I know i should tell you how i fell I wish everyone would disappear Every time time you call me, I'm too scared to be me And I'm too shy to say

LALA. today woke up at 7.30a.m. and ran out of house to take the bus in time, and i reached school really early, like 8.15a.m. LOL! okay..
community singing for me was horrendous!! I keep chu chou lah.. like singing, then i do wrongly, when everyone do correctly, so i look damn out! -.-

okay then i went off to talk to jesslyn xm bl yongen charlene.. i guess if i were there with them just now.. i dunno what will happen.

okay then singing aside, then it was foot drill... i nag and nag again-.-
then sharon liuqiao and i go slack for a while while the sec 1s had their community singing :D

okay then png hang and eevee came in and we discussed about some stuff lor. ):

then last parade and then its training.

i spent almost my whole life persuading the sec 2s to come lah!! okay but i'm really glad in the end it turns out well...

this is to a few people. if you think "i DON'T care if i don't get into competition" it is a lie to yourself only. I experienced it before, and i told myself "hey, it doesn't matter if i'm in or not." but in the end, when i saw how much my friends and squadmates achieve more than me, i felt useless, and i felt helpless at the same time. It was like i given up a choice to make myself useful you know? when i joined foot drill com, i was afraid of causing the team to lose. everyday i go home, i worry, and i almost snapped because i was so stressed with the obvious difference between my drills and the others. it was then i realised not being in com is NOT ok. but i went home, and i practiced on my own. i can still remember the first time jesslyn praised me, saying that my drills improved a lot. the feeling was so happy, i nvr experienced it like it.
when i took the trophy i worked so hard for in my arms, that few months of intense training, stress, everything are suddenly all behind me. i rather have it a million times harder if i could claim that trophy as my own, because i worked for it, and my hard work paid off.
joining com is a commitment, but saying it is a waste of time is too surface. believe it or not, things you learn in com, you can nvr learn anywhere else. plus, by not joining com, you have WASTED 3 years of your life in sjab. perhaps in com, you sacriface time, but in the end, that period people wasted by slacking, you learnt so much more. so, waste of time is not a right phrase to use at all.

i wonder if you guys ever tot about us when you decided to pon, or just give up.