God, when do i ever get my own freedom?

Sorry jiarong, qianhui, zijun i couldn't go at the last minute, i really wanted to go so much, but still, my words in the end doesn't count as anything. Sorry.

Why can't i even stand up? For her health? If so, i really have to live under this shit for about a few years. so many times i wanted to run out of this jail, but for so many times i stopped myself, telling myself that her health is the most important. i don't want to regret it later. I hate regretting, but how can i not regret, when i wasted limited quality time with my friends? plus, they must be looking forward to it as much as i do. I'm at a junction, with no idea which way to walk to. Priority they say, but how do i even choose. On one, it's my promise, the other, it's my family.