imagine spontaneous combustion.
just imagine yourself having a day out with your friend as usual. then, you see her bursting into flames, with no apparent reason.
just imagine.

I tell you, it's damn creepy
any time now, any one of us, any of our friends can just burst into flames o.O
oh my, just think, later your friend is reduced to a pile of ashes! :O

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Spontaneous_human_combustion

"When your heart is filled with

Sadness and despair,

I'll carry you when you need a friend

You'll find my footprints in the sand."

- Leona Lewis, Footprints in the sand

EOYS. hahaha. i actually studied you know! (:

finished geography, fairly glad i did, since it's so bloody long, and lots of memorising. i concentrated for about eh, 2 - 4 hours, and gosh, my yield is this much. (haber?)

I don't understand. If you said you love me, why do you treat him so differently from me? Because he is much cleverer? Because he is going to be a teacher, when i have no aim in life yet?

Of course i have my aims. I don't want you to know them, because i have no confidence of achieving them. I want to be a doctor. Do you even know that? I want to be an artist. Do you even think about that before? Have you even seen my weird drawings, even one glance? No matter how ugly they were, at least you could just look at it, and give a little credit to whoever drew it. All you do is to demoralise me at times when i needed support most. I'm sorry i can't be as good as him. I'm sorry all i do is to make you worry. But what can i do? I love you of course.

"I'm sorry can't save

a heart when it breaks and scattered in the wind

How can two worlds cover the half

The others been living in"

LOL. i am back! :D

okay EOYs are coming... and i only started mugging.

and hey, for your info, my parents wan me all As. pls, it's not primary school when you can just slack your ass off, and you still pass considerably. =.= (definitely not bragging, because many say it's true)

Aiya, i really feel like slacking now, even though i only went thru one stupid paper!!

2 more weeks to go...

things i wanna do after exams

go west coast park, go out, go sentosa, play com....

=.=

lol EOYs coming, and i'm like, damn slack still. MUAHAHA. i studied
bio (cells, heart, DNA halfway)
geog (urban, a little of rivers)
maths (tried doing revision 2 and got 'praised' by chng)

i'm not in the mood to blog, so bye.

P.S. sorry for the lack of smilies. i don't have the mood to even type one out now.

"Love can fall hard

Leaving the scar that remembers

How bad it burns

We won't pretend where next time begins

Cause we need just to live and learn"

- Sorry's not enough, American Mall

before you knew anything, everything is over. isn't that just sad? being gullible is maybe the worst thing on earth because it crushes you together with the ones next to you. ): nothing, it's just a rant from the time jas gaun and i went to subway and talked.

Today CID got scolded by william, and i feel so bad. no offense to anyone or am i blaming anyone okay. but i felt so bad. like, it has been 2 weeks and i think he was kind of anticipating our presentation for some reason. ):

i realised one of the worst flaws i have- i am so stupidly, wretchedly g------. wad the?! okay i admit it seems insignificant to most, but i definitely am going to change this aspect of me. =.=

sorry jas for suspecting ya, i tot you would be with gaun hahaha!

OMG. midnight sun draft is out. it seems that stephenie meyer's copy got illegally placed in the internet, and she seems real upset over it, saying she will keep midnight sun at a standstill for now until she gets back her mood. urgh. that was some big punishment for those illegal people!! and for me too. i read thru it once, and i am just fascinated. (:

"When gray meets light

It creates new colors

That stay lost inside

Till they find each other

Then the world that you've never seen before

Starts moving in slow motion

Am I living now out loud

'Cause I can't hide me from you

And I'm not afraid somehow

To let you see right through me

Wait, I must be dreaming wide awake"

-American Mall, Dreaming wide awake

Omg. Went to jiarong's house yesterday, and woah i watched camp rock, and american mall.

