hello! :)
uh, i can't decide whether google chrome is better or IE8 is better? google chrome is well, cooler, newer, and everything, but i hate it when it shows pages as unavailable, when it's just my internet lagging? internet explorer is damn, damn slow. so irritating, my internet is getting so laggy, i'm not even interested in using computer lately...

oh, i cut my hair! no, i didn't cut it on my own, i asked the hairdresser near my house to cut it for me. now i have no idea whether to say it suck or not! my fringe... is irritating, it keeps on blocking my field of view, and my ponytail takes me 20 minutes to tie up because it's so small, so there's so little hair to catch. ARGH! i told the hairdresser i wanted side-parting, and thin my hair, but i want to leave it long. yeah, so the hairdresser gave me such a haircut :( i have no idea what to say next time LOL!

today went to vivo with jasmine and guanlin! siyi oso but she left after her lunch :(

skip the shopping part bah, but in the end gl got what she wanted! i think she looks rather pro in the black shirt leh :)

watched night at the museum 2, and it's hilarious, like crazy! LOLLLLL! it's so retarded, especially the pharaoh, he has a short tongue! LOL. and he called the star wars guy "asthmatic" because he kept breathing in and out loudly, which is sort of... supposed to be scary? LOL. that part was damn funny because the pharoah cannot stop talking HAHA! the einstein part is retarded slightly too, what pi la! LOL! it's so weird that the main guy just keep finding bones with others to pick LOL! i think it's a worthwhile 8.50 la, though i haven't returned jasmine her money yet...

tmr's open house, and i'm doing pd LOL! ah i duno what wil happen tmr ... and i'm sleepy. zzzzz. good night :)

I know that you're hiding things
Using gentle words to shelter me
Your words were like a dream
But dreams could never fool me
Not that easily

I acted so distant then
Didn't say goodbye before you left
But I was listening
You'll fight your battles far from me
Far too easily

"Save your tears 'cause I'll come back"
I could hear that you whispered as you walked through that door
But still I swore to hide the pain when I turn back the pages
Shouting might have been the answer
What if I'd cried my eyes out and begged you not to depart?
But now I'm not afraid to say what's in my heart

Though a thousand words
Have never been spoken
They'll fly to you
Crossing over the time and distance holding you
Suspended on silver wings

And a thousand words
One thousand confessions
Will cradle you
Making all of the pain you feel seem far away
They'll hold you forever

The dream isn't over yet
Though I often say I can forget
I still relive that day
You've been there with me all the way
I still hear you say

"Wait for me, I’ll write you letters"
I could see how you stammered with your eyes to the floor
But still I swore to hide the doubt when I turn back the pages
Anger might have been the answer
What if I'd hung my head and said that I couldn't wait?
But now I'm strong enough to know it's not too late

'Cause a thousand words
Call out through the ages
They'll fly to you
Even though I can't see, I know they're reaching you
Suspended on silver wings

Oh, a thousand words
One thousand embraces
Will cradle you
Making all of your weary days seem far away
They'll hold you forever

Oh, a thousand words
Have never been spoken
They'll fly to you
They'll carry you home and back into my arms
Suspended on silver wings ohhhh

And a thousand words
Call out through the ages
They'll cradle you
Turning all of the lonely years to only days
They'll hold you forever
Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
A Thousand Words


Final Fantasy Version:
I know that you're hiding things
using gentle words to shelter me
your words were like a dream
but dreams could never fool me...
Not that easily

I acted so distant then
didn't say good-bye before you left
but I was listening
you fight your battles far from me......
Far too easily

'Save your tears 'Cause I'll come back'
I could hear that you whispered
as you walked through that door
but still I swore to hide that pain
when I turn back the pages
Shouting might've been the answer then
what if I cried my eyes out and begged you not to depart
but now I'm not afraid to say what's in my heart....

'Cause a Thousand words
Called out Through the Ages
They'll Fly to you
Even Though I can't see
I Know They're Reaching you
Suspended on Silver Wings

Oh a Thousand Words
One Thousand Embraces
Will Cradle You
Making all of Your Weary Days Seem Far Away
They'll Hold you Forever........

Oh a Thousand Words {One Thousand Words}
Have Never been spoken {Oh Yeah}
They'll fly to you
they'll carry you home {carry you home}
And back into my arms
Suspended on silver Wings {On Silver Wings}

And a thousand words {oohh}
Called out through the ages {called through the ages}
They'll cradle you {oh yeah}
Making all of your lonely years to only days {only days}
They'll hold you forever.........

Ohhhhhhhhhhh

One Thousand Words...

____________________________________________________________________

I LOVE THIS SONG. yes. i love final fantasy too! i love the songs and everything!

and as promised, the twit siyi and i did in class... it's 2 paragraphs but it killed all of my brain cells okay!! we did it in math and biology.

(start twit)

ii am sOOOOO sianxzz
skOOl was funxz todae~~
siyi && miiee started twiiting in classx.
realli verii verii funnie worhhs.
Euux should try it lerhhs ^(00)^
okkies? guaiix horhs XOXO

we wanted tO tell all of euux: thanx euux 4 eweyting euu hab gib us.
MWAH!
ploxx smile olways nehhs~~
promise kaes?
sorriie if we're nOisy in class arhhs.
we noe we verii verii noisy larhs.
will try tO imprOve ferhs euux kayys?
frenz foreva ritezz? (:
muackzxx. Alwaes rmb we lurbbexz euux.
LAWL.

* ps, can't think of anywhere to insert laO gOng, dar dar and kOr.
Sorrie horhs!

