hey! HAHA. today was more fun, went to suntec and shopped, but only got one shirt =.= but i guess that's enough (:

went to repair my phone AGAIN because the memory card cannot be read like seriously, and i was getting so happy because it was back.. =.= HAHA. i think the person who served me my family, hahaha was rather cool like he realised my phone's problem in like 3 minutes from observing? really cool! LOL. okay then he said it was my battery and i wasn't happy because the battery was my bro's phone because he kept complaining it was hot when charging... and so now i changed back with him forcefully, and haha, it worked!

then went to my auntie's new house, which is super nice. i mean it's not big, it's just a normal HOUSE, not a flat, and it gives me a very healthy and spacious feeling. like u are in the greenlands kind of feeling, really good:D

caz the dog is cute as usual and i think he's getting old, being dormant for a long time lol. mitchie the female dog is cute too but i dunno where it went throughout my visit LOL. only saw it for like 5 minutes and it was gone for the rest of the few hours..

then went for dinner and stuff then went home. LOL.

i was calling bing le and i went

"hello may i speak to bingle, no, BING LE." LOL! it wasnt on purpose, but whatever, it made the funny effect nevertheless.

went random blogs, and chanced upon png hang's blog :P
saw the video she made and was really happy for some reason. i mean, it's 2 years late, but the squad is finally bonded. ok maybe only half, since it's 11/20 + yuting, but still, it's a really happy feeling to feel bonded to the squad(:

and saw her post, and remember the things i felt so many years ago. ok not many, it's just a few. and i felt it a few months ago, around the middle part of the year. but thankfully, many people helped me clear that doubt, and i believe in true friends after all. some may betray you in the end, bt i still believe that true friends exist as long as you search for one(:

bye people, and LOOKING FORWARD TO CAMP SHOPPING ON TUESDAY(:

OK. LOL! in case you are thinking that i'm being lame saying emo emo emo post, but in the end the emo note was only a few lines long, it was because by the time i typed till then, i was quite okay le. LOL.

today was boring, went out with family for prom shopping for brother, in the end i bought a golden handbag myself. =.= that's all i guess...

LOOK OUT PEOPLE. AN EMO POST IS COMING UP.

Had nothing much nowadays, just the same, training, cca training, cca, training, and just one outing with jiarong, then training cca again HAHAHA. urgh, seriously, i need more free time! LOL.

sorry nobelle, couldn't go for your birthday party): hope you had a great time nevertheless! :D

instead of gg bedok, i went training... and stuff.

LOL. why should i emo, my life is busy, hectic, and fun! LOL! but still, setbacks to a happy life are always emo notes.

today went for parade and almost died in the sun.. almost became roasted already lah, the sun was glaring like hell! bt didn't complain, wasn't much to complain anyway, especially beside juniors.. did foot drill for the first time since dunno how long, missed it, and wish i was in foot drill com YET again, must be suffering from some disorder to miss the same thing for so many months.

juniors around, and junbo really really did his best lah, could see him swaying with the wind cause of his backache, but he persevered on (: we cut squad, so pumped 20, and it felt not too bad, like i was a cadet again!

after dunno how many times of parade and resting, we finally dismissed. shit, i belok wrongly like hell walao. gosh la, forgot a lot of stuff! HAHA!

was observing everyone when we were sitting. seriously, everyone was not moving, and it looks super cool la OMG. lol, nothing much to blog about, i only can say that the procedure is so AGI lah! LOL. totally!

here comes emo.

went out with qiao, jess, xm, bl after cca LOL. we wanted to leave at 1.15 and 2.10 we were still crapping in the sjab room! LOL! and how puzzling, people say it's not nice to go out in odd numbers cuz one will be left out, but how so lah, it only happens when people are not close to everyone else lah LOL. i don't believe in that since i met nobelle and now my squad proved it otherwise too HAHA! i didn't notice it was odd number until we reached the restaurant and we had to take an extra chair for bing le LOL!

okay so we took 166, the first bus that came, and we sat sat sat until we felt like it, and got down, so we ended up in central HAHA! so we had japanese food at this random kopitiam place at the top level, and then we go see SINGAPORE RIVER. mr chan must be crying with joy lor LOL. then we sat down and ate icecream and talked...

then i learnt a lot of things, happy, unhappy, and astounding things. but a lot of worrying things too.

here comes emo! (:(:

how do i even help? i tried a lot of times, but again, it's just because i went for advance. damnit. if i didn't go, maybe things would not end up like this!

end1 :D

had one of the worst arguments with my mom ytd and kana slapped. duh i'm angry.

I. LOVE. THE. SEC. 3. SQUAD. (EXCLUDING ADAM:P)

HAHAHHA! thanks eve for uploading, you rock (: the photos damn cute lah! HAHAHA was laughing when i saw it :P


today was a weird day. woke up at 12, cuz i slept rather late last night, and my mom wanted me to sleep longer so my happy fever wont be coming back after my panadol intake! so in the end, it didn't, but my mom told me not to go class bbq anymore, cuz damn last minute =.= i told her since wednesday, and she forgot about it._.
sorry peeps at cheehin house now! :(

okay then i went out with my family damn bu shuang. then go tiong bahru to buy uniform and meet a girl there in sec 3 de i forogt what name :P the shop is DAMN small. then my mom kept saying this when i said "shui bian lah, just choose one and leave" :

"AIYA MEI. later you become fatter how! don't eat so much le hor! and ah, your shorts ah, very bao (thin) very ugly! you want to buy this one? (flags the new thick shorts and ignores my glare) you ah, the skirt ltr too tight how? then you sit down very uncomfortable, and then ltr you fei rou come out ah!"

then i totally pissed diao lah. so embarrassing, thats why i refuse to buy uniform with my parents lah. walao eh! then i had to go to toilet to change, then i was reading the signs behind the glass panel and trying hard to ignore the girl standing at the staircase because i look really toot with a skirt in my hands, then my mom SHOUTED

"MEI YOU GO WRONG WAY, HERE LAH!" then i just embarrassingly walk into the female toilet ><
ok then try the skirt, and it was ok...

then i just made my mom faster buy then leave liao lah!! LOL
then walk in popular for a while finding books but nvr buy
then we went suntec to repair my phone:D

on the way i saw that This Fashion was having a sale, so i pulled my mom in, and i actually bought clothes out!! :P

okokok. then repair phone and stuf,f it's under warrenty...

then went home at like 8 plus >< HAHA

okay erm. I'M CRYING NOW. full moon wo sagashite made me break down like hell!

i. love. full. moon. wo. sagashite. takuto is so so so nice. i love meroko lah!! equally as takuto and mitsuki!! :( the ending was so touching lah, i just started crying! :)

ok i really need to rant lah!!! just don't read if you are bored :P

WALAO EH, TAKUTO IS SO NICE. HE GAVE UP HIMSELF JUST FOR MITSUKI. MEROKO OSO, FOR TAKUTO. THIS IS THE BEST LOVE TRIANGLE I EVER KNEW OKAY. I LOVE THEM SO MUCH, ALL THREE OF THEM! WAAAAA WHY MUST IT END! STUPID SHARON WHY MUST YOU INTRODUCE THIS ANIME TO ME (note:i'm in a blaming mood :P) WALAO IF YOU DIDN'T, I WOULD BE A HAPPY PERSON NOW, PLAYING GAMES, INSTEAD OF BLOGGING AND EMOING OVER THIS! :(

ok fine, rant over!
hahaha tmr seeing baby felicia again! hope she'll be there though >< AHA! i love children!

HAHA. tagged by edmund to do a quiz..
as promised!

RULES:Do the "Letter MEME".T
ag no less than 5 other people, and leave them a comment,informing them that they have been tagged.
Then copy the "How-to" Letter Meme, and finish your Journal entry.
-> How you do the Letter Meme:
Dear (edmund):I don't really know how to tell you this, but I dislike you. I think I realized it that night under a state of trance and I saw you sit on Donald Duck. I'm sure you're ashamed enough to understand that Santa doesn't exist. I'm returning your ring to you, but I'll keep my common sense as a memory. You should also know that I get sick when i think of it eggplant-fetishism. go burn,-PHYLLIS-

1. What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I'll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn't match
Grey - You're a pervert
Yellow - I'm selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You're a loser
Other - I'm in love with your sister

2. Which is your birth month?J
anuary - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December - When I changed tennis shoes

3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kabob - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women's clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
None of the above - With George Bush and his wife

4. What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive out

5. What's your favourite colour?
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflé
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My penpal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy-statue
Other - me

6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs - Man
O.C. - Emotional
One Tree Hill - Open
Heroes - Frostbitten
Lost - HighHouse - Scarred
Simpsons - Cowardly
The news - Mongolic
Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Senile
Top Model - Middle-class
None of the above - Ashamed

7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful I've felt
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That Santa doesn't exist
Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we're cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this.
Nervous - The middle-east
Worried - That your Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex-chang
eAshamed - That I'm allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Overjoyous - That I'm open
Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks

8. What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your ring
Yellow - Your love letters
Red - Your Darth Vader-poster
Black - Your tame stone
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures from LA
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your contact book
Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs
Purple - Your old lottery coupons
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your memories from the military service
9. The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your photo
C/D - The oil stocks
E/F - Your neighbour Martin
G/H - My virginity
I/J - The results of your blood-sample
K/L - Your left ear
M/N - Your suicide note
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X - David's tricot outfits
Y/Z - Your grades from college

10. The last letter in your last name?A/B - Always will rememberC/D - Never will forgetE/F - Always wanted to breakG/H - Never openly mockedI/J - Always have felt dirty beforeK/L - Will tell the authorities aboutM/N - Told in my confession today aboutO/P - Was interviewed by the Times aboutQ/R - Told my psychiatrist aboutS/T - Get sick when I think ofU/V - Always will try to forgetW/X - Am better off withoutY/Z - Never liked

11. What do you prefer to drink?
Water- Our friendship
Beer - SenilityS
oft drink - A new life as a clone
Soda - The incarnation as an eskimo
Milk - The apartment building
Wine - Cocaine abuse
Cider - A passionate interest for mice
Juice - Oprah Winfrey imitations
Mineral water - Embarrassing rash
Hot chocolate - Eggplant-fetishism
Whisky - To ruin the second world war
Other - To hate the Boston Celtics

12. To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand - Warm regards
USA - Best regards
England - Good luck on your short-term leave from jail
Spain - Go and drown yourself
China - Disgusting regards
Germany - With ease
Japan - Go burn
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
Australia - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt - Fuck off now
France - In Pain
Other - Greetings to your freaky family

OH YEAH. the people i am tagging are...
1. jiarong!
2. eevee!
3. xinmun!
4. nobelle!
5. bing le! :P

Alright, here comes the blogging! :D

ytd i stayed at home, so it was rather boring.. watched full moon wo sagashite, but not addicted at all, instead i fell asleep watching it... =.=

okay from today onwards, i'm..

CORPORAL PHYLLIS! :D

HAHA! it's just so fabulous u know! :D today morning, woke up in a frenzy because i forgot a lot of stuff like my beret which was under my packs of books (seasoning you know) and i forgot to polish my boots!! :P

okay then i went for breakfast with dad, and had wanton mee at ABC. then went off to school reaching there at about 8.40a.m. LOL! and i was considered late?! LOL okay then went to change and stuff...

then promo parade:D it was so scary. i was wondering if i would turn out as a corporal, then in the end, i did!! :) i cut squad though, and i think it was eh.. wrong. ><

so now i'm corporal phyllis seah kia mui! oh yeah!~ haha. okay then after that had some briefing with the sirs and ma'ams about com stuff.. then sec 3s went off to vivo for

PNG HANG BIRTHDAY BASH! (:

HAHHAA! i was thinking why sharon was saying "hey faster liao leh, the main person today is gonna leave!!" HAHAH so we went vivo city, and we split into two groups for lunch ): didn't want that!! but in the end i realised the use for it HAHA! so yen sharon liuqiao png hang charlene and i went to super dog, while the others went the toast box =.=

then after eating, we started taking photos like crazy, and the usual suaning... :D then we go sky garden to meet the others and..

SING BIRTHDAY SONG FOR DEAR PNG HANG! (:

hahahah! then we ate the cake and i kana smashed in the face, just a small piece lah, and it wasn't anything in the first place, just a little cream lor :P then we went to play games like guang dong chao mian, gimme tempo here we go! :D then we played this no moving no laughing game, then i kept laughing and laughing for no reason, because my mind wasnt wandering around, i was super alert some more can! LOL

then i kana splashed by water like helll!!!

LOL i was drenched okay and i was freezing somemore.. ><

then i went home drenched, and the air con completely froze me!! :P then i went home half dry and took an half hour bath(:

seriously, after that didn't feel right, so went to sleep

then felt my blankets getting damn hot, then i just on the fan and took off the blanket. then it was cold again ?! LOL then i touched my forehead and found it rather hot. so the last verdict: i'm having a HAPPY fever D:

HAHA! it was really really fun today(: very long nvr smile like that le, i don't mind getting splashed and feverish like this a million times over :D:D

ROD was rather screwed, but overall i guess the concert pulled it up just a lil... ><
my game station was at first screwed, because everyone were so serious lah!! sigh! then i changed the game to guang dong chao mian, then in the end i hoped everyone had a little fun.. :P
concert mc was rather screwed i think LOL

crash course today.. :D lol adam told charlene it's 8 then in the end got wrong message lah liuqiao LOL! so she came at like 8 when actually it's 9.. i had my dad to fetch me because in the morning i was totally dying, i can't even stand up straight and stuff because i was so dog tired

so we waited, then we noticed that there are NCC people around! :O think they had some camp or sth, because there were tents on the field HAH! :D then we did a little foot drill... LOL i only did for like a minute or so can LOL! then revised cpr.. =.= i'm a little glad at least that we revised, if not i'll be so suaku sia..

then went home right after course, bathed, slept, read books... then used com.. LOL i realised that the com is very very boring.. unless i find sth good to do... sigh..

ytd talked to jiarong on phone for about 40 minutes and i was thinking since i'm always so pissed, why can't i just break away? my excuse used to be that i don't want to come back finding out she is different. but now, what other excuses i have? i really want to leave.

tday went out with my ugly shirt, and finally with a orange coloured hairband. i realised when i have a fringe, a lot of things can be used nicely leh! :P

today went to jesslyn house instead of bing le's because he went for 3L chalet. so in the end we went jesslyn house~ HAHA! her dog is damn damn damn cute! :D too bad charlene is terrified of it. it's only like a baby, 9 weeks old or sth! and its barks are so cute, very high pitched :P once i lifted it out of the cage then charlene screamed like hell! LOL. and then once the dog escaped from the cage, and ran out to between me who was sitting on the floor, and eve on the sofa. then eve SCREAM and charlene of course scream lah! then in the end we realised eve was scared too lah!! LOL especially when the dog is within one meter radius! :P

jesslyn smiles the same since she was small! that's my conclusion!

okay then for lunch we walked to a nearby 7-11 and i bought 2 cup noodles!! OMG lah what a pig i am. :D

then i ate BOTH. whatever i like it okay! (: then in the meantime we watched TOM AND JERRY. omg. i never heard them sing before, and it's so damn cute can! the traditional tom and jerry always very sadistic, run run run then it just ends! but this time the tom and jerry is like so cute, they help each other out, and they sing tgt somemore! :D

ok then we danced, talked, danced, died, then we went home.

damn my leg's painful again, but i'm not very bothered by it(:

adam can't dance for nuts!

okay ytd felicia came my house!! CUTE GIRL. she was in her primary school uniform some more! :D okay then i showed her my water babies and she was really fascinated!

okay today went to bb again. what the hell i actually recognized people on the mrt lah! -.- okay then i reached like damn early.. 8.30a.m. when the meeting time is 9. i wanted to shop at west mall, but in the end it's not open yet, and i allowed me by to decay outside bb mrt lor.

then finally at 9 charlene came first and i asked her what's with her shirt, cuz her shirt is super weird. green, and the words didn't tally LOL! then, waited a little while for PRETTY GIRL YEN! :D HAHAHHA! i'm gonna say that forever because it's true okay! :D

then here comes... eevee! (: adam came before her bt i didn't take notice :P then we go macdonalds, and i bought

CHOCOLATE MCFLURRY!

hehehe. i think it's just normal. i don't like the chips in it, tastes so weird very extra. the chocolate taste isn't anything special either. bleh. lol! okay then we waited for emo bingle to come up. then we left... for X I N M U N N's house. (for some reason, i think her name looks nice like this)

then we sort of hiked to her house because her house need to walk so damn far, and climb this stupid slope that almost killed of us. imagine her climbing that everyday!! :O

then we met her and then walked to her function room! :D then we dance dance dance until about 12 then we WALKED to subway like a million miles away ):

then blackie jesslyn came, and we dance. and adam & bingle danced this pair dance, and we laughed laughed until all of us fell to the floor okay. adam. cannot. dance. for. nuts.

okay then we danced till 4 and eve had to leave. then about 10 minutes later we dispersed. then we, in other words, charlene and yen and me, met eve at the bus stop too! LOL! she was late for her tuition liao :P

then the bus when we got up was rather crowded - NO SEATS. then we stood for a while. then the bus shook and turned, and then my hips (WHATEVER :P) hit the railings, and i winced like hell! LOL then we walk in front to the seats, then the bus shook again. charlene and eve were like settled already, and i was about to sit opposite them. then i sort of flew to the front then i pulled myself into the seats behind them instead o.O so i sat with yen for the rest of the journey! :D

then we reach bb then eve had to leave :( then yen and charlene and i went into west mall to find hats. then i bought hairbands.

MY FIRST ORANGE HAIRBAND DUDES.

omg lah. LOL. then oso..

MY FIRST BRACELET, GUYS! :D

HAHAH! i duno why i was in the mood to buy em. maybe because of the existence of hair between my scalp and eyebrows (in other words, my fringe)

If I were a boy
I could turn off my phone
Tell everyone it’s broken
So they’d think that I was sleepin’ alone
I’d put myself firstAnd make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she’d be faithful
Waitin’ for me to come home

Oh no. i cut my own hair, and it's a... disaster? I duno. I found it uber ugly at first, but in the end i guess it's still presentable bah. the shocking news is that:

PHYLLIS SEAH HAS A FRINGE NOW!

okay thats damn scary:P thursday morning, i saw my mom's scissors, i felt good, and my hands were itching, so i took the thinning scissors, and i started cutting at random. then about a few minutes, i decided it was thin enough (my ponytail) and so i stopped. then i bathed and then tied my hair. then.. THE HORROR. there are LOTS of hairs sticking out at random because it's too short! it's only like.. 1 inch long or sth?! okay fine, then i stared open-mouthed at my reflection, then i just let down my hair and go bukit batok to meet squadmates for ROD. my bro saw me, and he was like "it's damn obvious." and he started laughing -.- okay.. and haha, i actually swore to myself not to let down my hair in front of others because it's hideous, but in the end, i guess tying it up makes a larger impact :D

then i reached, and i met yong en, with her rebonded hair HEHE. pretty girl :D okay, then we met adam.. and we totally dao-ed him, as usual :P then we met png hang on the way into west mall, and then we waited for liuqiao to come :D

then liuqiao kept teasing me about my hair, but i agree, it sucks LOL. i still go clip it up somemore and those frizzles stuck out like some shit! then we went into may fashion, and yong en looked for a hairband, while i avoided mirrors, and bought MORE clips:D okay then we made a trip to the toilet because liuqiao and yen suggested i leave a fringe and stuff.. hai.

then i came out the toilet with a fringe. To my surprise it took less than 10 minutes i think! hahaha! then we met eve, and eve was like stunned at my hair HAHA! she thought i was liuqiao's mom, cuz i let down my hair,and i was holding her arm LOL! then she realised it's me, i guess it's a little shocking. i explained my hair to them, and again, i felt stupid for cutting on my own!!

the funniest reaction of the day definitely goes to phang xin mun. LOL! she came, about 20 minutes late, and then she saw me and she cracked up and vibrated for god knows how long!

okay then we go bing le's house. seriously, the few people who didn't react are... png hang, bing le, adam. -.-

jesslyn came with a pink shirt! LOL -.- okay then she just stun at my hair as usual :D LOL

then we slacked for some time while bl dota, then we walked around his house.. and after making a HUGE din, we realised that bl's mom is still sleeping -.- what the?!

okay then we started to learn the dance... LOL then we split into 2 groups and stuff. so yen was saying "we need one group guys one group girls" then we were like "what the? means only one guy in the group?!" because we only included bl excluding adam as a guy LOL! suaned? DUH!

then we learnt yen's dance, and i think i look really weird doing it, but who cares:D

bl dance DAMN funny. i tell you, it's DAMN funny. LOL. there was this part we were supposed to walk a few steps, then i keep seeing bl making so many small steps, and he looks like a gangster for god's sake! LOL!! i actually resisted from laughing okay!! then there was this part we supposed to eh... lift one leg to 90, then the other. then i was standing too close to liuqiao, then my leg hit her butt. LOL the hilarious part was that liuqiao "OH!" so loudly lah! i was thinking of acting like nothing happened!! ok then all o fus cracked up like HELL. i was like completely sitting on the floor laughing HEHE.

then yen chorograph about halfway only so we had a break with ice lemon tea, then went on to eevee's dance! :D

the moves were easy lah! it's cute too! but the most scary thing is that: we spin so much!! LOL at one spin right, bl simply fell off onto the floor LOL and everyone is damn dizzy HAHA!

14 november 2008 was a super tiring day ok :P

so in the morning, i came at like 8a.m. and i walk walk around with dear charlene, then we went back to SJAB room, then we realised there were like no sec 2s in sight.

let's just skip the scolding and stuff, go straight into training.

foot drill was rather ok, and i think the sec 2s are good, just that they shud like.. put more effort. hai, is that so difficult?? ;p

okay then first aid... CPR then bandaging and stuff (:

jiayou ppl! these two months ain't gonna be a piece of cake!

I know i should tell you how i fell I wish everyone would disappear Every time time you call me, I'm too scared to be me And I'm too shy to say

LALA. today woke up at 7.30a.m. and ran out of house to take the bus in time, and i reached school really early, like 8.15a.m. LOL! okay..
community singing for me was horrendous!! I keep chu chou lah.. like singing, then i do wrongly, when everyone do correctly, so i look damn out! -.-

okay then i went off to talk to jesslyn xm bl yongen charlene.. i guess if i were there with them just now.. i dunno what will happen.

okay then singing aside, then it was foot drill... i nag and nag again-.-
then sharon liuqiao and i go slack for a while while the sec 1s had their community singing :D

okay then png hang and eevee came in and we discussed about some stuff lor. ):

then last parade and then its training.

i spent almost my whole life persuading the sec 2s to come lah!! okay but i'm really glad in the end it turns out well...

this is to a few people. if you think "i DON'T care if i don't get into competition" it is a lie to yourself only. I experienced it before, and i told myself "hey, it doesn't matter if i'm in or not." but in the end, when i saw how much my friends and squadmates achieve more than me, i felt useless, and i felt helpless at the same time. It was like i given up a choice to make myself useful you know? when i joined foot drill com, i was afraid of causing the team to lose. everyday i go home, i worry, and i almost snapped because i was so stressed with the obvious difference between my drills and the others. it was then i realised not being in com is NOT ok. but i went home, and i practiced on my own. i can still remember the first time jesslyn praised me, saying that my drills improved a lot. the feeling was so happy, i nvr experienced it like it.
when i took the trophy i worked so hard for in my arms, that few months of intense training, stress, everything are suddenly all behind me. i rather have it a million times harder if i could claim that trophy as my own, because i worked for it, and my hard work paid off.
joining com is a commitment, but saying it is a waste of time is too surface. believe it or not, things you learn in com, you can nvr learn anywhere else. plus, by not joining com, you have WASTED 3 years of your life in sjab. perhaps in com, you sacriface time, but in the end, that period people wasted by slacking, you learnt so much more. so, waste of time is not a right phrase to use at all.

i wonder if you guys ever tot about us when you decided to pon, or just give up.

LOL. Watch this. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W_avdCQAdAQ&feature=related

seriously it's not supposed to be so funny! but simon actually burst! LOL. cool??

today was training. went tiong in the morning, went home to change, then left for school. no sec 2s came. 5 out of 7 sec 1s came. seriously, i really am so disappointed. whatever.

sat, went to watch tennis of dad and bro, with my cute ol' niece! :D she's so cute! her name's felicia, and she's super duper cute! okay, we were watching them play, then i played with her. so she held a tennis racket, and i threw tennis balls at her HAHA! then my bro hit the ball out of the court, so we had to go find. so i told my niece this to make her come along willingly:

me: hey felicia *smiles widely*
felicia: *examining tennis racket* why no more balls?
me: erm... *ponders* because we are going for a treasure hunt!
felicia: *o.o*
me: you see ah... gor gor and my dad hid the ball... so we must go find, if not we can't play it!!
felicia: OKAY! *excitedly holds my hand*

then we were planning to walk this staircase down to the carpark to see if the ball dropped there...

me: ok, let's go down...
felicia: no!
me: huh, why?
felicia: that's a monster down there...!
me: erm.. okay... *laugh*

then at the end, we couldn't find it, so i told her to stop finding
felicia: but you said if we lose it, we have no balls to play with!!
me:... nono, gor gor has more, just that he don't want to show us! so we eh... go... steal..?
felicia: OK!

HAHA. damn cute! so we went into the court, and i took 2 balls, and my dad saw, and smile some more -.- then i took the racket...

me: -takes racket-
felicia: let's go!! shh.....
me: eh.. you wait ah.. -turns to dad- are your using this racket?
dad: no
me: okay. -turns to felicia- okay, we're taking, no, stealing it
felicia: *SMILES*

HEHE. damn cute girl i tell you! :D

wrote out my whole schedule for the holidays, excluding CCA, and i found it rather empty haha!

friday, which is yesterday, sharon yongen jesslyn xinmun eve bingle and i went to swensens! woo! LOL. adam got chased away though it was ok for him to come anyway(: another thing too, sharon and i kept going high, and laughing our asses off. LOL. then we kept suaning jesslyn for blackness, then sharon and i as usual suaned each other asses off! LOL

went to west mall swensens and it definitely brought back some memories like ROD at bingle house, a disastrous flag day...

then we reach swensens, which is so cool! it's advertising HSM 3! LOL. i resisted the urge to go all over HSM3 so we sat down and ordered.

for me.....
CHICKEN BAKED RICE + CHOCO POP.

chicken baked rice wasn't as good as i expected, but i think it's rather ok. bing le oso eat cbr and he got so quiet over eating like DAMN quiet. but he finished before me, especially when my food came later?! LOL sharon pawn, she first to get her curry baked rice, and then she was only half done then i was done! :D jesslyn ate a set lunch, and her mushroom soup came, and sharon kept trying to kope, which is...

a typical action from a fatty!

the whole thing we kept laughing and laughing. yongen tried taking photos of us, with her cool 5-megapixel camera but sharon and i kept covering with one menu. xinmun vibrated beside sharon, like LOL! okay, then sharon and i started using random adjectives. so it went like this

s: fantastic
me: marvellous
s: excellent
me: beautiful
s: (another adjective)
me: eh... (looks at the great food) .... good.

then both of us started cracking up HAHA! like so easy!

then all 7 of us walked around. then bing le made a very gay sound (a super low sound which can reach the left end of the piano) then sharon and i started going crazy again. we started saying shop names with the gay sound.
(some scenes cut...)

me: gahh..... popular....... (so low, it seems impossible!)
sharon: urg..... wwhhhhaaattt uuu sssaaayyingg.....
me: supervalue shop.... everything is free....

then started cracking up again what the!? then we entered popular because dear eve wanted to buy math books! :D then i found this orange book and i decided to use it in year 2009! then we walked around making gay sounds again HAHA! then we walked... and bingle was reading a random book sth about teaching random things. so he saw this page:

How to crack a good joke?

then eve came and ask what we doing. then bingle just read out loud:

Who's the king of the hankers?
Handkerchief.

okay it doesn't make the effect here so well since it's spelled out!

then eve sharon and i cracked up so damn much!!!!! eve totally burst, and laugh laugh laugh! HAHAHAH!! totally hilarious. :D

went to this korean shop, and yongen was like looking for this emo book cover HAHA its cute though!

then we went comic connection, and jesslyn went slightly crazy over wuzun then suddenly, i was hit with something so hard, i bent down. then sharon was like eh what's wrong with you? actually i needed the toilet only lah HAHA. then i went toilet (censored) and i took my phone out while i shitted, and it was only 2p.m? LOL! ok then i came out, and met brian and some of his friends, didn't really see all but i was really stunned haha! lol! xinmun left earlier with some lunch while i was having a bad time exploding in the toilet... XD

then we bought bubble tea, walked a little of shop 'n save thinking of presents.... ><

God, when do i ever get my own freedom?

Sorry jiarong, qianhui, zijun i couldn't go at the last minute, i really wanted to go so much, but still, my words in the end doesn't count as anything. Sorry.

Why can't i even stand up? For her health? If so, i really have to live under this shit for about a few years. so many times i wanted to run out of this jail, but for so many times i stopped myself, telling myself that her health is the most important. i don't want to regret it later. I hate regretting, but how can i not regret, when i wasted limited quality time with my friends? plus, they must be looking forward to it as much as i do. I'm at a junction, with no idea which way to walk to. Priority they say, but how do i even choose. On one, it's my promise, the other, it's my family.

"You're in my mind

You're in my heart

It doesn't matter where we are

We'll be alright

Even if we are a thousand miles apart."

- High School Musical 3, Just wanna be with you

I. LOVE. THE. EARTH.

Look if the world is ending in 4 years, say 2012, who cares? if it is true, i'll drop out of school, play my life away, or sth like that, or i'll fly around the world before the world ends! HAHAHA!

okay. anyway...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KENNY! YOU ARE EIGHTEEN!! :D

"No matter where life takes us

Nothing can break us apart

(You know it's true)

i just wanna be with you

The sun will always shine

That's how you make me feel."

- Just wanna be with you, High School Musical 3

Today was rather boring. just chiong and chiong and chiong some SJAB stuff. walao i'm damn pissed though! 50 pages of copy and paste, and you expect me to edit from top to bottom!?

last night didn't make it through 12 a.m. was so damn tired!! the day before, i worked all the way till 3 a.m. just for it :( then ytd i woke up late, about 6.50a.m. and cherie plus yinshan already left hahaha! in the end i took my dad's car :P

omg, i can't believe it, i'm still talking to people across the sea!! :D