hmm hmm. i was in high spirits today somehow, and i couldn't stop talking and crapping and talking crap xD
aiyo, even munmun is getting her downs ): cheer up everyone! smiling is the best facelift!

and reading her blog reminded me of how weird i was in secondary one. ok, maybe i'm much weirder now, more spastic, more crappy and stuff xD but still, i realised everyone is growing up and facing a lot in life, and somehow i'm not LOL. i mean of course i did grow up, but somehow my mind is stationary at this point whereby the world is perfect. ok this is because i refuse to budge from this position because if my world turns into darkness, i think i won't survive being a cynical person! I hate thinking too much, trying to figure out what everyone around me is thinking about.

ok i do budge from that position at times because i'm emo. when i say emo, it's serious emo, not just being quiet, it means trouble for people around me. e.g. siyi gl jasmine LOL.

just imagine how many times i lost control of this stupid idiotic pessimistic thing called emotions in front of them, how many times i had to scold myself, and kill myself emotionally to try to make up for those mistakes. -_________-

over here, i want to apologize to people who witnessed the most down part of my secondary school life so far, and even got dragged into it somehow. i think i had been so unstable, i can't even believe myself, just bursting out, then regretting it and stuff. the best part is, i can't even remember how come my emotions went out of control. i usually can take things into my stride, but it's just so many times that i completely lost control and fumed. it's a wonder how my friends could stand me when i myself look back and want to kill myself

so yep, i'm sorry...........!

LOL! ok back to happy mood!
sunday went to jack's place to dine to celebrate my bro's results LOL. :S i was rather ok la, didn't emo since i was happy i could eat too! i had ribeye! don't worry, just be envious xD
monday was just a monday hahaha! after school stay back for training, but in the end liuqiao and i go pei eve xD (wait, it's eve cheng PEI ying! LOL lame sorry)
and before that it was just eve adam bl me in sjab room lor. then the sec 2 were training, the sec 3 dancing hahaha! (feel like dancing with y4rvsj:( )
i was patient for first case with AIDS. LOL! i was like emoing over dying and stuff, reminded me of lim once

we were talking about sth then i was like
me: aiya.. each person only live 80 years, one day oso will die one, early die or late die no difference one...
lim: uh! why you so emo arh!! (LOL it's the way she said it i think)

i burst out laughing ok! and xiao hua the patient (a.k.a. me) was super emo, and kept saying "why are you here for, just leave me to die la.. AIDS confirm die one..." HAHAHA! i was having quite a good time sia wheeee! then just after that stoned around siansian... then just watch the sec twos do dressing blahblah.. then liuqiao came and i started slacking liao xD

today:
as i said before, i was in high spirits HAHA! i think i know the reason now liao xD HAHAHA!
math was just math, leaking my brain fluids through my ears and trying to struggle between my extremely high mood, and my growling stomach (HEY i didn't have breakfast ok! and my dinner sucked)
then badminton! YES. i love bmt like crap ok! i mean i'm happy when playing it, especially when i was playing singles since i totally suck hopelessly at doubles because i really cannot coordinate with people, like different wavelengths can! plus i miss like 50% more in doubles than singles!! but today didn't play much la, at first still can play with gl one, then tkc made me go find plastic shuttle, then i just went around finding people, then in the end the plastic shuttle was in the hall -__- LAME! so my recess kena skipped oso xD
so CID i was rather dead, no i was VERY dead. LOL. i think bmt keeps my spirits up one hour then the next i just fall dead >.> had some presentations and stuff, then i spent the last 15 minutes sleeping peacefully finally! my stomach was growling and there was sth painful too
then bought roti prata to eat, and went back to class. then i realised it's my muscles bah, maybe stretch or sth! cuz it only hurts at some angle!
chemistry was doing chem ws! HAHA! i like doing chem ws in class now, a lot of time to chat, and still can learn a lot you know! i do one question must refer the notes like crazy, i'm like totally hopeless without notes! then siyi was just studying and studying so can do notes easily then i was like just not taking notice at first... then i decided to see where she reading, then i saw her drawing her trademark cow and chinese words, so i was like o.O LOL!
afer that was chinese! chinese quite fun, did some character test, and realised i'm same kind as quite a lot of people in the class! and LOL, i forgot what my character is supposed to be -_-

hmmhmm. then it was CCA. and cheer for me, i lost my belt AGAIN. somehow, i keep getting the feeling it's somewhere waiting for me to get it again, not like i lost it or sth! LOL. what the hell la! then in the end i took charlene's belt to use, since she had to leave early anyway hahaha! adjust a lot >.> LOL. i think bl's right, i'm losing my items like every term LOL. last year he found my skirt (i duno how to spell that cu-locks thing) 3 times? LOL. what the la! i have the tendency to leave things lying around, so if my belt is in sjab room, i shall be a happy kid and take it back(duh!)

then i took the secondary ones, and i had quite a good time. at first was rather strict, then slowly i got crappy again, and there's sth wrong with my ears again today, especially like i can't hear things 3 meters away or sth like that? what the! LOL. i embarrassed myself a million times today LOL! taught them PT, which is rather interesting, i don't remember learning it on paper at all i think! then allowed them to play wacko, then we had quite some laughs! then it was Q&A for UG camp, to prepare them mentally in case they plan to take it like sec one orientation camp liddat! first aid for a while, then last parade le bah!

after that just did a little bit of drill then go back sjab room le bah! LOL i wanted to learn new drills but someone dont want teach then anything lor -_-
then crapped a bit bah, it went like uh
someone started it i wonder who;
someone: phyllis is stupid, so if you wanna say something is stupid, just say it's phyllis!
so stupid adam wrote on the board

phyllis : (N) a stupid person
(ADJ) being stupid
so they can like go eve you are being phyllis! -__- HAHAHA! LAME LA!
major ZZZZZ! and i'm getting cheeked by ADAM GOH which is seriously insulting! HAHA! joking la! xD
so i retaliated by saying adam means scarecrow, and adj means very thin HAHAHA!
so we started making our names into words in our imaginary dictionaries...

jesslyn: (N) darkness
(ADJ) very black;very dark

xinmun: (N) pandemonium
(ADJ) to describe one being crazy and spastic

eve: (N) nothingless. LOL. (seeing how i can't see her when we both are standing)
(ADJ) very short

bl : (N) a sucky person (?)
(ADJ) being sucky (?)
this one is made by mada, i have no idea where's the link, but okay.....

yen: (N) clever person
(ADJ) being clever?!?!?! LOL!
yen i think maybe motherly fits in too LOL

WHEEE! i was like high? LOL! then i waited with all of them for jesslyn's father's car, then i took bus home! listened to flavor of life throughout the bus trip, and finally don't feel so high liao woah, horrible man. LOL!
then went home kena scolded! HAHA told you no matter what time i still kena scolded one what!

and i chionged finish chemistry ws!!! OMG. i'm damn happy! :)
tmr maybe running, or not bah! i very tired :(