(end of twit)

-pukes-

okay i'm done with puking. twit is so brain draining, i really have it to hand it to those twitters!

yesterday had x-country! i woke up at 530 and drifted to school to get yoga mats, then my dad took bl n me to west coast park! LOLLLLL. bl say my parents have killer aura. LOL i agree sia. the last they had that was when i was with qh and we were holding hands, then my parents "caught" us, and yep, the killer aura.

reached there and met eve, then more and more... had big breakfast hahahahha! for free somemore, yes! anyway after that i had a stomachache o.O LOL. was at the first marshal point from the starting point with sharon! had a good time saying jiayou to everyone :) even people i duno, i was randomly saying jiayou LOL. but it made me happy when people started running again, when they were walking or sth then i say jiayou, a bit only ok! then yeah! LOL. had 3 casualties, and one i bandaged him up really badly. LOL. i still feel a little bad about it, but i guess i'm happy because it's my first few attempts you know!

after that went to west mall! we went to arcade at first, and about 9-10 of us playing ddr LOL. it was damn hilarious, and interesting! though i'm sure it's cooler playing it alone LOLLLL but still i love playing it with everyone :)

then jesslyn sharon bl and i went walking around, so basically we walked past red2 and bought bubble tea, bought hot dog roll (my favourite!) and sat down to stone/talk! then we went upstairs to watch angels and demons!!

seriously it's a great movie! i was totally sleepy at the front, then the eyeball freaked me out sia. i think i just jumped on the spot or sth. then the rats crawling out from the guy's mouth, is super irksome!! i was like totally irked out! the one with water had a great time just suffocating. and the twist at the end was damn surprising, i was quite surprised because i tot the movie was gonna end soon! i mean, this movie isn't good because it's disgusting killing and stuff but it's the plot i guess! it's so interesting! LOL! i can't imagine myself figuring angels pointing whatever direction and stuff! HAHA. interesting eh! LOL

then CHIONG after movie to meet jiarong at bb mrt then we took mrt to cck and had mac for lunch! LOL. i realised i had mac for breakfast and lunch which is... unhealthy. LOL. yes it is damn unhealthy! congrats to jiarong and siyi for winning medals :) then met ruth at the lrt, so we took lrt to petir then we walked there!

LOL. for me cid is totally slacking, while the rest are busy teaching stuff sia! i was like, playing uno with the kids, and betting with them i would win so they will stop calling me "si bian tai", then played on the table, on the floor. LOL. then i played snapjack with 3 kids and had really a lot of fun! i guess playing with children is just always different isn't it!

after that went home on 963, at first told jiarong i won't sleep but i failed myself because i fell asleep and woke up in time at jiarong's stop to say bye to her LOLLLLL then went back to sleep!

reached home and i guess i was really tired, couldn't concentrate on anything at all. my mind was somewhere drifting between conscious and unconscious, which is subconscious. yep! so slept rather early!

today

in the morning got back progress report, and i was pleasantly surprised because i attained my goal for this year LOL. the nicest thing is that i got B3 for LA, which made me so happy, even though there was a lot of moderation! nick's comment was rubbish la, i always do his work dilligently, so whats with that "needs to take more pride in daily work" part? crapper la. as usual, he is like just shooting things w/o thinking.

then had pe, and i forgot to bring my pe shirt!! ahhhh! then i had to walk alone at the tracks, so sad right? lOL. nah actually half way thru i decided to join the rest in soccer while tkc is gone :) but only touched the ball 2 times? no idea. but saw a frog! siyi made it jump into the goal post HAHA. damn funny!

then had LA, didn't really know what was happening, i was.... daydreaming? i guess. i remember mr hor coming in, but nothing after that! LOL. and note that i only call mr hor with "mr" because i respect him and think he is a really great and nice teacher!

uh after that was recess. sort of stoned in class then went out for prawn mee. i love sitting outside! especially when there is no sun! it's so cooling, and i love looking at the 'scenery' at least there is sth to look at right! no ulterior motive gl! LOL HAHA!

after that was... geography. mass sleeping/trying hard to sleep period? reading book i think i sort of forgot already!

chinese was reading newspaper, guanlin is still knocked out for the whole period, wow! i was........ reading some book? LOL. yes. a book. no need to mention what content! :D

after that was maths......... uh. i'm not in acelearning already, what a relief sia. but still, didn't get what the lesson was talking about today, had to concentrate really hard for it! in the end got a bit of knowledge out of it i guess? dl in the end was like, "i know your very efficient chairperson is going to tell me time is up" when i'm just daydreaming, and eve is nowhere near raising her hand? that's weird. o.O

biology practical! no lim leh, very sad. i had to do it on my own, independent! for a few times almost placed the solutions in boiling bath with no benedict's solution, and was stunned when my boiling water overflowed a bit. LOL. i think for me, there is no such thing as a successful practical, even with those very normal details, not even into minute details! at the end siyi and guanlin helped me to clear up, thanks! :)

then had 'lunch' with siyi and then went for training! LOL. i can sort of hear myself asking why am i going again, since i'm there to ultimately stone? but it wasn't really a waste of time today, i did chemistry worksheet! hopefully LALKC will fulfil the goal even though it's not top 5, but i believe it's still a goal anyway!

AND YES. i hate lizards now. okay not to the extent of running 1000000m away when i see one, but yea, i will shout, and will just back away. yep. i'm not scared of it when it's on the wall, but i hate it when it's within 2 metres from me. it's disgusting la! today there was a lizard 'perched' on the sjab room wall, and then stupid bl used a book to hit it and sweep it out. and the lizard was swept right in front of me like shit!!! lihui and i totally screamed and backed away la! it's damn disgusting!

now as i'm typing, i'm super aware that there is a small lizard below the cupboard behind me. when i was moving the fan, it ran out and i jumped in shock. so YES i hate lizards!!

okay i'm tired. time to put songs for siyi yep :) sat's public duty :( but oh well. at least there is cip hours! :)

today listened to cbh talk about universities and everything, and it made me really stressed up. my stomach actually tightened when i was listening! gosh. i always thought my life wasn't about studying, and now my body seems to understand that better. universities, and i am nowhere near anything? ok i know a lot of people will go like it's still early, or try to console me by saying it's ok (EGO!) but the fact is that, all of us must face this cruel truth!

maybe it's just me, or because of my genius brother, i really am afraid i cannot reach my parents' standard... its like many people who cannot reach their desired GPA even though their GPA should be quite satisfactory? i can't say mine is satisfactory, but i guess i improved, that's the most important, isn't it?

okay! anyway, i think my emotions are weird again. i get irritated and sad, and pissed, and happy for no reason. isn't that weird? LOl.

ah. today cca was just grading once more. oh well,it's funny because was chatting with sharonowa and ma'am jiahui. aww. i realised i will be meeting sharon tmr again to crap LOLLl

uh i'm tired. LOL. tmr gonna go school so damn early just for yoga mats........... SIAN! but anyway, i get big breakfast, so i dun mind :) LOL.

omg. I'm like seriously feeling super very sad now. i mean i watched this video of FFX ending, and it was... so damn sad! tidus and yuna should have been tgt from the start, and why must tidus hug yuna, when he himself is like, disappearing? it makes the whole cutsense much,much worse and saddening! :( FFX rules :)

anw, i'm really tired now so i'll just keep this short..

today did some twits with siyi (i'm sorry i can't remember the contents! tmr i take the paper k!) and we were supposed to blog about our personally made twit LOLLLL. i think twit is hilarious, seriously. LOL! and plus it's retarded anyway!

then uh, i was old maid for once today HAHAAH. for once, mind you. :)

and today went west coast park and walked the whole trail and stuff. wow. it was super hot, i wonder how the people are going to survive running that long, especially the guys. :S but my marshal point will be the nearest hehe! so no need walk so long sia!

then went to mac, then went home? yeah played my mp4, and to my dismay i realised the stupid backward button is like, need to press it harder to make it detect, and it made me feel super -.-

i learnt a new emoticon: ^(00)^ LOLLLL. twit :)

ok i'm off to sleep, i'm feeling so damn, dead.

OMG. i downloaded the whole Boys Over Flowers OST! OMG. LOL!

anyway i have been marvelling over the advancement of technology as I played FF1..

and then, we have FFXIII, in other words, it's FF 13

this woman is damn pretty please! and she looks exactly like some idiotically gorgeous lady?

yup, here is to someone (who has been distressed lately about friendship?)

you know, i have a best friend too, and of course i always wish to go out with her. but many times we have different schedules, and different timetables, plus our own obligations and outings with our CCAs, so there are always times that we may not even go out with each other for one whole week in sec 3? yeah. now there's CID, but the tired bus trip is almost all the time quiet and sleepy.

but through this i understood what it meant by "absence makes the heart grow fonder" it's because we don't get to see each other so much, we made it a point to talk on the phone much and everything. it's because we don't get to see each other, we try our best to organize outings, though sometimes it may fail because my parents don't allow me.. but still, i'm still sure of this best friendship because i trust and believe in it. :)

so yeah, i agree maybe going out is important, but you have to believe in your best friend and trust her too. plus you get to sit with her and chat all the time right? i'm sure it will work out greater and stronger :) you may not notice, but to me, she has matured and changed for the better because of you, so it's not that the friendship is not strong! friendship can change the other person you know! i can see you have changed to be more positive and "cute" HAHA! yeah! so yep:)

i have no idea how many years later would you read this, but hopefully, this convinces you that friendship doesn't just exist with the existence of each other but also with the belief :) whenever you ask yourself "who is my best friend?" if that is the person you thought of, at least the belief isn't gone, right? pick up the phone and talk to her, or just talk more? yeah! ok i'm starting to crap more than i need to, but to this person: cheer up, i know you can believe :)

anyway, my com CRASHED again :/ LOL. how many times already arh? LOL. but thankfully i solved it thanks to some restoring thing, so i have to install everything again. so i actually lost all my favourite :'( AHHHHHH. why?!?! i have so many that i want to surf! damn!

anyway, i think my life is near perfect now, if not perfect yeah! firstly, my computer is not down,and i still have my games intact. secondly, exams are OVER! yes i'm damn lag, but the feeling is going away and i can play to my heart's content now :) thirdly, i have a new mp4, though it's that good, but it's not that bad either! i love it okay! fourthly, my parents prove to me that they aren't that bad after all, when i have ok results. fifthly, i love my brother's mattress, and now he's in NS, i can sleep on it all day! sixthly, i think i'm changing my plan to unlimited! OMG. i tell you it definitely makes me DAMNDAMN happy. can you imagine trying to pass a freaking message, and it took you at least 20 messages back and forth to make sure everyone got the message?! eve and i both almost died calling and smsing when we had to pass the stupid message about healthcheckup on thursday!

tmr should be going out, hopefully.. :) HAHA.

my new best friend is ZEN! LOL. i'm joking(:

anyway, something random and funny:

desmon lim was asking me about gl

dl: she sick again (or sth like that)

me: she has some family matters

dl: are you joking or are you serious?

me: (i couldn't help it) i'm joking seriously.

LOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL. what the hell! it kept making me laugh, i'm really sorry to those who completely -.- diaoed away HAHAHA! :D cuz i think it was a private joke with the sj y4 before or sth like that, maybe the fatty sharon bah? LOL. so it's like, LOL. i'm sorry!

yay! anyway i got my mp4 le, my mom gave it to me! cuz my LA was b4 LOL. =.= but still, i'm happy! :D

here it is! :D it's the best thing in my house now LOL.

hmmmm. today was boring, i kept falling asleep especially because chemistry! i mean 1hr 20 mins?! but it was actually 1 hr 10mins cuz nick gave us 10 minutes off :) thanks man!

oh yeah! you know,

our classroom has 2 set of lights, the front and back? the back lights suddenly went off halfway during chem, then it was creepy because according to witnesses the switch flipped up on its own!! :O

then the back lights came on, then the front light went off! creepy man! i was like 'mr ng you sure there's no one beside you?" nobelle was suggesting "mr ng why the guy behind you the tongue so long?" HAHAHHA!

oh yeah we changed sitting positions:( the end of my super funny to the max days le! :( i will definitely miss the DGMs, the nigahiga talks, the jokes and AP we have... :(

now i sit beside chuye and in front of me is yulu and jordyn, behind is jiayi and lihua! LOL. omg i have a feeling it's gonna be really noisy... HAHAHA! nobelle is isolated at the sides, then it's like everyone scattered around :( oh well, siyi and jasmine are sitting tgt! wah kao! shuang de lor!

CID was... just chinese chess. LOL. i duno why everyone loves it so much, weird..

and i realised how a game can show people your character easily o.o

uhhuh, tmr's PE, but i feel like sleeping. :(

alright i gotta go! bb! :D

*dies*

anyway, ytd my mom asked me for results right? she was having some undercurrent meaning, because she bought a mp4 for me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG. i was like discussing with her my results then she was like if my languages don't get a freaking C, i can get that mp4! at that time i didn't know she bought it already, so i asked her can buy ipod touch (hint, hint HAHA) then she revealed that she has ALREADY BOUGHT IT ONLINE. wow. and it's supposed to be delivered today!!!

walao! so i went around telling everyone "omfg my mom buying mp4!" and i was hoping and crossing fingers my chinese wouldn't fail me... yet. paper 2 was okay, so i'm like totally hopeful about going home, even though i still stayed out late with squad in sjab room... then i reached home, and dinner was on the table.. so the conversation went like this.

mom: oh you know your brother has to submit some applications for his interview...

me: oh okay. -munches on food- anyway mom, my chinese got b3!!!!!!!! 

mom: ok. 

me: ? 

mom: what else you expect me to say?

me: uh.... you said sth about an mp4....? 

mom: oh i not buying le.

me: O.O what? are you serious?! -suspicious-

mom: oh i gave it to your bro le 

me: right! you mail it to him arh?

mom: -.- 

me: what happened to it!!!!

mom: the person haven't deliver they say tmr lor..

me: -heart sinks and emo- 

i was so emo can! i sat on the sofa, and stoned, and then fell asleep LOL. now i'm using computer (obviously) and ahhh! i duno why i'm sad, i can still get it right?! i think i'm worried that my LA will fail me, as usual. my LA is so... horrible. i can't predict anything even though i did my best in it :(  last time i said the same thing and i failed LA. LOL! maybe because it's hooke, ahhhhh anything!!! 

hmmm today ran with jesslyn + bl and i think somehow i'm not so dead leh! ok maybe that's because i'm like... uh... running for 2/3 rounds only? but aiya! my excuse for myself is always: i don't even need to run one, run so fast for what! LOL! then pe was a little disastrous! LOL.

siyi and i group tgt with eve, lihua luqi :D 

it was rather ok, just the punishment round was a little... diao? i duno what to say. we did come and were reminded to be fast and everything, but he still punish? but after that i guess was fun! soccer was sucky la!!! i'm a girl!!! (ok, maybe some of you don't know that :P) 

need to like dribble the ball on the feet, then i keep hitting away and everything, super lan la! i think the best was eve? LOL. HAHA. interesting.. i shall stick with goalkeeper all the way :) 

because our whole group cannot dribble, so we ran one more round! 

so altogether is: 2/3 + 1 + 1 = 4/5 rounds! :) 

tmr running with siyi, i think i die liao hahhaha, she always hiong and chiong then i always die one behind! dreading it......... hahahaha! the rounds in the afternoon were worse than the morning's! oh well, i'm alive still mah! 

hmmmm got back chi? 73/110 = 65% YES.  -punches the air- sorry to people who thinks it's noob, but i'm really very satisfied with it, REALLY satisfied! wheeeee~ :D:D 

cca was oh well, cca. observe juniors' lessons and comment lor. foot drill was really hot, that's all i can say. sharon and i were at the back of the lesson being really serious :) foot drill i sort of loosen up a bit le, plus the appearance of jesslyn made me high LOL! had quite some time ignoring adam and all those anti-adam stuff. (i'm anti-adam, i'm saying it out loud) 

SOME person made me really pissed. i was like shouting at the top of my lungs la! zzzzzzzz. idiot. ZERO effort put in. and it's not s_________. though i know sometimes i shouldn't be so mean and irritated with that person, but it just gets me REALLY angry. how many months already still liddat? i'm usually a very patient person, but i lose my patience at such people. if got effort i can close one eye, but it's obvious people are spoonfeeding that person only!!! pissed off! 

then had last parade and stuff.... then debrief sec ones, felt a little out of place at some times, but i guess it's gonna be the last time the sec 1 see my very horrible face :D going back to where i belong = sec 2~  think i abit gl at some times, but i guess handing over soon le :) 

then talk in sjab room and walk around blahblahblah. :) and read above to see my home activities! 

shit i'm scared of tmr. 

1220 - 1310: LT 1 = business china talk, x-country, Asian youth games

1310 - 1400: classrooms = class contact time (COULD IT BE.....................?) 

shit man, i'm insecure. the letter C sucks. D E F G sucks more and more in ascending order! wait, there isn't a G right? LOL. yep! i'm dying tmr thanks to siyi! :D 

got some of results back. at first i was depressed because all those gotten back before were damn sucky, so i guess it's getting better now? i was stunned when i got some of the papers back because i was so sure i was sucky at it. e.g. chemistry and mathp2 -.- but thankfully everything turned out to be fine :) 

LA: -

Chinese: - 

Math P1: 48/80 (lolllll) 

math p2: 61/80 

biology: 59/90 

geography: 33.5/45

chemistry: 74.444444% (i forgot the marks) 

Omg. i think my hardcore studying paid off for once, ONCE. though geog and chemistry are rather tough luck la, but i guess i should be happy le :D hahahaha! i called my mom just now to tell her my bio marks first, then she totally scolded my ass off la zzzz. anything...

anyway my grades are just for ranting, sorry if i offended anyone by uh trying to show off or sth. i'm just spreading joy:D and on another note, pro people may find this set of grades noob or whatever, but it's great enough for me, so great that i feel so happy with it okay! :) 

today kept playing with nobelle's ipod touch, the games are like damn fun! then it's like, we played until like uh... nobelle's ipod just died hahahaha, the batt's flat! 

anyway after school went to vivo with guanlin and qianhui, then qianhui left for daiso while gl and i went for SUBWAY! :D i love subway. :) cold cut trio! uhhuh, so we just chat and chat.. 

and the cbh days are over, finally. i can remember how everyone was stunned when we saw it's him instead of the angelic miss tan. the whole class atmosphere was like frozen? and i can still remember how cheehin ran away from him when she saw him at the door! HAHAHA. hilarious! miss tan is back, and it's obvious how the 'discipline' of the class dropped from one end of the scale to the other.. but it's not exactly a bad thing, the cbh times was... creepy. reaaaally creepy. 

hahahaha. i think i didn't sleep in class at all today, great achievement! and i'm now using the comp illegally because i highly doubt that my mom would allow me access to my comp with her being pissed with my marks. whatever man, she's making a huge din out of nothing. i remember that there's some idiom for it, i forgot what it is... ah, anything. 

maybe there'll be a day when i wake up and my mom is finally satisfied with my grades. maybe? 

talking about sleeping, i have been having this recurring dream about exams. on saturday, i dreamt that i was having biology test for the next day, and i haven't prepare anything, and i woke up before i got my papers. another time was geography. and i woke up at both times feeling worried, in my half-conscious state, that i could even sleep when i have not prepared for my examinations. it shows how real the dream was! wow, the exam mood is still within me, i see! 

hmmmmmmm. tmr's cca. wonder if i should look forward to it or not o.O 

oh yea! i ran with jesslyn this morning. according to gl who passed by it was slow, but i was panting like shit at the end. i guess it wasn't much training for jesslyn huh, i was so slow!! :(  i think she wasn't even panting or feeling tired? ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh sorry! my stamina can't even last me 4 rounds i was dying at the last round, serious. i'm surprised you asked me out to run again when i'm definitely not the best running partner you can find, you must be out of choices hahahaha! joking! 

when i went back to class i just died on my table lol! guanlin was like 'how can you be dead at such a pace?!' and i thought to myself 'how true..' lol! oh no man. i think my stamina + running speed + pace is so lan until i can't stand myself! what if one day there's a tsunami coming and i bet i'll be the first one who dies, serious. i kept coughing my lungs out, and after that my guts... LOL! i think if i had asthma i definitely would have died on the spot :S 

so i decided to run somemore tmr! hahahha! i was surprised at my own reaction. usually i would be like 'walao i suck so i hate it and i won't run!' but somehow there's huge difference in it! :D yay! my mental state is better now! 

I love "Go the Distance" By hercules :) makes me feel uh, strong? i duno, just encouraging to me :) 

I have often dreamed
Of a far off place
Where a hero's welcome
Would be waiting for me
Where the crowds will cheer
When they see my face
And a voice keeps saying
This is where I'm meant to be

I'll be there someday
I can go the distance
I will find my way
If I can be strong
I know ev'ry mile
Will be worth my while
When I go the distance
I'll be right where I belong

Down an unknown road
To embrace my fate
Though the road may wander
It will lead me to you
And a thousand years
Would be worth the wait
It may take a lifetime
But somehow I'll see it through

And I won't look back
I can go the distance
And I'll stay on track
No I won't accept defeat
It's an uphill slope
But I won't lose hope
Till I go the distance
And my journey is complete

But to look beyond the glory is the hardest part
For a hero's strength is measured by his heart

Like a shooting star
I can go the distance
I will search the world
I will face its harms
I don't care how far
I can go the distance
TillI find my hero's welcome
Waiting in your arms...

I will search the world
I will face its harms
TillI find my hero's welcome
Waiting in your arms...

OK, FF1 IS FREAKING IRRITATING. everytime 3 steps i take i have to fight a freaking monster, and i'm now level 33, when the walkthrough says 'you should be level 15 - 17' why? because i can't even get out of a stupid cave without fighting with at least 20 monsters! wth! what was that!?! now i'm like in this huge cave, and i have no idea where to go so i decided to leave hahahahhaa! 

EDIT; i went crazy and bought 99 potions, 99 hi-potions, 99 ethers, 99 tents, and 99 phoenix downs LOLLLLLLLL. phoenix downs are expensive, but i'm still left with... 64774 gil. LOL. thanks to the 99.9% fighting rate of this stupid game... 

I'm rather crazy over gameboy advance now hahaha. i'm downloading (shh) about a few gba to try out, and it turns out to be really fun! :) new past time

dawn of souls rock, and i love ff1, because i always pwn the boss! i think my level is too high at that point because i'm always lost in the caves, so have to fight million of monsters.. LOL. i wonder if that's a good or bad thing? nevertheless, i love ff, it's the best game series ever! 

LOL. the second boss was a pushover like hell. astos. LOL. i was still worrying about the stupid death attack that killed my best fighter, but i revived him and then within 2 rounds i pwned him upside down LOL. omg man.  i think i trained too much already! :O but that's fun. 

i like fun, and easy games! HAHAHA.

Yesterday: 

ytd was a rather sad day for me until cca. my math is screwed sia. i expected a lot, and hoped to score mayb 50 even 60 if i have good luck. but in the end i just passed by.. 3 percent? wow. that's paper 1 for you. and i always thought my paper 1 would pull my paper 2 up, now i think both will pull me down LOL. and biology wasn't really... great or anything. i hope it will turn out well, everything, since i have already done the tests anyway! 

so cca was fun as usual. :) long time no see, everyone!  missed you hell! 

was promo parade. weird, liuqiao and i were certain we won't promote due to many many reasons, but in the end we did? LOL. wow. so i'm sergeant phyllis? wow.. LOL. i was stunned sia, damn stunned. but after stunning, i guess i'm happy! :) 

lalala. congratulations everyone! i think every single year 4 present on that day was promoted wheeeee! it was a happy day for all! 

ok i'm off to playing. cya~ 

yo! :D hahaha! 

today was a reaaaaaally long day. i meant it. i was dying in biology, head spinning, feel like sleeping and everything. and i just can't stand that my __________________________. (--- is just sth i expect many to say, but i don't want to say it out loud because it sounds very... -.- 

my bio results suck. and i studied through the night for it. 

that's nt the point. yeah. so bio got 65% yup. 

then after school went out with jiarong and qianhui, then jiarong left so only got qianhui and i then we ate at superdog, and talked a lot. moved to ben's and jerry's to talk, then transported to emo spot to talk hahahaha! 

hey girl, don't be sad. :) 打不死的蟑螂 okay! anyway today's session was meaningful, and i feel really sorry for not able to stop you in time even though i have foreseen it.. and plus all those times i couldn't go out, couldn't talk and everything.. i think i'm really not a good friend. so just to tell you know that i'm sorry :( 

then went home~ 

my mom was being guailan again zzzzz. how many times a week does it have to turn out like this? btw, my mom said "you come home right after school from today onwards" go eat your shit la. you said TWO bloody weeks to enjoy, and it's only been 2 days, and now you are putting some retarded law to me saying i have to go home early to wad, drink urine arh? plus i just finished my mugging period, and i'm in really bad mood. i'm not in any mood to joke around with you about new idiotic curfew hours. 

anyway, back to happy topics! tmr's cca again! i can't wait to see everyone again! been so long since i ever had contact with everyone except charlene and eve:) 

and emo. i hate putting the idiotic badges la. it's gonna take me a million hours to put them nicely, and it will still end up ugly! wakao la! hate hate hate badges!!! now with the stupid commissioner thingy, i have no idea to put it on or not, its so weird to put that on, it's so noob actually! and i put alrdy will have a hole there then must always put liao!!! 

ah, nvr mind. promo parade tmr, so yeap like what one tiny girl said to me once and what i believe in, "its not the piece of cloth, it's the effort!" :)  wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! 

i said to siyi today, "you are from uh, the mental club arh?" HAHAHAHAHA. it was funny! LOL. and i was dead serious, just the word didn't go to my brain except the first letter, so the word mental formed from my mouth HAHA! pspsps. sorry i couldn't resist. but yeap, to make it clear, it's mindsports:) 

YAY. i on my comp le. :) 

didn't go to school today because i having fever. No. i HAD fever. it's gone down already :)

yesterday: 

it was rather fun. during math paper i was sort of burning up unconsciously for some reason, the room felt hot to me the math paper was easier than i expected, because everyone was saying it was going to be hell of difficult. but in the end it was difficult, but not so difficult that it handicaps everyone's math knowledge or sth.. HAHA. then met jiarong and germaine to do CID, then germaine left with cailing, and the elit peeps came after their paper, and we finished all 12 scenes!! OMG. 成就感 x100! 

then went out with jiarong cuz others not free le, so we walked around anchorpoint at first. the craz shop had the same few things, but i'm super hesitant on buying, especially this pink half jacket thing but i still bought presents. (heh,heh,heh) these presents will give them out tmr bah. some belated, some early ones:) 

i think i was really having a headache, and i was feeling cold most of the time HAHA. i always thought it was the shopping centre, now i know why XD then we went to vivo.. 

vivo was super weird, because all the RVians there changed into their own clothes, only got jiarong and me in school uniform LOL. i duno, we walked around and i was looking out for a dress:( i wonder when i could be qualified for a dress, lousy sitting, lousy posture, acts like a boy LOL. 

then after that we went to vivo at about 4, then we read magazines, and stuff. then my mom called me and asked if i wanted dinner, so jiarong and i decided to have dinner tgt! :D i had korean noodles (or sth) in kopitiam. definitely warmed me up quite a lot. :) 

then reached home at about... 8? my mom didnt scold me xD hahaha! then i went to bathe. and i bathe for like 40 minutes because i was so dizzy in the shower LOL! then came out and immediately went to sleep, then realised i had fever lor. :) 

and i was pissed at first because my mom insisted that i go to school, because she don't want to take one day off for me and everything la. she also said that i shouldn't go out if i wasn't feeling well, but i didn't regret it anyway LOL. then i was rather offended because she was saying what "why must you be sick, if you quarantined, i can't go for work" i was like wondering, i thought you were the anti-work one, who comes home everyday to complain? now what?

anyway, went to sleep really early. :) 

now my temp dropped from 38.3 to 37.7 and i feel as fit as a fiddle :) hahaha! happy, now can watch dramas le :) 

BLAH. i'm using my dad's comp now, gonna delete history later.. :)

i hate math! especially trigo! why would you want to figure out the shape of curves when you have your own curve to worry about! (LOLLLL,it's lame)

but anyway, it's probably just differentiation and integretion i'm looking at but the exam mood ain't coming back.. in fact i'm more in the post-exam mood, to watch dnyby!! :D and the worst part is i realised, it's so damn long! the stupid, stupid, two topics are DAMNNNN long. i dun understand why would it turn out like that! i feel like sleeping, cutting myself bald because i suck at trigo so much! i can't understand if sin x = 0 means it's in all quadrants or what. stupid, stupid trigo!! to sidetrack a bit, i feel like cutting my own hair again? anyone think i should? LOL! it's fun! :)

integretion and differentiation are like two ends of a magnet, completely two different shit, and ahhhhhh! i wish i started earlier..but that means i can't watch dnyby! :( i love dnyby i think its much better in content and romance than... they kiss again? i duno, i feel like watching the first series, but seriously, zhengyuanchang looks like a gay dabian in the first series! LOL! LOL. i'm sidetracking~

and anyway, tmr is the last day of examinations for everyone! wish everyone a merry day ahead and have funn! i have a date wheeeeeeeeeee!:) though i feel like going for squad outing too, but i guess i will just go with my date first. hehehehehe!! :D

i love mike he and hebe (: of course the bodyguard, but the duo are the super sweet ones. :) hebe looks great in a white dress, short hair, and with (spoiler) falling geese feathers everywhere (/spoiler) and mike he looks great in a suit!! :D

i'm gonna watch.. 恶魔在身边 i think. the korean dramas should stop first.. i'm getting sick of the language for some reason o.O but still, think i'll finish boys over flowers first before moving on:)

:'( LOL

i'm gonna study.. at evening or sth. i can't really concentrate anymore!! stupid really nice dramas! thanks to them i can't study(: HAHA! i don't care, just flunk or sth bah.. i already in the post-exam mood liao! :D:D 

伊胜雪，你可能是世界上最可怕的恐怖分子。短短的时间，你就这样大步穿过直径，走进我心里。

- 沈若赫, 斗牛要不要

hmmm! and yeap, i love 

斗牛要不要!!! 

uhhuh, i love mike and hebe! though i think he looks better with rainie, but i'm just gonna go crazy over hebe first. 

OMG. she is sooooooo pretty! (though she has one big and one small eye) but still!! she is so hot and pretty and so cute! and she looks really nice in short hair, reaaaaaaaaaaally nice. (: 

and next to mike! hahaha he is shuai at some angles, and he is super cool in the show leh! hurray! i think i may start watching his dramas and everything for entertainment soon! whee! and his facial expressions sometimes are so funny! (e.g. hot spring) 

hmm the bodyguard gets on my nerves when he tries to show off. but i really feel he should end up with hebe! :( but still, the script is always about the naughty person getting the girl mah, trying to emphasize that sometimes no matter how nice you treat a person, he/she may not recipocrate (?) your feelings! but still, it's sad that the bodyguard is losing.. hopefully he wins at the end!!! (i havent finish it yet haha!) 

and i realised so many dramas taught me that, being rich and famous brings a lot of loneliness with it, which is usually how those super cool celebrities may not be as happy as we think they are... isn't that sad? they have to seem happy and satisfied with everything, even though all of them may be feeling that same loneliness inside... hmm, maybe that's why those celebs can end up tgt(: 

and hmm... i wanna do sth random..

who will i want to be friends with, my mom or dad?

i would say... my dad. LOL. my mom is quite the workaholic, and she doesn't have a good listening ear, because she is too absorbed in her own world, and she expects someone with a good listening ear to listen to her (i.e. my dad) 

so my dad is a better listener, and sometimes when i feel really down, i do talk to him for fun, and he isn't like my mom, insisting that "you shouldn't worry about this, worry about yourself" because he himself isn't cold to his friends, he is a helpful person, in fact. my uncle (which is my dad's bro) asked him for 50k because he was gambling. my mom told him to leave my uncle alone, but my dad still helped him out.. (even though it's at the expense of our family) and once i talked to him about some friendship problems, he actually gave me usable advices, and i realised the charm my dad had in his younger days when he listens intently. 

my mom isn't that attentive, she always looks away when i'm talking, and she can just suddenly talk to my dad when i am talking, which gets me pised like hell. either my bro and my dad would be like "don't interrupt!" LOL. and i would be like "ok fine, nvr mind." LOL! 

but anyway, my mom is irritiating in some ways, like she loves to spoil movies and dramas. so i don't like watching tv with my mom. LOL. she always like to comment on the movies, and guessing the outcome and everything, and acting as if she knows everything! luckily i ain't as stupid as before to even believe that Joanne Pei was a prostitute in Little Nyonya!!! urghhh! i was damn paiseh when cherie and ys say she wasn't la! my mom act clever act until very... irritatintg. so from then on, i usually turn a deaf ear to her. only my dad can stand watching dramas with her.. 

oh well. but she has good points as well. she is a helpful person at times to her very close friends, though at other times she's very paranoid and suspicious of everyone around her. but still, she's really great as a mom in the sense she always take care of her family first, i guess. but being her friend definitely isn't too favourable... as a mother she's overprotective, but i guess that's because she loves her children. (loving more specifically to one than the other) 

HAHA! it was a random question i tot of when i was in my car. :) if you wanna do it too, feel free tooo muahahaha! 

edit; i realised i don't listen to my mom because she always says the same things, it's too time-wasting to listen HAHA! omg i'm so bad HAHA! 

stupid, stupid internet. i hate it when my dad uses computer too, it slows the internet down like crap!!!

LOL. "A message to all haters" by nigahiga is funny, especially after i deciphered most of the 'haters' messages LOL.

some weird dream
anyway, had an extremely weirdo dream this morning. LOL. it was kind of lucid i guess. i sort of knew i was dreaming because it seemed unreal and it was totally random. so the whole squad was in... somewhere in hawaii I guess, because everyone was near this extremely beautiful and blue sea. blue and clean seas always relate to hawaii to me anyway.. but one random thing was that i was wearing a jacket in that hot weather, and feeling quite ok, when the rest were wearing, what singlets, teeshirts, and everything. (another random: all of us were wearing red) were feeling like they were in a sauna LOL. then suddenly something happened, and we were uh, having a weird... triage. -.- i have no idea what happened, and the next and best part is that i'm in P-0 (Priority Zero, where dead people are placed) LOL. and i woke up. LOLLLL I was totally huh..? LOL.

hmm woke up at 1. LOL. i was sleeping my ass out. lemme tell you why:

yesterday:
i went out with charlene then went home to use computer and watch boys over flowers until about... 5 then i called my mom to tell her i'm not joining them to go to pasir ris to pick my bro up. in the end it was a great decision because i got to watch tv! so i called my mom at 7 to ask (i know, it's like jail). my very good excuse is that i was afraid of the darkness, so tv can distract me! then i quickly switched the television on, and i started watching random shows ytd! so i didn't sleep at all until 11 i just knocked out on the bed while listening to mp3 LOL!

Some RANDOM shows i watched
- some shaolin show which was 古装 (i was interested because there was rather cool characters i know e.g. ouxuan, christopher lee, and some random one that often appear on the 古装 shows... oh did i tell you i like watching such movies? :) )
- yulebaifenbai (LOL. it was about... 龙祖儿 i think.. so i switched off quite fast haha!)
- power sunday ( it was darn funny, i kept laughing when they played this basketball match on soft air filled mattresses. they kept falling and kena pulled backwards! LOLLL)
- my school daze (the singapore show and i love rui en! she is perhaps the few singapore artistes that i love seeing on television)
- news (whee, mas selamat is gone! and he was caught like, one month ago? wth? for this month have the police been drowning or sth?)

my favourite show ytd was bloody obviously POWER SUNDAY!!!! omg. it was so funny! wuzhongxian is the best man. and this fat guy called 白云 was damn funny and ke lian oso, he reminded me of how i always kena suaned sia! LOL! yet i was chortling like mad!

油腻腻， 他真是油腻腻，<--- refering to 白云
好像大便掉到马通里
他真是油腻腻....

LOLLL. this song is supposed to be sang in the 甜蜜蜜 song tune. LOLLL! I was totally laughing my ass off ok!! HAHA! and plus how wu zhong xian keep teasing people in clever ways is damn pro (puts up thumb!) HAHA!

but nevertheless i am making such a big fuss over just one night because i haven't been catching shows on tv since... last year? yeah some of the advertisements were super mo sheng! :)

yep, i'm off (:

KYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. 

okay i'm sorry. i needed to rant. OMG. 

USUI<333333333333333!>

yay. the worst exam is over!!! happy! even though it was rather... -.- LOL~ 

today went out with charlene and walk all over ikea, queensway and not to mention anchorpoint! :D ahahhaha! we had kfc though HAHA. i'm stil full sia. xD and anchorpoint has crazy prices sia. i bought earrings though :D we walked into this shop like twice or thrice because the prices are UNBELIEVABLE. one shirt that is supposed to cost like 30 dollars cost 5 dollars in that shop! siao sia! HAHAHA! 

now just gonna play games, sleep, watch videos, and stuff! cya~ 

to all rvians: 辛苦了！(; 

geography test today, and maths ytd. 

geog was... okay bah. expected lor. but i had to chiong a bit at the end sia. xD okay, nvr mind, tmr 's double paper!! -dies- LOLLL i want sleep liao. night(: 

lol.. first two papers and i can screw up like some shit already WALAO. 

and my previous post is... rather childish, i realised. i haven't been a good daughter anyway, so i shouldn't expect my mom to be good to me either. so yeap. 

LA paper 1: i didn't introduce what is the traditional family in the first place. by the time i realised, it's time up. plus i couldn't think straight, and i'm afraid it will go off topic... 

chinese paper 1: 张_____ LOL. i dun wan to say it, it's too stupid to be even considered to be a mistake. urgh. okay. i think the papers i'm going crazy over are coming, so i should be worrying about that. 

hmm when did i start caring about results anyway? LOL... 

and i know i'm always alone. (: 

"Shining, shimmering, splendid.
Tell me princess, now when did
you last let your heart decide?"
- Disney Soundtracks, A whole new world

lalalallala :D i'm blogging again! i.e. i'm using the computer yay! 

Examinations are round the corner, and i love slacking. :) 

I shall ATTEMPT to blog in perfect english. For what? for FUN! (and in brackets i shall just use very simple english HEHE) 

yesterday, Siyi and I went back to school to consult Nick(n.c.k), but it turned out to be an useless session for both of us after that. (slackers in action!) Frankly, we were both courting our own deaths by going back to school as: 

1. Siyi didn't tie her hair up

2. I wasn't in school uniform

At 12, both of us met at the bus stop that is a stone's throw away from Ikea. (frankly, no, it's much further than that please) Siyi was late for about 10 minutes, (LOLLLL) and I waited patiently for her at the bus stop, listening to my Music Player 3. (MP3!) At 12.10 p.m, Siyi called me to pleasantly inform me that she had gotten off the wrong bus stop and she would be reaching the bus stop on foot. (GAH. perfect english sucks like shit) I was rather amused. After a minute, she arrived at the bus stop and we went into Ikea to shop for Siyi's light bulb for her table lamp. It was an... enriching experience. I realised E14 etc represents the size of the bulb and 70W meant walts. Ikea had very beautiful furniture, but I was extremely fascinated with the lamps which were 'dimmable'. I had much fun playing around with the switches of the lamps! (oh, i was so tempted to use :) LOLLLL) 

After Siyi finally made her choice on the cheapest available light bulb that would fit her lamp, we went for lunch (brunch for me) and we realised that the restaurant was full then siyi and i played scissors paper stone i lost, but she gave in to me (:D). Therefore, we went to have hot dogs. 

Thereafter, we went to school, and paged for nick. Nick wasn't available at first, so we decided to look for him even though we were trying to avoid teachers. After some time, we decided that nick might have went up to the staff room via the shortcut from the General Office, so we paged him again. This time, he picked up the phone, thankfully. so we proceeded with asking (bombarding) him questions. most of the questions were rather idiotic because i realised how easy that theory was. (and how boring plain english can be...) 

After that, we met qianhui and alvin at the study area outside the library. then i tried... to study but to no avail. (D:) at around 5p.m. i rushed home as my life would be in grave danger if i reached home later than my mother. 

oh yeah, before i forget, 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIM BINGLE. (: 

today: (MY NORMAL BLOGGING) 

hmmm today was very screwed. i only finished chemistry today because i kept digressing. can't stand it sia. i kept doodling, and my doodles can take half an hour. -.- although i tried to stop!! and my eating habits are crazy! i went out to buy waffles, bought two one for my mom one for me. then my mom said it's ok you eat, then I FINISHED TWO WAFFLES :O what the! after that i was deaded because my stomach was dying. i went to the toilet twice after that. stomach flu! :D (swine flu) LOL. 

omg. swine flu is such an epidemic in the world.. 

i hope no one i know would get swine flu... because if swine flu ever comes to you, it means you're a pig. ok fine, that was... lame. HAHA. i duno why i kept saying that, then it's so cliche and stupid! 

the day started so badly. my mom accused me of what, trying clothes out at home to spend my time off? 

start of rant (don't read if you don't like rants:)) 

please. in the first place, i reached home at 5.30 (even though you assumed i was home at 4) how could i have done that. and you and your stupid 'evidence' which was some retarded sleeve poking out of the cupboard. if you're so pro, instead of wasting your time trying to think out what i have been doing at home, you can just look at my notes, instead of noticing the WRONG things, and scolding me when i have been... mugging. i can say i mugged quite a lot, compared to my previous years. even though i was bored at times, who in the earth will take clothes out to play with it and dress up like barbie doll? firstly, the shirts would STINK. secondly, I'm FAT, and i have enough self esteem to tell myself that i don't deserve to observe myself in front of the mirror and let those fats be more prominent than it should be. if you knew me, you wouldn't say that. 

you said i went out yesterday because i wore shinfung and c.simin's presents - socks, so i went out. WHICH fcuking rule in this world says that wearing weird socks = going out with friends? do i seem like that to you? I'm getting more self-disciplined, and i almost felt like just slacking off. I wore those socks because i was in the mood.it was white. it was cute. it was poking out of my cupboard. isn't that enough? and i went to school. I WENT TO school. it's not like i'm being all slack and everthing. whatever makes me disgusted is that even my own mother suspects me. 

what is family without trust. what are you, if you don't trust your own daughter? if you take me as a slapping bag you can slap whenever you want to, there will be this day when you realise how immune i'm to the pain of slapping. that shows how much you slap me. i'm sure i told you before. i HATE people slapping me. i hate people accusing me. and i hate people trying to act like they know things when they don't. why do you possess all these three? why must i be the only one around who gets slapped, caned by my mother in secondary school? i feel like a primary school kid. i'm 16. i'm a freaking 16. I could do so many other things if i want to. but i chose to take care of my school work. i chose to be a good student this year. i chose to be a better daughter to fill up the empty space my model brother left behind when he went for NS. why do you have to make it so much more difficult? 

and why must i hesitate? karma. if you didn't fall sick, i would have left this house. if it wasn't my fault, i would never be hesitating to leave this bastard house. i wish you could read this, and wonder what kind of mother have you been to me. curfews, canes, expectations. zzzz. 

rant over. 

yes, rant is over. :D LOl. i'm sorry, i'm really touchy when it comes to such things. 

so i used the com since.... 6. :D HAHAHA. okay i'm sorry. :( 

haha. okay. end post. and jiayou everyone for midyears(: 

P.S. OMG. die. i better run away from her asap. :D (lucky never link) but no point to have it now right? hopefully...... :S 

P.P.S. bio is untouched. damn time!!!!  

P.P.P.S. swine flu should just quarantine the whole country! ok i was joking. (: