadayada. my mom's scolding me about the camera. though it's my fault, i don't like how she scolds people, very qian bian LOL. and she's scolding me because i'm putting on headphones, with no music, and i was planning to watch anime but because she is scolding, i didn't watch and stoned instead...

okay i'm tired, blog some other day heh heh heh!

bye bro, he's gone for some weird course...

anyways, haven't been blogging though i was harping on this idiotic, laggy computer everyday for at least 3 hours at night, 7 hours if i had the whole day till evening to myself. wow! LOLL. i have been such an otaku/computer freak :( tried very hard to do self-study, but it didn't work out.. switched the computer on, and moved on the manga, and onto facebook (just surfing), seeing and writing notes (in facebook), chatting to the same olds on msn... oh yeah i was listening to songs too xD

sunday was probably quite a wasted day. shouldn't have spent the morning snoring and having lunch with my family! should have gone to zj's house for durian party or sth -.- but seriously, was rather looking forward to the family lunch because
1. there might or might not be huijun, my bro's gf joining us!
2. there's kway chap, #1 in singapore at old airport road!!!
but anyway, i was wrong on both counts, she didn't come, was overseas, and kway chap was on holidays too!! urgh! in the end i spent one and a half hour stoning, eating wanton mee at that very hot place because i had ALOT of time to spare. LOL. and in my vest + long sleeved black shirt! how bad is that? damnnnn hot!!!

called jiarong and half-begged her and zj to meet earlier, but zj was still dressing up and stuff so had to waitttttttttttttt. LOL!

ended up in plaza sing walking aimlessly with my family to wait lor! had fun poking, making fun of my bro, and finally, some joy in walking, i repeat, WALKING in shopping centres. close friends would know what i meant by that xDDDD i have been complaining about it since ages ago!

and met em at the cinema, jiarong pounced onto me while i was looking down from the top storey, and my guts almost flew out sia! shocked! for the records, i am a little bit afraid of heights, reason being i have this nightmare i'm falling down from my window all the time, and even once in my dreams a person (i don't feel like mentioning) pushed me down from a 39 storey high diving board!!! freaking scary okay!

then watched ghost of girlfriends' past.. was wanting to watch hannah montana, but couldn't :(
i guess it was okay, better than i expected. i thought it would be a lot of crying, regretting, emoness all those, not exactly my kind of movie.. but it was funny at some parts, mostly very suggestive xDDD and there was a happy ending :)

then just walked around aimlessly, and daiso rocks :) bought a mini pencil box, in case i have to go out and there's nowhere to put my huge pencil box, i'll just use the smaller mini version :)

monday was fun! in the morning woke up earlier than usual to go to school. wore 4J class tee :) i have no idea why people say the class tee doesn't look good or whatever, i find it fine to me, and most importantly, it's a class tee! even how ugly it is, it's still nice to me because it signifies the class what! alright, i'm not over the fact that i lost the design, but the current design is fine!

waited at the bus stop for about... 20 minutes for liuqiao, charlene, sharonow to come -.- wah kao! i reached at like, 8.40? from early to late -.-

then went on to take temperature.. damn cool technology, just click and you get a temp. i was quite suspicious that the default temp was 36.6 degrees, because everyone had the same temp! LOLL. xinmun came too! XD then walked to sj room, realised no one's there, so went to canteen!

omg. seriously realised how long it has been since i saw them :) yen cut her hair, makes her look cuter! overall i think everybody's hair grew longer? LOL. i passed the badge to bl, then just stoned around hoping eve would come faster, had fun still.. was quite reluctant to leave, if not for my very suspicious shirt, and cid.. :(

accompanied sharon to her art room and saw her art piece... very nice sia, i love the shading xDD and i realised art, is so cool. wished i had some degree of talent in it :(

CID. took 963 from school with charlene and talked! then she got down quite fast, and i stared out of the window and listened to music till i reached the fsc's stop. didn't dare to sleep cuz i might miss the stop! LOLL. cid was.. chaotic. i went in and bursts of si biantai came out and everything. stunned. hahaha! then jack and si qin quarrelled :( not much comments about it, but i feel bad. it's my phone they are quarrelling over after all

went for lunch with CID mates, and had quite a good time! mac's default chilli has changed to garlic chilli!! :DDDDDD OMG. i'm totally happy over it. :) zhengyang came and all of us chatted and stuff...

