"No lor, it will stop at me."

LOL. i still don't get why is this sentence so nice about, jiarong? haha! xD but still, nice sentence? first time i kena quoted by others heh!

ytd was serious mugging day. reached home at 7, bathe, lazed around and everything, and officially started work at 8. took my bio encyclopedia, and i realised it's dusty=i haven't been studying like a student should be. LOL! then i cleaned it, and started mugging biology! (:

oh yeah! ytd morning, there was a dragonfly flying around during morning assembly, then eve and i were laughing our asses off somehow, because like, you can know where the dragonfly is without finding the sihouette, but because everyone were squealing and dodging it, then you can see a "dent" in the crowd where the dragonfly is! LOL. for high people like eve and i ytd, it was damn funny! LOL!

whee. i think i have an excess of dopamine, because i seem to be high one moment and another! ok fine, i'm trying to flaunt my "bio knowledge" here! xD but i mugged bio quite hard, till 12.30a.m. then my dad came to ask me to sleep! LOL. surprise, my dad wants me to sleep early because i'm mugging too hard! LOL. i think he thought i have been studying since 7 or sth =_=

but still, after intensive studying, i only studied nervous system. cheers! LOL. eye is untouched, and i completely hate that table of things to memorise for the parts of the eye. it looks scary -.-

and i decided to slack today, and mug tmr instead. my brain is bursting since ytd night!

made my phone scream P!nk's Sober to remind me it's guanlin's birthday! LOL! then smsed her happy birthday real early hahaha!

today was a quite fun day xD gl's birthday! i went to the bakery and got a cake, then went to school. stupid la, the full-u was obstructing my hands everywhere, and plus my hand was aching by the time i reached school because i used one hand to hold both my full-u and boots! zzzz! but still, it was worth it, hehe! gave it to the auntie in stall 1 to put in fridge~

morning assembly was rather boring as usual, but love talking to eve in front, so fun! LOL. we always are the odd one out, like to cheer when no need cheer and everything! HAHA! then had some class leader thing, then was just stoning i guess. crap, it's tmr. omfg. LOL! *goes into crazy mode*

damnitdamnit. ytd de rehearsal, 2 times rehearse, i tripped over the leg of a stupid chair 2 times!!!! DAMN. i seriously, freaking don't wan it to happen tmr. i'm happy enough trying to keep my legs off each other before they start tripping into some weird unknown objects! urgh. ok. i think if i don't get so scared it will just turn out fine. XD

so maths, then it was PE! XD haha! i ponned PE successfully once again~ talked to nobelle in the midst, and then siyi was damn fast (LOL. ego bah!) - 14.20 minutes! :) good run siyi! damn pro ok! HAHA! jasmine oso not bad, and i'm really glad that both of you improved your timings! (:

then it was recess, and i spent the recess stuffing myself with cakes. LOL! it's gl's cake! XD kena my face with cream though :( LOL. was thinking of stuffing cream on gl's face, but i was still considering living(:

CID was just chatting and everything, since cbh (LOL) came at 1130 instead of 1030 because he was occupied with the Indonesia visitors. then i just knocked out for a while and stuff.. then i started talking again and everything. and i realised something i should have noticed long time ago :(

zzz. i was damn irritated by this person la. =.= damn, damn irritated. seriously, i shouldn't even have stood up la. where the hell did my brain cells go? i could have easily escaped it by chionging it at last minute. in the meantime, i was standing up like some kind of retarded idiot, and got lectured again. somehow this time, i'm definitely pissed.

last few times, i told myself "it's true, i have to work harder" but now, i'm just extremely irritated. check out my organizer, it's filled with "ws 2B tmr! hand up ____ tmr! do this by today!" and those crap. i've been trying to do my hwk like crazy? it seems out of my lazy character to even do half of what i'm doing. i usually don't even do one single hwk at home =.= and my bubble of being hiong is burst. law by law la. whatever. if you can't appreciate it so easily, it's stupid for me to continue being hiong right. i'll just rather be any normal student. and just when i feel more motivated and happy being one, you have to break my happy bubble. seriously, thanks.

okay. i think i sounded super bad, and rebellious, but i really feel our life is a lot more difficult because of this. both eve and i agreed on that. just siting on the swing is being labelled as "why u liddat, because you're a _______" "you have to influence your friends, not your friends influence you" it's plain irritating.

hmmmm. today was cca! LOL. i think i'm getting used to the sec 2s. LOL! they are a very, uh... interesting bunch? LOL! liuqiao and i had so much laughter today! LOL. had bandaging and relay! (: then foot drill saw improvement, so tried to let them learn slow march, which was quite difficult sia! i forgot how i learnt it... i think i just watch other people do, at home just do it when i'm sian, then foot drill comp i somehow got it. LOL!

first aid was... hilarious. no other words to describe it. i think every cca session liddat is gonna be damn fun! LOL.

trivia; timothy was making me laugh with his very weird tying method of elevation or arm sling. LOL. kelvin oso was being... entertaining, yenzhang oso? he was uh... very high. he was practically laughing hysterically, somehow. LOL. yihao was a normal human at the very least until i checked his elevation sling and asked him "what's this" and tugged at this weird piece of cloth, then he tucked it in with a very... weird look on his face. O_O tikou!

LOL. liuqiao and i noticed it, but act like nothing, then we both discussed it and we both cracked up! LOL. liuqiao completely stumbled onto the board! LOL!!!!

HAHAHA! okay, i was damn high. LOL. then foot drill and everything. and yes, i got

the commissioner badge~ LOL. charlene and me! XD haha but the thing is that i think it's super lame to take that badge, to be frank. i think it's so paiseh la... :( but still, i'm gonna pull my ass there that morning!

jiayou LALK! (: you can do it! i realised i haven't been to your trainings lately, missing alot out:( but still, saw your foot drill today, and was damn shuang! HAH! jiayou~

looking back, i suddenly wonder, how long can this peacefulness last? i said i was happy, but perhaps it was just a disruption to this happy life. i stared at the picture, and wonder if it would make any difference. perhaps i'm just being paranoid, as usual.

edit: i guess this is a sure-sign that I'm definitely over it.
and... my mom don't allow me to watch drama le :( zzzz! i can improve my chinese like that you know! :( gah. if i can't do it legally, i shall do it illegally!

"I don't wanna be the girl who has to feel the silence...
The quiet scares me 'cause it screams the truth
Please don't tell me that we had that conversation
When I won't remember, save your breath, 'cause what's the use?"
- P!nk, Sober

Wheee! i realised something again: justin timberlake has an awesome voice, and i think he is super super cool! XD perhaps he is the only man on earth who looks hot in a buzzcut

today went to the temple to pray, and prayed till 1, then went to my aunt's house for lunch. i realised my cousin is very lonely ever since he broke up with his gf, and he isn't as cheerful as ever.. usually he won't even bring a book to the temple, and will always chat around and tease people, but this time he brought a book and spent most of his time studying a book.. and he sits alone, away from his bro, but that because his bro is with his gf, but i guess he feels lonely somehow :S sat with my bro while my bro played PSP, i read 佐贺的超级ahma then he didn't really talk, just read his book, then walk away alone, then sit back to read again.. oh well, i'm sure he can recover from it soon(: and he is super shuai, so he definitely can find a human girl that won't break his heart once more, hopefully! (: went to aunt house, and my mom made me so paiseh la! got this chocolate fudge icecream cake, so my cousin (ong senior) gave me, then cause i ate before that and stuff, then my mom kept saying very loud i keep eating all those! WALAO! paiseh la! LOL! ;D

hmmm. comp is this sat, i really hope the teams are ready(: and hopefully my parents won't be guai lan and disallow me to go.. :(

tmr got rehearsal for class leaders. zzzz! i almost forgot about it until eevee reminded me because i tot it was training tmr HAHA! but it's gonna be so boring. and i reeeally hope my 平脚 won't result in some humiliation on wednesday :( i always have phobia of falling in front of an audience sia. i shall walk damn, damn, damn carefully! hate it la!!!! :( damn scared oso.. AIYA. nvr mind, got jiarong, qianhui, eve,munmun, bingle who are experiencing it too~ LOL. good luck everyone!

and yeap, i'm gonna be normal. be normal. be normal. which is being unusually high.. :S

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG
OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG.
I'M POSITIVELY GOING CRAZY NOW.
wuzun kissed ella! OMG. i duno why i'm so crazy over that, but still >.> LOL! OMG. OMG. i was like O.O LOL!
wheeeee!

