OMG. my 300th post! LOL.
today went for tuitioning and was rather sad, but mazlan came! :) so i tutored them and syafiq. amin never come cuz got some remedial, how sad! today was quite ok. then i told mazlan i won't come anymore, and he was sort of confused. then he was like "i sms you ok!"

then went out with sharon eve pnghang (: went imm, and macdonalds. then we talk A LOT. wow. LOL. and eve and i totally laugh our asses off at this man. he was like walking, then he tripped over the leg of an empty baby chair. then he was like "sorry...." and he walk away. then eve and i look at each other. and i was still talking about sth, and i saw him, and i trailed off le. then i just then i just started laughing like crazy then eve oso! LOL. we were laughing because that guy looks retarded, and he said sorry to no one. LOL. i haven't laughed so hard since 2 weeks ago? then we talked about stuff and laughed too!
then went home and sleep like siao. very tired sia!!
tmr going desmon lim house, and i damn sian!!

i expected as much ever since the first day.

i fell in love with the song 我爱的人by Yoga! listened to it on siyi's phone today, and found it extremely nice!
i like how geography test went today. two words: a breeze! HAHA. it was an open book test in the first place, extreme pushover can and the interesting part is that i talk with siyi throughout the test and stuff can! :P
somehow i feel a bit happy with yesterday's pe session. I RAN. what the hell? even though i was bloody hell slow, but please, i was stagnant for one whole year because of my dear, dear leg and MC, but i still can run, like seriously, i was proud of myself (to an extent)
ytd after school seriously wanted to just leave, and go home to sleep. but still, training. realised that the week before i was going for training every single day, even if it's not my training. it's stupid, and little idiotic, because i don't understand why i was so enthusiastic la! i die every night at home because i'm so tired, and i can't study, i can't even do homework. i just go home, bathe, eat, use computer, lie on the sofa, stone, and fall asleep. ok partly my use of com is the cause for the absence of work, but still, i don't like feeling tired at 6am, AND 6pm.
today cca was tiring AGAIN. urgh, i feel like dying when i run. -___- how long has it been since i seriously ran 6 rounds? i don't think i can remember. after all the running and stuff the others play games while i stoned, and thought about a million things while staring at the rain painful leg too
siyi say i seem very down and quiet nowadays. and shit, i think so too. i just don't talk as much, i don't high anymore, and i always let siyi do the talking while i listen. it's funny because siyi usually doesn't talk a lot and i used to shout and talk all the time. i feel everyday is a burden, and is building up. i know, emo kid. somehow, i feel normal, and immune to suans already? today jas and guanlin were like highing before chinese lesson, while siyi and i listen to her phone. then they just suddenly took out my pads, and threw them on my table, and go crazy or sth. funny, i didn't react normally, i just "hurhurhur.."
somehow, i'm not so like myself anymore. and thankyou timothy

"Lost and insecure, you found me."

- The Fray, You Found Me

whoops, long time no post! (frankly, i forgot most of the stuff i wanted to post about)

RIGHT! let's start from last friday

23/01/09:

A great day(: celebration was boring, maybe because we were having public duty, and i was rather low + sitting around strangers so i wasn't that high! but anyway, the lion threw sweets at me! :D i was singing along and stuff bah, is that considered high? then i found out farrah fell down!! omg la! today we saw her and her injuries are really ouch. LOL.

then after celebrations, wanted to go for buffet, but in the end everyone don't want go le, so i was like rather sian diao because i told jr qh zj to meet at 2.30, in the end there was nothing =.= so was contemplating stoning in classroom and cleanup, do up management diary, and finish chemistry ws. then cherie jia le and pinning came in looking for jie le, and i decided to go with them for primary school gathering! wheeee!

then went to vivo and we were the first to reach. then i was like just looking around, and michelle came! hahaha she looks the same as ever, and her hair is super nice, unpermed but looks permed! (duno how to spell) heh! so we talk and talk and talk.. then suddenly someone appear beside me and i was damn stunned. WEICHUAN! OMG. then we were like 'wc?! is this his brother?! or what' we were ready to accept any crap reason for the huge transformation apart from 'ok, that IS wc'

note: from here, i think i may miss out details =.=

then people started flooding in like, the nanhua peeps i.e. huimin teohyi peilin alan xiujing, adeline and huiping, and i forgot le (shit!) shuenyee...

then everyone went to superdog (dun drool sharon) and ate there! hahaha! then everyone were quite leng at first, then we warmed up and started crapping! then yinshan came, zihan and nicholas came and then i had to leave :'( i wish i could have stayed longer, because everyone went to sky garden!!! (urgh!) but ok, what happened after that was extremely great (:

then i met a fuming zj and qh at vivo before we set off to meet a dead batt jiarong =.= she had to use jasmine's phone to call us LOL. noob! then we met her at the interchange and stuff lor! qh and i were not in a good mood so the mood was rather ruined at the start, i was worried it wouldn't be fun! in fact i was like emoing or sth LOL.

then we took bus to west coast lala! we took 175 so must get down one stop before and walk. then we talk a little, stone, and emo LOL. then we reached west coast park! <3 sky =".=">

then we go to the coast there and sat and emo AGAIN. urgh! LOL. emo kias! i think zj and jr weren't (hopefully) but i definitely was, qh too. whoops! LOL. then we took photos like crazy and then we had "dinner" at macdonalds. LOL. it was funny, the oreo cheesecake and the brownie as birthday cakes! LOL. and we talked (:

jr and zj went walking while qh and i went to climb pyramid again (it was late, and it was night!) omg la. then it was so shuang up there, no sun, and cooling! then qh and i talked A LOT and confided a lot, and listened a lot. (: was missing the days in 2L, we could see each other (the clique) everyday, and crap, laugh, and i think i was a less responsible person in the past, which makes me happier in some ways ;D

at 9, we left, and everyone waited with me for 175 and the bus was super cool!! blur pictures, but still! LOl. my third on a spebus (special bus). so dear qh's birthday ended with a happy and satisfied note (:

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY QH!!! wish you a happy life ahead, and that we can celebrate with each other every year((((:

24/01/09:

CIP! ((((:
ok that makes me sad now. because my parents refused to let me continue.i'm damn sad ok! i emo all the way home can! ok, not the point -__-

Amin CAME BACK! and mazlan smsed me that he is not coming (sad.. i think i can't see him anymore) and i tutored amin and sypfiq. amin was damn cute and energetic. sypfiq was super quiet at first, he didnt even wanna say a single word, but amin kept talking and talking non stop, and with my professional guiding, he finally open up! and seriously, he laughs damn hysterically! :O and charlene was commenting "phyllis, why are all your students so crazy?" lol, i oso duno, my luck or sth? charlene still got the pretty girl! :D

then i had to get serious, and i taught syafiq multiplication. and i was damn irritated because amin kept interrupting (because he is p6) and after half an hour amin haven't even done ONE single question?! wth! then syafiq kept getting distracted, even if there is NOTHING to be distracted about. i ask him " 2 x 4?" he just ANYHOW gimme answer "3" walao, my hair almost all drop? i told umpteen times until i feel like my teacher, then he still always use 3 what the? i have little patience with people who DO not listen.

then after that, i went home straight heh! guai right? no la, my parents angry with me for reaching home so late the night before, so i go home early lor, it was worth it hehe!

CNY:

i'm quite sad that my cousin broke up with his gf, but i guess he is coping ok(:

i had steamboat on sunday i think, the next day i kena food poisoning. i tell you it's terrible, i was wondering if i could go guanlin house or not la! :P every time i eat, i shit, and the shit is as dilute as urine, it SQUIRTS out. wad the?! it's damn disgusting=.=

then i had buffet at night, but my ass can't listen, so i was visiting the toilet bowl most of the time la! =.= and there were good food!!! :(

then next day i went temple, then go guanlin's house! heh met her at je mrt first, then talk and drink. =.= seriously, i can't take bitter things, and i don't plan on doing so! LOL then met jasmine and siyi. LOL. jasmine made us laugh because she looks auntie, but in the end she looks ok la!

siyi was dressed quite cute LOL. (she later ego again) then we set off for guanlin's house lala! we took cab la hahaha. then met dixun! and we started eating steamboat, skipping past all the pai nian hehe! then there was sth jasmine found funny, but i didn't:

"hey, where you go pai nian today?"

"oh, i go pai shen." (pray god u know)

then they laughed lik siao, i duno why -__- this is the extreme diao face la!

then steamboat laugh like shit shit shit. they kept suaning me then dixun sneeze i will burst out laughing seriously hahahaaa! then guanlin invited her friend enik and joined us to eat then after that her band senior came too! then it was like about 9? so we go home le lor!

YAY. pictures pictures pictures!

Sharon's birthday card hehehe! ;D i find it pretty la xd
jiarong's card, and i agree, it's the prettiest card you gave me LOL!





the front of jiarong's card

squad card (:






hahahaha qh with her girly pose =.= jiarong and i are trying to act like seaweeds=.=
heh! i love this picture somehow! :) qh pose damn unglam, but spot jiarong and my stupid faces, spastic, totally!


i love this photo lots too!!

emo kias, checked.

zijun and i, hearts! LOL. (somehow i can hear jasmine shouting 'who wants to!!')

mango, dun be sad. it's not the first time you felt like this, just let go, and things will turn out great. haven't I tell you before? stay happy, and everything turns out alright somehow. losing passion isn't what you should worry about, it is the reason behind it that you should feel bad for.

sometimes i wish everyday was my birthday. not for the presents or the song singing, but for the change of attitude in my mother's words.

lol, yeah jiarong, i hate my blogskin too, but just for the moment before i find a nice, black and red blogskin. LOL, care to help me design one? :P

21/01/2009 was a day that i loved so much<3

to prevent my blog from looking like a dead, emo, and dull template, i shall use different colours (: i loved today like siao. in the morning, woke up late, remembered i was supposed to meet sharon, and was afraid to be late, so made my whole family go into a frenzy (since my dad agreed to take me to school) and in the end, i reached school at the normal time and met ys and cherie. LOL. i didn't feel like myself that morning, super unnatural for some reason, like super bu yao lian

then met sharon, and had to put down bag and stuff. then i realised, the walking in the morning is totally waste time la please! LOL. no offense jesslyn and sharon LOL. i was sort of thinking, wait, is something gonna happen, and i was sort of on the alert, then in the end it was nothing at all HEHE. (here goes for being overoptimistic)

then i went back to class, and then everything was normal as usual. jiayi and yulu gave me presents! omg la, i was rather shocked though! then during recess, i went with nobellu and jinglan for recess, and met weiyang cum friends, and they sung a birthday song for me LOL. i was rather paiseh. and i could see sharon gloating at one side HEH. then there was a lot of people with the same birthday as me sia! LOL. shocked.

then go back cuz siyi called my hp, then i rushed back w/o finishing my food (dear stomach) then i found my table full of fluffy balloons! (ok, not literally, but you know that cotton wool feeling that's so light?) then i played daidi. LOL. i was thinking i have good luck today, but in the end i didn't even get into top 2. LOL.

then everyone sang happy birthday in class twice today hahha! the first time was leng, but still i was happy and awkwardly smiling for no reason. second time initiated by mr ng, and it was more loud and stuff, and i still have that retardedly happy cum confused face LOL. i'm sorry for this lack of facial expressions, i definitely have no idea how to put my face into sth that's suitable to listen for birthday song LOL! and i spastically clapped along LOL!

thankyou so much 4J. for two years, my birthday wouldn't be perfect without you guys singing birthday songs, cracking brains to put a surprise in somehow. and somehow, even though i'm on the alert, i still am surprised. =.= i love how i feel so special, even for this one day. it's worth the whole year(: thankyou for the post kits too, it made my day so much while i took the bus home. people around me must be wondering why i was smiling to myself LOL.

cca was at first rather sian, then funny things happened. LOL. we were in the classroom, then...

Jesslyn: BARIS DIAM.

i totally stunned, jumped off the table and o.O

then jesslyn dropped to the ground and laugh

then i went up to her and LOL ask her what the hell she doing la!!

then sir junjie came

Jesslyn: BARIS DIAM.

S.Junjie: ?!