then timothy suddenly called HAHAHA. stunned. it has been what, one year since we even exchanged a call? LOL. i think the rest thought it was my mom or something, dunno leh, so everybody left LOL

took the bus home, and as usual slept until i barely woke at the interchange. :) happy sleeping trips :)

hmmm. i did 40 cheng yu ytd, was rather ok actually, most learnt in primary school already mah xD

today was otaku/computer day! :D and i'm gonna be dead if my mom comes home now...

bye! XD

P.S. what the hell is the voting thing for, if they didn't take our opinion into consideration? gave us hope for holidays and smashed us down like that... and i have to chiong work :( school's reopening friends, that's the truth.. good and bad in some ways :S

i realised how cool it is to have my dad xD

last night, my bro came home at midnight, and my mom was sleeping. my dad and i were watching tv, then he bathed and sat down with us and watch tv.. then my dad asked him about his gf and everything, and the three of us started chatting about his gf which was damn, damn cool! it's like we can talk about anything, everything.. i think i can never do that with my mom, though she's nicer nowadays too...

gahhhh i can't blog anymore, i'm too sleepy LOLLLL. gonna sleep soon xD night, tmr going to shop again, wah kao scared of shopping liao la!!

LOLLLLLL. watched house by nigahiga, and it was plain retarded.

sean: it's like they are the same person...
-intense music plays-
ryan: wait, sean, say that one more time
sean: that one more time
ryan: no, say that again!
sean: that again!
ryan: no, say what you said before-
sean: that one more time!

WTHHHHH. sean is LOL. what the hell. AHHAHA! always a good laugh xD

anyway, today went cycling with sharonow and charlenetan! omg almost overslept. would have if sharon didn't sms me sia! just popped a shirt and went out. my brother was like o.o because i woke up so early LOL. but anyway, reached there like 30 minutes early? so went to mac and bought hash browns and milo for them. then waited, and waited.....

and i got onto the train LOL. what the hell, sharon was like laughing when i got onto the train for no reason!! -.- LOLLLL. and charlene was being auntie, there was an empty seat and she kept "ahhh got seat!!" -.- HAHA. crazy bunch of people. am i the only sane one? o.O

then went to pasir ris, and then all the hash browns were... soggy and disgusting HAHA. but in the end we ate our share anyway xD

then took 403 to pasir ris, waited damn long for it sia. LOL. then something funny happened:

charlene and i were talking about periods, then i was like
me: hey sharon, you got duo jiu me you lai?
i think she heard wrongly anyway..
sharon: uh, i think once then for sometime nvr go (?) then go for once... liddat lor
charlene and i looked at each other puzzled
sharon: c'mon la i got warning letter before leh!
charlene and i started laughing like shit xDDDD


then reached pasir ris,and it's so near the chalet!! omg. charlene and i recognized it because it was the one glennis and glenda book for us de :)

then we walked and rented bikes~

here's the story:

the gruelling adventure of charlene



































i have no idea who's that either LOL.

with her friends...











sharon ow jia'en












phyllisseahkiamui(HAHA. sorry for the stupid face!)

was very fun because very long nvr cycle le. and here, i shall congratulate charlene on learning the basics of cycling!! XDDDD though i'm not too good at it either -.- LOL XD

and we did very breathtaking, life-threatening actions...


anyway, for those that have no inkling where this is, this is the middle of the road, and btw we were taking it when we were aware that there's a taxi coming our way okay!! HAHAHA.














then exhausted, we went to white sands and ate at burger king. and crapppppppppppppppp. like hell. LOL. damn long, and it's damn cold too over there! :) talked about a huge variety of things ranging from families to cca? i think. LOL -.-


then just walk around? and we somehow ended up in the library talking in the children's section, malay bookshelves... HAHHAHA and we talked about..basic and advance i think! basic was with char, advance was with sharon so yeah lah XDDD


then go... KFC? I BOUGHT HOT DOG ROLLLLLLL at polar (: i love it so much!


eat and crap a bit and took some photos...

ok finally. i can finish this post. PHEW. anyway accompanied sharon to clementi and went back on my own HEHEHEHE XD

LOL. hello. :)

anyway, read this when doing chinese work:

