damn. ytd was a total fucking pissing dissy day.

congrats to bingle and his team. LOL. pro lah. everything oso pawned. :D

to felicia, lihui, linda, kaiping: don't ever give up. it's not your fault in anything. I am not disappointed, because i don't ever think i should. proud of you still, really. the fucking sirs can stick their asses into somewhere in that fucking school for all i care. who cares, it's not even a fair match in the first place. i want to see you smiling and working hard again on tuesday. please do.

i love you all. though it has been only months since i was first posted to your team. i thought it would be weird.. or even sian. but no, your presence made it so worth while for me to be in it. i know your take me as a senior, and try to respect me in many aspects, but i am not a senior in your team, but your number 5! i really love all of you. i was so happy to get a trophy, when i don't even deserve it at all. i didn't do anything, yet your all treated me so nicely... all i could do was to write a letter. your may think i am as good as your, but really.. i am not. i am not pro at all, if not why would i end up as a reserve? i dunno anything, i am serious. i don't even deserve a recognition, or even a trophy. your are the ones who did the work, yet i slack around, and get a name in the end. is that fair? The moment i got the trophy, i got sick of myself. i dont' deserve anything at all.. i love you all, even if it wasn't the trophy all of us wanted. it was the first time i got a trophy and i thank you for giving me this experience. i will return the trophy to sjab room on tuesday, and in the mean time, i won't even look at the trophy, because it makes me so sick of myself. i am so happy i ended up with your, because your gave me the passion to come for cca once again. if not for your, i may be ponning every single cca session i can get my hands on. thank you for changing me. :D (to show this is NOT an emo note)

ytd was kind of stupid. i was so afraid in the morning for the uniform inspection with FLLK then we tried banging and it sounded not too bad!! :D then the reserves were made to be marshals. and i was like "okay....-.-" and i told em i can't do uniform inspection with them le, then they were like disappointed. i felt kind of sad too la.. maybe if i made a great bang with them, i could delude myself i deserve the trophy a little more. :X
then i was like sitting outside holding room for like hours and hours doing almost nothing.... until lunch break i had some food, and i felt contented with the food then i almost fell asleep at my marshal duty. YAWN. but i kept myself awake by talking with the other marshal.

then i heard about some stuff, and got totally emo. then the other marshal was like "why you so moody?" i was like shrugging and laughing it off. but i already known, and i was so pissed. pissed. pissed. pissed. pissed. pissed.

we better change zone next year. we better.

on a better note, BINGLE IS PRO. PRO. PRO. he pawned the ambulance.



today: (i am posting this in the way i posted in sec 1)

i woke up like 9am
and went to the doctor
mr. mao fung hao rocks
he was like talking to my mom at first
then he realised i was there
then he was like "what's wrong with you?"
then i crapped and talked and explained
then he look at my mom "why you nvr bring her for checkup since last august?"
i met him last august about the same problem
then my mom speechless.
then i kind of smiled to myself.
but then he said "i can't identify the problem since it has been so long."
then i pissed liao
and i looked at my mom
and gave a fcuk you look
then mr. mao gave me
mc till 14/11/08
exemption from any stenuous exercises
then he checked my back,
and realised my whole right back is not straight
urgh.
last year mine was like perfect back
and now it's obvious it's not straight
wish i didn't get that cramp in the first place
and he said i am flat footed on my right
that will explain why i keep tripping over my bed
then he wanted to refer me to a specialist.
my mom booking maybe a few weeks later.
okay. that's really scary.
mr. mao said it is my bone
and got tight hamstring
urgh.
i love you mao. (not jiayi, or yinshiuan)