AMERICAN MALL ROCKS. damn it man, the songs are very very nice! i watched camp rock before american mall, so it's a huge difference. i really love Ally & Joey together! okay joey isn't very hot or anything, but ally is super pretty! the coolest part is that they both have incredible vocals(:

the plot is kind of new, yet cliche somehow. it's super nice! i got the whole soundtrack from jiarong, and i am listening to them right now! the whole movie in whole is really not bad, although i wish there were more scenes with ally&joey! and it's funny la can. i laughed a few times, compared to nothing at all with camp rock!

okay camp rock isn't really that bad. i find Demi Lovato not too bad, and she's kind of pretty. but the storyline is too cliche. usual girls-trying-to-fit-in stuff yaknow, and then getting found out, and singing songs in between. there are some meaningless scenes here and there though, i wish the producer explained for them. the ending was not too bad, i saw the chemistry between joe jonas and demi lovato(: joe is kind of hot, but he dances quite clumsily for some reason hahaha! nick and kevin appears for a few times, and kevin seems really stupid and dumb in the movie LOL! because he keeps harping on his birdhouse =.=

soundtrack wise, american mall pawns. camp rock songs aint very impressive. "gotta find you" by joe jonas is not too bad, but you get tired listening to it too many times you know. but american mall songs are really great. (:

yup. american mall is really good, although i don't understand why no one watches it):

today i almost died from food. i had wanton mee, and my dad bought carrot cake, soup, and western, and was about to call for prawn mee. i was like wts (what the shit) walao it's ridiculous to eat so much!!! i was dying on the car back home, and my head was spinning like i just had hyperventilation. i think that was car sickness. ==

"i don't know how you do what you do,

i'm so in love with you

it just keeps getting better

i want to spend the rest of my life

with you by my side

forever and ever

every little thing that you do

baby, i'm amazed by you. "

- Lonestar, Amazed

hahahaha! this song is so nice. NICE. i mean, it's really sweet! (:

i love SJAB! :D

okay. today the whole lot of sjab went to vivo swensens!!

hahaha partially thanks to sharon, qiao, and me! (:

MUAHAHAHA. say thanks!

DISCLAIMER

i do not borrow money unless i am seriously broke

and i do note down how much i owe you

don't think i always don't care about how much i owe people

even in the millions!

i will return money as long i have some in my hands okay!!!

i am blogging in school now (: hahaha!
i fell asleep so much in class, like really unconscious. OMG. lol!
usually i could hear the teacvher talking, but i couldn't today really completely unconscious!!
maybe it's because i slept at 1a.m. last night, and i felt like a zombie this morning

If the mind keeps thinking you’ve had enough, but the heart keeps telling you don’t give up

HAHA! this is from "just stand up" from various artistes. it's a damn meaningful song, i tell ya!

Okay today was kind of fun HAHA! maths i was clueless because i was so thick from sleeping in chinese! HAHA. okay then during recess, we ate and talked.... then we went for biology, when it's DNA! lol. i love DNA, it's cool.

ok then it's mr chua's lecture on the big bang. i found it cool, since we came from nothing! that shows at least we are something (when you fail your exams, suck at everything you do) HAHA!

then it's about archimedes. OMG. i can spell his name at last! LOL

then it's some opera thing which i completely was entertained by. ok not entertained, i was just fascinated by how the people can do all those stunts. i couldn't hear what they were saying though, and that makes it pointless watching it haha!

okay then we stayed in class and talked chatted ;D

then we went to somewhere in outram central to eat at subway(: and we talked about a lot of things... okay yup that's all!

LOL. i hyperventilated so much today, that my head is swimming AGAIN.
today was casualty acting day, and i was quite impressed. i mean seriously, the sec ones have great enthusiasm. some of them really mugged for this, i am sure. a handful is not serious, but i think the majority really... wow.
there are a few things i really didn't expect them to do. and i think they rock! omg. jiayou sec ones, your will bring rvsjab to greater future some day, okay! (:
and wow, a few of them are good. i mean it okay! they were a thousand times better than me when i was sec one =.=
加油加油！
hahaha. okay let's not touch on that topic too much, it's bad! HAHA.
today math teacher scolded and hinted strongly that it's me == he was like "some of you are from CCAs right, like SJAB." and he plattered about some other CCAs. but the first one was SJAB. i felt kind of pissed. i mean seriously today i didn't talk much!!! why does it always have to be me, only when i have a loud voice?! == is it because he saw me last friday when i was NCO? walao? wadever la.
was looking forward to cca for the whole day, but i was dead beat by the end of it.

i think some people really don't bother. i mean it. like they just anyhow do it, and regret later. no one should regret what they did. i regretted mine so much. I wanted to be part of everything, and i detested the fact that i am always considered not that good. i mean it's a fact. i can't deny anything. if i ever could choose things again, i would have did my best, and tried.
i regretted ponning cca, and putting everything behind me, thinking i would be content with nothing to do with cca. i have no idea if it is because of us, but it's kind of obvious. stop that nonsense, because we are gonna leave someday anyway, it's more of you, and by that time you hoped you did something for the cca, it's too late! i don't think anyone understands this more than me, sharon, liuqiao, or some others.
ok i don't care if you hate me. i don't give a damn okay. it's alright.

LALALLALA~ okay i love my bed:D

cya!

woohoo:D i had a great time today eating in class still left one whole pack of chipsmore from 711 (:
and i understood everything in maths today! and i laughed my ass off at martin junior guy because teacher go plug the jack in, and then the martin's voice was so damn high (a few octaves higher than mine?!) and it sounds like mickey/tom and jerry! LOL.
woohoo tomorrow is com selection woohoo. reminds me so much of my screwed up first aid a few years back HAHA.

i changed blogskin! (:

okay nvr mind. it was so humiliating on friday okay! have to practice on frowning more. MUCH more if i have to face william or lihui's face. i can practise on sharon's :D

my GPA suffered so much from god knows what. i never thought i would deproved like this MUCH!! omg. i can't take it man. 2.5 is so low. low. low. low. and everyone is doing so well. how the hell am i going to pull my grades up?!

can't find my progress report, maybe it's chucked somewhere i can't find. maybe it's in school!

I kbed SOMEONE ---ke on thursday because he gave us a stupid test without telling us for the goddamn week. =.= i mean seriously. we were all stunned when he said there was a test. i heard about it from others, but i didn't expect it to be true=.= and chuye oso said that his friends say got test de. for the whole week, i am 12389475895315674% sure he didn't tell us anything! even though i was like sleeping most of the time! ): and this test will suck so much it will pull my english marks down intot he drain again.

HAHA i am uploading pictures (:



I fell in love with hot dog bread lately, so i made my mom make it for me for some days! (:









i miss training, jesslyn, and everyone! :( but life has to go on, shouldn't it?












first from left looks nice isn't it! i mean, it's taken when i was walking to the bus stop with cherie and yinshan, as usual!
second from left/right: sharon's "pretty" gift for us HAHA. i must admit, it looks not-too-bad(: but it encouraged me quite much!
first from right: we were doing a rainbow for something... (SHH) and here it is!


and what the hell, my life is totally screwed up. lookie, my GPA is telling me i can't pass next year definitely like a puny 2.5 walao leh


i really studied quite a lot for this too can super pissed!

CID report was not bad huh, i like it a lot! i mean it's quite cool after you realised you actually finished something! (:

some random photo from biology~

we got champion! :D
i miss training ever so much!
really happy about it okay! i was damn pissed the day before because i was so depressed. like i kept trying doing drills and my parents kept scolding me then i am making too much noise, and i kept pestering my bro to watch my hands when marching then he was so pissed he shouted at me! then i realised my auntie came to visit me like, one week early?! it's so unfair! then my mother refused to iron my clothes for me!! i mean, if i knew how to do it i would do it myself can!!
ok then it's the next day reached damn early only eve and olivia there lor HAHA. then i started rambling about myself hahaha! then people started coming then when our team was full, we went for some warmups and gosh, my shoe was overflowing with water!! HAHA. and my bangs were horrendous. it was here i started stressing up silently!
then we proceeded to the classrooms. i was like asking frantically what to do for uniform check can! HAHA! so noob! then the bangs were not bad i guess i couldn't hear anyway! :D
then we waited and waited with our puny food because no one buy for us only got green tea from adam which no one drank at all :P
then we were singing and singing and singing in indian accent (with dear jesslyn!)and with dear yongen with a great voice and charlene with a great voice tooooooooo! :D we laughed like siao though and i got less stressed haha! then jesslyn was like reminding me to not
-look at her
-lag
-swing hands inwards
-swing hands too slow
-slow march too slow
-jerk with everyone
-the most important GAN JUE!

then i was like totally o.O but i still calmed myself down by singing endless songs! :D
then it was the big moment. i just gave it my all, i hoped it showed! (:
like everything i really kept my head and counted the timing in my head, and really made sure the dressing was good. oh man!!! :O
And i tried not to look at jesslyn, which i succeeded! :D
i was staring at charlene's hair all the time, and to look like i am concentrating, i started coutning the number of holes in her hairnet LOL!
then the bangs sounded bad to me and i was so unhappy and bu fu qi can! then i just gave my all for fancy drill lor(:
then finish le and i was feeling all numb and stuff i mean seriously, i don't know what to do. i tot i did my best, but my best didn't seem enough and i was emoing until sharon told me she could see i gave my all! :D and she said i only lagged once and i caught up after that! D:
then we half emoed and half sang.
then it was te results. i was like totally numb throughout. i didn't know what to expect la!
then we were the champion. i was like totally. o.O O.O >< :D:D:D:D:D::D:D:D
hahahahha mixture of expressions. but i kept my cool with charlene and just went to take trophy blah blah blah! hahaha. then we waited for liu qiao! :D
then i was really happy because yeeshuang and zhixiang came to congratulate me and i am glad i showed my best (:
then we had POP. quite sian actually but i was standing beside dear JESSLYN!:D hahahahah!
ok then we go home and we pangseh jesslyn HA! :P sharon pnghang and i go buy bubble tea haha!

okay then i went home and mom didn't see my trophy so she said "nothing ah." with that look of unsurprise!! >< what the! then i showed my trophy grinning from ear to ear, and she woohoo and i started showing it off to brother! :D

CONGRATULATIONS JXYYCOEPPSL! OSO THE SEC 2 TEAM YOU DID EXTREMELY WELL TOO! AND GUYS TEAM! (;
dedication to everyone (like lihui but shh....)

jesslyn: you are the best leader ever! thank you for encouraging me! (maybe you didn't realise you were) but everytime you tell me i improved, or praise me, it's really encouraging to me! you know i even try foot drill at home until my parents sian diao le! you really rocks! (:
Xinmun: HAHAHA! the vibrator! HAHA. really thanks for your guidance and keep laughing and laughing!
yuting: shuai ge! (: thanks for reminding me for dressing! and even though you miss many training because of lessons, you rock! (:
yongen: MEInv! :D thanks for practicing with me everything :D hahaha fellow slow march problematic! HAHA joking (:
charlene: 一条河！！
hahahha it has been great training mo qi with you and everything (: love you lots!
olivia: fellow 57! (: HAHAHAH! thanks for encouraging me when i feel really down and praising me when i improved (:
Eve: eevee! (: thanks for being timer at first! i got really used to your voice hahaha!
Pnghang: (: pnghang thanks for guiding me and for the occasional times u r high, you are really really fun to be with! (:
Phyllis: i rock!
Sharon: hahaha! you have been a great reserve! (: thanks for encouraging me after com because i was feeling down and thinking i didn't look like i gave my all! (: thanks for helping anyway! da bian!
liuqiao: hahahahah see your face wan to laugh! (: hahahah but thanks anyway for making me laugh so uncontrollably so many times!

JXYYCOEPPSL WOOSH! i really <3333 the team okay! i really feel i improved a lot, and i saw yeeshuang blog and overheard their words while watching the drills! i am really really very gan dong ok, i almost cried! (; thank you so much for making this hell of a boring life here so fun and worthwhile! :D

here i am, back! (:
omg. training today was totally life-sucking, but it was all worth it!
:D i went home and half-died on sofa, then i woke up again to do CID HAHA.
walao i think i am damn black now... :(

HELLO!
haha. i fell down ytd behind yinshan and olivia walao la
i stepped into this dent with sand and my foot completely collapsed and then, my whole left leg lost balance, and i kneeled down beside yinshan
according to cherie, my hands were up and i looked like i was praying to yinshan
and wow! i sprained my left ankle, and seriously there is so many injuries to my left that i think it's useless!
and wow, com is next week.

ytd was fun okay. nobelle jas jiayi yulu jiele simin shinfung and me went to play games at the netball court because chi teacher late HAHA. so damn fun okay we kept playing and playing and playing and i sweated so much that i stunk like hell!

CCA was erm. okay LOL. we had training under bing le for maybe 1 or 1.5 hours and then we discussed squad stuff HAHA.

oh i owe bing le 100 pumping LOL dunno why i so happy to admit this! :D

i am gonna be damn optimistic thanks to lihui!

i can do it. i can do it. i can do it. i can do it. i can do it. i can do it. i can do it. i can do it. i can do it. i can do it. i can do it. i can do it. i can do it. i can do it. i can do it. i can do it.

i will be in time. i will be in time. i will be in time. i will be in time. i will be in time. i will be in time. i will be in time. i will be in time. i will be in time. i will be in time. i will be in time. i will be in time. i will be in time. i will be in time. i will be in time. i will be in time. i will be in time. i will be in time. i will be in time. i will be in time. i will be in time. i will be in time. i will be in time. i will be in time. i will be in time. i will be in time. i will be in time. i will be in time. i will be in time. i will be in time. i will be in time. i will be in time. i will be in time. i will be in time. i will be in time. i will be in time. i will be in time. i will be in time. i will be in time. i will be in time. i will be in time. i will be in time. i will be in time. i will be in time. i will be in time. i will be in time. i will be in time.

okay that's about that.

urgh i feel so damn empty without twilight saga to accompany me!! :(
i miss edward cullen! i want to know more about their life. i don't want it to end!!!! :O
urgh. OH I AM THE VICE PRESIDENT OF THE EDWARD CULLEN FAN CLUB!!
lol it's just a fan club when all members gather and oogle:D
HAHAHA. it's so fun! siyi is the president!
5 dollars for admission!! :D

today went to mac with nobelle :D
and talk a lot of stuff
very funny
and it's so cool lor!
we talk about this thing that we very similar about
and it's so cool

oh i decided to use blogger again because i dunno how to change livejournal the theme la!! ):
MA'AM JAC!! your still going?! i got a swollen leg, so cannot go leh. then got common tests so my mom like.. don't let me go? yeah.. sorry! i shouldn't have posted it without considering my own time and others too.. ): don't go leh, later i scared very little people go because i only spread it to some people only because i tot i can put it after POP... :O

oh. thursday had training, and we marched 4 rounds WOOOO... and then 1 round slow march. walao my left leg completely became useless when i went home. oh we did once procedure, and during the slow march, my left leg completely 抽筋！chou jin!! OMG. so damn painful la. i forgot the last time when i had such a painful experience man. then i went home, collapsed on the bed, and had to apply some stupid ointment to my leg and stick this sticky pad on my ankle because according to my mom it's swollen.

friday was PT and i actually quite happy i could run so much leh LOL! (: like i tot i will keep stopping and stuff because of my painful leg but i endured!! (:(:
then we did circuits x10 faster than the others and i almost died:D
oh then i was doing crutches x10 speed, and BOOOOMM. my leg 抽筋 chou1 jin1 AGAIN.
oh man, then i was like using sharon and olivia to cover me when i massaged my ankle and knee.
i was like dying there when i waited for dad. HAHA.
ooo it's damn cool okay. (: i went for dinner, then i went home. then i took off my sticky pad and socks and woah
its swollen! (no it doesn't stink like crazy..)
woohoo. haha it's numb leh, so it doesn't hurt HAHA!

hehehe. discussed something bad with sharon and in the end we decided to be bad. then i had my swollen left foot and woohoo... (lol it's only for sharon to see here)

walao leh. common test totally sucks okay, i HATE common tests. i can't stand the sight of my mom chasing me around, tracking me down for no reason just because the next day is a freaking stupid chinese paper?! who studies for chinese?!?! okay maybe it's just me who doesn't, but i really don't think there is a need to study for chinese la okay!

oh. i am happy. very happy. extremely happy. although my left leg problem is all back and i find myself waking up in the middle of night spasming (like it jasmine?) because my left leg chou jin. but i am happy(: i guess this is what you call happiness:D i have no idea when this happiness will end, or how long it will go, but i am happy now:D

okay advance outing details...

ADVANCE NCO COURSE OUTING
TENTATIVE DATES: 24/08/08, 31/08/08 SUNDAYS FOR MA'AM JAC!! (:
VENUE: SENTOSA (MOST PROBABLY)
TIME: 10A.M. TO 8P.M? (YOU CAN LEAVE ANYTIME WHAT:p)
BRING SLIPPERS MONEY (A LOT) EXTRA CLOTHING AND BEACH BALL CAP BAG SUNBLOCK
WEAR ADVANCE TEE AND SHORTS!! (:

eh anyway this is only my wishful thinking cause i haven't really consulted anyone, so do tag or anything if anything wrong whatever la! (:

and omg. common tests are coming, so i am pludged with a million tests.. urgh!

HAHHAA. i got a new blog at livejournal(:
http://1chocolatefudge.livejournal.com

livejournal is kind of convenient i guess, but dunno whether i will switch to blogger once again, but who cares!! (:
read my livejournal for details on:
. secondary one orientation!
. animal farm!! (:
. some details on a tentative advance outing (:

anyway do tag here or comment there at livejournal okay! (: