today listened to cbh talk about universities and everything, and it made me really stressed up. my stomach actually tightened when i was listening! gosh. i always thought my life wasn't about studying, and now my body seems to understand that better. universities, and i am nowhere near anything? ok i know a lot of people will go like it's still early, or try to console me by saying it's ok (EGO!) but the fact is that, all of us must face this cruel truth!

maybe it's just me, or because of my genius brother, i really am afraid i cannot reach my parents' standard... its like many people who cannot reach their desired GPA even though their GPA should be quite satisfactory? i can't say mine is satisfactory, but i guess i improved, that's the most important, isn't it?

okay! anyway, i think my emotions are weird again. i get irritated and sad, and pissed, and happy for no reason. isn't that weird? LOl.

ah. today cca was just grading once more. oh well,it's funny because was chatting with sharonowa and ma'am jiahui. aww. i realised i will be meeting sharon tmr again to crap LOLLl

uh i'm tired. LOL. tmr gonna go school so damn early just for yoga mats........... SIAN! but anyway, i get big breakfast, so i dun mind :) LOL.