having an online chat with primary school friends was nice, but weird in some way. i didn't really expect myself to be invited for anything after the fiasco in primary school, but still... i miss them somehow, i wonder if they are still the way i saw them.. somehow i feel scared, that things might go wrong.. but still i shall be optimistic(:

today was a sian day! LOL. lessons boring as usual... then cca. LOL. i finished a 4 page essay in chinese and i CONCENTRATED throughout can? what the hell right! LOL. i cant remember i finished a zuo wen on time in class and that i was so engrossed in it, i didn't even notice the time ;D of course i needed the assistance of my dear phone to help me out when i can't remember those chinese characters! (: i somehow starting to like chinese!

math is losing me. no, i'm losing maths. ok whatever, either way, but still, rate of change is scary, and i wasn't listening in class, too engrossed in trying to stay awake, so in the end i doubt i can pass that stupid The Eat Snake Time. fyi, it's test. LOL. desmon lim made us all feel like throwing sth at him with this extremely leng joke? ok, it can't even be considered a joke? he even said it was a amazing race, and everyone were so excited, and in the end, we realised that it was just because 'we have no TIME' =.=

i feel rather bad for not touching hwk that is due tmr i.e. acelearning. but i hate maths, what can i do about it!

crossing fingers that there is geography tmr, so i can finally sleep in peace without getting scolded. i dun care about geography, just study and get over with it, because either way i don't get anything at all, listening or not. i'm sorry mr chan, i can't concentrate at geography.

chemistry is extremely slow-paced. just one lesson, we only went through one page of work. i'm really wondering how we can keep up to the tests =.= i miss tungkian somehow. he was a fast teacher, but he goes at this pace that is comfortably understanding. and i understand every single word he said, and he catches attention as easily as ABC. i half-wish he is our form, it would definitely bond the class much better.

CNY dinner on saturday was extremely filling. i feel myself opening up to my aunts and uncles, somehow, instead of my cousins? LOL. i can't relate to my cousins, i just smile shyly at them =.= and dear felicia cried because she thought that the toilet is locked, when i was looking all over for the stupid key. in the end, the stupid NTUC woman is inside, and i actually knocked on the door before? :( i feel sad when she cries, because i feel it's my fault ._.

everyone is mugging so hard in the beginning of the year, it's making me so scared and paranoid. i hardly see anyone sleep in class, and that scares me because usually almost everyone would sleep. i know i should study, and i'm not warmed up yet. i wan to sleep for now, and let dreams take to lala land first, isn't that just a perfect life?

3 more hours to my birthday. i'm excited like siao i'm normal to it (and i'm concealing it well) and i really sort of wonder how it would be like tmr. i expect gifts here and there, not too many, but i know that there are people around me that remembers my birthday and take notice of me (: it's the thought that counts, as quoted from nobelle

tmr walking with sharon at the track. feels like a trap somehow:P maybe i'm wrong?