"When I hear your voice
It's drowning in the whispers
It's just skin and bones
There's nothing left to take
And no matter what I do I can't make you feel better
If only I could find the answer
To help me understand"

- Simple Plan, Save you

I'm a sinner. and I really hope it won't turn out weird on monday.

friday was just friday, long lessons! language arts was ok, jiayi bombed me to read this passage, then i had a lot of reading mistakes and everything la! LOL. then i remembered in primary school, i actually can read a whole passage without stumbling much i think. i remembered i had to present in front of some jap people, then there was an translator over there! and i remembered vividly that i forgot my script, and was desperately trying to remember it. wonder if I can do that again...

had chinese gong han, and I flunked it, I think. i was chionging it at the last minute, and i didn't notice that there is a time limit on the board... then last minute almost forgot to write the person's name at the back! LOL. uh.. after that duno what liao la, just a very normal day..

cca was cca bah, took sec 1s, quite interesting o.O LOL. went thru hypervent bah... felt quite bad for not taking sec 2s, but i bet they don't miss me anyway, so who cares xD hope they learnt stuff too today hehe! LOL. i think they did case again or sth like that, so yeah that's great! (: i think i'm like half 1 and 2 uh trainer? or instructor (like what bl said =___=) LOL. but still, happy bah(:

yup. since you told me not to think about it, and be normal, i shall. but it will serve as a lesson in my heart forever.

today:

tuition was TIRING. damnit. LOL. only eve and i go, then i was walking around teaching everyone and stuff. mazlan kept interrupting my conversation with others la, irritating la he! LOL! but he's cute(: LOL. i got to know this girl, because she was doing poems, and it was really fun! the title is flowers, so i asked her what she like about flowers, then i guide her along and stuff! super fun~

at the end didn't really get to talk to ali and adha, cuz got an ACSI guy took them mah, too bad! LOL. but i think ali is really clever, his english quite good(:

after that went to eat at hawker centre and wait for ph and liuqiao, then went to je swimming complex, the very nice, very fun one! OMG. i was like so jealous! couldn't go swim, and didn't bring my swimming suit ): i went with them to change, then go sit there while they had fun for a while, then i left at 2. LOL. walked all the way back to the tuition centre and take 198 again, then before that bought seventeen, so was reading it on the bus till i fell asleep.

OHOH yes. I almost fell off my seat in the bus! you know the seats in 166/97/any double decker old bus, got one aisle, and the seats are aligned next to it right! i was sitting there and sleeping. then the bus swerved, and i flew forward la! omg, i was like damn shocked. then i hold on to the pole, if not i will fly to the opposite seat! and lucky no one was sitting at the back, only a few in front, who were doing their own things. LOL. my heart almost flew out!

HAHA. hana kimi jap version was cute, but somehow i find taiwan version cuter. wasn't used to ella at first, then slowly got ok, and wuzun is so cute! LOL! and tangyuzhe is super cool too! LOL. i am a little crazy over it now~ i understand why jesslyn like wuzun le, he's super cute LOL!

still not over hanayoridango, but i think sooner or later my obsession will subside, hopefully!

and yes, i bought siyi eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeek. LOL. (that was her reaction too ok!) in facebook

wish i can go swim with them la!! next time go with squad(:

ok, i go watch drama liao, cya! :D

"Baby you're all I want,
when you're lying here in my arms
Finding it hard to believe, we're in heaven."
- DJ Sammy, Heaven

2.4km was just scary, everyone run very fast! lucky i have my mc (holds it up like a shield)

lessons were killing me today, i just wanted to sleep, is that so difficult??!!?!?!?

today was just a slacking day after school! LOL. at first stay back for nothing cuz no training, then i stay back with jesslyn for fun, then charlene stayed for a while then left for home.. then bl come and stayed, and jess bl and i and zhixiang were crapping and talking a bit, then zhixiang left for physics test (?) then just keep talking blahblahblah! i copied a lot of stuff though from bl, bio(just 5 words) and 3 pages worth of maths! OMG. HAHA. i shall flaunt it tmr(:

and in the end went out of school with jess bl adam who came out from AEM, but i took my dad's car to see a doc. but my dad come at 645, then we left the school at 530? yeah! then i walk to bus stop with them, then wait for 97, then walk off and met fatty sharon, then go wait for her dad's car with her, then i walk to main gate to stone, and emo! LOL. i was like listening to my mp3, and stoning, occasionally playing my phone! then i left for the bus stop because my left leg started aching, then i just sat there and read QINGNIANWENZHAI. can you believe it?? LOL!

then my dad came and took me to see doc, and doc is as usual useless. cannot do a single shit about my leg anyway, so i just took the mc and left, and it was free MUAHAHA. if it's like this, i can have mc forever la, just renew yearly! LALA. the doc kept insisting that i see a specialist, and i remembered that my mom was the one who rejected the MRA for me.

then had dinner, but my stomach was aching because of my p_____ then i just had some weird chicken grilled, then just go NTUC buy eggs and stuff (due to my bro's requests) then go walk around aimlessly, and my bro kept sneezing and saying "fatso" under his breath while sneezing! lol! noob! LOL. then my dad still go check out some hawker centre while the rest of us slack in the car... then finally get home at 9 plus!! what the! then i bathe everything and come out discuss CID for about 10 minutes then everyone left le :( haha! PI finally can send liao, even though i was hoping i could edit everything...

omg. code geass is fabulous. the song tracks are just great! (:

and yes. i'm craving for something to do! no games, no nothing. :(

and yes, i'm not too over it.

): HAHA! cya~

"Do you catch a breath when I look at you,
or are you holding back, like the way I do? "

-David Archeluta, Crush<3

GAH. gl made me super crazy over CRUSH. i know it was a over song, but i found out about the lyrics, and immediately fell in love with it again!! i always thought it was "are you holding back like the way you do" and found it stupid, and was lazy to check it out! now i realised, OMG. i'm totally crazy over it! ok, it just keeps playing in my head, but maybe that's just because gl keeps singing it in class :D

yesterday basically was just a normal day? cca was just rather tired. i was super tired, i couldn't concentrate and stuff, and i got irritated by those who didn't put in effort, because it was so obvious! but didn't make them go crazy with running because i'm tired, they're tired, and it's not right. (you get what i mean) and talked to them, and in the end decided to just forget it, i didn't know what to do because my head wasn't functioning. then had a simple test and stuff... lol! was rather screwed up but still, i quite impressed with the sec 2s. yep...

ONE funny thing was that ph came, and she wanted to scold them because they were super slack, then she counted down "5...4...3...2..." these 4 syllables all went off tune somehow, and the funniest part of it was that at 3, she cupped her mouth, and was holding her own throat like she trying to strangle herself, which was damn, damn, damn funny!! another funny thing was that xm and yen were watching because suddenly ph shout mah, then all of us heard and started chortling! lq and i went crazy LOL!

today the new zealand girl sat beside me! (: i talked to her just a bit, but was quite awkward most of the time, since i have nothing in the world to talk to her about! and yulu introduced me as "meimei", bash you up la! and i realised, newzealanders have super beautiful eyes, blue eyes! and i think she's very clever! like dl was teaching math, sets, and she have never learnt it before, but she nods at his words, and copies down notes super dilligently! not only that, i was at first thinking she was just copying from the board, then i peeked and realised she made notes! OMG. i mean if i were her, and i knew nothing about that subject or topic, i most probably will just turn into stone there, instead of understanding without basic knowledge!

then it was recess and stuff, ate rice again lala! then it was just uh.. chemistry. LOL. eve didn't come to school so i qi li and xing li myself, and it went well because i was on the 100% alert ok! :D but then language arts i died, i fell asleep, and i refused to wake myself up LOL! but woke up at the last few moments to say qili and xingli xD

PDP was.... okay.. i think it was funnier than usual because nck is being retarded! LOL! he was talking halfway then he just suddenly made a very weird noise, just random la! LOL! we laughed a lot, and we kept teasing him xD (ok not kept, but a little)

after school went to pasir panjang to do CID, and watched this musical thing. super cool! the kids there are very energetic oso! :D after that took 963 back with jiarong and was super worn out, then when got off i fell asleep and woke up at the interchange! and i reached home at 8... lol! two times in a row liao!

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

"Accipere quam facere praestat injuriam."
To suffer an injustice is better than to do another an injustice.

whee! changed blogskin! (: LOL. direct reaction to lihui's tag HAHA!

and i'm telling you, i hate it when i get very tired. i lose things, i forget things, and the worst, i forget that i lose things LOL. like my STUPID. STUPID. belt. =.= i'm sick of it pestering me, and i have no idea what's gonna happen tmr. and yes, there's pe tmr, i forgot to get my long term mc from the doc. if this goes on, tkc is gonna force my ass into that sit and reach station!! ok mental note: see doc asap. and okay, i shall run 7 rounds for my stupid belt (:

first day of the term once more~ i can say it's a quite ok start, though i got scolded a lot of times today because siyi was going so high and crazy! :( i very kelian right xD HAHA! wonder if she will see this and kill me hahaha! but still, fun day la, i can ignore her and be entertained

chemistry was hell. going thru the practical work was terrible, i wasn't able to see the words on the board. but according to ng "as long as you understand the essence" but still, i need words to phrase them out right correct! and i always dread practicals still, as usual.. everytime i think of practical, i feel like stuffing myself into some anti-glassware mechanism or sth, because everytime i enter the lab, it means destruction for lim! i still quite pity her, though she's always entertained. LOL.

lang arts was quite okay. in fact i think i'm starting to like the way mr hor teaches; i mean, if he stands in front of the class, and expect everyone to give comments and everything, i can sort of bet no one would respond cuz it's just very weird to start jumping up and shouting answers out! so he goes from table to table, individual to individual, and it definitely helps to let me express myself! though i get distracted and stuff, when he comes back to us, i will just get back onto the tracks! (:

recess was just plain eating LOL. what else to do during recess? XD i'm not going to diet or what, it's horrendous, and i hate that growling feeling of my stomach, makes me very frustrated! especially this morning going to school, i kept groaning that i was hungry! and cherie was eating her homemade beehoon, yinshan her morning bread:( FRUSTRATING!

chinese was just ok.. i think lessons are rather interesting actually. the problem is i forgot what happened during chinese today, i only remember glh and her black shirt talking at the front of the class but no sound, cause i can't remember the content :S

geography was uh. speechless. i can't understand anything, because apparently, ckc isn't going on about anything meaningful =.= i don't understand how he can jump from some random news, to work, then stray off again! sometimes i fall asleep, and wake up to realise he is on the exact same thing because he went off track!

math was ok, i was trying to calm siyi down, then dl was like damn irritated with me because i was very noisy :D LOL. most of time i was staring at him, with siyi talking, and i listen to her, but just put my sight there LOL.

biology was light, because according to tsy, it's first day of the term! HAPPY~ just went through practical. again practical :(

okay. since jiarong gave me the challenge to spread LOVE around, i shall spread my love too~

NUMBER ONE; you've have beside me ever since the week of school even though we have separated in some ways. and i still can remember how we met; i fell on you! but still, it has been 4 years, and looking back, we haven't even fell out before. ok minor misunderstandings here and there (2 i counted) but it didn't affect anything at all(: and i never say it, but i enjoy those long chats too, and i really appreciate the way you share things with me first-hand, even though i'm sure i'm not as share-y as you. and yes, we have almost the same personality, and yes, we are perhaps the only two around who can coordinate at such level, having reactions, having inner thinking almost identical! it has been really interesting how we both can suddenly think about this thing, and when one of us mention it, we gasp and realise that is exactly what the other has been thinking about. i deeply appreciated everything we have walked past, and i really hope that this will last forever and ever. and you are my number one(;

NUMBER TWO; you've been beside me for 4 years, but we officially knew each other well for 3 years(: you're a keen listening ear, and talking to you always impacts me(: i think it had been such a long time since i opened my heart out and talked this much. the most amazing thing is that everytime i tell you something, you will always, somehow, make me feel better. telling you things is second nature to me because i know i trust you more than the majority of everyone(: and you will always be there in my heart, because you are such a huge impact on my life! and always, i love to hear your voice while trying to comfort me. i love you(:

NUMBER THREE; you have been there for me these two years(: if not for you, i definitely won't even know how to handle anything. our personalities are different, but always, our different personalities put our friendship even closer(; we have laughed together, and we've always looked out for each other. i perhaps have never shown appreciation to you, but everytime you scold me and everything, i do listen, and i do reflect. i'm sorry i always bring trouble to you'all, but you never harbor any hard feelings(: you can be said as my motherly figures in place of the real one, because i know i can count on you about every single detail. for that, i thank you, and i love you(:

NUMBER FOUR; you have been with me 4 years, but it has perhaps been 2 years since we got closer(: i love the way we always cheer each other up, and make each other's lives happier than it really should have been. because of you, i look forward cca even more, and i always crap and insult you, but you should know by now that i'm just killing myself doing that :O as always, everytime we laugh till our stomachs hurt, i always feel happy, high, and everything. a sad day can be made into a happy day because of your presence. i want to cheer you up in future too, and i love you(:

NUMBER FIVE; 4 years together, i can say i have never been a vital part of this. but i can always remember the fun times we had together. how we insult each other, and make each other laugh will always be etched in my mind, because i have never felt such bonds amongst such a big group of people(: you're the reason why i turn up for trainings, because i don't want to let you down, and i don't want to lose this feeling of bond. somehow, we always listen to each other, and you have been with me in the ups and downs of this puny life. and i will definitely, definitely have a reason to cry once we leave, because of you. i love you(:

NUMBER SIX; you've been part of this life since primary two. thinking through it, i haven't been exactly the best friend, the best person. knowing that both of us are imperfect is always a comfort, and everytime this msn window pops up, i feel like i can say everything out, and that makes me happy. i still remember calling you doctor, because you always give me a great talk, and at the end of it when i go to sleep, i feel as if my burden has been removed. i hope it has been the same for you, but i'm also really sorry i hardly notice your presence in msn, being preoccupied 99% of the time. thankyou for always taking time off to talk to me, even though i'm sure your life is experiencing downs and ups too. like how i depend on you, i want you to depend on me too, put some burden back onto me(: and i love you(:

to each and every person who i love, i want to apologize for being such a stupid and clueless person all the time. i know you're irritated with me at such times, but i want to let you know, i will try to improve. i will try to be more alert, because i don't want to cause inconvenience to you(:

(: yesterday was a rather fun day in the morning hehe!

saturday, 21/03/09
had tuitioning, and i got to know this pair of twins, ali and adha! XD
they both look exactly the same, and they wear the same shirt and shorts too!! moreover, they have like, the same shoes, same hairstyle, same skin tone, same face... everything same la! i was shocked when they come in, cuz i was very early thanks to mazlan!!

he sms me tell me come early, in the end he himself late 20 minutes! LOL! but i was stoning, cuz only got this uh, ACSI guy stoning, and a few boys i dunno, and they seemed to be entertaining themselves. then ali and adha came in and i was like O.O OMG! are you twins? i asked (quite obvious, but it's just a greeting!) then they nodded, so i decided to teach them since they looked lost, should be their first few times in that tuition bah? yeah lor. so i taught them english...

at 10.10a.m. mazlan called me and ask me where is the centre?! what the?! LOL. i was thinking omg, dementia at this age arh? then i went out to fetch him, but actually he was right outside the centre, just he pushed at the door that wrote "PULL" then he thought it's the wrong centre =.= LOL. he damn cute la!
so i taught mazlan and the twins = 3 people! then there was this boy who walk in, then he started grinning at me for no reason, so i was o.O back at him, then he started laughing in some hysterical voice that made me totally shocked! in the end he got taught by some guy LOL. i was like thinking uh, you siao? i almost wanted to say out, but it's rude xD

then teach teach teach. then i realised mazlan's hwk was actually just checking 20 words in the dictionary! LOL. piece of cake right! so i left him alone to do his own hwk for a while! after half an hour i went back, he was still on the first word!!! then i was like walao, let me check for you la! LOL. i checked the first word and went thru with him how to use a dictionary, which was weird, cuz i dun remember learning these stuff sia! then i left him alone again to do! then i taught the twins comprehension cloze, which was super fun, because you can put any word into the blank as long as it makes sense what!

then went back and realised he is stuck on his third word so i helped him again, and he was very amazed how fast i could find HEH. (felt super cool!) then he in the end made me find all the words, tell him which page, then he copy. LOL. and i owe him one bubble tea, with the twins, cause i promised them(:

today only eve and i went tuitioning :( HAHA! but still, i will continue! LOL. sharon and lq don't want go liao, i think its super early la, then quite tiring, especially when your kid is super distracted, and naughty (e.g. lq's one, who is super bad, or sharon's who is super aggressive) yeah lor...

after tuition, i went to eat with eve, at the hawker centre opposite the tuition centre! at first just wandered around, then we found out two things:
1. the swimming complex is so near!!! OMG. the slides, and the wave pool all those! a definite swim next sat sia! (:
2. Chinese garden mrt is very near also! no need to take bus and waste money to get to mrt station!

then eve ate the kuey, then i ate roti prata. was quite full but not shuang, so we walk around again to find food! then we ate rojak! and eve ate the half-boiled egg! :S HAHA. super nice la! XD
then took 99 and eve lent me her papers for me to photocopy, cuz all my hwk under my table! then i took 99 go interchange...

LOL. eve told me to find what opposite, got void deck then got one with printing service lalala! then i was like ok! then i lost my way at the interchange, and i walked around aimlessly for one hour without a clue where i was, cuz i was deep inside this HDB area LOL! then i walk out, then i suddenly noticed some small houses at the clementi central there! then i was like SHIT i was so dumb LOL.

so i walk quickly there, and i realised the shop eve mentioned only provide printing FOR PHOTOS. LOL. i was like standing outside for a while wondering where is the photocopying machine, then the shop was quite busy, then the guy was like oso wondering why i stone at the shop so long. then i asked "got photocopy service?" then the guy was like "uh no. only photos" LOL. i was so embarrassed la! then i walked around aimlessly for 2 minutes or so, then i noticed a photo booth again, then i was crossing my fingers got photocopy service, then in the end got! :D HAHA! in the end the shop i was supposed to be looking for was super near the bus stop actually, and i made one whole big round around the central xD then i wanted to walk back to interchange, and i realised i dunno how to walk there, then i was like trying to trace my footsteps again, then i walked into mrt, go down the other side, and i saw it!
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BUT IT WAS RAINING. and i had no umbrella, so i walk back to the bus stop to take a bus to the interchange! 45 cents wasted! =____=
then i took 99 again to go back subcentre, cuz eve they all have staff sergeant interview! then on the way i listened to 98.7FM LOL. then eve sms me say their interview finish, then they are going back to bb! then i was like asking her where she was now, cuz if they at subcentre i still can make it! then eve say they board the bus liao!

at that time, 99 was near the JE mrt, and i quickly got down the bus and walk very quickly to the mrt XD walao qianbian la! return a paper go so far! LOL. was quite sian diao and a little bit wet, so i stoned on the mrt until eve call me and say they at bb liao, HAHA and she say sorry cuz i travelled very far lol! but the feeling of a wanderer is so so so damn fun and interesting!

then got down to bb, met eve then we went mac to do hwk... was quite sian cuz i duno how to do the math qn, and i dun feel like doing yet mah, then i left early for home! my mom was quite shocked i reach home earlier than the promised time LOL. i think everytime i say 5 i will reach home at 7 LOL. then watch drama until quite late then my saturday was off~
overall, it was an interesting day, thanks to those set of papers!

Sunday - 22/03/09
hahaha! today was just an ok day
woke up at 11, then went to eat kway chap~ omg, i feel myself growing pui!
then went home and talked to jiarong on the phone for a LONG time. 1 hour! but it was a happy and satisfying conversation(: both sides got talk a lot about our daily lives and everything(: and wednesdays would be out for me, yay! going cip AGAIN. omg. i want that big hearts award! :D
did a bit of hwk, but cannot finish anything! geography i don't know how to do, math i dunno how to do, chinese under my table LOL. win right? i know!
cya tmr! (; school's reopening!
and yes, i have gotten over it, and i officially feel at my best!

OMFG. keith urban has a FREAKING sweet voice! believe it or not, his voice totally made me sit up you know! and i may use ^^ sometimes, not too many times though LOL. cuz it is the only emoticon that can describe my feelings right now!!! :S

KEITH URBAN- SWEET THING (explains his sweet voice ^^)

When i picked you up for our first date baby

Well, your pretty blue eyes, they were drivin' me crazy

And the tiny little thought that was so amazing

Is they were lookin at me.

I held open the car door for you then you climbed

Inside and slid on over

To the other side..

i thought my, oh my..

Sweet thing

The moon is high and the night is young

Come on and meet me

In the backyard under the cottonwood tree

It's a good thing and i'm wishin

C'mon sweet thing

Won't you climb on out of your window

While the world is sleepin

Cause you know i need you

And there's no way i'll be leavin

Til we're kissing on the porch swing

Oh my little sweet thing
Yeah i know i'm gonna see you first thing tomorrow

But i just couldn't wait so i had to borrow

Uncle jake's mustang, its his favorite car

And so i can't stay long..

Standin here feeling like a love struck romeo

All i wanna do is hold you close and steal a little

More time, is that such a crime?

Sweet thing

The moon is high and the night is young

Come on and meet me

In the backyard under the cottonwood tree

It's a good thing and i'm wishin

C'mon sweet thing

Won't you climb on out of your window

While the world is sleepin

Cause you know i need you

And there's no way i'll be leavin

Til we're kissing on the porch swing

Oh my little sweet thing
Sweet thing, sweet thing..
Oh my sweet thing

The moon is high and the night is young

Come on and meet meIn the backyard under the cottonwood tree

It's a good thing and tell me i'm not dreamin

C'mon sweet thing

Won't you climb on out of your window

While the world is sleepin

Cause you know i need you

And there's no way i'll be leavin

Til we're kissing on the porch swing

Oh my little sweet thing

Oh cmon sweet thing, sweet thing, sweet thing..

Yeah, cmon now a little now..

Do do do do doo do do do do do do

Oh my little sweet thing, yes you are

Do do do do doo do do do do do do

i'm sorry for the weird spacing, i dunno what happened! but those words i underlined are those words i totally love his voice in. somehow he sounded super cute xDDD

HAHA. anyway, today wanted to do hwk, then in the end i couldn't because all my hwk under my desk in school!! :O LOL.

and seriously, i think i'm losing all reason... :(

i wanted to change blogskin AGAIN. but thankfully, i couldn't find any that has abstract words, or a nice background to put hidden words, or decent sized words, or a background that fits in with my tagboard (since i can't change the tagboard's color), so hahaa! no change for this month then (:

suddenly i realised it's stupid of me to think so much, and it's always the best to think this much, it tires my ass out, and i definitely don't feel like doing that again! talking to others definitely helps a lot(; and i really hoped i didn't ps people today, i feel as if my day was wasted...

AH. I WISH SCHOOL CAN OPEN SOONER. I'M ROTTING. I'M ROTTING. I'M ROTTING INSIDE OUT!

AHHH! david archeluta is super cool! he has an awesome voice!

DAVID ARCHELUTA - A LITTLE NOT TOO OVER YOU
It never crossed my mind at all
It's what I tell myself
What we had has come and gone
You're better off with someone else.
It's for the best, I know it is.
But I see you
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside,
And I turn around.
You're with him now.
I just can't figure it out.

Tell me why you're so hard to forget
Don't remind me, I'm not over it
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you
Not over you....

Memories, supposed to fade
What's wrong with my heart?
Shake it off, let it go
Didn't think it'd be this hard
Should be strong, movin' on
But I see you.

Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside
And I turn around,
You're with him now
I just can't figure it out

Tell me why you're so hard to forget
Don't remind me, I'm not over it
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

Maybe I regret everything I said,
No way to take it all back, yeah...
Now I'm on my own..
How I let you go,
I'll never understand
I'll never understand, yeah,
oohh..

Tell me why you're so hard to forget
Don't remind me, I'm not over it
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you
Tell me why you're so hard to forget
Don't remind me, I'm not over it
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth
And I really don't know what to do
I'm just a little too not over you
Not over you, oohhh..


OMG. this song is seriously nice. (: i heard it once from 98.7 and found it somewhat like David Archeluta's voice, then i saw it at the top of the charts! :D
i realised the holidays are almost over, just imagine! only about...3 more days or so? crap, all my worksheets are still under my table! :(
wednesday. which is yesterday, i went to school for training, and i handed up ws 2D XD a load off my mind la! then training continued and stuff, i was having a weird head, like it weighs more than it should then i was casualty thrice for estherzeng's team, the second time they spent some time at the CPR dummy, so i fell asleep!! OMG. i'm so sorry LOL! was a little shocked when they patted me LOL! HAHA!
somehow lihui was laughing her head off when i was replying kialuck's question...
flashback:
kl: hey, are you lactose-intolerant?
me: ?! who's lactose-intolerant?
LOL. ok maybe i sounded like i'm refering lactose-intolerant as a name, but i wasn't!! i was meaning like "who is lactose-intolerant?!" LOL. yup LOL.
played some bmt, and i missed playing bmt with siyi gl and jasmine sia XD especially singles with siyi, can sweat out a lot sia!
then went to queensway for lunch, laksa, then went back for training...
then at the end everyone played bmt in the field, so i stoned in the canteen, and i fell asleep! XD i was sitting on the bench, leaning on the railings! (: whee!
went home on 57, and i fell asleep again! LOL. then took 275 and fell asleep AGAIN. LOL i almost missed my bus, i was almost falling over then i realised i was passing the loop near my house la!
then i went home, sat in the shower for half an hour! i set the heat to maximum so my body doesn't feel that the water is cold la! so i sat there so the water can warm me up a little, then i went to sleep in my blanket~
at about 8? i went for dinner, i forgot what i ate...
12a.m. my mom woke me up to go into bedroom, i sat up, and stood up, and i fell back onto the sofa, then my mom was like O.O LOL! then she touched my forehead, and say i got fever. i just "ok...." then my mom go get some panadol, and i went to sleep again in my bedroom!

this morning 6a.m. my mother wake me up and tell me dont go training liao, and i was only half awake, so i went back to sleep LOL. and the next time i woke up was about 10-11? then realised my fever better liao, then my bro went out and i slacked xDDDDD no la, i went to study biology can! dendrons, dendrites, Central nervous system, peripheral nervous system etc etc....

hmmmm! today talked a bit about UG camp, and i realised i was really damn bad, go scold my platoon so so so so so much! :P but in the end, i hope the secondary ones did do their best to shout or sth (which i doubt, with the exception of kevin perhaps)
oh ya kevin! he was a very good example of a sec one that improved! first day he was still blur blur, and he was the flagbearer! :O but soon after that he picked right up, and he was one of the most constant repliers of the sec ones in the platoon, perhaps more than some sec 2s, i duno! sometimes i say sth, i don't expect replies, but he always stuns me by replying! sometimes even his seniors too engrossed with other things, but he will lead the replying! OMG. keep it up kevin! (: i was very proud of him! and he was in my combined UG camp group! hahaha and everytime i talk to him he will talk to me really respectfully, until i myself feel uncomfortable! and the group mates still 'wah so hiong?" hahaha! but i was really proud of him, seriously! he can be said as one of the best improvers i have seen so far in my platoon!
the seniors wise, they lead well, shout loudly, and everything(: at some times, they will be very tired then will forget to shout, but it isn't their fault. the juniors should take initiative and not expect seniors to SPOONFEED them LOL. this is to make sure i didn't make the same mistake again and again lol! xD but still, good job everyone in my platoon, even though i kept scolding you people, but i hope you people can understand that i didn't love doing that, if you saw my face everytime i scold you! i only scold when it's unbearable e.g. people not shouting, people shutting up when i'm standing right beside them, etc etc! all of you hopefully improved on your self-discipline after UG camp, because frankly, i'm expecting you too! LOL xD especially secondary ones! jiayou, just shout your heart out, it can be fun at times!

camp i/c wise all damn good, i doubt i can do that last time! luckily i was never the camp i/c or sth la, if not i will drown myself in the pits of hell, and then kill myself again and stuff. i won't be able to lead so effectively la! (: good job!
throughout this camp i think everyone showed great leadership, and improvements in some! effort i see a lot, so i was very satisfied hehe! (: and sharon was right, being a senior and watching is different from those in the squads shouting~

oh wait. why am i talking about this now? LOL okay, i think i'm extremely high now because i finished watching hana yori dango the japanese version, and i'm totally going crazy agaiN! LOL! omg la. in the end it was tsukushi and tsukasa, not my favourite guy, but still somehow i love them nevertheless! AHHHH! XD HAHA!
today rushed to school, then rushed home again :S

somehow, is it just me being paranoid, or......?
it's not only happening there. it's happening even here. just not that obvious yet...

whee finished hana yori dango returns, watching the movie liao~

yay, back from UG camp! (:
had a half great time lor xD
day 1 was ok, though it must be hellish for the cadets, i hated running with bags! HAHA! but the night trail was screwed like hell! at night stayed up and i had an adrenaline rush XDDDD slept for 45 minutes, a serious knockout!
day 2 was rather bad, very tired, and it was a whole day leh! hike was ok, i kept pestering xueli about the platoon's attendance! slept for about 45 minutes too!
day 3 was bad, because some things i wanted to scold nvr scold very uncomfortable xD captains' ball a.k.a netball was quite funny but short :( went home and collapsed, ignoring my mom's pestering about packing my bags out MUAHAHA!

think that the seniors in this camp showed a lot of leadership, especially camp i/c and can see a lot of volunteers and stuff.. and i wanted to scold juniors cuz they rely on seniors in the end scold wrongly and kena laughed at by everyone, and i was super, super, super embarrassed la! angry facade drop off LOL and 'spoonfooding'. hate to scold like that cuz later will get very agitated then will say sth wrong, it's not the first time already la!!! =.= AHHHHHH! :S
i think i scolded like super much la, poor blues :( actually poor sec 1s, i kept arrowing them
thankyou for your comments(: (no sarcasm intended) at least we know why and how already, not kept in the dark... but some things must see from our POV, it's not what you think at times.
edit: we didn't intend to sound like that, but in the end it sounded wrong ):

this week all trainings :( sian! but tmr going out with dad and mom :S dunno whether can attend talk sia!

today got back GPA and stuff... i was actually quite shocked at it, so i was quite ok with it in the end lor
oh ya! lemme upload photos! ok before that i shall update;
today was rather tired, but still a little bit of happy bah! i told siyi why i so happy le HAHAHA! yeah i'm a flowery idiot -_- oh yeah i was doing maths and stuff then i just put my head on my arm, then i stared at the questions, then suddenly, my pen fell off my hands, and i fell asleep!! :O LOL. omg the first time sleeping in maths sia! (i slept quite obvious too) my eyelids were drooping like siao, then i slept dreamlessly for quite long leh OMG. until my phone vibrated and woke me up xD
then it was recess and i ate wanton mee again! but i'm getting sick of it liao hahaha! and milo is nice! (:
then it was chemistry practical and YES. i didn't break anything at all! yay! hahaha! in fact i was so careful can! the practical was easy, so i did it very fast so spent the rest of the time doing the practical book xD
then it was lang arts! i didn't sleep~ hahaha! i think? we were doing some olympic crossword puzzle, so it was quite fun throughout LOL! i was like looking at this W_T_R so for some reaosn the first word to appear in my head was "WINTER" so i was like omg this one is winter! then siyi was like, WATER la! the question was _____ polo mah! then siyi was damn loud saying "WHAT WINTER POLO LA" walao then got people laugh la! paiseh sia :X
then it was pdp, give back GPA lalala. so in the end i got 3.0, and i was quite ok la! then after that was career talk, i didn't really listen hard, was writing notes, but caught quite some important details!
oh yes. so after school had briefing then i went to vivo with lq to find eve and ph! then found them in giant hahaha! then went around buying things, then in the end we had 2 trolleys sia!!

yay we were on the escalator~

eman and amin! the cute brothers peering over a 'spot the difference' book!

my beloved MAZLAN~~ :)

me and him! i;m wearing some o piang shirt la!

HAHAH. we were resting while taking photos!

A photo i took with qiao quite some time ago, it's in my phone! i liek this photo, if not for the lighting!

yeap.. a lot of things!

hahahaha i look retarded but a nice photo!

hmm hmm. i was in high spirits today somehow, and i couldn't stop talking and crapping and talking crap xD
aiyo, even munmun is getting her downs ): cheer up everyone! smiling is the best facelift!

and reading her blog reminded me of how weird i was in secondary one. ok, maybe i'm much weirder now, more spastic, more crappy and stuff xD but still, i realised everyone is growing up and facing a lot in life, and somehow i'm not LOL. i mean of course i did grow up, but somehow my mind is stationary at this point whereby the world is perfect. ok this is because i refuse to budge from this position because if my world turns into darkness, i think i won't survive being a cynical person! I hate thinking too much, trying to figure out what everyone around me is thinking about.

ok i do budge from that position at times because i'm emo. when i say emo, it's serious emo, not just being quiet, it means trouble for people around me. e.g. siyi gl jasmine LOL.

just imagine how many times i lost control of this stupid idiotic pessimistic thing called emotions in front of them, how many times i had to scold myself, and kill myself emotionally to try to make up for those mistakes. -_________-

over here, i want to apologize to people who witnessed the most down part of my secondary school life so far, and even got dragged into it somehow. i think i had been so unstable, i can't even believe myself, just bursting out, then regretting it and stuff. the best part is, i can't even remember how come my emotions went out of control. i usually can take things into my stride, but it's just so many times that i completely lost control and fumed. it's a wonder how my friends could stand me when i myself look back and want to kill myself

so yep, i'm sorry...........!

LOL! ok back to happy mood!
sunday went to jack's place to dine to celebrate my bro's results LOL. :S i was rather ok la, didn't emo since i was happy i could eat too! i had ribeye! don't worry, just be envious xD
monday was just a monday hahaha! after school stay back for training, but in the end liuqiao and i go pei eve xD (wait, it's eve cheng PEI ying! LOL lame sorry)
and before that it was just eve adam bl me in sjab room lor. then the sec 2 were training, the sec 3 dancing hahaha! (feel like dancing with y4rvsj:( )
i was patient for first case with AIDS. LOL! i was like emoing over dying and stuff, reminded me of lim once

we were talking about sth then i was like
me: aiya.. each person only live 80 years, one day oso will die one, early die or late die no difference one...
lim: uh! why you so emo arh!! (LOL it's the way she said it i think)

i burst out laughing ok! and xiao hua the patient (a.k.a. me) was super emo, and kept saying "why are you here for, just leave me to die la.. AIDS confirm die one..." HAHAHA! i was having quite a good time sia wheeee! then just after that stoned around siansian... then just watch the sec twos do dressing blahblah.. then liuqiao came and i started slacking liao xD

today:
as i said before, i was in high spirits HAHA! i think i know the reason now liao xD HAHAHA!
math was just math, leaking my brain fluids through my ears and trying to struggle between my extremely high mood, and my growling stomach (HEY i didn't have breakfast ok! and my dinner sucked)
then badminton! YES. i love bmt like crap ok! i mean i'm happy when playing it, especially when i was playing singles since i totally suck hopelessly at doubles because i really cannot coordinate with people, like different wavelengths can! plus i miss like 50% more in doubles than singles!! but today didn't play much la, at first still can play with gl one, then tkc made me go find plastic shuttle, then i just went around finding people, then in the end the plastic shuttle was in the hall -__- LAME! so my recess kena skipped oso xD
so CID i was rather dead, no i was VERY dead. LOL. i think bmt keeps my spirits up one hour then the next i just fall dead >.> had some presentations and stuff, then i spent the last 15 minutes sleeping peacefully finally! my stomach was growling and there was sth painful too
then bought roti prata to eat, and went back to class. then i realised it's my muscles bah, maybe stretch or sth! cuz it only hurts at some angle!
chemistry was doing chem ws! HAHA! i like doing chem ws in class now, a lot of time to chat, and still can learn a lot you know! i do one question must refer the notes like crazy, i'm like totally hopeless without notes! then siyi was just studying and studying so can do notes easily then i was like just not taking notice at first... then i decided to see where she reading, then i saw her drawing her trademark cow and chinese words, so i was like o.O LOL!
afer that was chinese! chinese quite fun, did some character test, and realised i'm same kind as quite a lot of people in the class! and LOL, i forgot what my character is supposed to be -_-

hmmhmm. then it was CCA. and cheer for me, i lost my belt AGAIN. somehow, i keep getting the feeling it's somewhere waiting for me to get it again, not like i lost it or sth! LOL. what the hell la! then in the end i took charlene's belt to use, since she had to leave early anyway hahaha! adjust a lot >.> LOL. i think bl's right, i'm losing my items like every term LOL. last year he found my skirt (i duno how to spell that cu-locks thing) 3 times? LOL. what the la! i have the tendency to leave things lying around, so if my belt is in sjab room, i shall be a happy kid and take it back(duh!)

then i took the secondary ones, and i had quite a good time. at first was rather strict, then slowly i got crappy again, and there's sth wrong with my ears again today, especially like i can't hear things 3 meters away or sth like that? what the! LOL. i embarrassed myself a million times today LOL! taught them PT, which is rather interesting, i don't remember learning it on paper at all i think! then allowed them to play wacko, then we had quite some laughs! then it was Q&A for UG camp, to prepare them mentally in case they plan to take it like sec one orientation camp liddat! first aid for a while, then last parade le bah!

after that just did a little bit of drill then go back sjab room le bah! LOL i wanted to learn new drills but someone dont want teach then anything lor -_-
then crapped a bit bah, it went like uh
someone started it i wonder who;
someone: phyllis is stupid, so if you wanna say something is stupid, just say it's phyllis!
so stupid adam wrote on the board

phyllis : (N) a stupid person
(ADJ) being stupid
so they can like go eve you are being phyllis! -__- HAHAHA! LAME LA!
major ZZZZZ! and i'm getting cheeked by ADAM GOH which is seriously insulting! HAHA! joking la! xD
so i retaliated by saying adam means scarecrow, and adj means very thin HAHAHA!
so we started making our names into words in our imaginary dictionaries...

jesslyn: (N) darkness
(ADJ) very black;very dark

xinmun: (N) pandemonium
(ADJ) to describe one being crazy and spastic

eve: (N) nothingless. LOL. (seeing how i can't see her when we both are standing)
(ADJ) very short

bl : (N) a sucky person (?)
(ADJ) being sucky (?)
this one is made by mada, i have no idea where's the link, but okay.....

yen: (N) clever person
(ADJ) being clever?!?!?! LOL!
yen i think maybe motherly fits in too LOL

WHEEE! i was like high? LOL! then i waited with all of them for jesslyn's father's car, then i took bus home! listened to flavor of life throughout the bus trip, and finally don't feel so high liao woah, horrible man. LOL!
then went home kena scolded! HAHA told you no matter what time i still kena scolded one what!

and i chionged finish chemistry ws!!! OMG. i'm damn happy! :)
tmr maybe running, or not bah! i very tired :(

GAHHHHH! hana yori dango returns!! :OOO

HANAZAWA RUI is freaking cool and shuai and cute and sweet and nice and &*()*)(*(&(^*&
hahahahah! (add your positive, emotive comments) xDDD
OMG. >.> LOL. i just can't imagine hana yori dango in real life, i will like seriously sit at one side and be a nice standby asshole who put rui and makino tgt!!! ok i like Domouji too :S

"When you say thank you to me,

for some reason it hurts,

Like a magic spell that doesn't

get undone even after the good bye.

the faintly burning pain.

The flavor of life

Neither friends nor lovers, in uncertain terms

like an un-riped fruit dreaming about the day of harvest

because of being unable to just move one more step forward

It's just so frustrating

When you say thank you to me,for some reason it hurts,

Like a magic spell that doesn't

get undone even after the good bye.

the faintly burning pain.

The flavor of life

Sweet talk and tasteless conversations.

i have no interest in them

even when things do not go the way I want them

you make me believe that there is still something in life

When asked "whats wrong"

I answer "its nothing"

The smile that disappears after goodbye

I'm not like myself anymore

The more i wish to believe in you,

For some reason it hurts even more

"i like you" instead of "i love you" is more like the person I knew

the flavor of life

I wish I could cherish the white color of the falling snow like I used to

by the time I would remember the scent of the person

I've nearly forgotten

A future tender and warmer than a diamond

i want to grasp it, in this limited time we have,

i want to live it with you

when you say thank you to me,

for some reason it hurts,

Like a magic spell that doesn't

get undone even after the good bye.

the faintly burning pain.

The flavor of life "

WHEE. it's such a nice song though it has been so long xDDDDD

hmmmm! saturday was a total screwed day in the morning! went to school earlier under the pretence of seeing a teacher, when i just wanted to mug last minute for KOTO
oh anyway KOTO is some test about jerusalem and sjab's history which goes back all the way to AD 600! and i totally cannot remember dates, and here they give me extremely linkless dates :(
and koto itself was rather ok, a lot of repeats, and ALOT of typo! and thanks sharon for attempting to recap with me some info, even though you knew i was looking at the answers!
so tried to study in the canteen but the band playing really nice music then i kept stopping to listen sia! hahaha! distracted a little lor. but in the end got on the bus and gave up studying la! xD
but the test itself was alright la, but i dunno if i passed or not -.-
then after that went to eat and stuff with the juniors LOL. we went all about and cannot find the burger king LOL! and found out more about something while finding that burger king which is sth i have expected quite long time ago
so we settled on this shop to eat. so charlene annies me ate with william chiunyuan and junbo LOL! it was damn funny because the guys were damn, damn crappy and lame la! hahaha but it was entertaining nevertheless! then jesslyn yen xinmun bl adam came and then we went for training(:
at first was rather emo and sad, then it got better and i even got a little high xD
then there was this ppt thing with GORY pictures. gosh, i was like covering my eyes like crazy? it reminded me of final destrination 3, it completely killed me xD
then went for dinner and shopped for some stuff lalala. went home, and slept really early, but woke up again to eat, then sms jiele and dingrong happy birthday, then i went back to sleep xDDD

congrats bro, you got all As. and now it's my turn, isn't it? damn you. =.=
i'm just not as clever as him, is that just so hard to accept? it's not as if i have the same IQ as him. it's just because i was born from the same womb that i must undergo such comparison. i really look forward to tuesday, when i get the report card.

blah,blah~
lol, i screwed geography and chinese up haha~ and i haven't study for KOTO yet, and the test is tmr?
ytd went to queue and again, got cut off LOL. qianbian like siao can! LOL. then ran 4 rounds, and thankfully i didn't stop omg! i mean it's a first step mah, then i can slowly increase the speed somehow, then i'll not be last! and i realised a lot of things is linked with endurance. like i was feeling rather bad for those 4 rounds, but i just pushed on and told myself if i stopped i won't start! whee!
okay then on thursday went out with jiarong jasmine qianhui zijun!!! OMFG. it has been forever since we went out, because i kept saying i can't can't go, and jasmine oso busy, then it's like it has never been a full clique outing! xD i wished we could stay longer though, can get high mah... :(
then i went home, gonna take bus then i realised i lost my wallet, so i CHIOOOONG all the way to ben&jerry to get my wallet again =.= LOL! the nanhua people were quite nice leh xD they nvr take my wallet~
so i found it and went home!
today was a tired day. i was a zombie going to school, and i fell asleep (knocked out) on the bus LOL! my biological alarm clock woke me up in time sia! then blah....
lessons damn tiring today leh! lang arts was ok, i didn't sleep, and i did dialects, which was canto la, then i was quite proud of myself! then recess (eat roti prata AGAIN) then it was chinese... i got c LOL. i seriously think my mom will screw me la LOL...
then it was geography. shit i knocked out for the whole lesson sia! crap, i was trying to keep my eyes open, but i failed and i fell asleep!! :O LOL. then it was math which was ok because got hands on at the very least.. then it was biology practical LOL. siyi lim and i did only a bit, and no time liao! LOL.
then cca - sec one orientation
was quite messy, but it turned out ok i think, not too sure. had a lot of time to stone and play other games xD
then after that went for dinner with my parents and here i am at home! xD

sometimes i really hope everyone had the same sentiments as me. and sometimes i'm really scared it won't work out. we both have different schedules, so in the end it's all a misunderstanding, but who will listen first?

zzzzzzzzzzz. saw someone's blog, and am rather irritable now. =.= hahaha, as usual >.>

ytd glh made us do this funny funny thing about friends. so there are basically 4 kinds of friends:
1. only tells happy things to people, keeps the sadness to oneself
2. only tell sad things, drown in sorrow, and will thus recover fast (?)
3. tells everything, and expects people to tell them everything too
4. original, and will not be swayed by people, can comfort and cheer people up easily (:

ok to be frank i think it's rather crappy xD hahaha! seriously, i mean not everyone falls within these boundaries, and there are some things people rather keep to themselves, while others people can tell what, it's not like everything can be classified under "things" because sometimes there are other reasons! and i think i'm more of the 3rd type, but i really, really don't expect people to tell me things. i mean, i will ask, but won't keep bugging la, just respect privacy de lah! so there ;D

i realised chinese lessons are getting a little more fun, with the fill in the correct word game, and the thrashing of girls over boys (ratio 26: 5) and how we scream to get the correct answer, and occasionally retarded answers popping out from nowhere!
e.g.
glh said the word starts with a xian
so i said "八仙过海" -_-
and,
glh once gave a ting xie, and she said shan dong (fanning?)
i wrote "山洞" and when she asked us to make a sentence with it i wrote "山洞里有一只老虎"
LOL even though i knew it was wrong from the beginning, i retardedly continued with it!

LOL! i still find the shan dong one stupid and lame! xD
anyway, my running spree is getting strong! ytd i ran 4 rounds with siyi and jasmine (running about one on my own) and had bmt in the afternoon which i sweat like siao because i was playing with siyi who has a super fast reaction!
today ran in the morning for squad morning run, in the end only pnghang eve bl adam turned up and me la! the rest say want come never come... so i just ran with eve lor, and eve's speed is NOT my speed, definitely. i always end up last in my class, and eve is in the fit group? yup. maybe eve was slowing down throughout xD but yeah, i wasn't really dead beat at the end, very lazy, and sth funny is wrong with my right ankle (i think i sprained it minorly since one pt session) and bleh tmr's 2.4 plus 2.4 (morning run and pe) i will just die in pe, it's first period fyi LOL!

hmmmm first thing in the morning a lot of us went to QUEUE for this funny eportfolio thing for our parents. and the thing is that the queue is so long, it was from lt2 to the laboratory, and the queue still made a u-turn! LOL. we were walking there, then i was wondering huh why so many people? then i saw nobelle they all walking to the labs, so i was like "OI! wrong side!" then nobelle was like -.- "uh, that's the queue" LOL.
oh yeah math was just math. everything was just numbers and everything, and i kept getting stupid integration wrong. luckily i have a math pro sitting beside me to help me out
recess i ate roti prata again with sugar. SHIT. i really love roti prata + sugar!! but.... :(
then it was chem practical! LOL... lim damn ke lian can. i broke a beaker today, and eve was like asking me 'hey how many things have you broken?" LOL. i think this year i broke 2 test tubes with a beaker (: LOL. mr ng was like -.- and rather pek chek :O
LOL. i kept dropping things today and i was like warning lim to keep glassware away from me because those things will be the next on the ground! haha!
then it was lang arts, quite fun, the video again, and i think mr hor's lessons are quite interesting too! (what's left is geography if you realised :S)
then it was assembly LOL. it was total sjab question session? LOL. the lecturer called jesslyn to answer question, then jesslyn called adam since the answerer can sabo others (from other class) LOL then adam sabo bl, and bl sabo me LOL. i wasn't even listening to the lecturer can, and the answer was rather stupid LOL because the question was so obvious. so i sabo liuqiao:D at first i was thinking sharon or charlene but their classes already called so too bad :D
then went back class and we didn't do emotional rollercoaster. instead we did feedback session to mr ng. i didn't really write bad stuff, i hope i sounded friendly and nice, because i don't want to hurt his feelings like siao. plus i think it's sad we kept comparing him to chua tung kian LOL. so i just suggested for him to adopt his own character into teaching, like his style, and put his character through teaching oso. i think it's easier for us to accept him like that (:
then it was training, and i realised i was so exhausted. i was practically falling asleep everywhere, and i almost knock out in the classroom when everyone leaving! if they nvr call me i might be still sleeping in that classroom? LOL (exaggeration)
then it was a lot about AED, and i think it's pretty cool! hahaha! oh yeah because i was slacking and bored, i took a pole and did martial arts with liuqiao LOL! (i wonder why we started from round 3 instead of 1) HAHAHA! we laughed like siao. and i tried to look like a blind person and lq and charlene laughed like siao, because i was cork eyed LOL!
sth's wrong with my msn, so i had to use windows messenger ;'( LOL! hmm, tmr going out with clique!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D omg. i'm so looking forward to it (:
and vietnam, i'm afraid i can't see you! :(

it's so damn interesting to read blogs with such fantastic way of blogging

an excerpt from http://chasingcenturies.blogspot.com
"I have never hated a book more than I hate Frankenstein. It's the book that WILL NOT DIE. I mean I hated Stand Alone but at least that was easy to skim through, and it didn't have letters and different modes of communication and three narrative modes that all sound like they come from the SAME DAMN CHARACTER, nor did it have 5 paragraphs of scenic description of ~sublime~ waterfalls and rivers, followed by 4 paragraphs of Victor Frankenstein orgasming over his own frenzied emotional conflict, followed by 1 paragraph of ACTUAL PLOT-MOVING INFORMATION, and it definitely didn't have laughably clumsy introduction of background information; like what the hell, Elizabeth? "Oh Victor, you probably forgot how Justine joined our household even though you were LIVING WITH US AT THE TIME, so let me go into detail as to exactly how we adopted her into our family, in a way that is totally not a blatantly obvious and lazy method of revealing key information to the reader. So YAH. THIS IS WHAT HAPPENED: _______. Remember??"

And also, when a huge 8-foot-tall murderous monster is running towards you at superhuman speed, WHO STANDS THERE AND EXCLAIMS 'Devil, do you dare approach me? and do not you fear the fierce vengeance of my arm wreaked on your miserable head? Begone, vile insect!"What? WHAT?! Shut up, Walton Victor The Creature Mary Shelley. I don't even know who's narrating what any more."

I laughed like crazy reading this thing because it's so funny. i mean, reading frankenstein definitely didn't give me such inspirations to crack a joke out of it! it's rather tragic to me (even though i always wondered how a monster writes in perfect english) i wish i could get timothy's way of writing, or this chasingcenturies' writing, or nobelle's friend literacy. it makes blogging so much more fun! i remember nobelle's friend blogging about twit, and it was so funny, i laughed out loud when i read it with nobelle can!

anyway i'm rather crazy over latin phrases now (:
A posse ad esse , from possibility to actuality! my new favourite phrase, and anyway
i realised that alter ego is a latin phrase and now, it's sort of english? cool!
tmr morning running, wednesday try to run, thursday run again. wow, nice slimming method!

hmm, i never thought my life as a drama, but it certainly is starting to resemble one. you know those kind of drama, the stupid people never get a rest from the problems in their respective lives? LOL. i'm experiencing that right now ! @ # $ % ^ &* ( ) _
aiya, no matter what i just live my life to the fullest (like what char said) and not emo over this kind of unchangable seem-imaginary-but-may-not-be-so-imaginary stuff (though i can't say the same if i get it as a fact)
no more yawns, no more sweets, no more freaking glucose for god's sake! and i ate roti prata with sugar today, i'm practically stabbing myself right now right? and this kind of life is rather sad, no sweets :(
grandma had a hard time while she passed on, so i dun want that for myself either ):
today was a relatively ok day, i mean everything's fine, just myself thinking and worrying constantly... chemistry was just doing chemistry ws, so i can slack because i have already done it! omg la! i felt so shuang ok! lang arts was watching videos, and i was relating it to amin and mazlan (let's leave out syafiq cause he broke my pen -_-)and talking and talking to jasmine while guanlin slept and siyi was doing maths i think.. then it was recess with the killer of a food roti prata with sugar 0.O
then it was chinese, just did some funny thing about love. 真爱是______? then mine was so long, i so paiseh can! because frankly i oso duno, i just crapped those book contents -_- and we got the 红楼梦 book! i can't really wait to read it; it's super cool according to siyi, and love novels are super cool in chinese because sometimes chinese can express feelings better than english xD
then it was geography. i got a C5/6 in geography overall, and i'm really upset over it. i mean it wasn't really bad... but it's my parents' expectations of me which kills me like hell, they said no more Cs in my report card. and for once i tot i can get away with a moderate B for lang arts finally when i'm not failing it, geography comes along to screw my report card up -_- i can't wait for the report card LOL!
then biology copy notes like siao, and end of school! then did hwk with eve and charlene in the canteen while the guys went to see the flag painting, then liuqiao and jesslyn and pnghang came along (: LOL.
i was broadcasting about my deadness and charlene&liuqiao can still laugh! o.O i think only eve, jesslyn and bl took it seriously LOL! liuqiao and charlene took it seriously when i finally look dead xD
vietnam i hope we can all stay in singapore instead, have fun with our own schedule la! (: but just a thinking, maybe i can be a otaku too over the holidays!
then went home, and talked about some stuff to seniors. either way, i'm still not very glad la, but can sort and thrash out is good!
went home and lied to my mom i reached home at 5, when i reached home at 6, and my bro didn't hear because he was playing computer! hahaha i can't wait for thursday either zj, i'm serious! had a great time talking to you at the tracks(: