ytd glh made us do this funny funny thing about friends. so there are basically 4 kinds of friends:
1. only tells happy things to people, keeps the sadness to oneself
2. only tell sad things, drown in sorrow, and will thus recover fast (?)
3. tells everything, and expects people to tell them everything too
4. original, and will not be swayed by people, can comfort and cheer people up easily (:

ok to be frank i think it's rather crappy xD hahaha! seriously, i mean not everyone falls within these boundaries, and there are some things people rather keep to themselves, while others people can tell what, it's not like everything can be classified under "things" because sometimes there are other reasons! and i think i'm more of the 3rd type, but i really, really don't expect people to tell me things. i mean, i will ask, but won't keep bugging la, just respect privacy de lah! so there ;D

i realised chinese lessons are getting a little more fun, with the fill in the correct word game, and the thrashing of girls over boys (ratio 26: 5) and how we scream to get the correct answer, and occasionally retarded answers popping out from nowhere!
e.g.
glh said the word starts with a xian
so i said "八仙过海" -_-
and,
glh once gave a ting xie, and she said shan dong (fanning?)
i wrote "山洞" and when she asked us to make a sentence with it i wrote "山洞里有一只老虎"
LOL even though i knew it was wrong from the beginning, i retardedly continued with it!

LOL! i still find the shan dong one stupid and lame! xD
anyway, my running spree is getting strong! ytd i ran 4 rounds with siyi and jasmine (running about one on my own) and had bmt in the afternoon which i sweat like siao because i was playing with siyi who has a super fast reaction!
today ran in the morning for squad morning run, in the end only pnghang eve bl adam turned up and me la! the rest say want come never come... so i just ran with eve lor, and eve's speed is NOT my speed, definitely. i always end up last in my class, and eve is in the fit group? yup. maybe eve was slowing down throughout xD but yeah, i wasn't really dead beat at the end, very lazy, and sth funny is wrong with my right ankle (i think i sprained it minorly since one pt session) and bleh tmr's 2.4 plus 2.4 (morning run and pe) i will just die in pe, it's first period fyi LOL!

hmmmm first thing in the morning a lot of us went to QUEUE for this funny eportfolio thing for our parents. and the thing is that the queue is so long, it was from lt2 to the laboratory, and the queue still made a u-turn! LOL. we were walking there, then i was wondering huh why so many people? then i saw nobelle they all walking to the labs, so i was like "OI! wrong side!" then nobelle was like -.- "uh, that's the queue" LOL.
oh yeah math was just math. everything was just numbers and everything, and i kept getting stupid integration wrong. luckily i have a math pro sitting beside me to help me out
recess i ate roti prata again with sugar. SHIT. i really love roti prata + sugar!! but.... :(
then it was chem practical! LOL... lim damn ke lian can. i broke a beaker today, and eve was like asking me 'hey how many things have you broken?" LOL. i think this year i broke 2 test tubes with a beaker (: LOL. mr ng was like -.- and rather pek chek :O
LOL. i kept dropping things today and i was like warning lim to keep glassware away from me because those things will be the next on the ground! haha!
then it was lang arts, quite fun, the video again, and i think mr hor's lessons are quite interesting too! (what's left is geography if you realised :S)
then it was assembly LOL. it was total sjab question session? LOL. the lecturer called jesslyn to answer question, then jesslyn called adam since the answerer can sabo others (from other class) LOL then adam sabo bl, and bl sabo me LOL. i wasn't even listening to the lecturer can, and the answer was rather stupid LOL because the question was so obvious. so i sabo liuqiao:D at first i was thinking sharon or charlene but their classes already called so too bad :D
then went back class and we didn't do emotional rollercoaster. instead we did feedback session to mr ng. i didn't really write bad stuff, i hope i sounded friendly and nice, because i don't want to hurt his feelings like siao. plus i think it's sad we kept comparing him to chua tung kian LOL. so i just suggested for him to adopt his own character into teaching, like his style, and put his character through teaching oso. i think it's easier for us to accept him like that (:
then it was training, and i realised i was so exhausted. i was practically falling asleep everywhere, and i almost knock out in the classroom when everyone leaving! if they nvr call me i might be still sleeping in that classroom? LOL (exaggeration)
then it was a lot about AED, and i think it's pretty cool! hahaha! oh yeah because i was slacking and bored, i took a pole and did martial arts with liuqiao LOL! (i wonder why we started from round 3 instead of 1) HAHAHA! we laughed like siao. and i tried to look like a blind person and lq and charlene laughed like siao, because i was cork eyed LOL!
sth's wrong with my msn, so i had to use windows messenger ;'( LOL! hmm, tmr going out with clique!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D omg. i'm so looking forward to it (:
and vietnam, i'm afraid i can't see you! :(

it's so damn interesting to read blogs with such fantastic way of blogging

an excerpt from http://chasingcenturies.blogspot.com
"I have never hated a book more than I hate Frankenstein. It's the book that WILL NOT DIE. I mean I hated Stand Alone but at least that was easy to skim through, and it didn't have letters and different modes of communication and three narrative modes that all sound like they come from the SAME DAMN CHARACTER, nor did it have 5 paragraphs of scenic description of ~sublime~ waterfalls and rivers, followed by 4 paragraphs of Victor Frankenstein orgasming over his own frenzied emotional conflict, followed by 1 paragraph of ACTUAL PLOT-MOVING INFORMATION, and it definitely didn't have laughably clumsy introduction of background information; like what the hell, Elizabeth? "Oh Victor, you probably forgot how Justine joined our household even though you were LIVING WITH US AT THE TIME, so let me go into detail as to exactly how we adopted her into our family, in a way that is totally not a blatantly obvious and lazy method of revealing key information to the reader. So YAH. THIS IS WHAT HAPPENED: _______. Remember??"

And also, when a huge 8-foot-tall murderous monster is running towards you at superhuman speed, WHO STANDS THERE AND EXCLAIMS 'Devil, do you dare approach me? and do not you fear the fierce vengeance of my arm wreaked on your miserable head? Begone, vile insect!"What? WHAT?! Shut up, Walton Victor The Creature Mary Shelley. I don't even know who's narrating what any more."

I laughed like crazy reading this thing because it's so funny. i mean, reading frankenstein definitely didn't give me such inspirations to crack a joke out of it! it's rather tragic to me (even though i always wondered how a monster writes in perfect english) i wish i could get timothy's way of writing, or this chasingcenturies' writing, or nobelle's friend literacy. it makes blogging so much more fun! i remember nobelle's friend blogging about twit, and it was so funny, i laughed out loud when i read it with nobelle can!

anyway i'm rather crazy over latin phrases now (:
A posse ad esse , from possibility to actuality! my new favourite phrase, and anyway
i realised that alter ego is a latin phrase and now, it's sort of english? cool!
tmr morning running, wednesday try to run, thursday run again. wow, nice slimming method!

hmm, i never thought my life as a drama, but it certainly is starting to resemble one. you know those kind of drama, the stupid people never get a rest from the problems in their respective lives? LOL. i'm experiencing that right now ! @ # $ % ^ &* ( ) _
aiya, no matter what i just live my life to the fullest (like what char said) and not emo over this kind of unchangable seem-imaginary-but-may-not-be-so-imaginary stuff (though i can't say the same if i get it as a fact)
no more yawns, no more sweets, no more freaking glucose for god's sake! and i ate roti prata with sugar today, i'm practically stabbing myself right now right? and this kind of life is rather sad, no sweets :(
grandma had a hard time while she passed on, so i dun want that for myself either ):
today was a relatively ok day, i mean everything's fine, just myself thinking and worrying constantly... chemistry was just doing chemistry ws, so i can slack because i have already done it! omg la! i felt so shuang ok! lang arts was watching videos, and i was relating it to amin and mazlan (let's leave out syafiq cause he broke my pen -_-)and talking and talking to jasmine while guanlin slept and siyi was doing maths i think.. then it was recess with the killer of a food roti prata with sugar 0.O
then it was chinese, just did some funny thing about love. 真爱是______? then mine was so long, i so paiseh can! because frankly i oso duno, i just crapped those book contents -_- and we got the 红楼梦 book! i can't really wait to read it; it's super cool according to siyi, and love novels are super cool in chinese because sometimes chinese can express feelings better than english xD
then it was geography. i got a C5/6 in geography overall, and i'm really upset over it. i mean it wasn't really bad... but it's my parents' expectations of me which kills me like hell, they said no more Cs in my report card. and for once i tot i can get away with a moderate B for lang arts finally when i'm not failing it, geography comes along to screw my report card up -_- i can't wait for the report card LOL!
then biology copy notes like siao, and end of school! then did hwk with eve and charlene in the canteen while the guys went to see the flag painting, then liuqiao and jesslyn and pnghang came along (: LOL.
i was broadcasting about my deadness and charlene&liuqiao can still laugh! o.O i think only eve, jesslyn and bl took it seriously LOL! liuqiao and charlene took it seriously when i finally look dead xD
vietnam i hope we can all stay in singapore instead, have fun with our own schedule la! (: but just a thinking, maybe i can be a otaku too over the holidays!
then went home, and talked about some stuff to seniors. either way, i'm still not very glad la, but can sort and thrash out is good!
went home and lied to my mom i reached home at 5, when i reached home at 6, and my bro didn't hear because he was playing computer! hahaha i can't wait for thursday either zj, i'm serious! had a great time talking to you at the tracks(:

YES! i finished almost all the homework i can remember!! XD
i have decided to do my best for these two weeks, and for the whole year if possible. finish all homework! (:
oh friday was quite fun, after cca, somehow it feels like holidays again xD
saturday was tiring!! i didn't go for breakfast with the rest, and i left early la! so in short, i didn't really have any contact with them la! but the happy thing is i was tutoring amin, and iman, and in the process i got to know a pair of brothers~ haha! we were like reading this 'spot the difference' book and was having a lot of fun can!! hahaha! and amin kept telling me he is top scorer for his school hahaha! then he told me he duno what school to go, and he thinks he cmi because he is in the worst class. so i sort of lied to him, saying got people in the last class who got top scorer xDDD and he believed me and decided to work hard! (i wonder is it bad or good)
after the thing, i went home straight,and i reached home at 1 o.O damn early can! so i did homework, and read harry potter (: i realised harry potter is a nice series!
ok i shall update some other day, and geography test coming back on monday. i have a huge feeling i won't do as well as i hope ):

hmm, i think i haven't been keeping myself in check, that's why i'm constantly quarrelling with everyone around me

ok, somehow, i shall try to be less irritable... and more 'happy', since jiarong and zijun both says i look sian diao, dao, and emoish. :D

today finally got to talk to zj in the morning. omg la.. i'm really, really happy i got to talk to her!! i mean, it has been almost a month since we really talked! i was really so happy ok(: and zj, it's not your fault, so chill. it's mine ok! dont steal my line XD

training today was rather fun! LOL. ali has a great figure! o.O hahaha! linda too xD
i'm scared. i'm really, really scared. i don't want to feel like that.

oh anyway,

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY SHARON FAT OW! xD

muahahha!
ytd was a relatively fun day! i shall not talk too much about the planning, but yeah -_-
ytd after cca, i called my mother, and then she scolded me and made me promise to reach home by 830, even though i know it's actually impossible. (it was 630 that time) we acted as if we had to leave for home, but then rush to vivo to buy presents, and get a quick 'dinner' (old chang kee) SQUID HEAD FRITTER IS SUPER NICE! (:
then we took 166 to sharon ow's house LOL
on the bus i called sharon, on the pretense of asking if she wants her parents to go UG camp watch. LOL, even though i already knew her answer without asking xD it was to confirm she was at her house!
then we got off one bus stop late thanks to eve -_- hahaha! nobody trust me can, i know the way one hor! hahaha! okay, then we walk, walk, walk to her house.. and took the lift up!
then we rang her door bell, and sharon ow's door open revealing sharon ow the fatty! and we shouted 'HAPPY BIRTHDAY!' hahaha! and gave her presents. she was like speechless? and we took photos, then i smiled at the wrong camera o.O
then i was rushing for time because it was 820 le, so i totally was waiting for the bus, praying it would come faster! then the others at first wanna cross the road, then in the end took 166 with me to dover then they alight (: thankyou (even though it's not for me XD)
then i was rushing home, smsing cherie loh 'hey don't be surprised if i end up knocking on your door" HAHAHA! then i reach home, my mother refused to open the door, so i stood outside waiting.
then my bro came home. he was like 'huh, what you doing?!' then i was like 'oh, mummy don't let me in' then my bro go knock the door very loudly shouting 'mummy it's me!' then my mom oso refuse to open door, then my bro knocked until like DAMN loud shouting 'OI!!' (LOLLLL), then my mom then open HAHAHA! then my dad oso came back, and my mom said 'don't you dare come in' to me. so i obediently stood outside for one hour, sat down at my door step for 2 hours xD i would have walked away if not for my stupid hp no batt. i didn't want them to like go crazy when i go missing and unreachable (see i'm sensible!)
and yep 12a.m. my dad open door, saying that it's very hurting to the reputation of our family with me sitting outside. actually no difference one la, i already sat outside for 3 hours, most of the neighbours saw me liao! then my mom talked to me with a cane (literally) she was holding the cane, and talking to me. LOL. all i hope now is that her illness isn't worsened (prays)

today:
was a depressing, and emoish day in the morning.
mr ng was talking to me privately, and telling me that the teachers all complain about me, and think that i shouldn't be a chair, because i'm not up to it. no hwk handed up, all those taboo stuff for a model student, i did them religiously =.= so i'm given 2 weeks to show myself.
so i was thinking maybe i should just give up, and tell mr ng choose someone else. but the look on eve's face when i broke the news to her shook my belief LOL. it was O.O. i guess it's the same for me if whatever happened to me happened to her (somehow..), i would be damn worried, because i can work with eve very well and imagining about how we cope and coordinate with another person is rather difficult because we see so much of one another. so i decided to try to be a good kid. (try.)
somehow, i'm tired, even without trying and when i haven't been trying too hard till now, because i feel a little stressed. but phyllis seah says no to giving up, so GANBETTE! (:

LOL congrats to bl to join the chair gang again, and in the case i get kicked out, have fun with eve and munmun! xD HAHAHA!
today training was quite emoish too. and we decided on some stuff...
yep i reached home late, yet my mom didn't scold me....?! LOL. i duno what's she thinking, but i think she trying to apologize for locking me out, so yeah. but in return i won't go training tmr :)

friday 20 february 2009:
4J sang birthday song for eevee! hahaha the first time i said "1,2,3" for the singing leh! HAHA!
didn't go cca, but went to visit balloons instead. in the end i was having a smelly shirt, and a headache when i went home! eve drooled a lot xD

Saturday 21 february 2009:
it was eve and zhiliang's birthday! and it's internal mock comp!
reached school at 815 and go arrange tables blah blah, then i realised i didn't give my card and food to LALK! so i gave it to them in the waiting room -___-
LALK did really well (: was getting really happy over the results xDDD nursing and long case was happy happy~
the juniors did really great too ;) their effort is seriously very very very li hai!
all the teams pro!
after the thing we sang birthday song for eve for the second time le (class gt sing once mah)

after that took 97 to je interchange charlene,jesslyn,xm,yen,eve,pnghang,bingle,adam,chiunyuan and me!
the bus ride was rather stony at the end, because i lost steam hehe! then we reached je and jess,char,eve,ph,chiunyuan n me went to imm (for some reason, i'm frequenting that place like crazy) while the rest went for AED course (feel bad) and went mos burger. then we kept trying to entertain chiunyuan who was the only guy, and the only junior amongst us. ;D
so we kept firing questions at him and we keep waiting for his answer because he will look up, ponder, and then give us a very neutral answer

for example,
me: cy arh, are you happy with today's comp?
cy: *looks up* *ponders* hai hao la...
major -__________________- for everyone!
charlene: oi, no more hai hao la ok!
me: do you like your trainers?
cy: *looks up* *ponders* ok bah..
=____________________=

HAHAHHA! it was quite funny at this point of time:
me: omg, it's the first time i'm here at mos burger you know!
oh no, 这是我的第一次leh... (tries to sound biantai)
cy gave a very disgusted look that everyone laughed at!!

then stoned around, because everyone were tired, and went home le lor.. so tired can! xD

22 february 2009:
i was wondering how i survived waking up that day =__= and i woke up late, so i rushed over to commonwealth without my breakfast. in the end i reached at 7.45a.m. and i was so damn early o.O so i bought some funny funny egg tart and ate it (it crumbled before i could eat it :( )
then i realised the whole guys' team + reserve reach damn early can! so i sat with shijing and stoned....
then a fat pig came over a.k.a. sharon hahaha! i felt her fat aura when she left her house xD
then more and more people came lor..
so we went to the center, and then we went into our different duties!
ivan was xtremely funny. he put me incharge of the "video room" in the end i only brought them to the room only what! hahaha!
then we went downstairs for the ceremony and stuff le!
eve and i were at first stoning around, because we realised we don't have much to do xD
so we went to get balloons, and we showed off to the pd ppl (who wore full u, so sad) aka yen jess adam and bl xD then yen wanted the balloon, so eve and i set off to get another balloon!
then during the ceremony there was this event when a balloonman was on stage, and he was fabulously cool! he made daffy duck, bugs bunny, tweety bird from just balloons you know!!

OMG. then the most important thing happened. the balloonman came down stage, and he asked this girl beside me whether she wanna go up. but i think the girl very scared or maybe got a little... uhh, disorder, so she don't want la.. then the balloonman (with a whistle in his mouth) he counted to 3 with his fingers, and with one Beeeeeeeeep, he pulled me on stage O.O ok he pulled me, i staggered forwards, so i went up on stage xD
eve liuqiao ph were so envious lorrrrr MUAHAHAHA! lihui, felicia, and linda oso lor HAHA!
so i just watched him in action lor, it was super weird because i dunno what kind of facial expression i should have mah! so i just stoned (giving appropiate faces at appropiate times) and then was very embarrassing at this part the balloonman he reached into his pocket, and stare at me. so i stared back at him puzzled, and i was reminded forcibly of mr chan somehow, then he suddenly took out the white balloon and shook it in front of me. WALAO. i was like totally shocked!!! (so paiseh, my shocked face is super unglam!) then i so paiseh, lihui they all and eve they all all laughface was super OMGOMGOMG! hahahaha! then he gave it to me, then i went down lor. then ph and liuqiao told me that the girl who was supposed to go up was staring at me la! wth!

so in the end i got an elmo. according to eve, when i realised it was an elmo my with this longing look in her eyes lor. so i gave the elmo i braved humiliation to her! xDDDD

i was at first rather sad la, 'cause i really wanted a balloon ever since that balloonman started performing mah.. then i gave it to her lor. even though i know i would regret it like hell if i didn't give it to her, i still quite sad la! then towards the end of the opening ceremony, i realised the elmo wasn't the prettiest balloon around (perhaps tweety?) so i just nvr mind le lor!
then after that ivan made us do crowd control and stuff..and it was quite boring at first, then it got more interesting le lor!
hahaha i oso caused lq's balloon to fly away hahahahha, her baby face was damn funny!
after that went west mall bb for a while then go home.. then my mom totally scolded me lor.. so i'm grounded xD

today:
it was a relatively happy day, because i wasn't extremely tired, even though i fell asleep in geography and was all groggy for math test....
i bought economical noodles to school!! wheeee! and i was quite full for lessons!! hahahaha!
chemistry test was back, and i am actually quite ok with the results, even though it's a B4?
lang arts was interesting because of toto-chan! i remembered how mrs tay in primary school would read a chapter of toto chan everyday, until one day when she forgot about it HAHA!
recess was just a lot of delivering, no eating i think (since i ate the economical mee!)
then chinese and everything. it was just corrections for the zuo wen, but i was really, really very upset with something else glh wrote to me on my ting xie paper, even though i didn't really say it out, or look like it
she wrote like "jiamei, this is the first year you're chairperson, is this why you have no time to finish your homework? you have to listen in class, and be a responsible chairperson. then you can lead 4J."
i was damn guilty and sad when i read it once when i got it, twice when i just glanced at it, and thrice when i was walking home. sometimes i think to myself about how irresponsible i'm, how unqualified i'm, and how much trouble i always bring to others thanks to my own stupidity, especially eve and people who i rely on. so many times in class, i'm the noisest, and by the way people look at me, i know i'm not a role model, perhaps just there for show. i'm controlling myself little by little, i really am. i'm really very sorry to those who had to always remind me to keep quiet, or help me out in every single situation. i know i'm a useless freak who can't manage things without others and hopefully i can tame myself.

oh anyway, in case you're wondering why i decided to rant here, it's because the other blog is cmi, i can't post in it for nuts!
hmm after school went home straight because my mom grounded me (see above)

omg. mock comp is tmr!

today went to commonwealth again for cip. LOL. balloon stinks like crap, and my head still hurts somehow! and all the balloons damn low quality can! like you pull a little then it break liao! then how to pump?! LOL. and we were having a lot of fun pumping balloons and talking and crapping xDD

a lot of funny things happened, and the games were fun! had a mini dry run and eve was so freaked out by the bursting balloons! XDDDDDD (sadistic)

ok then we left for home.

LOL! i was laughing because eve kept quoting something from lesson and she never fails to ask "were you awake when whoever say sth?" LOL. that shows how much i sleep in class. either i space out, doodle, or sleep. occasionally i listen xD

geography and chinese were screwed like hell. and geography was supposed to be a pushover. i can't believe that my mind block had to happen during such tests. and my stupid assholic mind kept inserting weird words instead of keywords. in the end i forgot how to use 'blanket effect' and i got the currents wrong. the climographs are rather weird too...

chinese was just chinese. i duno how to describe it. it's difficult to an extent, but i was damn worried because i only wrote one page and a half, and siyi wrote so much O.O

oh yeah... tmr is mock comp. and my papers run out, i searched all over the stupid place, and found not even 4 pieces of paper -.- my foolscap ran out too... i dun think they will see this though xD most of my wishes are in the v day messages leh -.- haiz. that's bad!

dear LALK,
jiayou for tmr ok! (: even though i haven't been an active trainer, but i really, really, hope to see your do your best tmr xD all my wishes are in my valentine's day messages sia!!

GAHHHH i shall just type it out, hopefully i can make those messages smaller so they can squeeze into 3 papers :(

one thing's for sure: I WANT TO DANCE WITH THE SQUAD ONE LAST TIME!

LOL. i still remember how hilarious our stupid dance always turn out (except the cute stephenie sun dance xD) the SuperModel one was HAHAHA, but it's super cool, i think it's super like, interesting, and it looks great! eve's dance was screwed LOL and damn tiring! xDDD
and like always, i laughed at adam and bing le dancing. mada looks like an awful black stick while bing le looks like a hooligan! XD

I realised, i'm a screwed person since i was born. put me into quarantine asap, thankyou.

i'm gonna have a private blog, and put up stuff that i'm confused about, those useless rants that have no conclusion no matter what! and i'm not going to give the URL out. maybe only to one or two, no more than 2 i guess! because useless rants are always the ones that make people sian diao with a blog post, like now

i admit i'm losing passion. and i feel that people around me are losing it twice the speed, twice the intensity. and thanks bl, that post made me wake up slightly, not totally, but just a little xDD i love feeling motivated!

i hate cip like crap man. we're like doing cip stuff for 3 days consectutively can? and it's sickening stupid. oh yeah! this is the cip department:
boss - png hang
General Manager (GM) - eve
Discipline Mistress (DM?!) - liuqiao?!?!
SM (Service manager) - me! xD

HAHA. it was damn hilarious saying "yes boss!" because it reminds me of Mazlan. and it deeply saddens me to realise, i can't see him anymore!

today was a boring day. chemistry practical, screwed again, thank you very much! LOL i got white ppt when it's supposed to be NO ppt LOL!
i went out with jiarong today. like seriously it has been a million years since i went out with her haha! went ikea, met jas and guanlin, bought a lot of hot dogs to eat lalala! talked a lot too hahahaha! i didn't really feel like going home actually, but i had curfew

yay geography test is screwed. why? because i'm blogging now. LOL joking! it's because i can't memorize, my head very woozy, and i get frustrated with myself because i can't get things into my head xD HAHAH. forget it. just let me fail. at least it's not english anymore.

hahahha a funny thing i saw in Hana Yori Dango:

Even for you, sleep talking is talking when you're sleeping, talking while you're awake is not sleeptalking. So if it is sleeptalking, talking when you're awake is okay too, but if it's not sleeptalking, its talking when you're awake, talking when you're awake, it means not sleeping...

my first reaction was totally O.O LOL. i laughed like hell for this one, because it makes no sense AT ALL. ok first sentence is ok.. but the second was making no sense already!! AHHH. domouji!! :3

today i told guanlin:
"i'm losing it, i'm not feeling the same anymore." (of course, cutting out a lot of crucial details)
somehow, i hoped, and tried to make that feeling come back. but its no longer the same. every night i thought about it, and i asked myself again and again: what's the point? I'm failing everything. Even a stupid, stupid exercise, i can fail it. gl herself was shocked i said so.

valentine's day was rather fun, in a way! in the morning gt pissed off thanks to someone who say "i duno! i duno!" when i ask for almost a week liao. then go class leader workshop, and sat with qh and jiarong and melvis, and then after a while eve came to join in! :D

the workshop wasn't that useful, but at least not only I am having problems -___-
then after that go see training a bit then left

omg benjamin button is a good show, but i fell asleep twice, because it was too long, and all the classical music are getting to me like shit! LOL. omg la! read sharon's post for more info xD (i lazy)

today was a fun day too xD i like the class a lot better hehe! ;d
was very tired at first and i fell asleep in LA AGAIN. *bangs into the wall* LOL. how many times must i sleep in front of nice mr. hor to make me not as tired! maths was fun not because of a little PMS-ed DL, but because siyi was damn high. but i wanted to sing so much!! :( then she kept scolding me :(

after school ate wanton mee for the second time of the day (recess!) then went to and fro class. then train so little (like nothing), and liuqiao eve ph and me went to cip! ;D
bleah bleah bleah. then it was rather late. so we went to LJS, and ate! LOL ok i didn't eat, but i koped from liuqiao xD hahaha! and we did math. then i realised i can't concentrate in math in front of others!! :O
then another thing happened. 2 boys started shooting ice balls at me (or us). you know, you crush the ice in your slimy mouth, and you take a straw and 'shoot' at your target? you know at first i was wondering huh, why is my arm a little wet? then i turn to my left and i saw the 2 hooligans! wtf! then i was like o.O at first because i was wondering why they shoot at us. then i turn away and continue then they shoot again!!! this time i was irritated so i stared at them. then one boy went "hello, what's your name?" i replied with a rather happy "hi" LOL. ok i admit it, i was stupid xDDDDD
then i was really angry, and i was like glaring at a girl who stood up. they seem to know each other, then she was like "no, no it's not me, it's them." i glared, and said "i know." LOL. how cool!! then the boy tried shooting from different angles, and i stared him down like hell xD
then he left lor, but i didnt know, so i was happily saying "wow, they seem scared by me!" LOL. =.=
then dad came to fetch me and i went home~
through it all, i found a group of friends that share the same belief as me always. I'm very happy to find them; they make my life a lot lot more interesting and everything. but somewhere deep in my heart, i wished the rest were part of it. Everyday is just a vicious cycle, that I get tired, tired, and even more tired. I tell myself it may end someday, but I don't want it to end like this. Ending like this makes my years all wasted. What about those days, those fateful days, when I felt as if things were not impossible. Right now, those are the perfect days I sought to look for. But will they come back? Looking at the photos make me sad. Where are those feelings? As i say i share the same belief, part of me wants to return to the other side. But the rest wants to stay there. No matter what, someday, that few words will be taken away from me, and i cannot stop it.

HOP, STEP, JUMP!

LOL. sorry for the random opening.
i feel like blogging in eve's style, it's not as time-consuming and it's very neutral xD

today i was very irritable in the morning. I met yinshan and cherie, and cabbed to school because i had to pass a shirt. maybe because i was in a very bad mood, and i hate waiting for taxi at taxi stands, i was very irritable. i went sjab room, passed shirt to bing le and adam. resisted the temptation to shout at adam in the morning when he took the envelope from me. and again, i was irritable, so small things can just get me very angry. bing le asked if i was tired, i guess i was. went back to class to chiong math, and remembered maybe need markers. took markers and walk back to sjab room. in the end, they no need. got irritated again and went back to continue chionging. in the end, i can't finish the math ws and was forced to go for morning assembly. eve came in the morning, and saw how my face looked like when i'm in a bad mood. she didn't really dare to talk much.

miss lai retirement. i was sitting with yinshan and olivia, we were sort of talking. i was excited when my message came up on the ppt. thanks eve. it was 2 pages long, and it represented sjab. found miss lai very pretty when she was in her teenage years. then after that, went back to class for math.

suddenly, i was in a great mood again. siyi was sort of freaked out by me. so studied math, and finished math ws on the way. after that was recess. bought just a few stuff and listened to music while reading newspapers in class. emo.

then after that was chem practical. screwed up again. jodee and limsimin were right, i suck at chem prac. the worst part is, i'm paired up with lim, who isn't good either. i spilled zinc nitrate while measuring 10 cubic centimeters. at the end, i was the last few to clear up again. but spilling wasn't the worst thing that happened to me before. i was putting a boiling tube over the fire, and the bottom flew off, all the contents spilled onto the fire. lim still laughs about it.

went back to class for language arts. fell unconscious while reading the articles. when siyi poked me awake, i was drooling subconsciously. then i went back to sleep until i heard eve's voice. so i said 行礼.

after that went to lt. eve and i were damn flustered and stressed because we have no idea where to go. asked around for clues. glh gave us wrong information, and we entered, exited and entered lt 2. after that i went out and overheard glh wondering out loud to a friend isn't LT 2 for 4A, B, C, D? felt like kicking her. angml is so much more reliable. next time i have to use computer every tuesday. mental note.

sat in the LT with eve, and listened to lecture about total defence. was quite awake, and listened mostly. then eve and i started becoming random and counting the number of "singapore" and "singaporeans" in the text given to us. we counted the number of Os on the ppt slide. we counted the no of words on the ppt slide. we counted the number of tiles on the walls that were perfect squares. we counted the number of chairs that were red in the room. then it was the panel discussion. cheered for edmund and chuye. didn't cheer for anyone else, though clapped hands for junming. laughed at edmund's crap, and chuye's hand gesture at the end. laughed quite hard at weihao's words.

after that listened to 歌访.
gefang is super cool. the singers are great, especially cynthia (since i only saw her performance) she sings very well. she has a nice low voice. watched and listened. then bing le talked to me about something that i cannot remember, then a girl talked to me. i don't know her. she commented about gefang, and i thought about the words sour grapes briefly. got the flyers from dixun and joined jesslyn eve bing le talking. jesslyn told me about si zheng, and i laughed. missed the days in 2L, every discussion can be so funny, and can expect jokes everywhere. felt a teeny weeny sad about it. then bing le started singing all the time. i recommended him to join gefang. he sang a song he claimed as 期待爱, but i didn't recognise it.

went back to class with eve and pnghang to do work at first. but lihui came, so went to for team talk at the swing. found out about quite a few things that shocked me. agreed on a few issues too. suddenly realised the team is really something i can use to spur myself on. then eve came to nag at me to go back for homework.

went back for a while, made pnghang do math for me. jesslyn and bing le came in and we talked briefly. i went to buy stuff. asked yin shiuan whether i was weird yesterday, because he was laughing. realised i was too soft-spoken, and was somehow flattered. i never knew i can be soft. looks like math test won't be counted after all. no wonder mada was moaning about it.

at 5, chuye and alvin came in and they were doing ASK maths. i finished 报章报道 in the canteen, and went to see the stick-ons near the staircase. was extremely happy to see "i will protect rvsj'09, especially y4'09" then saw my own one "i will protect eve and phyllis" and found it a little lesbianic. went to hand up stuff and then accompanied pnghang to see the stick-ons again. then waited for eve, and realised my wallet was missing. i pray that my wallet is not lost. went home with eve and took a crowded bus. almost couldn't get down.

i reached home and started sneezing and feeling horrible. hopefully can feel worse tmr so no need go school. lol, just a joke. i sneezed into my papers, and they were wet. irky. i fell asleep after using the new eye massager for about one to two hours, and i am still feeling tired.

i haven't studied chemistry 60%. i only studied 40. duno what is going to happen tmr. i should have went home early today if not for the hwk i owe everyone.

i don't like how things are like now. nor do i think that friends who always get punished are embarrassing. i feel responsible for it.

OMG. i really love Eyes on Me~

Faye Wong - Eyes On Me
Whenever sang my songs
On the stage, on my own
Whenever said my words
Wishing they would be heard
I saw you smiling at me
Was it real or just my fantasy
You'd always be there in the corner
Of this tiny little bar

My last night here for you
Same old songs, just once more
My last night here with you?
Maybe yes, maybe no
I kind of liked it your way
How you shyly placed your eyes on me
Oh, did you ever know?
That I had mine on you

Darling, so there you are
With that look on your face
As if you're never hurt
As if you're never down
Shall I be the one for you
Who pinches you softly but sure
If frown is shown then
I will know that you are no dreamer

So let me come to you
Close as I wanted to be
Close enough for me
To feel your heart beating fast
And stay there as I whisper
How I loved your peaceful eyes on me
did you ever know
That I had mine on you

Darling, so share with me
Your love if you have enough
Your tears if your're holding back
Or pain if that's what it is
How can I let you know
I'm more than the dress and the voice
Just reach me out then
You will know that you're not dreaming

Darling, so there you are
With that look on your face
As if you're never hurt
As if you're never down
Shall I be the one for you
Who pinches you softly but sure
If frown is shown then
I will know that you are no dreamer

AHHHH! i duno how long ago i went crazy over this song. perhaps p4? i forgot. but listening to it stirs up a lot of happy emotions, even though it sounds like an emo song ;D HAHA. in fact i think the lyrics are super happy can! i think it's a little mushy though, but whatever! today was a normal day. not too tired, not too awake either. (don't dare to claim myself as tired after seeing eve) but i wasn't a too happy person XD
gl asked me what i want to pray for, and i wanted to wish for something at first. then realised that i should pray a little for myself. then i calm down and thought about it. i realised my life is rather fulfilled, a much better than a lot of people's ones around (at least, that's what i thought, before i got my results back) so i wished for something i'm achieving already. i think it will come true, because i'm already halfway through! JIAYOU.
then i discussed sth with siyi, and i was rather traumatised. LOL! then i was like cannot be one la. then i thought about it, if it was true, i would definitely consider it. i regretted it once because of my indecisiveness, and now, if i were given another chance, i may just go for it. that's what i promised myself as i slowly draw myself away ;D

then sort of got back geography assignment, and i got lowest in class. i did anticipate it before, but i was quite sad actually. so the whole lesson i was stoning, and doodling. I dunno, just disappointed. eve was like shocked. (i mean, i'm not a good student, but just an average person) i dunno, i really hope my geography won't fail me. i placed quite a lot of hopes on it, since it has been a copy and paste subject to me all along. if i fail it this year, i think i will just drop it totally. LOL. ok that's what i plan to do even w/o failing it -___-

then got back math test. 26/30.

DL was totally qianbian la! he was like 'wah, you oso can get 26 arh?" -____- not like i so stupid mah, at least i'm not retarded like how he think i am! :S then i was like a little stoning beside siyi who got full marks.

i'm definitely not suaning anyone. (i know, 26 is a good pass, and an A to top it off) i can't say i worked my ass off for this test, but i know i placed some hopes and work into it. you don't see me doing math work religiously last year under chng, do you? nope. i don't even bother understanding anything in class, because i'm just not bothered to. but here comes sec 4, and i can't slack as much anymore. suddenly, i realised, that even working hard doesn't give me the desired results. i'm worried that i can't promote. ok, sorry, i shouldn't be emoing over an A =.=

arrrggghhhh my bio test is screwed too. consolation: got 5 dollars! :D
then went for training for a moment, then went off for CIP meeting! hahahaha it was damn high on the bus, and xm with us.
we were like randoming calling each other surnames and add "zi" behind. so
eve = cheng zi (orange)
liuqiao = liu zi (idk)
png hang = png zi(idk!)
phyllis = seah(xia) zi (blind man)
xinmun = PHANG ZI(fatty)

HAHAHAHHAHA. i totally burst out laughing and cannot stop at all!!! then xm stamped on our feet (eve and i) and we were like finally feeling the horrible feeling adam and bingle feels every moment with her :( HAHAHHA!
then we laugh again because xm was on the phone so eve said "hi xm's friend, i'm xm's friend!" then she was objecting loudly "it MAKES sense!" when xm stamped on her foot! LMAO!!! i laughed like hell la!! i duno why, my huge laughing moments are always with eve, when she isn't a total joker! LOL! eve laugh until she sweat like hell la! i shook hands with her, and her hands were wet! :O

then we reached commonwealth, and we shopped around in Sheng Siong. LOL! then eve went missing, so we went searching for her. so it went like this:

pnghang: EVE WHERE ARE YOU! (staring intensely at the floor) -incase you didn't notice, we were emphasizing how small she is-
liuqiao: got microscope or not!
me: ohohoh! you see here! (a tiny space) she's here!!

and everyone were like o.O HAHAHA!! damn funny can!then we went for the meeting!
so ivan looks rather different. we were thinking if he was like 80 years old or what, and i was mimicking a way a old man will talk. HAHAHA! then alan came in, and i kept laughing w/o stopping. AND IT WAS A RATHER SMALL COSYROOM!! totally, liuqiao was beside me and i kept vibrating with laughter. LOL! i realised his hair is super centre parting, and it's so hilarious! and i left the room to see eve make a call or sth, then the door stuck to his chair. as i close the door behind me, i saw liuqiao bursting with laughter LOL!
then alan had a private discussion with us and i kept from laughing because of his face! LOL. then liuqiao kept jotting down rebuts to his words, which were quite funny! he was like 'so...the driver of the ambulance are your la!" then liuqiao jot down "HOW CAN WE BE DRIVERS?!"
then we finally finish everything. and left for home!! :D a rather fun day overall! :D

KYAAAA! IKUTA TOMA!! he is super shuai! OMG! LOL. this is the nicest photo i have of him *_*

hahahahha! mom's birthday was a fiasco, cuz i woke up late, forgot to order birthday cake, and completely forgot to stay up to wish her happy birthday!! :O LOL. but i hope she enjoyed the dinner, i left a lot of food for her (which is unusual for me)

friday was miss lai's retirement, i was a little sian because i flunked bio test. i totally was having a headache, and after that i can't remember the answers i gave for any of the questions, which makes me so scared. maybe i forgot to finish something? sometimes the questions people ask me what answer i have, i oso duno. this is damn scary can? then eve and i did the charade stuff outside sjab room while we dealt with our individual headaches LOL. eve was in a bad mood, so she kept calling me to 'shut up!' :"(

then the concert itself (ok. not so considered as one) was errr.. okay? i duno, i didn't expect much mah.. but i do hope miss lai herself had a little fun (those games were supposed to be brain-teasers, since she's super clever) then the charades part was rather screwed up because nobody was really listening to the game, so yeah.

sat was mom's birthday, then learnt of sth from pnghang, and was damn pissed. i hate people who don't make things clear, and order people around.

then i realised it was CIP training day, and nobody go for sjab!! :O LOL.

at night had dinner, and stuff... then went home, and watch dramas.

OMG!! ikuta toma is super hot! and he is a real life guy, for once!! :O

and he is super funny too, the usual kena-sabo-guy HAHAHA!

honey and clover! then hana yori dango! :D

i realised japanese dramas are better than a lot of drama i've seen, their jokes made me laugh (at least) HAHA!

ok bbbbbbb! and v day is coming, yes zijun! :D HAHAHA!

mom's birthday is coming, but i have no idea what to buy .... SIAN. i duno what she wants, then if i anyhow buy, also very bad.. (especially when i saved like 200 dollars)

thanks a lot to guanlin and jasmine for the sweet/marshmellow pile on my table(: i'm much better le HAHA. thanks to gl again for counselling me =.=
ytd was badminton! LOL. i realised, i'm worse at doubles than singles. i could play with siyi singles for quite some time, especially when she has a very fast reaction time, but i always screw up at doubles, can't hit, cannot coordinate blah blah -___-
i damn angry this (or yesterday) morning, i woke up late because my mom didn't wake me up. ok she pushed me a little, then she herself went back to sleep =.= what the la! then she scolded me like so much, and still called me "笨猪" in the morning what the la. it's not completely my fault can, and i'm damn tired ok! then i ask my dad to take me to school since i thought cherie got my sms le, and left first. then she scolded me again, and say what i lazy go school then don't go, all those crap. i was so damn angry, i just took my bag and left house la =.=
shit, i keep mixing today and yesterday up -__- i think my mind a little woozy liao LOL.
training la! can't remember anything about it (shit, i'm senile)
then today training laze around then go home le =.= something very "funny" happened today. duno whether i should be angry or not, so i just sian diao LOL.
then went home early because i didn't feel like staying, and saw some bags that i don't want to see. then go buy bouquet blah blah! omg. it's damn ex, 35 dollars leh and it's about the cheapest around???
blah. i have nothing to say. just damn tired.
oh, and 我爱的人 is an emo song, i realised. (maybe tat's why i love this song)

OMG. we went to desmon lim's house, and it was damn hilarious!
erm we waited for everyone then we took bus, then we reach there, and we walk and saw a SUPER BIG SEMI-D. then we were all impressed, and we walk closer, then we realised something. its 4 south buona vista road! then desmon lim is 2! then we "eh...?" then we turned to the right and a mch smaller, but still a big house. LOL.
then we sat outside because it's not 3 yet! then we just admite outside lor, and we saw this beautiful tortoise la! ;D
then i went to get siyi, and she say her auntie was laughing at me =.= (i wonder why) i think becase i was on the wrong side of the road LOL. then we played cards and stuff with desmon lim, damn funny! we played snapjack(?) and i lag a few times la, then he kept suaning =.= then once he lag, and he lagged for like what, 5 SECONDS. then he just "AHHHHH" and bang the floor with his fist, and put his hand ontop of ours LOL. what the hell?!
and we played the card heart attack, then i lag mah. then he was like "oh, that's a very familiar watch." because i was wearing a watch la (like duh!)
the worst part was that, we were playing mah, then i was damn into the game. then i saw the door open, and there seem to be no one behind, then an uncle came in, and guess what? I SCREAMED AT HIM. omg. he was like desmon lim's father?!?! shit! i was damn paiseh and guilty for screaming ok!!
then after that some people started leaving le, then a lot of people play heart attack and snapjack, and jordyn's nails super long kept cutting people! LOL my palm got wound leh! LOL! then we watched final destination 3, and i was damn traumatised. i couldn't sleep at all this morning, until my mom came in and i felt not so scared. i kept imagining the burnt faces of 2 girls who were burnt/tanned to death in a tanning salon. damn disturbing i tell you! AND YEAH. there was frontal nudity and we were like "uh.. mr lim?" then he was like protesting "nonono! i never watch before!!"

today training was normal.

OMG. my 300th post! LOL.
today went for tuitioning and was rather sad, but mazlan came! :) so i tutored them and syafiq. amin never come cuz got some remedial, how sad! today was quite ok. then i told mazlan i won't come anymore, and he was sort of confused. then he was like "i sms you ok!"

then went out with sharon eve pnghang (: went imm, and macdonalds. then we talk A LOT. wow. LOL. and eve and i totally laugh our asses off at this man. he was like walking, then he tripped over the leg of an empty baby chair. then he was like "sorry...." and he walk away. then eve and i look at each other. and i was still talking about sth, and i saw him, and i trailed off le. then i just then i just started laughing like crazy then eve oso! LOL. we were laughing because that guy looks retarded, and he said sorry to no one. LOL. i haven't laughed so hard since 2 weeks ago? then we talked about stuff and laughed too!
then went home and sleep like siao. very tired sia!!
tmr going desmon lim house, and i damn sian!!

i expected as much ever since the first day.

i fell in love with the song 我爱的人by Yoga! listened to it on siyi's phone today, and found it extremely nice!
i like how geography test went today. two words: a breeze! HAHA. it was an open book test in the first place, extreme pushover can and the interesting part is that i talk with siyi throughout the test and stuff can! :P
somehow i feel a bit happy with yesterday's pe session. I RAN. what the hell? even though i was bloody hell slow, but please, i was stagnant for one whole year because of my dear, dear leg and MC, but i still can run, like seriously, i was proud of myself (to an extent)
ytd after school seriously wanted to just leave, and go home to sleep. but still, training. realised that the week before i was going for training every single day, even if it's not my training. it's stupid, and little idiotic, because i don't understand why i was so enthusiastic la! i die every night at home because i'm so tired, and i can't study, i can't even do homework. i just go home, bathe, eat, use computer, lie on the sofa, stone, and fall asleep. ok partly my use of com is the cause for the absence of work, but still, i don't like feeling tired at 6am, AND 6pm.
today cca was tiring AGAIN. urgh, i feel like dying when i run. -___- how long has it been since i seriously ran 6 rounds? i don't think i can remember. after all the running and stuff the others play games while i stoned, and thought about a million things while staring at the rain painful leg too
siyi say i seem very down and quiet nowadays. and shit, i think so too. i just don't talk as much, i don't high anymore, and i always let siyi do the talking while i listen. it's funny because siyi usually doesn't talk a lot and i used to shout and talk all the time. i feel everyday is a burden, and is building up. i know, emo kid. somehow, i feel normal, and immune to suans already? today jas and guanlin were like highing before chinese lesson, while siyi and i listen to her phone. then they just suddenly took out my pads, and threw them on my table, and go crazy or sth. funny, i didn't react normally, i just "hurhurhur.."
somehow, i'm not so like myself anymore. and thankyou timothy

"Lost and insecure, you found me."

- The Fray, You Found Me

whoops, long time no post! (frankly, i forgot most of the stuff i wanted to post about)

RIGHT! let's start from last friday

23/01/09:

A great day(: celebration was boring, maybe because we were having public duty, and i was rather low + sitting around strangers so i wasn't that high! but anyway, the lion threw sweets at me! :D i was singing along and stuff bah, is that considered high? then i found out farrah fell down!! omg la! today we saw her and her injuries are really ouch. LOL.

then after celebrations, wanted to go for buffet, but in the end everyone don't want go le, so i was like rather sian diao because i told jr qh zj to meet at 2.30, in the end there was nothing =.= so was contemplating stoning in classroom and cleanup, do up management diary, and finish chemistry ws. then cherie jia le and pinning came in looking for jie le, and i decided to go with them for primary school gathering! wheeee!

then went to vivo and we were the first to reach. then i was like just looking around, and michelle came! hahaha she looks the same as ever, and her hair is super nice, unpermed but looks permed! (duno how to spell) heh! so we talk and talk and talk.. then suddenly someone appear beside me and i was damn stunned. WEICHUAN! OMG. then we were like 'wc?! is this his brother?! or what' we were ready to accept any crap reason for the huge transformation apart from 'ok, that IS wc'

note: from here, i think i may miss out details =.=

then people started flooding in like, the nanhua peeps i.e. huimin teohyi peilin alan xiujing, adeline and huiping, and i forgot le (shit!) shuenyee...

then everyone went to superdog (dun drool sharon) and ate there! hahaha! then everyone were quite leng at first, then we warmed up and started crapping! then yinshan came, zihan and nicholas came and then i had to leave :'( i wish i could have stayed longer, because everyone went to sky garden!!! (urgh!) but ok, what happened after that was extremely great (:

then i met a fuming zj and qh at vivo before we set off to meet a dead batt jiarong =.= she had to use jasmine's phone to call us LOL. noob! then we met her at the interchange and stuff lor! qh and i were not in a good mood so the mood was rather ruined at the start, i was worried it wouldn't be fun! in fact i was like emoing or sth LOL.

then we took bus to west coast lala! we took 175 so must get down one stop before and walk. then we talk a little, stone, and emo LOL. then we reached west coast park! <3 sky =".=">

then we go to the coast there and sat and emo AGAIN. urgh! LOL. emo kias! i think zj and jr weren't (hopefully) but i definitely was, qh too. whoops! LOL. then we took photos like crazy and then we had "dinner" at macdonalds. LOL. it was funny, the oreo cheesecake and the brownie as birthday cakes! LOL. and we talked (:

jr and zj went walking while qh and i went to climb pyramid again (it was late, and it was night!) omg la. then it was so shuang up there, no sun, and cooling! then qh and i talked A LOT and confided a lot, and listened a lot. (: was missing the days in 2L, we could see each other (the clique) everyday, and crap, laugh, and i think i was a less responsible person in the past, which makes me happier in some ways ;D

at 9, we left, and everyone waited with me for 175 and the bus was super cool!! blur pictures, but still! LOl. my third on a spebus (special bus). so dear qh's birthday ended with a happy and satisfied note (:

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY QH!!! wish you a happy life ahead, and that we can celebrate with each other every year((((:

24/01/09:

CIP! ((((:
ok that makes me sad now. because my parents refused to let me continue.i'm damn sad ok! i emo all the way home can! ok, not the point -__-

Amin CAME BACK! and mazlan smsed me that he is not coming (sad.. i think i can't see him anymore) and i tutored amin and sypfiq. amin was damn cute and energetic. sypfiq was super quiet at first, he didnt even wanna say a single word, but amin kept talking and talking non stop, and with my professional guiding, he finally open up! and seriously, he laughs damn hysterically! :O and charlene was commenting "phyllis, why are all your students so crazy?" lol, i oso duno, my luck or sth? charlene still got the pretty girl! :D

then i had to get serious, and i taught syafiq multiplication. and i was damn irritated because amin kept interrupting (because he is p6) and after half an hour amin haven't even done ONE single question?! wth! then syafiq kept getting distracted, even if there is NOTHING to be distracted about. i ask him " 2 x 4?" he just ANYHOW gimme answer "3" walao, my hair almost all drop? i told umpteen times until i feel like my teacher, then he still always use 3 what the? i have little patience with people who DO not listen.

then after that, i went home straight heh! guai right? no la, my parents angry with me for reaching home so late the night before, so i go home early lor, it was worth it hehe!

CNY:

i'm quite sad that my cousin broke up with his gf, but i guess he is coping ok(:

i had steamboat on sunday i think, the next day i kena food poisoning. i tell you it's terrible, i was wondering if i could go guanlin house or not la! :P every time i eat, i shit, and the shit is as dilute as urine, it SQUIRTS out. wad the?! it's damn disgusting=.=

then i had buffet at night, but my ass can't listen, so i was visiting the toilet bowl most of the time la! =.= and there were good food!!! :(

then next day i went temple, then go guanlin's house! heh met her at je mrt first, then talk and drink. =.= seriously, i can't take bitter things, and i don't plan on doing so! LOL then met jasmine and siyi. LOL. jasmine made us laugh because she looks auntie, but in the end she looks ok la!

siyi was dressed quite cute LOL. (she later ego again) then we set off for guanlin's house lala! we took cab la hahaha. then met dixun! and we started eating steamboat, skipping past all the pai nian hehe! then there was sth jasmine found funny, but i didn't:

"hey, where you go pai nian today?"

"oh, i go pai shen." (pray god u know)

then they laughed lik siao, i duno why -__- this is the extreme diao face la!

then steamboat laugh like shit shit shit. they kept suaning me then dixun sneeze i will burst out laughing seriously hahahaaa! then guanlin invited her friend enik and joined us to eat then after that her band senior came too! then it was like about 9? so we go home le lor!

YAY. pictures pictures pictures!

Sharon's birthday card hehehe! ;D i find it pretty la xd
jiarong's card, and i agree, it's the prettiest card you gave me LOL!





the front of jiarong's card

squad card (:






hahahaha qh with her girly pose =.= jiarong and i are trying to act like seaweeds=.=
heh! i love this picture somehow! :) qh pose damn unglam, but spot jiarong and my stupid faces, spastic, totally!


i love this photo lots too!!

emo kias, checked.

zijun and i, hearts! LOL. (somehow i can hear jasmine shouting 'who wants to!!')

mango, dun be sad. it's not the first time you felt like this, just let go, and things will turn out great. haven't I tell you before? stay happy, and everything turns out alright somehow. losing passion isn't what you should worry about, it is the reason behind it that you should feel bad for.