Jesslyn: good morning sir!

S.JunJie: what......

everyone sniggers softly

Jesslyn: G-Good morning sir! (controlling laughter)

S.JunJie: what..... (exact same reaction)

i totally burst out laughing and stopped myself!

then somehow started singing birthday song. then got presents hahaha!

hahaha if you realised, this is KM. LOL.

heh! cute bear, in a cup! cup from qiao, bear from char(:

whee! smiley cakes from lihui's team. i'm wondering when i should eat it before it turns completely algaed. LOL

i laughed out loud at this one ok! :D LOL. it was so funny. it sounds a lot like me. new year resolution: stop being in my own world and listen for external noises.


jasmine, and guanlin's present. their letters were awesome(: jas: pretty card, and i really like it like hell! ;D guanlin: not pretty paper, but pretty words(:

hahahah for now! ;D

having an online chat with primary school friends was nice, but weird in some way. i didn't really expect myself to be invited for anything after the fiasco in primary school, but still... i miss them somehow, i wonder if they are still the way i saw them.. somehow i feel scared, that things might go wrong.. but still i shall be optimistic(:

today was a sian day! LOL. lessons boring as usual... then cca. LOL. i finished a 4 page essay in chinese and i CONCENTRATED throughout can? what the hell right! LOL. i cant remember i finished a zuo wen on time in class and that i was so engrossed in it, i didn't even notice the time ;D of course i needed the assistance of my dear phone to help me out when i can't remember those chinese characters! (: i somehow starting to like chinese!

math is losing me. no, i'm losing maths. ok whatever, either way, but still, rate of change is scary, and i wasn't listening in class, too engrossed in trying to stay awake, so in the end i doubt i can pass that stupid The Eat Snake Time. fyi, it's test. LOL. desmon lim made us all feel like throwing sth at him with this extremely leng joke? ok, it can't even be considered a joke? he even said it was a amazing race, and everyone were so excited, and in the end, we realised that it was just because 'we have no TIME' =.=

i feel rather bad for not touching hwk that is due tmr i.e. acelearning. but i hate maths, what can i do about it!

crossing fingers that there is geography tmr, so i can finally sleep in peace without getting scolded. i dun care about geography, just study and get over with it, because either way i don't get anything at all, listening or not. i'm sorry mr chan, i can't concentrate at geography.

chemistry is extremely slow-paced. just one lesson, we only went through one page of work. i'm really wondering how we can keep up to the tests =.= i miss tungkian somehow. he was a fast teacher, but he goes at this pace that is comfortably understanding. and i understand every single word he said, and he catches attention as easily as ABC. i half-wish he is our form, it would definitely bond the class much better.

CNY dinner on saturday was extremely filling. i feel myself opening up to my aunts and uncles, somehow, instead of my cousins? LOL. i can't relate to my cousins, i just smile shyly at them =.= and dear felicia cried because she thought that the toilet is locked, when i was looking all over for the stupid key. in the end, the stupid NTUC woman is inside, and i actually knocked on the door before? :( i feel sad when she cries, because i feel it's my fault ._.

everyone is mugging so hard in the beginning of the year, it's making me so scared and paranoid. i hardly see anyone sleep in class, and that scares me because usually almost everyone would sleep. i know i should study, and i'm not warmed up yet. i wan to sleep for now, and let dreams take to lala land first, isn't that just a perfect life?

3 more hours to my birthday. i'm excited like siao i'm normal to it (and i'm concealing it well) and i really sort of wonder how it would be like tmr. i expect gifts here and there, not too many, but i know that there are people around me that remembers my birthday and take notice of me (: it's the thought that counts, as quoted from nobelle

tmr walking with sharon at the track. feels like a trap somehow:P maybe i'm wrong?

whee whee whee!

LOL. i'm sorry for this random opening >.< LOL. i smsed Mazlan and he replied me! :D:D LOL.

i was surprisingly tired today sia. omg la! LOL. i duno whether i am suffering some excess-sleep disorder or sth. i just can't stop sleeping somehow! lol

today after lessons was wondering if i should go for training, then realised only my class + adam's class is free after school, so out of responsibility and boredom, i decided to go, and i owe eve one bubble tea to encourage her to come =.= LOL. eve must be so happy, come for training, and get one bubble tea from me, and another from bingle for free?! LOL. i should get my rewards oso la can! :(

then watched foot drill in the scorching sun, that almost killed my skin. i was blackier every minute in the sun?! then ziqian kena hit on the head by soccer players. LOL. and i was like suaning her (out of my serious facade) that her IQ was already zero, and now it's negative.

wednesday! :P i'm still stuck between spending it with cca, or clique. i love my clique and cca both very much ): tmr shall determine my decision (:

if only thursday was available for my clique, i would gladly go out with them! and friday is going out with jiarong qianhui zijun maybe jasmine to celebrate her birthday with mine :)

omg. JUST DANCE by LADY GAGA is really amazing! LOL. it's the top of the billboard sia! ;D

SATURDAY;
A extremely fun day, if not for some idiot that insulted me so badly i almost broke down =.=
dear amin didn't come, and i was feeling so sad, and i took another boy (: his name is Mazlan, and he is super cute! LOL. he always paiseh when i tell him he is cute, and he will shout very loudly when we tease him and ask if he got girlfriend HAHA. and the best part is that i got his hp no!! <3 and he sms me "i hate you!" how cute la! LOL.

i was teaching him how to round off, and i was like dying trying to make him understand la! =.= but still it was fun teaching him because he is so cute! charlene was having a fun time LOL. then it was like pnghang's tutee was learning malay, then mazlan was damn excited and he started saying random malay to me and expect me to guess!! =.= but in the end i learnt not even one malay word cuz i forgot LOL.

then liuqiao's tutee just suddenly went crazy, and scold me ugly, fat, and even took the energy to run behind me to show how fat i am. WTF. WTF. i was like so humiliated, and pissed that i almost cry can! then mazlan suddenly told that stupid girl to shut up shut up shut up! then i was rather gratified, but still i emo can!! :(

oh yes! mazlan kept pairing me up with the 'boss' who i presume is the person-in-charge. LOL. i was super paiseh and =.= when the boss came and talk to him lor! lol. but still i find him extremely cute, nevertheless! (: i got better after that!

then liuqiao and yuting had to leave, while the others took bus to imm! then we met siyi weichen qiuyan and grace i think and ANNABELLE and friends leh! (: whee! then we were there for the zhuo wen shiuan concert! LOL. i went off halfway with sharon to book seats since we weren't really interested. no offense, but quite little people there for a signing thing! :S

then we discuss details and stuff then sharon drag me off (i was allowed to be dragged off because of something, but in the end it was sth happier! :D:D) LOL and we met junbo at the mrt station leh! and he say he lend bl his psp for the whole day LOL. walao bully! then sharon and i took bus to her house, and i took 166 home. see la sharon, i sent you home somehow ok! :D

whee. 8 more to 300!! :D and next wednesday<3

suddenly i'm looking forward to my birthday. i didn't expect anything, no birthday presents, maybe some forgetting here and there and giving me a hug as a birthday present(that's so cute!) its a special day, but i dun plan to look forward to it as much as i do for the previous years. but suddenly, i realised really nice people like jas guanlin siyi shinfung c.simin actually know that day, and told me i can expect some presents. totally it shocked me like hell! -____- but it was a happy shock nevertheless :P

jasmine&guanlin asked me if i want impractical/practical stuff for my birthday. i was sorta flattered, and stumped by that question. i just find that it's the thought that counts. but they insisted i think of it, so i guess i would like impractical stuff for once(:

but of course, i love things that have meanings in it (hinthint!) like stuff that are handmade blahblah LOL. i'm totally revealing my anticipation for my birthday. hopefully i wont feel disappointed on that special day(:

oh yes...

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY SHINFUNG!! <3
wish that you will be as cute as ever, and will stay cheerful and fresh everyday!(:

i decided to go out to celebrate this day with dear qianhui next friday whose birthday is the 23th!! hopefully, nothing crops up, because i plan to spend that day away like how i spend my money ;D miss going out as a clique like hell ): it felt like forever since we went out, and things keep cropping up on wednesdays e.g. my guilt, rehearsals, trainings, board painting, chair matters... urgh! ): hopefully everyone can make it on friday, because i will be looking forward to it so badly!

oh yes! my class was totally going crazy when desmon lim invited us to his house for cny!! LOL. there's that good point having a good-looking teacher. even if u suan, i guess no one gets angry since everyone is taking u as an eyecandy! LOL. siyi was totally overboard, thinking what to wear all those, that it made me paranoid too! then jasmine asked me "wat will you wear?" i wasn't used to such questions, and i had ZERO ideas what to wear. i wasn't planning to be extremely outstanding that day LOL. so i just replied without thinking "maybe i will wear nothing." LOL. and we chortled with laughter because going without clothes would be the MOST outstanding of all. and siyi went like phyllis go at night ok! then only can see the teeth ._.

MY NEXT WEEK:
mon - training (perhaps staying back to stone)
tues - cca
wed - training
thurs - either training or going out or going home
friday - cca
sat - CIP + steamboat at aunt's house
sun - be happy it's cny!

then it was pt. LOL. i was so lan. LAN. i find myself dying at the first few minutes?! d.i.e. LOL. then i went toilet to shit (note: i haven't shitted since last week i think) and i constipated. and i forced my ass out to come out asap since i dun wan to seem so slack! ): then my ass was bleeding in the end. OMG la. i was shocked at the bloody tissue paper i threw into the toilet bowl!?
then i ran back to find the rest and i told charlene LOL. she was so shocked and horrified i think she feel i'm gonna die soon or sth =.= LOL. no way la please, i'm healthy as a horse, just a little weighty(:
then i ran back sjab room and get plaster for shijing, and slacked for a minute or so, before i went back hehehe. then ran one round (trying EXTREMELY hard to keep up) and went to sjab room to inform those people there of CAPTAINS' BALL!(: it's at the top of my favourite game chart, wheee! then helped them to pack up and bring those first aid kits back to the lab... then went for captains' ball! WHEE. it's damn fun! LOL i was the captain, and the first round was a pushover LOL! (no offense dudes) 12 - 1 LOL. we were thinking of restarting the score, since we are thrashing them so badly, but like someone said 'it makes no difference!" LOL!
the next round was extremely draining. LOL. but i was captain so i stone and wait for the ball whee! HAHA. junbo and chiunyuan should be banned! LOL. ESPECIALLY JUNBO. yes! but it was more challenging hehehe! alicia kept trying to disturb me LOL!

then after that we went back to sjab room, and stone. i was so tired i wanted to sit there and stone, literally hehehe! :D then went home blahblah!

i realised my mom is becoming more understanding. there are a lot of things i thought she would scold me for (since i'm sensible, there are sensible things to be scolded for). e.g. i didn't go home early for the whole week except monday, and last sat i was so late!! :O but she didn't scold me!<3 i really hope things goes like this. i feel more of an adult le (:

i'm aiming for 300 posts!

today i was dozing off in geography lesson. i swear, i tried to stay up, but i was like telling myself "ok, just close eyes for a minute." and when i opened again, it's about half an hour later. LOL. that happened in geography :)

there was fire drill today! WHEEE! hahaha! it was our PE pt session, and we were like lining up to take attendance, dreading the 2.4km run. then it was like, mr tan was just counting and then the fire alarm went off. then someone was like "is it fire drill?" then we all cheered and RAN to the assembly point which is super near HAHA. we were the first class to reach there, and we squat quite fast lor, but nvr kena praised because we were laughing =.=

then we had lessons lalala. then after school eve yulu annabelle l.simin stayed to paint the background. OMG. it looks totally screwed liao la!sorry! :O

then went for training. at first was rather unhappy because i scared my mom scold, in the end oso nvr mind liao le LOL. today training i was there to have a presence, as what liuqiao said too LOL.

change of blogskin once more!

phyllis seah wants to be a happy kid!

yep. that's perhaps what everyone needs to know. i REFUSE. REFUSE. REFUSE. to turn emo! so if i do seem emo, just tell me, i'll immediately lapse into post-emo highness. (:

"You're beautiful, no matter what they say. Words can't bring you down. "
- Beautiful, Christina Aguilera

hahaha. i love this song, beautiful. it's totally an inspiring song, even though i heard it a million times. then i watched the mv, and i felt so inspired! LOL. typical me to feel so strongly over one song but yes =.=

i'm tired!! ranting everyday about my boredom isn't really all that interesting lol! right... i fell asleep during maths, and siyi had to nudge me awake LOL. i think every lesson desmon lim must scold me once, i'm either talking, or sleeping=.=

PDP was rather fun. the game was fun can. but now i realised, every class is doing it, so i feel... disappointed? somehow, i thought that my teacher arranged it to bond the class and everything, then it's like, actually everyone does it. even the sharing part was planned beforehand and everyone did it. now i feel like... i duno? no wonder yiwei was asked to write it down? i was feeling it was weird already =.= it's rather saddening actually. everyone played blow wind blow, and had that sharing thing. i feel rather unhappy about it, but i guess that's what a teacher is, not too much to expect.

lang arts had this family tree thing, and i'm nobelle+yiwei's child, and i married EVE! (: HAHA! i think it was interesting though, i wished i wasn't so tired then, if not i may get high or sth... aww! i want to open up to the class, not to restrict my social zone to sjab only because i love them to bits!

chemistry was interestingly slow. l.simin and me are perhaps the slowest few to clear up LOL. but i was happy with my pale pink solution, it really looks pale hahaha! it takes a lot of patience though

then after school only a few stayed back to do the board to paint that chicken. even though there was at first about 7? but one by one they left, and left jiele, eve and me finishing up. but still....thanks fangqi,germaine,jordyn,yiwei,junjie(?),lihua, and anyone who stayed back to just paint a little or sth hahaha! painting is like, fun? LOL. it isn't saigang lor, it's damn fun hehehe!

then went for training while eve was sick, so she went home.then i was so damn tired. i didn't help much though >.<>

i felt so dead at first, then i forced myself to wake up and go high! >.<>

this message to a few people: if you dun try, you will never get what you want.

wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. my new favourite word (:

today was damn high, then almost died in chinese lesson. i really dozed off, because it was just presentation, and i was really tired. my eyelids were just closing by themselves so it wasn't my fault! (ok in case u didn't realise, i'm trying to push the blame)

then stupid yulu was like guo meimei! then somehow she sounded like glh, and i totally shocked myself up can?! stupid yulu, wait till you sleep, i'll haunt you! and no more peanuts and potato chips for you xDDDDDDDDD

wheeeeeeeeeeeeeee! after school went toilet with siyi and stuff then chiong to sjab room! LOL. i seem to feel used to being the later few le HAHA! then the usual stuff and i was feeling high. i feel rather happy that my class days aren't as bad as i thought it would be! i tot i wouldn't get used to it like how sjab life is like, but in the end, it turned out fine(:

cca was rather boring at first. had some cool suaning sessions with lihui as usual, then took non-com for foot drill. i duno, but hopefully they felt they used their time ok, and won't feel the way i felt 2 years ago. it's not a good feeling. after cca i was drained, and we played this funny bottle game with some rhythm! i dunno where i learnt it from, maybe jas or sth? but one thing is sure, i'm a extremely happy kid now(:

thank you for telling me about everything. i told you mine too D:

wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. i'm high!

platoon names are like, so interesting! WOOHOO!

today listened, and wondered. felt just a little weird and sad. somehow, everyone's having it, but i'm nowhere near to one. but i guess i'm happy the way it is! :D :D

hohoho. it was a boring day today. super boring. nothing to do at all.

i woke up at 10, and continued lying on bed for nothing until 11? LOL. i love slacking on a bed, i admit it myself! i then went out for lunch, and ate quite a lot. fried durian is so delicious omg la. but i decided to watch and prevent myself from becoming a balloon, so i only ate one :'(

then went shopping and went home empty handed. i hate this kind of shopping, time consuming, and nothing at all in return sia. but i was sensible, and did not pull a long face, since i guess buying new clothes is so what, since i have a lot not worn yet anyway!

then went home, and i fell asleep on the car. then went home, and i slacked on the sofa. HAHA. slacking~ lol. then i decided to do bio ws. OH YES BIO WS. i forgot to do the last part. *goes to chiong*

ok. finished. i look forward to wednesday, thanks to clique outing! and the next next wednesday will be the day i turn 16, and watch NC16! but the thing is that, i'm stuck between going out or training again. >.< perhaps obligation over wishful thinking. REMEMBER. 21/01/09.

oh this reminded me of sth stupid. we were supposed to fill in this form for volunteers on sat, so i filled it in. then they asked for my birthday, and i spastically wrote 21/01/09. LOL. eve was like "you aren't even born yet!" ok i admit, that was rather dumb of me -.- but i changed it in the end (obviously)

i read my previous blog posts, and i read that my last year birthday was almost screwed by PD. LOL! i realised my birthday always seems to clash with funny things from sjab. weird eh! :O

i really wanna go je to swim with the squad. but i'm hesitiating because my swim suit sucks. it's so noob, i dun dare to wear it out anymore! :( but i no money to buy a new one, or rather it's not sensible to buy another one when i have one i can wear =.= awwwwwwwww.

phyllis!

i've got a question, if your blog post is SAVED, where do you retrieve it? LOL.

ok. i'm in this cip tuition thing for needy families. my kid is a cute boy called amin, and he has a hyperactive brother called eman. sir kw teach eman, and i feel rather sad for sir kw. LOL. eman gets very very distracted at small things, and amin is super hardworking lor, he doesn't even wan a break when i offered him! but i was tired, so i demanded a break LOL. i was like standing and tutoring until my legs ache la! LOL.

there was this grammar question:

"i look forward to ______ my grandma this weekend."

the answer is obviously SEEING. but amin chose SEE. i know it's because of TO but this is one exception!! so it went like this:

me: *mark cross* amin do you know why is this wrong?
amin: *shake head*
me : (crap) uh... ok... see here... er... you see here ok, you put see is because of to correct?
amin: yes.
me: .... erm... okay... erm...
amin: *stares at me*
me: ok fine, next time it's like this structure use continuous tense!!!
amin: ok!

i have to improve my vocab like mad sia. i asked him to read this passage for me, and i completely speed read, and found like 4 words i didn't know the meaning for?! shit.
LOL. then after the tuition eve sharon charlene pnghang yuting me went to meet bingle at imm.
we were like discussing what to eat what to eat what to eat, and we decided on long john silver in the end. then we were like looking at ezlink cards, and i cannot stop laughing at someone's one. i did not say who hor! LOL. ok. so i owed that person a bubble tea because i bet that if i laugh i will treat. LOL. but in the end i lost because bl laughed!!! =.=
then we started comparing ezlink cards, and i decided that i'm unchanged for 5 years. hahahah! it's good and bad in a way. good means my ezlink card not funny. bad means i'm still fat LOL. then kena photo taken and edited to look like a pig walao! ok i do look like one.
then we went walking and walking. walked into mini toons, and everyone got high with the toys there especially the puppets. i scared eve with the puppet i was holding and she made a crazy laugh. it's a very typical eve laugh ok! LOL
we laughed at the spongebob squarepants toy, and i realised that eve likes spongebob! LOL. i'm neutral to both patrick and spongebob, but i find spongebob irritating in my phone game HAHA! then we entertained ourselves with this cow screamer that i made the screaming into laughing! we practically walked around and played with everything! so ph bought this shaker inside got two dices, but it isn't written with dots, but words like pipi (butt), mimi (nippa), datui(yourthigh) blah blah blah. interesting lor! HAHAHA. we were wondering what would happen if one turn up to be mimi, and one datui. LOL
then we proceeded to this puzzle shop which sharon was crazy over and the disney puzzles are so cute!
then we went to sky garden and watched the children play. walao, it was such a great experience as a child. like you can play all day, you dun have to care about other stuff, things in primary schools are perhaps just a piece of cake or sth... how sad! :( then we stoned and talked. next time let's go swimming XDDDDDDDDDD

then i was damn scared because my dad smsed me, so i went home. luckily they weren't as angry as i tot. it was then i decided to add more new year resolutions:
1. be a sensible child (not guai kia, but a kid that understands)
2. dun make mom's health go bad

yawn. vicious cycle everyday: kena scolded, black face, kena scolded again.
duno what to do la, not like when i look angry i can look happy. people who saw my face after being locked out should know that i DON'T look like a happy person when i'm enraged.
sharon says that yuting says that if you really want to go, you will go even if parents dun allow. it's not the same thing at all dude. i dun wan my mom to die, so i follow them, understand? LOL.

i'm so very tired D:
hahaha! sitting in my spot in class makes you vulnerable to sleep, daydreaming, and extreme ice cold conditions xD i totally pushed myself to the limit to even stay awake through the whole day, although i dozed off for half a minute in geography.

UG OPEN HOUSE 09.
it was uber fun! we completed showcased our trophies like hell >.< LOL. zhiliang and i went to arrange the trophies for like 15-30 minutes, then stupid jesslyn wanted the table cloth, and TOOK EVERYTHING OFF. walao!!! qianbian can! i was like rather bu shuang can! =.= and poor zhiliang kena hit on the head by a GOALPOST. there was like wind, then zhiliang went to pick the melolin (duno how to spell) then the whole goal post fell on him!!! :O LOL. i really hope it doesn't affect his IQ or what sia. it was rather hilarious, but scary at the same time! xDDD

then i was really happy with both arrangements. the first one was super majestic can! then when they took everything off i forgot the arrangement liao, but it looks pretty cool too ;D
then the open house started, and ncc super cool, got like a million people doing that fancy drill. i myself was impressed sia >.< LOL. the sec 3s are great, trying so hard like that, though it was virtually impossble to gain attention since the other cca are pretty loud too:DDDD

then at the end, the seniors oso do drills. i feel super shuang, like i'm showcasing sth i own or sth like that (: i was really happy with some bangs throughout, it felt totally like one squad, one bang! XDDDD happy~ then i was pretty happy that i didn't forget as many drills as i thought i did. hahahaha i dun have dementia! LOL. after that i got really really high already >.<

then we started taking photos like crazy, cuz everyone's getting really HIGH (: i love the way we get high like that. we took one of our first squad-in-full-u photo bah i hope ;d lalala. we did thunderation too, like super loud, and my throat was threatening to explode HAHAHA!

then got campfire, and we got pd. it was rather sian, because i was like super tired, mentally and physically. felt like sleeping la can! LOL. but forced myself to get high, and made a fool out of myself la! then took dad's car home at 9.

today was supposed to be cleaning up, and then squad outing. hahahha! i was expecting squad outing to be fun, but everyone's too tired, and we talked about sth else instead which was sth i feel that has no ending =.= so we went sky garden, and i practically stoned sia. oh went superdog before that and i was forced to stare at everyone eat while i sat there, peniless. but i survived it! ;D met siyi guanlin germaine there too hahaha

hello!

i probably need a break a.k.a sleeping. LOL. in fact i definitely need one in the near future.

this week:
mondays = stayed back supposedly for cip, but in the end played with peanuts with eevee, liuqiao, and bing le
tuesday = sjab
wednesday = training, and in the near future, interchanging with cid
thursday = ug open house, pd. going home at 9.
friday = sjab
saturday = tuition for little primary kids, 10-12. until end of jan
sunday = the only day i get to rest, hopefully.

it isn't the worst schedule i've seen, since i have sundays off, but i'm definitely tired like crap! LOL lucky i no eyebags like yen (hopefully) hahaha!

i'm lazy and i hate to read timetables.
i'm extremely high when i feel low.
i'm extremely low when i'm out of energy or simply bored.
i'm crapping when i'm not hungry, and i'm with the appropiate people (sharon i bet my life u r so happy)

i'm not gonna pack bag man. i feel like i forgot sth, i dun care la. gotta prepare full u, gotta prepare to get extremely high and die at home tmr(: anything more? no right. LOL. no idea la, just go with it first.

two words. extremely busy.

hopefully can get big hearts award this year, since i'm indulging myself in cip like as often as once per week. (:

just wondering. someone once told me before, it's hard to maintain between chairperson and a good friend. i thought it sounded rather sensible. a good chairperson has to be honest, and follow morals. a good friend shields friends from everything. in fact both contradict to a certain extent. i do believe in morals, but i believe in friends too.

today training was tiring. i was tired AGAIN. sorry jiarong qianhui zijun jasmine for pangsehing. next wednesday k(:

HAIZ. tmr going home at 9. reach home at 10 plus confirm. bathe, wait, do hw. i dun need to slp anymore. =.=

lol side note. i find it rather amusing that eve and i are both in charge of chairs. during fire drill, both of us MIGHT be flying somewhere. LOL. secretary jiayou, i duno who.

frankly, i'm damn tired, but it feels like a ritual to switch my com on every single day =.= even if i have nothing to do, i would probably chat with people online, or just play some games. HA, if this continues, confirm cannot promote >.<

today was a tiring day. i was tired. TIRED. T-I-R-E-D. i feel that's what the hiong people like eevee feels everyday when they go to school. it's a wonder they can get high in the first place?! the whole school crap is only looked forward to by me because of CCA. lol! i find myself creepily hiong too. i enjoy crapping and suaning, and normally i would probably just kena upskirted or sth a few times worse for one cheek =.=

sort of wondering what will happen in future, like when the year 4 batch says goodbye. i tink i will totally feel dead, and that my school life is just lessons. i would probably shrink (mentally) into some idiotic person who goes home punctually at 2p.m. everyday or maybe just get super emo, since there is NO remedy for anything.

heard from ppl how they criticize sjab like hell, the people, the noob they think we are. no way man, we are like all fabulous people? ;D

today was idiotic. there was some weird spot check today? irritating, my short fringe is caught!!! that is totally impossibly weird can! i nvr kena caught for my hair since p5 or what? it was super weird for mr ng to catch me anyway -.-

then i got that super simplistic thing to measure the length of the skirt one! :D:D HAHAHA. i think it's rather ok la, not that bad.

lessons are extremely boring, i kept trying to keep my eyes open. =.=

after school I CHIONGGGGG to tiong in taxi. it wasn't that ex i realised just 6 dollars liddat. then the shop wasn't open!! so i noobly stood waited for a while then i decided to go toilet, then i went out it's open!(: but the shop tender was totally like "7 days, if not cannot change! and need receipt" then i was asking siyi, got receipt? she say no have, then the woman kept insisting need!! walao eh.. i go tiong to go toilet one issit! LOL. then took taxi and CHIONGGGG back to school, and i was like in time!!! :D:D woohoo!

then i changed and stuff. sian. i was rather tired actually, i really ran from the main gate to sjab room because i was afraid they all go first parade or sth, then maybe the room locked or sth, i duno!! then the whole thing was like damn fast? siyi u better kowtow to me or sth la! i was like feeling extremely sian diao in the taxi back because it feels like i wasted precious time in cca!

in the end cca was rather sian anyway. i saw drills for the whole day until my head ache like hell at the end, i had to slp on the bench la! i think maybe cuz i was extremely hungry too xDD
saw sec 2 drills. walao. i duno what to say, it's just slack la. but they got alright at the end, thankfully.
i commanded, and i think i sounded like an ass. LOL. seirously. and my voice sounds super weird and unclear, i know.
saw sec 3 drills. drill standard isn't there, and i got really pissed, i felt like pumping them. yen oso say can, but got other people come, so cannot. gosh, i'm sadistic. some of them can really really dun put effort la. was forced to talk to one of them at the end, because it was really damn =.= i always say it, but none of them bother to listen. you can do it, just you never try.
then at the evening i felt extremely tired AGAIN. HURRAY~ HAHAHA!
tmr's training. i dont even know if i can go. ): trainings are fun

Gosh.the only remedy i have to everything is SJAB! :D

chionging contact list now... it's rather simple actually, but i keep side tracking >.<
i'm tired, like hell. i slept like 3 a.m. because i couldn't get to sleep, maybe i'm getting insomnia!
horrible. i can't even sleep with myself counting sheeps to about 2000?? and my mom keeps snoring, it's virtually impossible to close my eyes, empty my mind, and let myself drift into dreamland. but the dream i had this morning was niceeeee. i dreamt there was an sjab class, with all my favourite people inside (i.e. all 12-13 people) it was sad to wake up! :(
today first day of being a chair =.= was slacker than i thought. HAHAHA! eevee lost to me in scissors paper stone all the time, out of 10 times, she loses 10 times HAHA! and she is efficient.
today was a rather normal day. in fact to me, normal days seem abnormal without hearing laughter from my squad:'( shit, i'm falling into denial! only remedy: EVE! :D muahahhaha. and yes eve, your name is gonna be in my blog posts every time eh! (:
morning assembly. lame, and i was tired. stood behind and stone LOL! poor eve, standing in front. i promised her to stand with her tmr and maybe the days after :)

oh i found sth!
wikipedia:
Onset insomnia - difficulty falling asleep at the beginning of the night, often associated with anxiety disorders

ANXIETY DISORDERS?! look, i ain't going insane, i ain't! LOL. i guess i will sleep damn well tonight, because i'm damn tired. head heavy, hair in a mess, and mind block LOL. i'm using lots of my brain juices to write this ok!

NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS:
1. to be more unsoft. (IMPORTANT.)
2. to cherish all TIMES with squad.
3. to stay happy and not break down for no reason (mood swings are irritating)
4. to perhaps vent anger in a different channel like xm (kicking and punching) instead of bottling it inside
5. go out more with squad.
6. go out more with ex-clique. (i miss u people dudes)
7. be promoted. (bloody hell?!)
8. to not laugh in the presence of the SQUAD for 60 minutes (HA. i'm taking up the challenge)
9. to save money, so sharon won't scold me for being a poor ass =.=
10. <3333333 life.

back to the topic.
i was practically falling asleep behind in the morning assembly?! seriously. i couldnt see who is talking all the time, it bores me out, and i feel like sneaking back to class for a break HAHA. zombified me!
then eve and i managed to get the class committee filled! WOOTS.
the class management diary is a shocking PINK. cool!
it was chemistry, and i was sort of tired. nothing much.
then it was lang arts. HAHAHA. we started laughing when the teacher came in. HAHA he is damn mini! perhaps about eve's height? very small indeed...
he is damn gullible too!

ok then it was chinese or sth. same stuff and eve and i talked about leisure camp. :D i totally love leisure camp. it was sort of the kind of camp you will love if everyone around you is high. (:
then i guess it's geog? same old, same old.
ehhh... then it was bio. LOL. bio was just the same i guess, the diseases were damn cool. then when the teacher mentioned dementia, it reminded me strongly of EVE. LOL.

after that had welfare meeting and stuff. before that kena upskirted=.= i still dun see how it is funny

then eve and i was like talking to bl and just watching him clean up his class. walao so hiong? then lq came and i totally got high. OMG. sjab mood. (:

tmr got cca, but gotta go tiong to exchange uniform first for siyi ><

'Cause I know how it hurts.

ha. NEW BLOGSKIN, FOR A NEW YEAR!
i dunno whether i like it or not. i liked it at first sight, then blog preview, and i realised it isn't that great after all, but whatever! :D

First day of school was a fiasco. LOL! i slept at 4am and woke up at 5am, was totally a zombie sia. i couldn't sleep for some reason, i wonder why lol... then i woke up and changed into FULL-U and had to totally look stupid and dumb in the estate. Cherie looks great in the new uniform, and i guess everyone does(: met yinshan at dad's car, and took it to school. then when i got out of the car i saw bingle, and i quickly said "shit" and walk away quickly. because he wasn't wearing full-u!! i was like wondering, crap, did i do something wrong again, bloody hell? then i just quickly walk off LOL! in the end i had to acknowledge his presence =.= LOL. i saw adam too in new school uniform, and i was half-worried, half-amused.

then went to sj room, and i totally felt as if today wasn't school, it was a holiday cca session, and we come school and we go straight to sj room. weird, eh? that's called the sj mood LOL. then i met nobelle and L.simin. Nobelle nice skirt >.<>

in the morning had the freaking parade that was like so damn long. i was like practically falling asleep there? then principal talk, i was rather happy that she wanted to cut it short, but in the end it was damn long anyway. introduced ALL the departments. crazy man, and UG people are like so sad. i feel sad for jesslyn, bl, and the other ic. LOL. they stand damn out, then it's like if their feet feel sian diao, cannot move if not everyone can see :P then another speech. i almost wanted to lie down and sleep la.... zombie, remember? xD

then after that went to change into uniform. cool, everyone looks great in uniform leh! LOL. and they commented i look slimmer in uniform. COOL. utterly amazing hahaha! then we walked into class, and everyone laughed at my screwed up hair. walao, nothing changed much lol=.= then we just listen to mr heng (?) talk. forgot the name, sorry.XD

then vote for committee. jiayou eve, jiayou hahaha! we shall be best friends HAHA!

then teambuilding games and i had to leave for pd. LOL. went sj room and slack for a while before we went for pd. sharon was damn serious during pd, it was scary hahaha! charlene was crazy as usual. for me, i was warming up in the sj mood. then it was mass dance, and we had pd there. i was rather amused actually, but i guess it's true there's a chance no matter what, even if the person did a wrong move and sprain his/her ankle, thanks to the psycho sharon!

i seriously screwed up during pd lol. thanks everyone!(: i'm the ultimate paranoid person. heh! eve was horrified at me~~ i liked her face man. qianhui u are the man HAHA!

then went back sj room to talk and laugh like siao! LOL. sj people are just extremely easy to be with(: then i went to CIP briefing, and eve & I, the ultimate duo! LOL. of course, lots of interaction with xinmun and bl hahaha! it was stupid, and thanks those who said yes to my begging D:

then training(: yay! sjab mood totally back. then training the last part i went to kpo the sec 1, and laughed my ass off. they having some joke session la! everytime they get this right, they get a joke! LOL. the hankers joke still rocks right, i'm joking seriously.

then liuqiao sharon eve pnghang bl and me went for dinner with the officers. LOL! we got to the wrong place, then it was damn hilarious because while we waited for the officers to find the place (how nice of us) we played scissors paper stone then hit hand one. bloody hell, my right hand was red raw can! it wasn't fair, if i played one-on-one, i confirm kill the one i'm playing with :D sharon always complains when playing the ol' pillar game HAHA!

then we took taxi to the basic camp place nearby. sat in the taxi with eevee, pnghang and bl and it was extremely suany LOL. then waited for the rest to come :D then we followed the officers around, then we realised we walk one whole big round!! LOL. extremely hilarious! then we went into a P.U.B. omg la. the pub is about the last few places i wan to visit la! no offense, but i dislike places with too many people not my age HAHAH! then there were like name tags and noob sharon's name tag was printed wrongly. i bet those people tot she was the ou jing xian or sth, because it went sharon ou instead of ow. LOL! mine was wrong oso, just left out one 'L' so who cares! xD then i realised miss phyllis seah sounds extremely mature and cool can, miss eve cheng too! miss liuqiao made me laugh, and mr lim bing le was damn weird HAHA! the worst part was to walk into the pub dressed in school u, and everyone stare like you are some idiot who trying to cosplay or sth la #%^&*()$%^&*( lol! then eve's camera was damn useful haha! it wasn't everyday u see officers dancing :P

oh yes. before the events we had dinner. we walked into this staircase part, and we took our bags there, and eve bl and i stay back to look after the bags while the others (pigs) went to get food. walao they take damn long! LOL. then our turn already then we could sit on chairs and eat on tables! then it came the extremely laughing moments when we laugh at each other like crap. i couldn't even eat because eve was laughing. then when i'm laughing, eve will start laughing, then sharon and lq will oso laugh, then bl oso laugh, then everyone but pnghang laughs out loud. we were like saying at first "must be civilised, because public. whoever laughs pay 50 cents after we sit down" then it was like the more we try not to laugh, we laugh even more! LOL then someone put my name tag on bl's plate, and we cracked up like hell. bl's mouth full with fudge is hilarious oso! sharon's face is the best xDDDDDD

then the games were just rather classic and stuff bah, but it was extremely high at the front. i'm losing my voice here~

lastly,
congrats to peeps who kena xDDDDDDDDD