对生活还满意的你一定有很多话可以分享。对生活不满意的你更要说出来，不是为了抱怨而抱怨，而是希望遇上截然不同的观点，让你看见广阔的，优美的世界。

yup, this is to my friend :) hope you know what i mean :)

anyway, my mom is now scolding me, because she's jealous of my brother's gf, and my bro's coming home late everyday, so she's giving him cold treatment. -.- how.... weird. LOL.

she was like scolding me and then sth random like 'you can just do anything you want without telling me la, just because you can act like you no mom liao' and i was like 'wth? wtf??? what the hell are you talking about." -.- obviously, she messing up things to scold my bro with me -.-

mom's in bad mood today, don't like her when she's like that :( should have went training for ph -.- finished 2 chinese papers today, but i'm drained. -

AND YES. i want to make a scrapbook with all my friends/events/pets/houses/etc to be in! and in future, when i open it again, i can be wowed :) i'm really bent on doing it, and i need money!!!! stupid empty piggy bank -.- spent it all in outings already :( i'm left with... 40 dollars till the end of this month -___________-
nice one right? :)

i'm bringing a camera to FSC tmr, hopefully, i can take a lotlotlotlot of photos with them :) and hope that they don't forget me, it has only been one session i'm disappeared! \

sayonara!

hmmhmm, long time no update yeah? :)

"I run from hate
I run from prejudice
I run from pessimists
But I run too late."
- Lady Antebellum, I run to you

:D i love this song too :) this part of the lyrics is super cool, like saying trying to run away from hating people, being prejudiced, and pessimistic, but to no avail... i guess that's in every person's personality? i duno, everyone has their moments :) what's important is to know there is always someone who is there for you! (cheesy)

okay, i shall start the update from last friday, 12/06/09

so it was checkup for me in the evening, so was supposed to meet mom at 12 at her office, but i forgot my keys were with her, so i can't get out of the house! so she came back and we stoned around for a while before we moved off. so went to harbourfront to eat at the hawker centre, the fried fish noodle soup is pretty nice :)

then went to people's park complex/centre and shopped around. omg. i spent so much and my mom was still... happy? i wonder what got into her. i spent like 100 over and she was still smiling and joking around while she paid? i bought a skirt, long shirt, accessaries? yeah.. i felt rather bad, but was rather thrilled because it's the first time i actually bought stuff with my mom and felt happy about it! :D

had dessert at some shop, mango sago! <3>

then went for checkup at KK hospital!

had x-ray before that, wasn't much again, but i was rather sad because my mom had to spend money again, then went for my appointment

the doctor wasn't the nice one who was attached with the old doctor, but some doctor who had a super strong american accent.. so they tried to find out what's wrong with my left leg, and they diagnosed that my left leg is very much weaker than the other, thanks to the young doctor making me use force from my left leg and compare to my right. yeap, had a bad time after that because my left leg started aching again -.- the x-ray showed that my backbone is gradually straightening on its own! :D wooooo!

after that went to tiong, and walked around aimlessly with my mom and met jiarong at the mrt xD then a lot of stupidded and idiotic things happened on the mrt.

1. we missedraffles place, so i was rather kiasu to get out of the mrt at city hall for obvious reasons, then jiarong was like talking yapyapyap behind me while i was saying 'excuse me' to the people and squeezing past people to get to the exit, with reference to raffles place...

jiarong: so you know like this... ya lor yadayada

me: uh... jiarong, is it ok if we talk when we get out of this mrt?

- dengdeng, city hall station. passengers who are transferring to the blah-

me stares as the mrt reaches the station, and the exit is at the other end of the train. then jiarong laughed -.-

2. jiarong was smsing dilligently on her phone, and then the train jerked, so she fell backwards in FREAKING SLOW MOTION. LOL. according to her, my mouth opened in surprise in slow motion too LOL, and i didn't catch her immediately HAHAHA.

but anyway, i pulled her, and the guy behind her held her too xDDD his gf was sitting beside us somemore. LOL. then jiarong and i laughed like shit, so hard our insides were bursting! then the couple smiled and laughed oso, ok not laugh loudly, but quietly. LOL. then jiarong said there was a random guy who am chio LOL!!! damn funny la -.-

ok then we met jasmine at novena, got onto her dad's car :)

LOL. her bro is .... LOL. i have nothing to say, he is super noisy, that's the truth. XD

then blahblah, we reached hwa chong! it's freaking big. B.I.G. i think it's 4x of RV? crazy la.

then we got in and walked to the auditorium.. they had some declaration forms too! cool.

went in and chose a seat and started waiting for the start of the concert :)

1st item was belly dancing, and a group of insensitive people near us started laughing out loud, and pointing because it was a fat lady -.-

2nd item was hiphop, was nice, and cute! :D

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i can only remmeber a few liao. LOL. okay i remember there were freaking 4 belly dancing items -.- and all the melodies sound the same LOL! was rather boring la! the last item was explosive. i loved it like helllll. seriously it's damn nice, and the street dance was damn cool!! OMG. i loved it likehell. i loved the part when the people with down's syndrome, and they danced, it's very heartwarming. i was like stunned while i watch. they must have placed so much effort into this concert just for one 8 dollars ticket!

then went home, on the way jasmine's dad dropped by King Albert's park mac to buy us dinner by the drive thru :) cooool! XD then took jiarong to her house and then mine! :D

Saturday

nothing much, went out with my family, bought shirts :( sorry mom.

Sunday

OMG. the highlight. zj qh and i went to BUGIS STREEEEEET! :D hahaha it's the first time i was there sia. the prices are... crazy. i bought a vest for 10 dollars only, and it's super nice!! and things there are like at weird prices. too cheap already! i wanted to buy this suspender like thing for 15 but cannot try then i dun wanna take the risk..

bought a necklace at 5, very happy with it :)

walked and shopped with qh only at first at bugis junction and stood in Diva as we tried to see what to buy but in the end nothing for me 0.o lOL. but still... happy to shop :) shoppping therapy :D LOL....then zj came, and we went bugis street! she was like our tour guide xDDD

then after walking like shit, zj and i left for far east plaza while qh left! wth zj bought 2 dresses, one is 35, one is 15 xD but the 35 one looked really good on her :) i bought nothing once again <3>

MUAHAHAHA.

and i almost got slaughtered by mom XD

Monday

was a rather hectic day.. in the morning woke up late, and rushed out of house to meet mom, and went to exchange one shirt cause the thingy are dropping out, those stick on things to the shirt? then we both looked at this jacket like thing, and we both liked it, so my mom paid 4 dollars more to buy it and give that shirt back! :D omg!! very happy la! had lunch then...

went d&c to look at shoes, in the end came out with one 26 dollars flats....... GAH. okay. i'm stopping. LOL. my mom was still so happy la!then we went to KK hospital and went to the MRI section, but the nurse told us the boy who was before us was too hyperactive they needed to sedate him, and he has been fasting since morning!! so my mom and i just okay, and walked around the hospital, talking. my mom said my bro really has a gf XD so coooooool!

then we waited for our turn. there was this really cute toddler... he had really long eyelashes, and he had a broken arm :( he was in this pushable trolley/cart? so cute la he!!! omg. fyi, i'm not paedophile! LOL. but he was really cute :)

after that went for MRI, they asked me to change into this hospital gown? yeah.. then went in feeling rather nervous.. then it's like a cylinder-like capsule! ok not enclosed.. then i lay on this platform, they put on ear plugs for me cause it would be noisy according to them.. then they pushed me in and told me to keep still and dont open my eyes when it starts. then i was in already. omg. it felt as if.. okay i think i'm mild claustrophobic. LOL. i can't stand being in such a small space, but i was lying down.. so yeah.. LOL -.- sorry couldn't resist. i closed my eyes, and listened to FM 83.3 xD

then the banging + construction work started but it was okay, i almost fell asleep.. i stayed in that position for about... half an hour? yup, when they pulled me out, i was half awake only xDD

so cool! then went home :)

my week:

tuesday: hardcore studying -.-

wednesday: cid

thursday: CYCLING <3>

friday: training

sunday - probably bugis street again?

"Will you think that you're all alone
When no one's there to hold your hand?
When all you know seems so far away
And everything is temporary, rest your head
I'm permanent. "
- David Cook, Permanent

i'm sorry google chrome, i'm sticking with IE!
btw, i find Permanent a fricking emo song, which might be why i love it so much! the piano melody is just plain sadness, i can almost hear despair in those piano notes or something... though i have no idea about notes, no need to mention pianos... it's just a song that doesn't really make much sense actually, but i still like it :)

today woke up late, at 8.45a.m, when i told myself to wake up at 8, because i was going to leave house at 9. then i was like, in a rush and everything, shouting and screaming because i couldn't find my wallet, then my brother was like 'hey, you wake up so early for what?' and i guess, it has been a while since i heard his voice in the morning, or see him? NS period was plain disappearance of my big bro, because he goes for NS on weekdays, and for weekends he will just spend his time outside, not much with us xD

i think he has a girlfriend *coughs* LOL. he's out all day, and he now talks on the phone in the room, when he used to just, talk in the living room? anyway, that gives my mom less incentive to scold me when i'm in the room chatting :X

anyway, 2 nights ago, or last night, i forgot.. i was lying on the bed, him on the mattress, so i was really wondering if he has a gf, and if he did, would he tell me? i was so stuck with that idea, and i was screaming silently, like literally, banging my head into the pillows and everything because the suspense was killing me (hahahaha kpo sister!)

then he was like 'uh, can you please keep quiet? i'm trying to sleep! one more sound, and you're dead!' then it just burst out from my mouth "do you have a gf!?!" his reaction told me my answer heh heh! he went like 'what.' in a rather defensive tone, so yeap, then after that when i tossed and turned in bed, he didn't complain xDDD i caught him~

one thing i'm not used to is my parents' treatment of him i guess? but i have to get used to it anyway, it's something i have to face. either way, i'm happy he's back :)

ok back to the topic, so i was going to go out with jasmine and guanlin! then i just took some clothes and ran to change.. then my bro told me a shortcut to plaza singapura via purple line, so i sat down and watched tv with him till 9.30 before i changed and everything xD

got lost at the mrt station at dhoby gaunt (?) and waited for guanlin to come and stuff... then she gave me a review of my clothes, and i guess the word 'horrible' sums it up nicely :) LOL. and the necklace was a huge joke LOL! and my happy earrings are criticized HAHA!

then met jasmine at starbucks, before that was watching BOF at the CD shop, they were screening it! then met her and had coffee, sat down to talk and everything! it's nice to keep up with them now, i missed them a lot :) okay not much of jasmine because i just met her on sunday xD but yeap guanlin! talked then went for takoyaki (?) octopus balls are nice! ok the onions suck though i hate that smell!! jasmine and guanlin were like saying the takoyaki suck and said it's something about the flour and stuff? i was like o.o because i found it nice, since it has been a long time since i ate it :(

then went trying on clothes, heh heh! indeed was an enriching experience for me leh! :) though i may be quiet and stuff, but i was actually rather entertained :) HAHA tried on a lot of clothes, and it was funny listening to gl say "horrible" 7 times today XDDD

jasmine helped me put some nail polish LOLLLLLL. she was like my mom can LOL. brenda came at about...12? yeah! then yeap i had to leave at about 1 :S then rushed home, luckily my parents didn't scold... then slacked and everything!

I WISH I'M AT CLASS CHALET NOW.

urgh. i hate it when she starts nagging. she just scold about EVERY bucking thing. damnit. i hate it! and she is now removing my saturday's plans... lucky i didn't really expect to go, if not i'll flare up at her like hell. -.- but stilll...

I'M HAPPY! GOING OUT WITH JASMINE N GUANLIN TMR! :D SO LONG NVR SEE THEM LIAO LEH! WHEEEEE! <3

i was blog surfing, and i came across this blog that i haven't visited since ages, and it reminded me of one current issue that's making me very sad.

i hope you guys will come back. i'm really sorry for abandoning you'all to do other stuff, and then you guys are like, traumatised or sth. now the attendance is like, screwed to the max? and i'm sure i wouldn't have known if they told me. and i'm sure i wouldnt be that guilty/sad/angry right then. i wish i could talk to you guys, but then again, i'm leaving, what's the point? i sort of hope i can leave with a happy note, at least tell myself i love you guys because you guys always make me laugh, but on such a note, i'm leaving with guilt and nothing else. hopefully, things will turn out fine, right? even though i was always scolding, i hope you know that i have a reason in doing so.. hopefully?

okay emo note xD

off to gossip girls i think!

yup, blogskin changed successfully! it looks happier and everything now, like my mood :)

gonna try out gossip girls, i wonder if it's gonna interest me! XD

FSC! :)

today exchanged numbers with the kids, ok not exchange, more like giving my no :D i think the fsc is like a big family, and it's a very happy family! everyone are different in their own ways, but they love each other and know each other very well :) that's so magical, and angela got pissed and the others said sorry and hugged her, which is so warm, so nice! love going there now, the warm atmosphere is just too addictive...

after that went to jp with jiarong to make her sister's card, went through a few shops but was damn cool, because it was so but was sort of rushing in the end cuz i had to get home really soon before i get lynched! then i forgot my whole box of lollipops at jp!!! AHHHHHHH! shit it man. we only noticed it when we were on the mrt going off!! DAMN!@#$%^&*

rotted while waiting for 123, and it was hilarious!

was sitting down, and stoning because 123 seemed to be come after 1 million years, just like a few people beside me. then girl shouted "didi! faster come, 123 is here!" and all of our heads snapped up at the same time, and went to wait for the bus! LOLL. somehow it feels that the bus stop was so bonded. LOL!

bought hot dog rolls at tiong bahru, and was watching the tv while walking past because i recognized the actor, and the drama showing actually. so i was walking, and i totally walked into this auntie, who gave me the biggest eyes i have ever seen. LOL! her eyes were like O.O, and i haven't stepped onto her yet! LOL. her eyeballs would be on the floor if i stepped onto her foot :D

then went home, and tried to do work, but to no avail, as usual....zzzzzzz. in the end decided to game on gameboyadvance! splintercell FTW! i love the game, it's so cool, and all those alarm system, and i love killing people, to shoot them to their deaths! and avoiding cameras, and setting off the alarm, then hiding somewhere where the mighty guards can't find me! love those computers when i have to rotate those boxes to make them click and stuff, it's very interesting:))

oh yeah, something random... why are katy perry's songs always rated so low in wmp? like waking up in vegas is 2.5 stars, i kissed a girl is 2, thinking of you is a mere 2.5?? weird... okay nvr mind, computer has weird taste!

and yes, i love GLEE! i can't wait for it to come out~ the main leads are so cool, and i think its pretty nice! i love the soundtracks somehow! don't stop believing! :)

anyway, lemme tell you the top few embarrassing things i have ever done, to please those who wants a laugh -.- LOL! (see if it makes you laugh) i'm challenging myself to think of as many as possible!!

NUMBERone: saying "would you like to take a photo" to a bunch of strangers with a donation box...

NUMBERtwo: sneezing with my mouth full with disgusting rice in leisure camp

NUMBERthree: saying 'stop expecting your seniors to spoonfood you' in UG camp

NUMBERfour: falling at harboufront interchange at the stairs, with a whole bunch of people in front of me. i fell down the stairs, with my butt slipping on every step...

NUMBERfive: falling down behind choir peeps, and in front of yinshan, and actually going into a kneeling position in front of her in school, at side gate

YES. it's only five. :)

ahh. i just realised how much i'm thinking of ________. it's weird. damn.

i'm thinking of changing blogskin too!

hello!

ytd was about the top 10 fun days of this year :)

went guides' campfire! met charlene at anchorpoint and was late heh heh! sorry char hahaha! then talked, and went crazy over weird things and cool things! was rather sad some people couldn't go but oh well...

then jess bl adam came, and we had dinner at kopitiam! ok it's actually only me LOL. the yong tau foo was sucky, sucky like hell! the doufu wasn't cooked la, i almost died eating it! then went for guides campfire le! LOL. it was damn weird because there was only 5 of us, and guides reserved 3 benches for us o.o

ok i shall cotninue on another day xD gonna sleep soon

edit: sorry for not updating so long heh! :)

so the campfire was rather low at first, but started to get higher and higher as it neared night, for me, cause the moon was damn beautiful! and the stars too! it's a great night sia, i wonder if the guides predicted it already :P

then there was this event we were supposed to send one representive to 'dressup' and act like a celebrity! then we gave adam paper plates and made him act like michael jackson LOLLLL it was damn funny when it was his turn, i think that was when we laughed like hell and everything! and got damn damn high! HAHA. then all those community singing and everything, we were jumping and screaming and everything!! :) so funnnnn

and we took a lot of photos!! :) okay not a lot but just, a few? LOL

after that went to queensway mac to have supper! but had to leave at 1040p.m. cuz had to reach home by 11 if not will kena locked out LOL!

SUNDAY:

flag day! reached at 830 and waited for the organizers till 930? zzz

in the meantime, jr jas zj and i walked around and into 7-11 and stuff...

frankly wasn't very happy about it because waited so long! then after that just do since we were there already =.=

anyway paired up with jiarong, while jasmine with zj, then we did flag day at orchard road! jiarong and i went to the paragon store the sidewalk outside to ask for donations! there were some phillipines people who asked us to help them take photo, then we took photos with them tooo! LOL. so cute! then jiarong kept talking about photos beside me, so i was sort of dreamy, so i went to someone and said

"good morning, would you like to take a photo?"

WTF! it was supposed to be "good morning, would you like to donate?" OMG. i was so so paiseh. DAMN paiseh!! the guy stared at me like i wasn't normal and stuff, and jiarong and i totally went crazy as we walked away OMG HAHAHAHA! ok i admit,it's funny!

MONDAY:

went cid, had fun as usual :) took some photos too! i realised i took a lot of photos lately, compared to the previous months! :)

went to vivo with jiarong for a while cuz i had to get home early, then went to walk at forever 21 and bought earrings! i want a scarf though... :( i want things that go well with my plain tee shirts!

hmmm! CID is fun, indeed! i really love playing with the kids, and plus i'm slacking, so can talk to them and everything. love elaine because she reminded me of myself in primary school :) of course not the breast talk, but yeah, she reminded me of myself in primary school and first week of sec school life, all acting cool and everything, refusing to open myself up except to people i absolutely trust, which was none then. LOL XD (weird to say that because i'm so damn different now) elaine is such a good girl, yet she has no friends! so i decided to be her friend :)

carried the children everywhere and stuff, though it was tiring, i enjoyed it a lot :) then had lunch with them in the small room, and they said their thanks as we listened. i wished everyday would be like that... there are so many kids and they are so warm! i mean warm in the sense of atmosphere. being with them makes me happy anyway :) i guess that's the magic of being a kid! jack and sebastian kept calling me biantai, but i guess that's one way of being close to them? and all the kids are so cute, and fun everything.. if only we weren't doing a project and only went there to enjoy ourselves and play... and the p6 boy, i forgot his name, is so mature for his age! even though he fools around and stuff, he didn't rebel or anything, unlike that stupid uh... what's his name again? yongkang? yeah! zzz!

lunch was a very cute event :) i wish i can have lunch with them soon :)

oh yeah. okay tuesday was cca + training... at first cca was quite sian and stuff cuz only had jesslyn and myself wth! then had lunch at the nearby place which was really cool! i didn't know there was such a place! and the outer view looked so expensive, but it's just normal hawker centre inside! LOLL! then somehow we got the topic of heights, and i found out that jesslyn is like me, afraid of heights!!

then anyway, had training which was rather slack HEH! foot drill a lot, then i pity lihui, her boots were.... wow. LOL. reminded me of footdrillcomp when my boots had a hole, then after drills there was a hole in my socks, and my sole was raw red heh!

and one more thing,

was on the bus going home one day when i saw a mother and son who sat in front of me. the son was just a toddler, perhaps 5 years old? the mother was laughing with him, and was hugging him and being really a nice mother, and the son was happy too. so i was thinking, did my mom do that to me when i was a toddler, too? or did it only apply to other families? hmmmm...

zijun said over the phone that i grew up, and wow, i think i did.

oh i realised, long time no update!:)

let's start from... sunday

SUNDAY:
went out with jiarong at 4 LOL. in the morning went to handphone shop for my parents to change phone, and at first to change my plan too, but in the end we decided not to because the penalty cost was like 100? wth la!

then went to orchard and shopped around until... 7? i bought 3 pairs of earrings, one necklace (which i love very much), and one pair of black flats! then ate some fish and chip thing, got sick of it, and drank bubble tea! LOL.

one random note: jiarong and i were talking, and i was aware of this angmoh beside me, so i tried not to talk because i know ang mohs hate singaporeans' singlish.
so jiarong went like
jr: oi, you got money or not?
me: yes. (sounds weird) -slightly embarrassed-
jr: you got or not one?!
me: yes i have!!!!

LOL. a failure attempt in trying to convey to ang mohs that singaporeans' english aren't that bad
monday was major slacking day at home because my mom refused to let me out
tuesday was duo day with jesslyn and training
wednesday was CID
thursday. i shall see how LOL

and anyway, i agree with sharon now. LOLLLL. sharon you can ask me about what next time. ritsuka rocks :)

okay, i'm too tired, update about the rest in detail next time..