PLEASE DO RELINK! :D

2009-07-13T20:43:00.002+08:00

i'm abandoning this blog :)
relink!
http://saystheonewiththegun.blogspot.com/

okay fine, it's sort of noob too, but at least you ain't typing "feelmyheart-cry" which is plain noob!!! zzzzzzz LOL. i decided to change it.... (more details at the new blog)

2009-07-12T18:12:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESSLYN (before i forget again)
stay black, cheerful, and always laughy (?)

and adam lambert's version of no boundaries is pro.

2009-07-12T17:50:00.002+08:00

"一个人　眺望碧海和蓝天
在心里面　那抹灰就淡一些
海豚从眼前飞跃
我看见了最阳光的笑脸
好时光都该被宝贝　因为有限
　　　　
我学着不去担心得太远
不计划太多　反而能勇敢冒险
丰富地过每一天　快乐的看每一天
Wooh～
第一次遇见阴天遮住你侧脸
有什么故事好想了解
我感觉我懂你的特别
　　　　　
你的心有一道墙　但我发现一扇窗
偶尔透出一丝暖暖的微光
就算你有一道墙
我的爱会攀上窗台盛放
打开窗你会看到悲伤融化
　　　　
我学着不去担心得太远
不计划太多　反而能勇敢冒险
丰富地过每一天　快乐的看每一天
Wooh～
第一次遇见阴天遮住你侧脸
有什么故事好想了解
我感觉我懂你的特别
　　　　
你的心有一道墙　但我发现一扇窗
偶尔透出一丝暖暖的微光
就算你有一道墙
我的爱会攀上窗台盛放
打开窗你会看到悲伤融化
　　　　　
你的心有一道墙　但我发现一扇窗
偶尔透出一丝暖暖的微光
就算你有一道墙
我的爱会攀上窗台盛放
打开窗你会看到悲伤融化
你会闻到幸福晴朗的芬芳"

- 郭静，心墙

omg. this song is super nice :) the lyrics is very exquisite, and i guess that's what i really appreciate about chinese songs. English songs have probably better beat, and music, but chinese beats english songs in lyrics hands down HAHA. but i'll be sticking with english, there are more varieties/genres of music to choose from? Chinese revolves about the same few melancholy ones i think, or some electronic ones that i cannot stand hahaha (even though i'm sitting down). i can't imagine "I Don't Care" by Fall Out Boy in chinese right? LOL. super weird too. chinese is less rebellious bah? i'm a january person, so i'm rebellious aquarius~ LOLLLL.

something random: isn't it weird about those so-called yearly horoscopes, when experts start talking about the year of the monkey, chicken, dog whatever? i mean, seriously, i used to think its crap, and i still think it is now -.- see, let's say the experts say that the people born in the year of the chicken are getting realllllly bad results, and will suck in studies. and then you think again: wait, isn't everyone in our year included? -.- that's the idiotic part sia, so the whole year 4 will fail tgt because our horoscope 犯太岁? HAHA. the funny part is that i'm born in the year of the monkey! :D

another randomness: birthday horoscopes. i think it's more believable, though still not... that believable -.- LOL. i believe because things seem to work out like that sometimes, but horoscopes are always vague, so believers will probably just relate to it in every single way :X but i think the description of aquarius does describe me and my friend qianhui in ways.. still, i'm not believing :X i believe in self-belief LOLLLL. even if i pray hard for something, in the end i have to work hard for it mah XD gods, to me, are beacons(?) of hope for people who lack self-belief :) like if you don't believe in yourself, believe your god you entrusted your hope to, and you will really work hard for it! really, no offense okay! :X

anyways, i have switched my comp on, for ... 3 consecutive days! damn shocking, i didn't expect myself to be using the comp for the whole of today.. but anyway! i did math like crazy, finished most of the ws, and i think angles really gg la. -.- i should get a good rest today, so tmr won't fall asleep in lessons :) somehow i feel that i'm finally breaking out from the slacking mood already!

FSC KIDSSSS:(

2009-07-11T22:49:00.002+08:00

OMGGG. lee min ho is so cute. XDD he fell down hahahahaha! i guess he must be feeling really nervous, but whatever it is, he has seriously, very very very long legs. and thanks to this video, i'm ready to continue watch BOF, and let ftly at one side first (:

anyways, e-learning was hardcore SLACKING. i woke up at 7 plus, then i went back to sleep till 930 before i really woke up and switched the comp on!! :S LOL. i expected myself to be an early bird XDD in the end i was watching FTLY like hell(: till like 5 in the afternoon, then i printed all those important stuff to be done :X HAHA. so i did them on paper lor! CID i just did it :)

i did quite a lot leh! i did.. english, chinese, math a bit but not all, bio duno can do what, chemistry i study liao! :D

2009-07-08T21:48:00.002+08:00

wanted to post about sth that happened in february, emo post, but i guess i just have to stop thinking about it? :X

2009-07-08T21:14:00.004+08:00

i feel super proud of myself, i didn't sleep at all for the past two daysssssssssss!

okay, that's not too much :X but i'm usually the first few to fall dead onto the table, seriously.. so i think it's a good effort to stay awake.. even during the killer lessons i.e. geography!

mmhmm. hoping to go home early today but i failed terribly HAHAHA. stayed back and ate with jiarong and eve, then eve went to do hwk, and then xinmun came along, and talk talk talk yapyapyap, then xm went to do hwk too, then decided to leave, then eve left with us, then handed up stuff, then....... waiting... LOL. then wait for bus.... AND I MISSED THE FIRST 57!!! thanks arh jiarong HAHAHA. she asked me to wait with her for 963, then in the end 963 was right behind 57!! sian sia. in the end eve left too on 61 left me sitting there stoning and listening to mp4 :) emo kia! :) in the end met bl LOLLLLL at the bus stop. then bus came and faster went up liao, damn long to wait la!!! -.-

i wanna go back to fsc :( miss jack, maiyuan, alicia, nicoles, etc etc... don't wanna give up like how i did with loving hearts, and then regretted it so much.. gahhhh. mazlan!!!! :( i promised him a watch, but in the end i quitted before i could buy and pass it to him.. :( i feel super bad la.. but go back now oso weird liao..

carecorner! i want to go back to carecorner and have CIP dept talks XDDDD damn fun one la :) and i feel like an adult organizing!! :) but we are handing over liao, no point trying to do another CIP right :( aiyo. one year passed by damn fast, felt like ytd we took over and everything. though i didn't do much, but oh well, i will miss sjab in some ways.. and hopefully y4 squad won't split.. i want to go genting with them one leh~ my parents still saying no, but i think it's not that bad la, they probably will tag along :X HAHAHA. so weird. but yeah. maybe i should ask my bro to come along heh heh! but will definitely be weird for me lor. i'm totally different at home and outside.. LOL!

hopefully sjab chalet will be in december heh heh. :) i want midnight cycling!! but again, got people nvr learn or perfected.. -stares at auntie- :( maybe can double bike lor! omg la. midnight cycling will rock, but i must, must, must perfect my biking first HAHAHAHAHAHA. though it's perfect already.. -shrugs-

hahaha. listening to chinese songs to attempt to make myself more china :) but it's a failure so far, i can't identify the songs HAHAHA.

chey la, i tot i was over it. as usual, i can't let go so easily la. -.- jiarong was right, chey.. LOL.

tmr's someone's birthday, dun want say who HAHAHA. see my mood tmr then if got time i blog hahaha! :)

i really, really hope the plan bill isn't coming soon, i don't want to die at such an early age.. then again, i have been saying that since the plan started o_O (----- this emoticon very cute HAHAHA.

i want nobody, nobody but you (clap, clap, clap) :D the song damn addictive HAHA.

edit: i fell asleep during maths. not really fall asleep. i just... dozed off, and leaned against the wall, woke up and saw yijin sniggering HAHAHA!

2009-07-07T20:56:00.002+08:00

monday was youth day, the day for youths! and my parents had to work hahaha! looks like i will need to suffer that same fate someday soon :(

anyway, went ice skating with squad. OMG. it was a horrible/enriching/embarrassing day! LOLL. when i got into the ice skating rink, i fell after like, 5 minutes or so? shit la and plus people pull me down, and my legs slipped again! so paiseh :b but anyway, the ice floor was totally, like what sharon said, frictionless!! seriously when you're gonna fall, it felt like your legs are going haywire o.o seriously sia. i had no idea how i could not fall when i was going to fall LOL! somehow i managed to perform a very... exhilarating 'dance' move because i regain my legs HAHAHA.

so i held on to railings most of the time la! but still tried to let go but too many people then if i fall then i so malu la XDD then second time i was desperately grabbing on to sth, in the end i grabbed onto yen, and pulled her down to fall toooooooooooo :b sorry yen!!

there was once, i sort of tripped over this kid's uh... thing. okay not THAT thing. i meant, the kid was holding on this thing that resembles what elderly hold to support them? yeah. i can't find the word/picture to describe it.. yeah so ..

me: woahwoahwoahwoah shitshit!! (almost fell and didn't fall)
boy: o.o
me: oh, sorry.
boy: .... you need this?

walao he is right out trying to tell me i suck la! LOL. and he is just a fricking kid!!!! :( LOL.

anyway, one guy swept past in front of me, and i lost concentration, and i seriously started PRANCING around on ice to maintain balance. and that guy stared at me like i'm some retard with no equilibrium (?), but actually if he didn't shock me i wouldn't be in that state!!! horrible sia! LOL.

phototaking was fun, if i could stop moving backwards involuntarily! LOL. totally had to hold on to everyone to make sure i stop moving like shit!! HAHAHA. but in the end took a few photos lor :) most of the time i was trying reallllllly hard to skate. okay not that hard, if there were fewer people, i bet a million dollars i will fall like 20 times cuz i will be hiong in trying to desperately grasp the iceskating ;b

but it's fun la! after that took out the skates, it was horrible. cramped up twice and was in immortal agony LOL. charlene was sort of o.o LOL. not really actually LOL, it's routine :) then wore shoes. OMG. it's the best feeling for a long time :)

then wanted to go out but adam lost his ticket so i lent him 10 dollars. best part is he said

"oh 算我倒霉，lend me 10 dollars. there's no choice!" LOL. i have no fricking idea why he must add the first part, it sounded extremely, extremely qianbian -.- but lent him anyway if not i cannot get out cuz he's blocking o.o LOL.

then wanted to go marina barrage because it felt like a very very short meeting only, but everyone tired le bah, so yeah lor.. at night tried to sleep but to no avail in the end i ended up reading shaonianwenzhai and smsing eve -.- trying to motivate her to do her hwk, when i'm not :)

today was uh.. normal lesson day lor. but tired :X but i never sleep at all~ geography almost fell asleep but stayed awake and stared into blank space :)

CID was quite interactive so never sleep heh heh! and we are the 5th group leh~ happy ahahhaha! chemistry prac was crap thx to nck LOL. eve and i like dao him and stay in class and the whole class oso stay then nck called my hp O.O omg. i tot cannot use phone in class one?! LOLLLL. but i just ignore, and faster rush to chem lab liao :X in the end kena scolded hahaha, and confirmed that it wasnt a free period :b

then math was just the quiz then after that going thru the circle thing LOl. i couldn't really hear so i gave up LOL.

ahhhhh i very tired, XDD night.. :)

2009-07-04T19:29:00.002+08:00

zzzz i tried to blog today twice, once on the phone but my parents came back so i had to off the internet, second time i tried but there was an error! AHHHHHH. so frustrating!

but anyway. i was just blogging about this week:)

uhhh.. monday was movie with jiarong, transformers HAHA! didn't like it much though, probably should watch transformers one first right? :X but anyway the guy looks very cute, he looks like a preschooler but probably cuter than that :P megan fox is hot la, but there wasn't much scenes featuring her, so i didn't take notice much XD maybe transformers one should be the one which does the impression!

tuesday was 'checking sec one attire' day. LOL. left quite early and everything lor. but still funny in some ways HAHA. i tot everyone will turn up since it's supposed to be a day all of us are free.. but in the end only a few turned up :(

wednesday was sjab day, had good and bad experiences, but was damn paiseh to be greeted with eve in front of mrs look sia. LOLLL. it was so random! anyway, was paiseh when juniors greet me, and everyone ask me "why eve has so many badges you so little?!" WALAO!! LOL. i got chief com badge one okay! :X but anyway after that waited for charlene and bl then had camwhore session :) i love, love, love photos!

sidetracking for a cheesy while. i think our 'era' is sort of ending, and i really hope that we will not drift, but asked jesslyn and she said it's quite impossible we won't... probably we will be close in cliques? it made me quite sad actually, looking back, i probably didn't make so much memories with the rest since they had comp tgt and everything, but the last two years had been the fun years that i'm super, super scared i would forget about :( therefore, we MUST. i repeat, MUST take photos regularly so that i will remember every event we did tgt, even when we part and start to forget each other's names, faces, or may not recognise each other when we walk past each other..

thursday was training, as usual, quite useless at trainings that are not foot drill one la XDD but anyway, just wanted to spend time and everything. try to make myself useful in little ways -.-

friday too XD but the highlight was probably the photo taking session and dinner oso :) funfunfun! but i look horrible in most of the photos, so will leave my dp like that for some time XD thanks eve for uploading the photos! the dinner was with jesslyn eve xinmun bl zhixiang adam :) had dinner at The Mussel Guy in vivo! but anyway it was really paiseh at the end because i had ALOT of coins, no notes, then very paiseh when i poured the coins out and starting counting them like some measly amount.. LOL. but was fun, talked and laughed everything :) took one photo!

today was a very sian day bah? woke up all groggy. last night i reached home, then bathed, and it was about... 9 plus? i just lay on the sofa, and fell asleep. then when i woke up it was 10 a.m. and i was at home o.o HAHAHA. but i think i woke up at 4 plus in the morning bah? biological clock of my cerebullum(?) LOL. but was woken up because my leg was hurting like shit, couldn't reach for the fricking phone and only could get it when i sort of half-crawled to the phone hahahahah! for some reason i duno why, the pain is getting worse, is it because the physio's not due yet? duno leh XD i just hope it isn't like this every morning, it's going to go back to that wake-up-30-minutes-early-just-to-walk period :(

MONDAY IS SQUAD OUTING. XDD happy happy! ice skating leh! yay! it's gonna be damn fun :X i believe so! :) wheeeeeeeee! must take photos:)

2009-06-30T21:12:00.001+08:00

i doubt i can sleep today, though i'm really mentally tired and worn out.

and oh yeah, happy 400 posts lol

2009-06-30T18:50:00.003+08:00

i don't like it. i don't like it. i bloody hell don't like it. somehow, my heart hurts from knowing that too. i don't like to even feel like this.

i'm really, really hoping i'm just being childish, and my mom's just suppressing her feelings. perhaps adults have a different view about life and death? nobody's that horrible right?

shit la needa chiong work later on!

uhhhh. ytd was school reopen and it was really fun in the morning, eve and i were extremely high when we went to the other block then saw pnghang with cut hair hahahaha!

in class was fun too, siyi and jasmine and i talked like hell, like one whole month's worth of words, nck had to tell us to keep quiet a lot of times XDD plus there's tiny eve at the diagonals, can bully her if i feel like it heh heh! not bully literally, it's nice to see her expression when i bully her haha!

then had new LA teacher, i forgot her name though.. the class was in dead silence when she was in the classroom. i guess we all miss mr hor? i do, at least.. he was probably one of the teachers i would gladly do hwk for? the new teacher seems nice, but i just cannot get used to the fact that mr hor ain't teaching us anymore, and how i actually look forward to LA lessons, just a bit.. people probably just come and go right?

math had new teacher tooo LOLL. and plus we are very ahead of time, so the next few math lessons probably would be just sian.. i want calculator games NOW. XDD or maybe phone games, i dun mind :P talked to siyi and jiayi like hell today HAHA.

anyway, watched transformers ytd, i didn't find it awesome or anything? maybe cuz i didn't watch the first one, but the second one seem to be like, about running, action all the time, but no much development? i duno leh, was bored in the midst of the bomb fighting LOLL. smuggled KFC into the cinemas too muahahaha.

had free tickets anyway hahaha! :X

tmr is sjab day!! :D somehow i'm looking and not looking forward to it :S

i'm currently craving someone to rant to, to find out if my view is just warped.

2009-06-26T23:27:00.002+08:00

hmmhmm. let me blog about thursday first :)

THURSDAY, 25june
LOL. okay. it was the day of the performance!! OMGOMGOMG. i guess the ones who are most nervous are probably the children themselves and jiarong and ruth, since they were the ones who did the most of the performance. but anyway, before that, the girls were doing make-up, and i was like stunned. wow, they are like 5 years younger than me and they use make-up already?? i don't even know what is a mascara whatever that is -.-

but anyway, jack and maiyuan look super cool in their suits :) vischal looks normal.. XD maiyuan's blazer had no buttons though :S HAHA. ok no photos yet, maybe some other day :X

the thing itself was super funny, vishal almost ran out a lot of times, zi yan was lagging everywhere, yi qing blew the whistle out of nowhere HAHAHA. it was damn hot too, sweating like hell sia. woon neng was super good, she kept asking them to keep quiet :) maiyuan oso hahaha!!

the 2nd one was more screwed than the first i think XDD

went home and slept on the bus again hahaha. somehow i woke up near school.. i think cuz got sms or sth like that :)

TODAY:
had appointment, and the doctor said that my vertebra's cartilage is a little deformed, and is pressing against a motor nerve which links to my leg.. so yep, leg hurts, back hurts a bit too.. my back didn't hurt that much i guess but i think i got used to the pain until it didn't hurt anymore hahahaha. the leg one was worse :) but anyway, i need to go for physiotherapy every thursday from now on, to reduce imflammation of the nerve?? o.o i duno why LOLL. and the problem cannot be solved, unless i go for operation.. i guess i'll only do it when it gets really, really bad. LOL. yeah, and i'm really relieved it's not some degenerative disease!!

WHEE. chemistry test on monday. LOL. gg. :)

2009-06-24T22:48:00.002+08:00

"We were strangers starting out on our journey
Never dreaming what we'd have to go through
Now here we are and I'm suddenly standing
At the beginning with you"
- Anastacia, At the beginning

what the hell is wrong with me? i'm like, playing battleon, a game that should have dissolved from my game list since primary school?? i can still vividly remember how everyone spammed battleon in the comp labs after PSLE. and somehow this time, i feel like becoming a pro in it XDD hardcore playing then :) at least there's something to do now right? :X

and nck's email made me itching to delete his email. LOLLL. stupid idiot, i don't want chemistry test to be on the first day of school! it's inba, i'm not anywhere near studying, except chinese because it's the way i can on my comp at night -.-

cca are all cancelled, sian.. that probably means no sjab day parade.. and that's perhaps the last few sessions we have with the juniors? oh well. we'll leave anyway someday xD will miss the sec 3s alot, especially those i'm closer to, and the sec 2s and 1s which i have grown slowly attached to.. but some things just can't change right? even though i want to take responsibility.

yadayada. my mom's scolding me about the camera. though it's my fault, i don't like how she scolds people, very qian bian LOL. and she's scolding me because i'm putting on headphones, with no music, and i was planning to watch anime but because she is scolding, i didn't watch and stoned instead...

okay i'm tired, blog some other day heh heh heh!

2009-06-23T17:05:00.002+08:00

bye bro, he's gone for some weird course...

anyways, haven't been blogging though i was harping on this idiotic, laggy computer everyday for at least 3 hours at night, 7 hours if i had the whole day till evening to myself. wow! LOLL. i have been such an otaku/computer freak :( tried very hard to do self-study, but it didn't work out.. switched the computer on, and moved on the manga, and onto facebook (just surfing), seeing and writing notes (in facebook), chatting to the same olds on msn... oh yeah i was listening to songs too xD

sunday was probably quite a wasted day. shouldn't have spent the morning snoring and having lunch with my family! should have gone to zj's house for durian party or sth -.- but seriously, was rather looking forward to the family lunch because
1. there might or might not be huijun, my bro's gf joining us!
2. there's kway chap, #1 in singapore at old airport road!!!
but anyway, i was wrong on both counts, she didn't come, was overseas, and kway chap was on holidays too!! urgh! in the end i spent one and a half hour stoning, eating wanton mee at that very hot place because i had ALOT of time to spare. LOL. and in my vest + long sleeved black shirt! how bad is that? damnnnn hot!!!

called jiarong and half-begged her and zj to meet earlier, but zj was still dressing up and stuff so had to waitttttttttttttt. LOL!

ended up in plaza sing walking aimlessly with my family to wait lor! had fun poking, making fun of my bro, and finally, some joy in walking, i repeat, WALKING in shopping centres. close friends would know what i meant by that xDDDD i have been complaining about it since ages ago!

and met em at the cinema, jiarong pounced onto me while i was looking down from the top storey, and my guts almost flew out sia! shocked! for the records, i am a little bit afraid of heights, reason being i have this nightmare i'm falling down from my window all the time, and even once in my dreams a person (i don't feel like mentioning) pushed me down from a 39 storey high diving board!!! freaking scary okay!

then watched ghost of girlfriends' past.. was wanting to watch hannah montana, but couldn't :(
i guess it was okay, better than i expected. i thought it would be a lot of crying, regretting, emoness all those, not exactly my kind of movie.. but it was funny at some parts, mostly very suggestive xDDD and there was a happy ending :)

then just walked around aimlessly, and daiso rocks :) bought a mini pencil box, in case i have to go out and there's nowhere to put my huge pencil box, i'll just use the smaller mini version :)

monday was fun! in the morning woke up earlier than usual to go to school. wore 4J class tee :) i have no idea why people say the class tee doesn't look good or whatever, i find it fine to me, and most importantly, it's a class tee! even how ugly it is, it's still nice to me because it signifies the class what! alright, i'm not over the fact that i lost the design, but the current design is fine!

waited at the bus stop for about... 20 minutes for liuqiao, charlene, sharonow to come -.- wah kao! i reached at like, 8.40? from early to late -.-

then went on to take temperature.. damn cool technology, just click and you get a temp. i was quite suspicious that the default temp was 36.6 degrees, because everyone had the same temp! LOLL. xinmun came too! XD then walked to sj room, realised no one's there, so went to canteen!

omg. seriously realised how long it has been since i saw them :) yen cut her hair, makes her look cuter! overall i think everybody's hair grew longer? LOL. i passed the badge to bl, then just stoned around hoping eve would come faster, had fun still.. was quite reluctant to leave, if not for my very suspicious shirt, and cid.. :(

accompanied sharon to her art room and saw her art piece... very nice sia, i love the shading xDD and i realised art, is so cool. wished i had some degree of talent in it :(

CID. took 963 from school with charlene and talked! then she got down quite fast, and i stared out of the window and listened to music till i reached the fsc's stop. didn't dare to sleep cuz i might miss the stop! LOLL. cid was.. chaotic. i went in and bursts of si biantai came out and everything. stunned. hahaha! then jack and si qin quarrelled :( not much comments about it, but i feel bad. it's my phone they are quarrelling over after all

went for lunch with CID mates, and had quite a good time! mac's default chilli has changed to garlic chilli!! :DDDDDD OMG. i'm totally happy over it. :) zhengyang came and all of us chatted and stuff...

then timothy suddenly called HAHAHA. stunned. it has been what, one year since we even exchanged a call? LOL. i think the rest thought it was my mom or something, dunno leh, so everybody left LOL

took the bus home, and as usual slept until i barely woke at the interchange. :) happy sleeping trips :)

hmmm. i did 40 cheng yu ytd, was rather ok actually, most learnt in primary school already mah xD

today was otaku/computer day! :D and i'm gonna be dead if my mom comes home now...

bye! XD

P.S. what the hell is the voting thing for, if they didn't take our opinion into consideration? gave us hope for holidays and smashed us down like that... and i have to chiong work :( school's reopening friends, that's the truth.. good and bad in some ways :S

2009-06-20T23:37:00.002+08:00

i realised how cool it is to have my dad xD

last night, my bro came home at midnight, and my mom was sleeping. my dad and i were watching tv, then he bathed and sat down with us and watch tv.. then my dad asked him about his gf and everything, and the three of us started chatting about his gf which was damn, damn cool! it's like we can talk about anything, everything.. i think i can never do that with my mom, though she's nicer nowadays too...

gahhhh i can't blog anymore, i'm too sleepy LOLLLL. gonna sleep soon xD night, tmr going to shop again, wah kao scared of shopping liao la!!

2009-06-18T20:34:00.007+08:00

LOLLLLLL. watched house by nigahiga, and it was plain retarded.

sean: it's like they are the same person...
-intense music plays-
ryan: wait, sean, say that one more time
sean: that one more time
ryan: no, say that again!
sean: that again!
ryan: no, say what you said before-
sean: that one more time!

WTHHHHH. sean is LOL. what the hell. AHHAHA! always a good laugh xD

anyway, today went cycling with sharonow and charlenetan! omg almost overslept. would have if sharon didn't sms me sia! just popped a shirt and went out. my brother was like o.o because i woke up so early LOL. but anyway, reached there like 30 minutes early? so went to mac and bought hash browns and milo for them. then waited, and waited.....

and i got onto the train LOL. what the hell, sharon was like laughing when i got onto the train for no reason!! -.- LOLLLL. and charlene was being auntie, there was an empty seat and she kept "ahhh got seat!!" -.- HAHA. crazy bunch of people. am i the only sane one? o.O

then went to pasir ris, and then all the hash browns were... soggy and disgusting HAHA. but in the end we ate our share anyway xD

then took 403 to pasir ris, waited damn long for it sia. LOL. then something funny happened:

charlene and i were talking about periods, then i was like
me: hey sharon, you got duo jiu me you lai?
i think she heard wrongly anyway..
sharon: uh, i think once then for sometime nvr go (?) then go for once... liddat lor
charlene and i looked at each other puzzled
sharon: c'mon la i got warning letter before leh!
charlene and i started laughing like shit xDDDD

then reached pasir ris,and it's so near the chalet!! omg. charlene and i recognized it because it was the one glennis and glenda book for us de :)

then we walked and rented bikes~

here's the story:

the gruelling adventure of charlene

i have no idea who's that either LOL.

with her friends...

sharon ow jia'en

phyllisseahkiamui(HAHA. sorry for the stupid face!)

was very fun because very long nvr cycle le. and here, i shall congratulate charlene on learning the basics of cycling!! XDDDD though i'm not too good at it either -.- LOL XD

and we did very breathtaking, life-threatening actions...

anyway, for those that have no inkling where this is, this is the middle of the road, and btw we were taking it when we were aware that there's a taxi coming our way okay!! HAHAHA.

then exhausted, we went to white sands and ate at burger king. and crapppppppppppppppp. like hell. LOL. damn long, and it's damn cold too over there! :) talked about a huge variety of things ranging from families to cca? i think. LOL -.-

then just walk around? and we somehow ended up in the library talking in the children's section, malay bookshelves... HAHHAHA and we talked about..basic and advance i think! basic was with char, advance was with sharon so yeah lah XDDD

then go... KFC? I BOUGHT HOT DOG ROLLLLLLL at polar (: i love it so much!

eat and crap a bit and took some photos...

ok finally. i can finish this post. PHEW. anyway accompanied sharon to clementi and went back on my own HEHEHEHE XD

2009-06-17T00:09:00.003+08:00

LOL. hello. :)

anyway, read this when doing chinese work:

对生活还满意的你一定有很多话可以分享。对生活不满意的你更要说出来，不是为了抱怨而抱怨，而是希望遇上截然不同的观点，让你看见广阔的，优美的世界。

yup, this is to my friend :) hope you know what i mean :)

anyway, my mom is now scolding me, because she's jealous of my brother's gf, and my bro's coming home late everyday, so she's giving him cold treatment. -.- how.... weird. LOL.

she was like scolding me and then sth random like 'you can just do anything you want without telling me la, just because you can act like you no mom liao' and i was like 'wth? wtf??? what the hell are you talking about." -.- obviously, she messing up things to scold my bro with me -.-

mom's in bad mood today, don't like her when she's like that :( should have went training for ph -.- finished 2 chinese papers today, but i'm drained. -

AND YES. i want to make a scrapbook with all my friends/events/pets/houses/etc to be in! and in future, when i open it again, i can be wowed :) i'm really bent on doing it, and i need money!!!! stupid empty piggy bank -.- spent it all in outings already :( i'm left with... 40 dollars till the end of this month -___________-
nice one right? :)

i'm bringing a camera to FSC tmr, hopefully, i can take a lotlotlotlot of photos with them :) and hope that they don't forget me, it has only been one session i'm disappeared! \

sayonara!

2009-06-15T20:18:00.002+08:00

hmmhmm, long time no update yeah? :)

"I run from hate
I run from prejudice
I run from pessimists
But I run too late."
- Lady Antebellum, I run to you

:D i love this song too :) this part of the lyrics is super cool, like saying trying to run away from hating people, being prejudiced, and pessimistic, but to no avail... i guess that's in every person's personality? i duno, everyone has their moments :) what's important is to know there is always someone who is there for you! (cheesy)

okay, i shall start the update from last friday, 12/06/09

so it was checkup for me in the evening, so was supposed to meet mom at 12 at her office, but i forgot my keys were with her, so i can't get out of the house! so she came back and we stoned around for a while before we moved off. so went to harbourfront to eat at the hawker centre, the fried fish noodle soup is pretty nice :)

then went to people's park complex/centre and shopped around. omg. i spent so much and my mom was still... happy? i wonder what got into her. i spent like 100 over and she was still smiling and joking around while she paid? i bought a skirt, long shirt, accessaries? yeah.. i felt rather bad, but was rather thrilled because it's the first time i actually bought stuff with my mom and felt happy about it! :D

had dessert at some shop, mango sago! <3>

then went for checkup at KK hospital!

had x-ray before that, wasn't much again, but i was rather sad because my mom had to spend money again, then went for my appointment

the doctor wasn't the nice one who was attached with the old doctor, but some doctor who had a super strong american accent.. so they tried to find out what's wrong with my left leg, and they diagnosed that my left leg is very much weaker than the other, thanks to the young doctor making me use force from my left leg and compare to my right. yeap, had a bad time after that because my left leg started aching again -.- the x-ray showed that my backbone is gradually straightening on its own! :D wooooo!

after that went to tiong, and walked around aimlessly with my mom and met jiarong at the mrt xD then a lot of stupidded and idiotic things happened on the mrt.

1. we missedraffles place, so i was rather kiasu to get out of the mrt at city hall for obvious reasons, then jiarong was like talking yapyapyap behind me while i was saying 'excuse me' to the people and squeezing past people to get to the exit, with reference to raffles place...

jiarong: so you know like this... ya lor yadayada

me: uh... jiarong, is it ok if we talk when we get out of this mrt?

- dengdeng, city hall station. passengers who are transferring to the blah-

me stares as the mrt reaches the station, and the exit is at the other end of the train. then jiarong laughed -.-

2. jiarong was smsing dilligently on her phone, and then the train jerked, so she fell backwards in FREAKING SLOW MOTION. LOL. according to her, my mouth opened in surprise in slow motion too LOL, and i didn't catch her immediately HAHAHA.

but anyway, i pulled her, and the guy behind her held her too xDDD his gf was sitting beside us somemore. LOL. then jiarong and i laughed like shit, so hard our insides were bursting! then the couple smiled and laughed oso, ok not laugh loudly, but quietly. LOL. then jiarong said there was a random guy who am chio LOL!!! damn funny la -.-

ok then we met jasmine at novena, got onto her dad's car :)

LOL. her bro is .... LOL. i have nothing to say, he is super noisy, that's the truth. XD

then blahblah, we reached hwa chong! it's freaking big. B.I.G. i think it's 4x of RV? crazy la.

then we got in and walked to the auditorium.. they had some declaration forms too! cool.

went in and chose a seat and started waiting for the start of the concert :)

1st item was belly dancing, and a group of insensitive people near us started laughing out loud, and pointing because it was a fat lady -.-

2nd item was hiphop, was nice, and cute! :D

i can only remmeber a few liao. LOL. okay i remember there were freaking 4 belly dancing items -.- and all the melodies sound the same LOL! was rather boring la! the last item was explosive. i loved it like helllll. seriously it's damn nice, and the street dance was damn cool!! OMG. i loved it likehell. i loved the part when the people with down's syndrome, and they danced, it's very heartwarming. i was like stunned while i watch. they must have placed so much effort into this concert just for one 8 dollars ticket!

then went home, on the way jasmine's dad dropped by King Albert's park mac to buy us dinner by the drive thru :) cooool! XD then took jiarong to her house and then mine! :D

Saturday

nothing much, went out with my family, bought shirts :( sorry mom.

Sunday

OMG. the highlight. zj qh and i went to BUGIS STREEEEEET! :D hahaha it's the first time i was there sia. the prices are... crazy. i bought a vest for 10 dollars only, and it's super nice!! and things there are like at weird prices. too cheap already! i wanted to buy this suspender like thing for 15 but cannot try then i dun wanna take the risk..

bought a necklace at 5, very happy with it :)

walked and shopped with qh only at first at bugis junction and stood in Diva as we tried to see what to buy but in the end nothing for me 0.o lOL. but still... happy to shop :) shoppping therapy :D LOL....then zj came, and we went bugis street! she was like our tour guide xDDD

then after walking like shit, zj and i left for far east plaza while qh left! wth zj bought 2 dresses, one is 35, one is 15 xD but the 35 one looked really good on her :) i bought nothing once again <3>

MUAHAHAHA.

and i almost got slaughtered by mom XD

Monday

was a rather hectic day.. in the morning woke up late, and rushed out of house to meet mom, and went to exchange one shirt cause the thingy are dropping out, those stick on things to the shirt? then we both looked at this jacket like thing, and we both liked it, so my mom paid 4 dollars more to buy it and give that shirt back! :D omg!! very happy la! had lunch then...

went d&c to look at shoes, in the end came out with one 26 dollars flats....... GAH. okay. i'm stopping. LOL. my mom was still so happy la!then we went to KK hospital and went to the MRI section, but the nurse told us the boy who was before us was too hyperactive they needed to sedate him, and he has been fasting since morning!! so my mom and i just okay, and walked around the hospital, talking. my mom said my bro really has a gf XD so coooooool!

then we waited for our turn. there was this really cute toddler... he had really long eyelashes, and he had a broken arm :( he was in this pushable trolley/cart? so cute la he!!! omg. fyi, i'm not paedophile! LOL. but he was really cute :)

after that went for MRI, they asked me to change into this hospital gown? yeah.. then went in feeling rather nervous.. then it's like a cylinder-like capsule! ok not enclosed.. then i lay on this platform, they put on ear plugs for me cause it would be noisy according to them.. then they pushed me in and told me to keep still and dont open my eyes when it starts. then i was in already. omg. it felt as if.. okay i think i'm mild claustrophobic. LOL. i can't stand being in such a small space, but i was lying down.. so yeah.. LOL -.- sorry couldn't resist. i closed my eyes, and listened to FM 83.3 xD

then the banging + construction work started but it was okay, i almost fell asleep.. i stayed in that position for about... half an hour? yup, when they pulled me out, i was half awake only xDD

so cool! then went home :)

my week:

tuesday: hardcore studying -.-

wednesday: cid

thursday: CYCLING <3>

friday: training

sunday - probably bugis street again?

2009-06-11T21:05:00.002+08:00

"Will you think that you're all alone
When no one's there to hold your hand?
When all you know seems so far away
And everything is temporary, rest your head
I'm permanent. "
- David Cook, Permanent

i'm sorry google chrome, i'm sticking with IE!
btw, i find Permanent a fricking emo song, which might be why i love it so much! the piano melody is just plain sadness, i can almost hear despair in those piano notes or something... though i have no idea about notes, no need to mention pianos... it's just a song that doesn't really make much sense actually, but i still like it :)

today woke up late, at 8.45a.m, when i told myself to wake up at 8, because i was going to leave house at 9. then i was like, in a rush and everything, shouting and screaming because i couldn't find my wallet, then my brother was like 'hey, you wake up so early for what?' and i guess, it has been a while since i heard his voice in the morning, or see him? NS period was plain disappearance of my big bro, because he goes for NS on weekdays, and for weekends he will just spend his time outside, not much with us xD

i think he has a girlfriend *coughs* LOL. he's out all day, and he now talks on the phone in the room, when he used to just, talk in the living room? anyway, that gives my mom less incentive to scold me when i'm in the room chatting :X

anyway, 2 nights ago, or last night, i forgot.. i was lying on the bed, him on the mattress, so i was really wondering if he has a gf, and if he did, would he tell me? i was so stuck with that idea, and i was screaming silently, like literally, banging my head into the pillows and everything because the suspense was killing me (hahahaha kpo sister!)

then he was like 'uh, can you please keep quiet? i'm trying to sleep! one more sound, and you're dead!' then it just burst out from my mouth "do you have a gf!?!" his reaction told me my answer heh heh! he went like 'what.' in a rather defensive tone, so yeap, then after that when i tossed and turned in bed, he didn't complain xDDD i caught him~

one thing i'm not used to is my parents' treatment of him i guess? but i have to get used to it anyway, it's something i have to face. either way, i'm happy he's back :)

ok back to the topic, so i was going to go out with jasmine and guanlin! then i just took some clothes and ran to change.. then my bro told me a shortcut to plaza singapura via purple line, so i sat down and watched tv with him till 9.30 before i changed and everything xD

got lost at the mrt station at dhoby gaunt (?) and waited for guanlin to come and stuff... then she gave me a review of my clothes, and i guess the word 'horrible' sums it up nicely :) LOL. and the necklace was a huge joke LOL! and my happy earrings are criticized HAHA!

then met jasmine at starbucks, before that was watching BOF at the CD shop, they were screening it! then met her and had coffee, sat down to talk and everything! it's nice to keep up with them now, i missed them a lot :) okay not much of jasmine because i just met her on sunday xD but yeap guanlin! talked then went for takoyaki (?) octopus balls are nice! ok the onions suck though i hate that smell!! jasmine and guanlin were like saying the takoyaki suck and said it's something about the flour and stuff? i was like o.o because i found it nice, since it has been a long time since i ate it :(

then went trying on clothes, heh heh! indeed was an enriching experience for me leh! :) though i may be quiet and stuff, but i was actually rather entertained :) HAHA tried on a lot of clothes, and it was funny listening to gl say "horrible" 7 times today XDDD

jasmine helped me put some nail polish LOLLLLLL. she was like my mom can LOL. brenda came at about...12? yeah! then yeap i had to leave at about 1 :S then rushed home, luckily my parents didn't scold... then slacked and everything!

I WISH I'M AT CLASS CHALET NOW.

2009-06-11T00:08:00.002+08:00

urgh. i hate it when she starts nagging. she just scold about EVERY bucking thing. damnit. i hate it! and she is now removing my saturday's plans... lucky i didn't really expect to go, if not i'll flare up at her like hell. -.- but stilll...

I'M HAPPY! GOING OUT WITH JASMINE N GUANLIN TMR! :D SO LONG NVR SEE THEM LIAO LEH! WHEEEEE! <3

2009-06-10T23:01:00.002+08:00

i was blog surfing, and i came across this blog that i haven't visited since ages, and it reminded me of one current issue that's making me very sad.

i hope you guys will come back. i'm really sorry for abandoning you'all to do other stuff, and then you guys are like, traumatised or sth. now the attendance is like, screwed to the max? and i'm sure i wouldn't have known if they told me. and i'm sure i wouldnt be that guilty/sad/angry right then. i wish i could talk to you guys, but then again, i'm leaving, what's the point? i sort of hope i can leave with a happy note, at least tell myself i love you guys because you guys always make me laugh, but on such a note, i'm leaving with guilt and nothing else. hopefully, things will turn out fine, right? even though i was always scolding, i hope you know that i have a reason in doing so.. hopefully?

okay emo note xD

off to gossip girls i think!

2009-06-10T22:36:00.001+08:00

yup, blogskin changed successfully! it looks happier and everything now, like my mood :)

gonna try out gossip girls, i wonder if it's gonna interest me! XD

2009-06-10T20:52:00.003+08:00

FSC! :)

today exchanged numbers with the kids, ok not exchange, more like giving my no :D i think the fsc is like a big family, and it's a very happy family! everyone are different in their own ways, but they love each other and know each other very well :) that's so magical, and angela got pissed and the others said sorry and hugged her, which is so warm, so nice! love going there now, the warm atmosphere is just too addictive...

after that went to jp with jiarong to make her sister's card, went through a few shops but was damn cool, because it was so but was sort of rushing in the end cuz i had to get home really soon before i get lynched! then i forgot my whole box of lollipops at jp!!! AHHHHHHH! shit it man. we only noticed it when we were on the mrt going off!! DAMN!@#$%^&*

rotted while waiting for 123, and it was hilarious!

was sitting down, and stoning because 123 seemed to be come after 1 million years, just like a few people beside me. then girl shouted "didi! faster come, 123 is here!" and all of our heads snapped up at the same time, and went to wait for the bus! LOLL. somehow it feels that the bus stop was so bonded. LOL!

bought hot dog rolls at tiong bahru, and was watching the tv while walking past because i recognized the actor, and the drama showing actually. so i was walking, and i totally walked into this auntie, who gave me the biggest eyes i have ever seen. LOL! her eyes were like O.O, and i haven't stepped onto her yet! LOL. her eyeballs would be on the floor if i stepped onto her foot :D

then went home, and tried to do work, but to no avail, as usual....zzzzzzz. in the end decided to game on gameboyadvance! splintercell FTW! i love the game, it's so cool, and all those alarm system, and i love killing people, to shoot them to their deaths! and avoiding cameras, and setting off the alarm, then hiding somewhere where the mighty guards can't find me! love those computers when i have to rotate those boxes to make them click and stuff, it's very interesting:))

oh yeah, something random... why are katy perry's songs always rated so low in wmp? like waking up in vegas is 2.5 stars, i kissed a girl is 2, thinking of you is a mere 2.5?? weird... okay nvr mind, computer has weird taste!

and yes, i love GLEE! i can't wait for it to come out~ the main leads are so cool, and i think its pretty nice! i love the soundtracks somehow! don't stop believing! :)

anyway, lemme tell you the top few embarrassing things i have ever done, to please those who wants a laugh -.- LOL! (see if it makes you laugh) i'm challenging myself to think of as many as possible!!

NUMBERone: saying "would you like to take a photo" to a bunch of strangers with a donation box...

NUMBERtwo: sneezing with my mouth full with disgusting rice in leisure camp

NUMBERthree: saying 'stop expecting your seniors to spoonfood you' in UG camp

NUMBERfour: falling at harboufront interchange at the stairs, with a whole bunch of people in front of me. i fell down the stairs, with my butt slipping on every step...

NUMBERfive: falling down behind choir peeps, and in front of yinshan, and actually going into a kneeling position in front of her in school, at side gate

YES. it's only five. :)

ahh. i just realised how much i'm thinking of ________. it's weird. damn.

i'm thinking of changing blogskin too!

2009-06-06T22:33:00.004+08:00

hello!

ytd was about the top 10 fun days of this year :)

went guides' campfire! met charlene at anchorpoint and was late heh heh! sorry char hahaha! then talked, and went crazy over weird things and cool things! was rather sad some people couldn't go but oh well...

then jess bl adam came, and we had dinner at kopitiam! ok it's actually only me LOL. the yong tau foo was sucky, sucky like hell! the doufu wasn't cooked la, i almost died eating it! then went for guides campfire le! LOL. it was damn weird because there was only 5 of us, and guides reserved 3 benches for us o.o

ok i shall cotninue on another day xD gonna sleep soon

edit: sorry for not updating so long heh! :)

so the campfire was rather low at first, but started to get higher and higher as it neared night, for me, cause the moon was damn beautiful! and the stars too! it's a great night sia, i wonder if the guides predicted it already :P

then there was this event we were supposed to send one representive to 'dressup' and act like a celebrity! then we gave adam paper plates and made him act like michael jackson LOLLLL it was damn funny when it was his turn, i think that was when we laughed like hell and everything! and got damn damn high! HAHA. then all those community singing and everything, we were jumping and screaming and everything!! :) so funnnnn

and we took a lot of photos!! :) okay not a lot but just, a few? LOL

after that went to queensway mac to have supper! but had to leave at 1040p.m. cuz had to reach home by 11 if not will kena locked out LOL!

SUNDAY:

flag day! reached at 830 and waited for the organizers till 930? zzz

in the meantime, jr jas zj and i walked around and into 7-11 and stuff...

frankly wasn't very happy about it because waited so long! then after that just do since we were there already =.=

anyway paired up with jiarong, while jasmine with zj, then we did flag day at orchard road! jiarong and i went to the paragon store the sidewalk outside to ask for donations! there were some phillipines people who asked us to help them take photo, then we took photos with them tooo! LOL. so cute! then jiarong kept talking about photos beside me, so i was sort of dreamy, so i went to someone and said

"good morning, would you like to take a photo?"

WTF! it was supposed to be "good morning, would you like to donate?" OMG. i was so so paiseh. DAMN paiseh!! the guy stared at me like i wasn't normal and stuff, and jiarong and i totally went crazy as we walked away OMG HAHAHAHA! ok i admit,it's funny!

MONDAY:

went cid, had fun as usual :) took some photos too! i realised i took a lot of photos lately, compared to the previous months! :)

went to vivo with jiarong for a while cuz i had to get home early, then went to walk at forever 21 and bought earrings! i want a scarf though... :( i want things that go well with my plain tee shirts!

2009-06-05T13:55:00.003+08:00

hmmm! CID is fun, indeed! i really love playing with the kids, and plus i'm slacking, so can talk to them and everything. love elaine because she reminded me of myself in primary school :) of course not the breast talk, but yeah, she reminded me of myself in primary school and first week of sec school life, all acting cool and everything, refusing to open myself up except to people i absolutely trust, which was none then. LOL XD (weird to say that because i'm so damn different now) elaine is such a good girl, yet she has no friends! so i decided to be her friend :)

carried the children everywhere and stuff, though it was tiring, i enjoyed it a lot :) then had lunch with them in the small room, and they said their thanks as we listened. i wished everyday would be like that... there are so many kids and they are so warm! i mean warm in the sense of atmosphere. being with them makes me happy anyway :) i guess that's the magic of being a kid! jack and sebastian kept calling me biantai, but i guess that's one way of being close to them? and all the kids are so cute, and fun everything.. if only we weren't doing a project and only went there to enjoy ourselves and play... and the p6 boy, i forgot his name, is so mature for his age! even though he fools around and stuff, he didn't rebel or anything, unlike that stupid uh... what's his name again? yongkang? yeah! zzz!

lunch was a very cute event :) i wish i can have lunch with them soon :)

oh yeah. okay tuesday was cca + training... at first cca was quite sian and stuff cuz only had jesslyn and myself wth! then had lunch at the nearby place which was really cool! i didn't know there was such a place! and the outer view looked so expensive, but it's just normal hawker centre inside! LOLL! then somehow we got the topic of heights, and i found out that jesslyn is like me, afraid of heights!!

then anyway, had training which was rather slack HEH! foot drill a lot, then i pity lihui, her boots were.... wow. LOL. reminded me of footdrillcomp when my boots had a hole, then after drills there was a hole in my socks, and my sole was raw red heh!

and one more thing,

was on the bus going home one day when i saw a mother and son who sat in front of me. the son was just a toddler, perhaps 5 years old? the mother was laughing with him, and was hugging him and being really a nice mother, and the son was happy too. so i was thinking, did my mom do that to me when i was a toddler, too? or did it only apply to other families? hmmmm...

zijun said over the phone that i grew up, and wow, i think i did.

2009-06-03T21:14:00.002+08:00

oh i realised, long time no update!:)

let's start from... sunday

SUNDAY:
went out with jiarong at 4 LOL. in the morning went to handphone shop for my parents to change phone, and at first to change my plan too, but in the end we decided not to because the penalty cost was like 100? wth la!

then went to orchard and shopped around until... 7? i bought 3 pairs of earrings, one necklace (which i love very much), and one pair of black flats! then ate some fish and chip thing, got sick of it, and drank bubble tea! LOL.

one random note: jiarong and i were talking, and i was aware of this angmoh beside me, so i tried not to talk because i know ang mohs hate singaporeans' singlish.
so jiarong went like
jr: oi, you got money or not?
me: yes. (sounds weird) -slightly embarrassed-
jr: you got or not one?!
me: yes i have!!!!

LOL. a failure attempt in trying to convey to ang mohs that singaporeans' english aren't that bad
monday was major slacking day at home because my mom refused to let me out
tuesday was duo day with jesslyn and training
wednesday was CID
thursday. i shall see how LOL

and anyway, i agree with sharon now. LOLLLL. sharon you can ask me about what next time. ritsuka rocks :)

okay, i'm too tired, update about the rest in detail next time..

2009-05-29T22:10:00.003+08:00

hello! :)
uh, i can't decide whether google chrome is better or IE8 is better? google chrome is well, cooler, newer, and everything, but i hate it when it shows pages as unavailable, when it's just my internet lagging? internet explorer is damn, damn slow. so irritating, my internet is getting so laggy, i'm not even interested in using computer lately...

oh, i cut my hair! no, i didn't cut it on my own, i asked the hairdresser near my house to cut it for me. now i have no idea whether to say it suck or not! my fringe... is irritating, it keeps on blocking my field of view, and my ponytail takes me 20 minutes to tie up because it's so small, so there's so little hair to catch. ARGH! i told the hairdresser i wanted side-parting, and thin my hair, but i want to leave it long. yeah, so the hairdresser gave me such a haircut :( i have no idea what to say next time LOL!

today went to vivo with jasmine and guanlin! siyi oso but she left after her lunch :(

skip the shopping part bah, but in the end gl got what she wanted! i think she looks rather pro in the black shirt leh :)

watched night at the museum 2, and it's hilarious, like crazy! LOLLLLL! it's so retarded, especially the pharaoh, he has a short tongue! LOL. and he called the star wars guy "asthmatic" because he kept breathing in and out loudly, which is sort of... supposed to be scary? LOL. that part was damn funny because the pharoah cannot stop talking HAHA! the einstein part is retarded slightly too, what pi la! LOL! it's so weird that the main guy just keep finding bones with others to pick LOL! i think it's a worthwhile 8.50 la, though i haven't returned jasmine her money yet...

tmr's open house, and i'm doing pd LOL! ah i duno what wil happen tmr ... and i'm sleepy. zzzzz. good night :)

2009-05-28T21:52:00.002+08:00

I know that you're hiding things
Using gentle words to shelter me
Your words were like a dream
But dreams could never fool me
Not that easily

I acted so distant then
Didn't say goodbye before you left
But I was listening
You'll fight your battles far from me
Far too easily

"Save your tears 'cause I'll come back"
I could hear that you whispered as you walked through that door
But still I swore to hide the pain when I turn back the pages
Shouting might have been the answer
What if I'd cried my eyes out and begged you not to depart?
But now I'm not afraid to say what's in my heart

Though a thousand words
Have never been spoken
They'll fly to you
Crossing over the time and distance holding you
Suspended on silver wings

And a thousand words
One thousand confessions
Will cradle you
Making all of the pain you feel seem far away
They'll hold you forever

The dream isn't over yet
Though I often say I can forget
I still relive that day
You've been there with me all the way
I still hear you say

"Wait for me, I’ll write you letters"
I could see how you stammered with your eyes to the floor
But still I swore to hide the doubt when I turn back the pages
Anger might have been the answer
What if I'd hung my head and said that I couldn't wait?
But now I'm strong enough to know it's not too late

'Cause a thousand words
Call out through the ages
They'll fly to you
Even though I can't see, I know they're reaching you
Suspended on silver wings

Oh, a thousand words
One thousand embraces
Will cradle you
Making all of your weary days seem far away
They'll hold you forever

Oh, a thousand words
Have never been spoken
They'll fly to you
They'll carry you home and back into my arms
Suspended on silver wings ohhhh

And a thousand words
Call out through the ages
They'll cradle you
Turning all of the lonely years to only days
They'll hold you forever
Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
A Thousand Words

Final Fantasy Version:
I know that you're hiding things
using gentle words to shelter me
your words were like a dream
but dreams could never fool me...
Not that easily

I acted so distant then
didn't say good-bye before you left
but I was listening
you fight your battles far from me......
Far too easily

'Save your tears 'Cause I'll come back'
I could hear that you whispered
as you walked through that door
but still I swore to hide that pain
when I turn back the pages
Shouting might've been the answer then
what if I cried my eyes out and begged you not to depart
but now I'm not afraid to say what's in my heart....

'Cause a Thousand words
Called out Through the Ages
They'll Fly to you
Even Though I can't see
I Know They're Reaching you
Suspended on Silver Wings

Oh a Thousand Words
One Thousand Embraces
Will Cradle You
Making all of Your Weary Days Seem Far Away
They'll Hold you Forever........

Oh a Thousand Words {One Thousand Words}
Have Never been spoken {Oh Yeah}
They'll fly to you
they'll carry you home {carry you home}
And back into my arms
Suspended on silver Wings {On Silver Wings}

And a thousand words {oohh}
Called out through the ages {called through the ages}
They'll cradle you {oh yeah}
Making all of your lonely years to only days {only days}
They'll hold you forever.........

Ohhhhhhhhhhh

One Thousand Words...

____________________________________________________________________

I LOVE THIS SONG. yes. i love final fantasy too! i love the songs and everything!

and as promised, the twit siyi and i did in class... it's 2 paragraphs but it killed all of my brain cells okay!! we did it in math and biology.

(start twit)

ii am sOOOOO sianxzz
skOOl was funxz todae~~
siyi && miiee started twiiting in classx.
realli verii verii funnie worhhs.
Euux should try it lerhhs ^(00)^
okkies? guaiix horhs XOXO

we wanted tO tell all of euux: thanx euux 4 eweyting euu hab gib us.
MWAH!
ploxx smile olways nehhs~~
promise kaes?
sorriie if we're nOisy in class arhhs.
we noe we verii verii noisy larhs.
will try tO imprOve ferhs euux kayys?
frenz foreva ritezz? (:
muackzxx. Alwaes rmb we lurbbexz euux.
LAWL.

* ps, can't think of anywhere to insert laO gOng, dar dar and kOr.
Sorrie horhs!

(end of twit)

-pukes-

okay i'm done with puking. twit is so brain draining, i really have it to hand it to those twitters!

yesterday had x-country! i woke up at 530 and drifted to school to get yoga mats, then my dad took bl n me to west coast park! LOLLLLL. bl say my parents have killer aura. LOL i agree sia. the last they had that was when i was with qh and we were holding hands, then my parents "caught" us, and yep, the killer aura.

reached there and met eve, then more and more... had big breakfast hahahahha! for free somemore, yes! anyway after that i had a stomachache o.O LOL. was at the first marshal point from the starting point with sharon! had a good time saying jiayou to everyone :) even people i duno, i was randomly saying jiayou LOL. but it made me happy when people started running again, when they were walking or sth then i say jiayou, a bit only ok! then yeah! LOL. had 3 casualties, and one i bandaged him up really badly. LOL. i still feel a little bad about it, but i guess i'm happy because it's my first few attempts you know!

after that went to west mall! we went to arcade at first, and about 9-10 of us playing ddr LOL. it was damn hilarious, and interesting! though i'm sure it's cooler playing it alone LOLLLL but still i love playing it with everyone :)

then jesslyn sharon bl and i went walking around, so basically we walked past red2 and bought bubble tea, bought hot dog roll (my favourite!) and sat down to stone/talk! then we went upstairs to watch angels and demons!!

seriously it's a great movie! i was totally sleepy at the front, then the eyeball freaked me out sia. i think i just jumped on the spot or sth. then the rats crawling out from the guy's mouth, is super irksome!! i was like totally irked out! the one with water had a great time just suffocating. and the twist at the end was damn surprising, i was quite surprised because i tot the movie was gonna end soon! i mean, this movie isn't good because it's disgusting killing and stuff but it's the plot i guess! it's so interesting! LOL! i can't imagine myself figuring angels pointing whatever direction and stuff! HAHA. interesting eh! LOL

then CHIONG after movie to meet jiarong at bb mrt then we took mrt to cck and had mac for lunch! LOL. i realised i had mac for breakfast and lunch which is... unhealthy. LOL. yes it is damn unhealthy! congrats to jiarong and siyi for winning medals :) then met ruth at the lrt, so we took lrt to petir then we walked there!

LOL. for me cid is totally slacking, while the rest are busy teaching stuff sia! i was like, playing uno with the kids, and betting with them i would win so they will stop calling me "si bian tai", then played on the table, on the floor. LOL. then i played snapjack with 3 kids and had really a lot of fun! i guess playing with children is just always different isn't it!

after that went home on 963, at first told jiarong i won't sleep but i failed myself because i fell asleep and woke up in time at jiarong's stop to say bye to her LOLLLLL then went back to sleep!

reached home and i guess i was really tired, couldn't concentrate on anything at all. my mind was somewhere drifting between conscious and unconscious, which is subconscious. yep! so slept rather early!

today

in the morning got back progress report, and i was pleasantly surprised because i attained my goal for this year LOL. the nicest thing is that i got B3 for LA, which made me so happy, even though there was a lot of moderation! nick's comment was rubbish la, i always do his work dilligently, so whats with that "needs to take more pride in daily work" part? crapper la. as usual, he is like just shooting things w/o thinking.

then had pe, and i forgot to bring my pe shirt!! ahhhh! then i had to walk alone at the tracks, so sad right? lOL. nah actually half way thru i decided to join the rest in soccer while tkc is gone :) but only touched the ball 2 times? no idea. but saw a frog! siyi made it jump into the goal post HAHA. damn funny!

then had LA, didn't really know what was happening, i was.... daydreaming? i guess. i remember mr hor coming in, but nothing after that! LOL. and note that i only call mr hor with "mr" because i respect him and think he is a really great and nice teacher!

uh after that was recess. sort of stoned in class then went out for prawn mee. i love sitting outside! especially when there is no sun! it's so cooling, and i love looking at the 'scenery' at least there is sth to look at right! no ulterior motive gl! LOL HAHA!

after that was... geography. mass sleeping/trying hard to sleep period? reading book i think i sort of forgot already!

chinese was reading newspaper, guanlin is still knocked out for the whole period, wow! i was........ reading some book? LOL. yes. a book. no need to mention what content! :D

after that was maths......... uh. i'm not in acelearning already, what a relief sia. but still, didn't get what the lesson was talking about today, had to concentrate really hard for it! in the end got a bit of knowledge out of it i guess? dl in the end was like, "i know your very efficient chairperson is going to tell me time is up" when i'm just daydreaming, and eve is nowhere near raising her hand? that's weird. o.O

biology practical! no lim leh, very sad. i had to do it on my own, independent! for a few times almost placed the solutions in boiling bath with no benedict's solution, and was stunned when my boiling water overflowed a bit. LOL. i think for me, there is no such thing as a successful practical, even with those very normal details, not even into minute details! at the end siyi and guanlin helped me to clear up, thanks! :)

then had 'lunch' with siyi and then went for training! LOL. i can sort of hear myself asking why am i going again, since i'm there to ultimately stone? but it wasn't really a waste of time today, i did chemistry worksheet! hopefully LALKC will fulfil the goal even though it's not top 5, but i believe it's still a goal anyway!

AND YES. i hate lizards now. okay not to the extent of running 1000000m away when i see one, but yea, i will shout, and will just back away. yep. i'm not scared of it when it's on the wall, but i hate it when it's within 2 metres from me. it's disgusting la! today there was a lizard 'perched' on the sjab room wall, and then stupid bl used a book to hit it and sweep it out. and the lizard was swept right in front of me like shit!!! lihui and i totally screamed and backed away la! it's damn disgusting!

now as i'm typing, i'm super aware that there is a small lizard below the cupboard behind me. when i was moving the fan, it ran out and i jumped in shock. so YES i hate lizards!!

okay i'm tired. time to put songs for siyi yep :) sat's public duty :( but oh well. at least there is cip hours! :)

2009-05-26T21:07:00.002+08:00

today listened to cbh talk about universities and everything, and it made me really stressed up. my stomach actually tightened when i was listening! gosh. i always thought my life wasn't about studying, and now my body seems to understand that better. universities, and i am nowhere near anything? ok i know a lot of people will go like it's still early, or try to console me by saying it's ok (EGO!) but the fact is that, all of us must face this cruel truth!

maybe it's just me, or because of my genius brother, i really am afraid i cannot reach my parents' standard... its like many people who cannot reach their desired GPA even though their GPA should be quite satisfactory? i can't say mine is satisfactory, but i guess i improved, that's the most important, isn't it?

okay! anyway, i think my emotions are weird again. i get irritated and sad, and pissed, and happy for no reason. isn't that weird? LOl.

ah. today cca was just grading once more. oh well,it's funny because was chatting with sharonowa and ma'am jiahui. aww. i realised i will be meeting sharon tmr again to crap LOLLl

uh i'm tired. LOL. tmr gonna go school so damn early just for yoga mats........... SIAN! but anyway, i get big breakfast, so i dun mind :) LOL.

2009-05-25T21:03:00.002+08:00

omg. I'm like seriously feeling super very sad now. i mean i watched this video of FFX ending, and it was... so damn sad! tidus and yuna should have been tgt from the start, and why must tidus hug yuna, when he himself is like, disappearing? it makes the whole cutsense much,much worse and saddening! :( FFX rules :)

anw, i'm really tired now so i'll just keep this short..

today did some twits with siyi (i'm sorry i can't remember the contents! tmr i take the paper k!) and we were supposed to blog about our personally made twit LOLLLL. i think twit is hilarious, seriously. LOL! and plus it's retarded anyway!

then uh, i was old maid for once today HAHAAH. for once, mind you. :)

and today went west coast park and walked the whole trail and stuff. wow. it was super hot, i wonder how the people are going to survive running that long, especially the guys. :S but my marshal point will be the nearest hehe! so no need walk so long sia!

then went to mac, then went home? yeah played my mp4, and to my dismay i realised the stupid backward button is like, need to press it harder to make it detect, and it made me feel super -.-

i learnt a new emoticon: ^(00)^ LOLLLL. twit :)

ok i'm off to sleep, i'm feeling so damn, dead.

2009-05-23T17:24:00.002+08:00

OMG. i downloaded the whole Boys Over Flowers OST! OMG. LOL!

anyway i have been marvelling over the advancement of technology as I played FF1..

and then, we have FFXIII, in other words, it's FF 13

this woman is damn pretty please! and she looks exactly like some idiotically gorgeous lady?

2009-05-23T15:06:00.002+08:00

yup, here is to someone (who has been distressed lately about friendship?)

you know, i have a best friend too, and of course i always wish to go out with her. but many times we have different schedules, and different timetables, plus our own obligations and outings with our CCAs, so there are always times that we may not even go out with each other for one whole week in sec 3? yeah. now there's CID, but the tired bus trip is almost all the time quiet and sleepy.

but through this i understood what it meant by "absence makes the heart grow fonder" it's because we don't get to see each other so much, we made it a point to talk on the phone much and everything. it's because we don't get to see each other, we try our best to organize outings, though sometimes it may fail because my parents don't allow me.. but still, i'm still sure of this best friendship because i trust and believe in it. :)

so yeah, i agree maybe going out is important, but you have to believe in your best friend and trust her too. plus you get to sit with her and chat all the time right? i'm sure it will work out greater and stronger :) you may not notice, but to me, she has matured and changed for the better because of you, so it's not that the friendship is not strong! friendship can change the other person you know! i can see you have changed to be more positive and "cute" HAHA! yeah! so yep:)

i have no idea how many years later would you read this, but hopefully, this convinces you that friendship doesn't just exist with the existence of each other but also with the belief :) whenever you ask yourself "who is my best friend?" if that is the person you thought of, at least the belief isn't gone, right? pick up the phone and talk to her, or just talk more? yeah! ok i'm starting to crap more than i need to, but to this person: cheer up, i know you can believe :)

anyway, my com CRASHED again :/ LOL. how many times already arh? LOL. but thankfully i solved it thanks to some restoring thing, so i have to install everything again. so i actually lost all my favourite :'( AHHHHHH. why?!?! i have so many that i want to surf! damn!

anyway, i think my life is near perfect now, if not perfect yeah! firstly, my computer is not down,and i still have my games intact. secondly, exams are OVER! yes i'm damn lag, but the feeling is going away and i can play to my heart's content now :) thirdly, i have a new mp4, though it's that good, but it's not that bad either! i love it okay! fourthly, my parents prove to me that they aren't that bad after all, when i have ok results. fifthly, i love my brother's mattress, and now he's in NS, i can sleep on it all day! sixthly, i think i'm changing my plan to unlimited! OMG. i tell you it definitely makes me DAMNDAMN happy. can you imagine trying to pass a freaking message, and it took you at least 20 messages back and forth to make sure everyone got the message?! eve and i both almost died calling and smsing when we had to pass the stupid message about healthcheckup on thursday!

tmr should be going out, hopefully.. :) HAHA.

2009-05-20T22:43:00.003+08:00

my new best friend is ZEN! LOL. i'm joking(:

anyway, something random and funny:

desmon lim was asking me about gl

dl: she sick again (or sth like that)

me: she has some family matters

dl: are you joking or are you serious?

me: (i couldn't help it) i'm joking seriously.

LOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL. what the hell! it kept making me laugh, i'm really sorry to those who completely -.- diaoed away HAHAHA! :D cuz i think it was a private joke with the sj y4 before or sth like that, maybe the fatty sharon bah? LOL. so it's like, LOL. i'm sorry!

yay! anyway i got my mp4 le, my mom gave it to me! cuz my LA was b4 LOL. =.= but still, i'm happy! :D

here it is! :D it's the best thing in my house now LOL.

hmmmm. today was boring, i kept falling asleep especially because chemistry! i mean 1hr 20 mins?! but it was actually 1 hr 10mins cuz nick gave us 10 minutes off :) thanks man!

oh yeah! you know,

our classroom has 2 set of lights, the front and back? the back lights suddenly went off halfway during chem, then it was creepy because according to witnesses the switch flipped up on its own!! :O

then the back lights came on, then the front light went off! creepy man! i was like 'mr ng you sure there's no one beside you?" nobelle was suggesting "mr ng why the guy behind you the tongue so long?" HAHAHHA!

oh yeah we changed sitting positions:( the end of my super funny to the max days le! :( i will definitely miss the DGMs, the nigahiga talks, the jokes and AP we have... :(

now i sit beside chuye and in front of me is yulu and jordyn, behind is jiayi and lihua! LOL. omg i have a feeling it's gonna be really noisy... HAHAHA! nobelle is isolated at the sides, then it's like everyone scattered around :( oh well, siyi and jasmine are sitting tgt! wah kao! shuang de lor!

CID was... just chinese chess. LOL. i duno why everyone loves it so much, weird..

and i realised how a game can show people your character easily o.o

uhhuh, tmr's PE, but i feel like sleeping. :(

alright i gotta go! bb! :D

2009-05-19T22:41:00.002+08:00

*dies*

anyway, ytd my mom asked me for results right? she was having some undercurrent meaning, because she bought a mp4 for me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG. i was like discussing with her my results then she was like if my languages don't get a freaking C, i can get that mp4! at that time i didn't know she bought it already, so i asked her can buy ipod touch (hint, hint HAHA) then she revealed that she has ALREADY BOUGHT IT ONLINE. wow. and it's supposed to be delivered today!!!

walao! so i went around telling everyone "omfg my mom buying mp4!" and i was hoping and crossing fingers my chinese wouldn't fail me... yet. paper 2 was okay, so i'm like totally hopeful about going home, even though i still stayed out late with squad in sjab room... then i reached home, and dinner was on the table.. so the conversation went like this.

mom: oh you know your brother has to submit some applications for his interview...

me: oh okay. -munches on food- anyway mom, my chinese got b3!!!!!!!!

mom: ok.

me: ?

mom: what else you expect me to say?

me: uh.... you said sth about an mp4....?

mom: oh i not buying le.

me: O.O what? are you serious?! -suspicious-

mom: oh i gave it to your bro le

me: right! you mail it to him arh?

mom: -.-

me: what happened to it!!!!

mom: the person haven't deliver they say tmr lor..

me: -heart sinks and emo-

i was so emo can! i sat on the sofa, and stoned, and then fell asleep LOL. now i'm using computer (obviously) and ahhh! i duno why i'm sad, i can still get it right?! i think i'm worried that my LA will fail me, as usual. my LA is so... horrible. i can't predict anything even though i did my best in it :( last time i said the same thing and i failed LA. LOL! maybe because it's hooke, ahhhhh anything!!!

hmmm today ran with jesslyn + bl and i think somehow i'm not so dead leh! ok maybe that's because i'm like... uh... running for 2/3 rounds only? but aiya! my excuse for myself is always: i don't even need to run one, run so fast for what! LOL! then pe was a little disastrous! LOL.

siyi and i group tgt with eve, lihua luqi :D

it was rather ok, just the punishment round was a little... diao? i duno what to say. we did come and were reminded to be fast and everything, but he still punish? but after that i guess was fun! soccer was sucky la!!! i'm a girl!!! (ok, maybe some of you don't know that :P)

need to like dribble the ball on the feet, then i keep hitting away and everything, super lan la! i think the best was eve? LOL. HAHA. interesting.. i shall stick with goalkeeper all the way :)

because our whole group cannot dribble, so we ran one more round!

so altogether is: 2/3 + 1 + 1 = 4/5 rounds! :)

tmr running with siyi, i think i die liao hahhaha, she always hiong and chiong then i always die one behind! dreading it......... hahahaha! the rounds in the afternoon were worse than the morning's! oh well, i'm alive still mah!

hmmmm got back chi? 73/110 = 65% YES. -punches the air- sorry to people who thinks it's noob, but i'm really very satisfied with it, REALLY satisfied! wheeeee~ :D:D

cca was oh well, cca. observe juniors' lessons and comment lor. foot drill was really hot, that's all i can say. sharon and i were at the back of the lesson being really serious :) foot drill i sort of loosen up a bit le, plus the appearance of jesslyn made me high LOL! had quite some time ignoring adam and all those anti-adam stuff. (i'm anti-adam, i'm saying it out loud)

SOME person made me really pissed. i was like shouting at the top of my lungs la! zzzzzzzz. idiot. ZERO effort put in. and it's not s_________. though i know sometimes i shouldn't be so mean and irritated with that person, but it just gets me REALLY angry. how many months already still liddat? i'm usually a very patient person, but i lose my patience at such people. if got effort i can close one eye, but it's obvious people are spoonfeeding that person only!!! pissed off!

then had last parade and stuff.... then debrief sec ones, felt a little out of place at some times, but i guess it's gonna be the last time the sec 1 see my very horrible face :D going back to where i belong = sec 2~ think i abit gl at some times, but i guess handing over soon le :)

then talk in sjab room and walk around blahblahblah. :) and read above to see my home activities!

shit i'm scared of tmr.

1220 - 1310: LT 1 = business china talk, x-country, Asian youth games

1310 - 1400: classrooms = class contact time (COULD IT BE.....................?)

shit man, i'm insecure. the letter C sucks. D E F G sucks more and more in ascending order! wait, there isn't a G right? LOL. yep! i'm dying tmr thanks to siyi! :D

2009-05-18T16:10:00.002+08:00

got some of results back. at first i was depressed because all those gotten back before were damn sucky, so i guess it's getting better now? i was stunned when i got some of the papers back because i was so sure i was sucky at it. e.g. chemistry and mathp2 -.- but thankfully everything turned out to be fine :)

LA: -

Chinese: -

Math P1: 48/80 (lolllll)

math p2: 61/80

biology: 59/90

geography: 33.5/45

chemistry: 74.444444% (i forgot the marks)

Omg. i think my hardcore studying paid off for once, ONCE. though geog and chemistry are rather tough luck la, but i guess i should be happy le :D hahahaha! i called my mom just now to tell her my bio marks first, then she totally scolded my ass off la zzzz. anything...

anyway my grades are just for ranting, sorry if i offended anyone by uh trying to show off or sth. i'm just spreading joy:D and on another note, pro people may find this set of grades noob or whatever, but it's great enough for me, so great that i feel so happy with it okay! :)

today kept playing with nobelle's ipod touch, the games are like damn fun! then it's like, we played until like uh... nobelle's ipod just died hahahaha, the batt's flat!

anyway after school went to vivo with guanlin and qianhui, then qianhui left for daiso while gl and i went for SUBWAY! :D i love subway. :) cold cut trio! uhhuh, so we just chat and chat..

and the cbh days are over, finally. i can remember how everyone was stunned when we saw it's him instead of the angelic miss tan. the whole class atmosphere was like frozen? and i can still remember how cheehin ran away from him when she saw him at the door! HAHAHA. hilarious! miss tan is back, and it's obvious how the 'discipline' of the class dropped from one end of the scale to the other.. but it's not exactly a bad thing, the cbh times was... creepy. reaaaally creepy.

hahahaha. i think i didn't sleep in class at all today, great achievement! and i'm now using the comp illegally because i highly doubt that my mom would allow me access to my comp with her being pissed with my marks. whatever man, she's making a huge din out of nothing. i remember that there's some idiom for it, i forgot what it is... ah, anything.

maybe there'll be a day when i wake up and my mom is finally satisfied with my grades. maybe?

talking about sleeping, i have been having this recurring dream about exams. on saturday, i dreamt that i was having biology test for the next day, and i haven't prepare anything, and i woke up before i got my papers. another time was geography. and i woke up at both times feeling worried, in my half-conscious state, that i could even sleep when i have not prepared for my examinations. it shows how real the dream was! wow, the exam mood is still within me, i see!

hmmmmmmm. tmr's cca. wonder if i should look forward to it or not o.O

oh yea! i ran with jesslyn this morning. according to gl who passed by it was slow, but i was panting like shit at the end. i guess it wasn't much training for jesslyn huh, i was so slow!! :( i think she wasn't even panting or feeling tired? ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh sorry! my stamina can't even last me 4 rounds i was dying at the last round, serious. i'm surprised you asked me out to run again when i'm definitely not the best running partner you can find, you must be out of choices hahahaha! joking!

when i went back to class i just died on my table lol! guanlin was like 'how can you be dead at such a pace?!' and i thought to myself 'how true..' lol! oh no man. i think my stamina + running speed + pace is so lan until i can't stand myself! what if one day there's a tsunami coming and i bet i'll be the first one who dies, serious. i kept coughing my lungs out, and after that my guts... LOL! i think if i had asthma i definitely would have died on the spot :S

so i decided to run somemore tmr! hahahha! i was surprised at my own reaction. usually i would be like 'walao i suck so i hate it and i won't run!' but somehow there's huge difference in it! :D yay! my mental state is better now!

2009-05-16T20:32:00.001+08:00

I love "Go the Distance" By hercules :) makes me feel uh, strong? i duno, just encouraging to me :)

I have often dreamed
Of a far off place
Where a hero's welcome
Would be waiting for me
Where the crowds will cheer
When they see my face
And a voice keeps saying
This is where I'm meant to be

I'll be there someday
I can go the distance
I will find my way
If I can be strong
I know ev'ry mile
Will be worth my while
When I go the distance
I'll be right where I belong

Down an unknown road
To embrace my fate
Though the road may wander
It will lead me to you
And a thousand years
Would be worth the wait
It may take a lifetime
But somehow I'll see it through

And I won't look back
I can go the distance
And I'll stay on track
No I won't accept defeat
It's an uphill slope
But I won't lose hope
Till I go the distance
And my journey is complete

But to look beyond the glory is the hardest part
For a hero's strength is measured by his heart

Like a shooting star
I can go the distance
I will search the world
I will face its harms
I don't care how far
I can go the distance
TillI find my hero's welcome
Waiting in your arms...

I will search the world
I will face its harms
TillI find my hero's welcome
Waiting in your arms...

2009-05-16T17:41:00.003+08:00

OK, FF1 IS FREAKING IRRITATING. everytime 3 steps i take i have to fight a freaking monster, and i'm now level 33, when the walkthrough says 'you should be level 15 - 17' why? because i can't even get out of a stupid cave without fighting with at least 20 monsters! wth! what was that!?! now i'm like in this huge cave, and i have no idea where to go so i decided to leave hahahahhaa!

EDIT; i went crazy and bought 99 potions, 99 hi-potions, 99 ethers, 99 tents, and 99 phoenix downs LOLLLLLLLL. phoenix downs are expensive, but i'm still left with... 64774 gil. LOL. thanks to the 99.9% fighting rate of this stupid game...

2009-05-16T13:09:00.004+08:00

I'm rather crazy over gameboy advance now hahaha. i'm downloading (shh) about a few gba to try out, and it turns out to be really fun! :) new past time

dawn of souls rock, and i love ff1, because i always pwn the boss! i think my level is too high at that point because i'm always lost in the caves, so have to fight million of monsters.. LOL. i wonder if that's a good or bad thing? nevertheless, i love ff, it's the best game series ever!

LOL. the second boss was a pushover like hell. astos. LOL. i was still worrying about the stupid death attack that killed my best fighter, but i revived him and then within 2 rounds i pwned him upside down LOL. omg man. i think i trained too much already! :O but that's fun.

i like fun, and easy games! HAHAHA.

Yesterday:

ytd was a rather sad day for me until cca. my math is screwed sia. i expected a lot, and hoped to score mayb 50 even 60 if i have good luck. but in the end i just passed by.. 3 percent? wow. that's paper 1 for you. and i always thought my paper 1 would pull my paper 2 up, now i think both will pull me down LOL. and biology wasn't really... great or anything. i hope it will turn out well, everything, since i have already done the tests anyway!

so cca was fun as usual. :) long time no see, everyone! missed you hell!

was promo parade. weird, liuqiao and i were certain we won't promote due to many many reasons, but in the end we did? LOL. wow. so i'm sergeant phyllis? wow.. LOL. i was stunned sia, damn stunned. but after stunning, i guess i'm happy! :)

lalala. congratulations everyone! i think every single year 4 present on that day was promoted wheeeee! it was a happy day for all!

ok i'm off to playing. cya~

2009-05-14T20:44:00.003+08:00

yo! :D hahaha!

today was a reaaaaaally long day. i meant it. i was dying in biology, head spinning, feel like sleeping and everything. and i just can't stand that my __________________________. (--- is just sth i expect many to say, but i don't want to say it out loud because it sounds very... -.-

my bio results suck. and i studied through the night for it.

that's nt the point. yeah. so bio got 65% yup.

then after school went out with jiarong and qianhui, then jiarong left so only got qianhui and i then we ate at superdog, and talked a lot. moved to ben's and jerry's to talk, then transported to emo spot to talk hahahaha!

hey girl, don't be sad. :) 打不死的蟑螂 okay! anyway today's session was meaningful, and i feel really sorry for not able to stop you in time even though i have foreseen it.. and plus all those times i couldn't go out, couldn't talk and everything.. i think i'm really not a good friend. so just to tell you know that i'm sorry :(

then went home~

my mom was being guailan again zzzzz. how many times a week does it have to turn out like this? btw, my mom said "you come home right after school from today onwards" go eat your shit la. you said TWO bloody weeks to enjoy, and it's only been 2 days, and now you are putting some retarded law to me saying i have to go home early to wad, drink urine arh? plus i just finished my mugging period, and i'm in really bad mood. i'm not in any mood to joke around with you about new idiotic curfew hours.

anyway, back to happy topics! tmr's cca again! i can't wait to see everyone again! been so long since i ever had contact with everyone except charlene and eve:)

and emo. i hate putting the idiotic badges la. it's gonna take me a million hours to put them nicely, and it will still end up ugly! wakao la! hate hate hate badges!!! now with the stupid commissioner thingy, i have no idea to put it on or not, its so weird to put that on, it's so noob actually! and i put alrdy will have a hole there then must always put liao!!!

ah, nvr mind. promo parade tmr, so yeap like what one tiny girl said to me once and what i believe in, "its not the piece of cloth, it's the effort!" :) wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

i said to siyi today, "you are from uh, the mental club arh?" HAHAHAHAHA. it was funny! LOL. and i was dead serious, just the word didn't go to my brain except the first letter, so the word mental formed from my mouth HAHA! pspsps. sorry i couldn't resist. but yeap, to make it clear, it's mindsports:)

2009-05-13T08:54:00.002+08:00

YAY. i on my comp le. :)

didn't go to school today because i having fever. No. i HAD fever. it's gone down already :)

yesterday:

it was rather fun. during math paper i was sort of burning up unconsciously for some reason, the room felt hot to me the math paper was easier than i expected, because everyone was saying it was going to be hell of difficult. but in the end it was difficult, but not so difficult that it handicaps everyone's math knowledge or sth.. HAHA. then met jiarong and germaine to do CID, then germaine left with cailing, and the elit peeps came after their paper, and we finished all 12 scenes!! OMG. 成就感 x100!

then went out with jiarong cuz others not free le, so we walked around anchorpoint at first. the craz shop had the same few things, but i'm super hesitant on buying, especially this pink half jacket thing but i still bought presents. (heh,heh,heh) these presents will give them out tmr bah. some belated, some early ones:)

i think i was really having a headache, and i was feeling cold most of the time HAHA. i always thought it was the shopping centre, now i know why XD then we went to vivo..

vivo was super weird, because all the RVians there changed into their own clothes, only got jiarong and me in school uniform LOL. i duno, we walked around and i was looking out for a dress:( i wonder when i could be qualified for a dress, lousy sitting, lousy posture, acts like a boy LOL.

then after that we went to vivo at about 4, then we read magazines, and stuff. then my mom called me and asked if i wanted dinner, so jiarong and i decided to have dinner tgt! :D i had korean noodles (or sth) in kopitiam. definitely warmed me up quite a lot. :)

then reached home at about... 8? my mom didnt scold me xD hahaha! then i went to bathe. and i bathe for like 40 minutes because i was so dizzy in the shower LOL! then came out and immediately went to sleep, then realised i had fever lor. :)

and i was pissed at first because my mom insisted that i go to school, because she don't want to take one day off for me and everything la. she also said that i shouldn't go out if i wasn't feeling well, but i didn't regret it anyway LOL. then i was rather offended because she was saying what "why must you be sick, if you quarantined, i can't go for work" i was like wondering, i thought you were the anti-work one, who comes home everyday to complain? now what?

anyway, went to sleep really early. :)

now my temp dropped from 38.3 to 37.7 and i feel as fit as a fiddle :) hahaha! happy, now can watch dramas le :)

2009-05-11T21:57:00.002+08:00

BLAH. i'm using my dad's comp now, gonna delete history later.. :)

i hate math! especially trigo! why would you want to figure out the shape of curves when you have your own curve to worry about! (LOLLLL,it's lame)

but anyway, it's probably just differentiation and integretion i'm looking at but the exam mood ain't coming back.. in fact i'm more in the post-exam mood, to watch dnyby!! :D and the worst part is i realised, it's so damn long! the stupid, stupid, two topics are DAMNNNN long. i dun understand why would it turn out like that! i feel like sleeping, cutting myself bald because i suck at trigo so much! i can't understand if sin x = 0 means it's in all quadrants or what. stupid, stupid trigo!! to sidetrack a bit, i feel like cutting my own hair again? anyone think i should? LOL! it's fun! :)

integretion and differentiation are like two ends of a magnet, completely two different shit, and ahhhhhh! i wish i started earlier..but that means i can't watch dnyby! :( i love dnyby i think its much better in content and romance than... they kiss again? i duno, i feel like watching the first series, but seriously, zhengyuanchang looks like a gay dabian in the first series! LOL! LOL. i'm sidetracking~

and anyway, tmr is the last day of examinations for everyone! wish everyone a merry day ahead and have funn! i have a date wheeeeeeeeeee!:) though i feel like going for squad outing too, but i guess i will just go with my date first. hehehehehe!! :D

i love mike he and hebe (: of course the bodyguard, but the duo are the super sweet ones. :) hebe looks great in a white dress, short hair, and with (spoiler) falling geese feathers everywhere (/spoiler) and mike he looks great in a suit!! :D

i'm gonna watch.. 恶魔在身边 i think. the korean dramas should stop first.. i'm getting sick of the language for some reason o.O but still, think i'll finish boys over flowers first before moving on:)

2009-05-11T09:23:00.002+08:00

:'( LOL

i'm gonna study.. at evening or sth. i can't really concentrate anymore!! ~~stupid~~ really nice dramas! thanks to them i can't study(: HAHA! i don't care, just flunk or sth bah.. i already in the post-exam mood liao! :D:D

2009-05-10T18:05:00.001+08:00

伊胜雪，你可能是世界上最可怕的恐怖分子。短短的时间，你就这样大步穿过直径，走进我心里。

- 沈若赫, 斗牛要不要

2009-05-10T14:53:00.003+08:00

hmmm! and yeap, i love

斗牛要不要!!!

uhhuh, i love mike and hebe! though i think he looks better with rainie, but i'm just gonna go crazy over hebe first.

OMG. she is sooooooo pretty! (though she has one big and one small eye) but still!! she is so hot and pretty and so cute! and she looks really nice in short hair, reaaaaaaaaaaally nice. (:

and next to mike! hahaha he is shuai at some angles, and he is super cool in the show leh! hurray! i think i may start watching his dramas and everything for entertainment soon! whee! and his facial expressions sometimes are so funny! (e.g. hot spring)

hmm the bodyguard gets on my nerves when he tries to show off. but i really feel he should end up with hebe! :( but still, the script is always about the naughty person getting the girl mah, trying to emphasize that sometimes no matter how nice you treat a person, he/she may not recipocrate (?) your feelings! but still, it's sad that the bodyguard is losing.. hopefully he wins at the end!!! (i havent finish it yet haha!)

and i realised so many dramas taught me that, being rich and famous brings a lot of loneliness with it, which is usually how those super cool celebrities may not be as happy as we think they are... isn't that sad? they have to seem happy and satisfied with everything, even though all of them may be feeling that same loneliness inside... hmm, maybe that's why those celebs can end up tgt(:

and hmm... i wanna do sth random..

who will i want to be friends with, my mom or dad?

i would say... my dad. LOL. my mom is quite the workaholic, and she doesn't have a good listening ear, because she is too absorbed in her own world, and she expects someone with a good listening ear to listen to her (i.e. my dad)

so my dad is a better listener, and sometimes when i feel really down, i do talk to him for fun, and he isn't like my mom, insisting that "you shouldn't worry about this, worry about yourself" because he himself isn't cold to his friends, he is a helpful person, in fact. my uncle (which is my dad's bro) asked him for 50k because he was gambling. my mom told him to leave my uncle alone, but my dad still helped him out.. (even though it's at the expense of our family) and once i talked to him about some friendship problems, he actually gave me usable advices, and i realised the charm my dad had in his younger days when he listens intently.

my mom isn't that attentive, she always looks away when i'm talking, and she can just suddenly talk to my dad when i am talking, which gets me pised like hell. either my bro and my dad would be like "don't interrupt!" LOL. and i would be like "ok fine, nvr mind." LOL!

but anyway, my mom is irritiating in some ways, like she loves to spoil movies and dramas. so i don't like watching tv with my mom. LOL. she always like to comment on the movies, and guessing the outcome and everything, and acting as if she knows everything! luckily i ain't as stupid as before to even believe that Joanne Pei was a prostitute in Little Nyonya!!! urghhh! i was damn paiseh when cherie and ys say she wasn't la! my mom act clever act until very... irritatintg. so from then on, i usually turn a deaf ear to her. only my dad can stand watching dramas with her..

oh well. but she has good points as well. she is a helpful person at times to her very close friends, though at other times she's very paranoid and suspicious of everyone around her. but still, she's really great as a mom in the sense she always take care of her family first, i guess. but being her friend definitely isn't too favourable... as a mother she's overprotective, but i guess that's because she loves her children. (loving more specifically to one than the other)

HAHA! it was a random question i tot of when i was in my car. :) if you wanna do it too, feel free tooo muahahaha!

edit; i realised i don't listen to my mom because she always says the same things, it's too time-wasting to listen HAHA! omg i'm so bad HAHA!

2009-05-09T16:48:00.002+08:00

stupid, stupid internet. i hate it when my dad uses computer too, it slows the internet down like crap!!!

2009-05-09T15:38:00.002+08:00

LOL. "A message to all haters" by nigahiga is funny, especially after i deciphered most of the 'haters' messages LOL.

some weird dream
anyway, had an extremely weirdo dream this morning. LOL. it was kind of lucid i guess. i sort of knew i was dreaming because it seemed unreal and it was totally random. so the whole squad was in... somewhere in hawaii I guess, because everyone was near this extremely beautiful and blue sea. blue and clean seas always relate to hawaii to me anyway.. but one random thing was that i was wearing a jacket in that hot weather, and feeling quite ok, when the rest were wearing, what singlets, teeshirts, and everything. (another random: all of us were wearing red) were feeling like they were in a sauna LOL. then suddenly something happened, and we were uh, having a weird... triage. -.- i have no idea what happened, and the next and best part is that i'm in P-0 (Priority Zero, where dead people are placed) LOL. and i woke up. LOLLLL I was totally huh..? LOL.

hmm woke up at 1. LOL. i was sleeping my ass out. lemme tell you why:

yesterday:
i went out with charlene then went home to use computer and watch boys over flowers until about... 5 then i called my mom to tell her i'm not joining them to go to pasir ris to pick my bro up. in the end it was a great decision because i got to watch tv! so i called my mom at 7 to ask (i know, it's like jail). my very good excuse is that i was afraid of the darkness, so tv can distract me! then i quickly switched the television on, and i started watching random shows ytd! so i didn't sleep at all until 11 i just knocked out on the bed while listening to mp3 LOL!

Some RANDOM shows i watched
- some shaolin show which was 古装 (i was interested because there was rather cool characters i know e.g. ouxuan, christopher lee, and some random one that often appear on the 古装 shows... oh did i tell you i like watching such movies? :) )
- yulebaifenbai (LOL. it was about... 龙祖儿 i think.. so i switched off quite fast haha!)
- power sunday ( it was darn funny, i kept laughing when they played this basketball match on soft air filled mattresses. they kept falling and kena pulled backwards! LOLLL)
- my school daze (the singapore show and i love rui en! she is perhaps the few singapore artistes that i love seeing on television)
- news (whee, mas selamat is gone! and he was caught like, one month ago? wth? for this month have the police been drowning or sth?)

my favourite show ytd was bloody obviously POWER SUNDAY!!!! omg. it was so funny! wuzhongxian is the best man. and this fat guy called 白云 was damn funny and ke lian oso, he reminded me of how i always kena suaned sia! LOL! yet i was chortling like mad!

油腻腻，他真是油腻腻，<--- refering to 白云
好像大便掉到马通里
他真是油腻腻....

LOLLL. this song is supposed to be sang in the 甜蜜蜜 song tune. LOLLL! I was totally laughing my ass off ok!! HAHA! and plus how wu zhong xian keep teasing people in clever ways is damn pro (puts up thumb!) HAHA!

but nevertheless i am making such a big fuss over just one night because i haven't been catching shows on tv since... last year? yeah some of the advertisements were super mo sheng! :)

yep, i'm off (:

2009-05-08T16:54:00.000+08:00

KYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.

okay i'm sorry. i needed to rant. OMG.

USUI<333333333333333!>

2009-05-08T14:37:00.002+08:00

yay. the worst exam is over!!! happy! even though it was rather... -.- LOL~

today went out with charlene and walk all over ikea, queensway and not to mention anchorpoint! :D ahahhaha! we had kfc though HAHA. i'm stil full sia. xD and anchorpoint has crazy prices sia. i bought earrings though :D we walked into this shop like twice or thrice because the prices are UNBELIEVABLE. one shirt that is supposed to cost like 30 dollars cost 5 dollars in that shop! siao sia! HAHAHA!

now just gonna play games, sleep, watch videos, and stuff! cya~

to all rvians: 辛苦了！(;

2009-05-06T14:03:00.002+08:00

geography test today, and maths ytd.

geog was... okay bah. expected lor. but i had to chiong a bit at the end sia. xD okay, nvr mind, tmr 's double paper!! -dies- LOLLL i want sleep liao. night(:

2009-05-04T16:28:00.003+08:00

lol.. first two papers and i can screw up like some shit already WALAO.

and my previous post is... rather childish, i realised. i haven't been a good daughter anyway, so i shouldn't expect my mom to be good to me either. so yeap.

LA paper 1: i didn't introduce what is the traditional family in the first place. by the time i realised, it's time up. plus i couldn't think straight, and i'm afraid it will go off topic...

chinese paper 1: 张_____ LOL. i dun wan to say it, it's too stupid to be even considered to be a mistake. urgh. okay. i think the papers i'm going crazy over are coming, so i should be worrying about that.

hmm when did i start caring about results anyway? LOL...

and i know i'm always alone. (:

2009-05-01T18:17:00.006+08:00

"Shining, shimmering, splendid.
Tell me princess, now when did
you last let your heart decide?"
- Disney Soundtracks, A whole new world

lalalallala :D i'm blogging again! i.e. i'm using the computer yay!

Examinations are round the corner, and i love slacking. :)

I shall ATTEMPT to blog in perfect english. For what? for FUN! (and in brackets i shall just use very simple english HEHE)

yesterday, Siyi and I went back to school to consult Nick(n.c.k), but it turned out to be an useless session for both of us after that. (slackers in action!) Frankly, we were both courting our own deaths by going back to school as:

1. Siyi didn't tie her hair up

2. I wasn't in school uniform

At 12, both of us met at the bus stop that is a stone's throw away from Ikea. (frankly, no, it's much further than that please) Siyi was late for about 10 minutes, (LOLLLL) and I waited patiently for her at the bus stop, listening to my Music Player 3. (MP3!) At 12.10 p.m, Siyi called me to pleasantly inform me that she had gotten off the wrong bus stop and she would be reaching the bus stop on foot. (GAH. perfect english sucks like shit) I was rather amused. After a minute, she arrived at the bus stop and we went into Ikea to shop for Siyi's light bulb for her table lamp. It was an... enriching experience. I realised E14 etc represents the size of the bulb and 70W meant walts. Ikea had very beautiful furniture, but I was extremely fascinated with the lamps which were 'dimmable'. I had much fun playing around with the switches of the lamps! (oh, i was so tempted to use :) LOLLLL)

After Siyi finally made her choice on the cheapest available light bulb that would fit her lamp, we went for lunch (brunch for me) and we realised that the restaurant was full then siyi and i played scissors paper stone i lost, but she gave in to me (:D). Therefore, we went to have hot dogs.

Thereafter, we went to school, and paged for nick. Nick wasn't available at first, so we decided to look for him even though we were trying to avoid teachers. After some time, we decided that nick might have went up to the staff room via the shortcut from the General Office, so we paged him again. This time, he picked up the phone, thankfully. so we proceeded with asking (bombarding) him questions. most of the questions were rather idiotic because i realised how easy that theory was. (and how boring plain english can be...)

After that, we met qianhui and alvin at the study area outside the library. then i tried... to study but to no avail. (D:) at around 5p.m. i rushed home as my life would be in grave danger if i reached home later than my mother.

oh yeah, before i forget,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIM BINGLE. (:

today: (MY NORMAL BLOGGING)

hmmm today was very screwed. i only finished chemistry today because i kept digressing. can't stand it sia. i kept doodling, and my doodles can take half an hour. -.- although i tried to stop!! and my eating habits are crazy! i went out to buy waffles, bought two one for my mom one for me. then my mom said it's ok you eat, then I FINISHED TWO WAFFLES :O what the! after that i was deaded because my stomach was dying. i went to the toilet twice after that. stomach flu! :D (swine flu) LOL.

omg. swine flu is such an epidemic in the world..

i hope no one i know would get swine flu... because if swine flu ever comes to you, it means you're a pig. ok fine, that was... lame. HAHA. i duno why i kept saying that, then it's so cliche and stupid!

the day started so badly. my mom accused me of what, trying clothes out at home to spend my time off?

start of rant (don't read if you don't like rants:))

please. in the first place, i reached home at 5.30 (even though you assumed i was home at 4) how could i have done that. and you and your stupid 'evidence' which was some retarded sleeve poking out of the cupboard. if you're so pro, instead of wasting your time trying to think out what i have been doing at home, you can just look at my notes, instead of noticing the WRONG things, and scolding me when i have been... mugging. i can say i mugged quite a lot, compared to my previous years. even though i was bored at times, who in the earth will take clothes out to play with it and dress up like barbie doll? firstly, the shirts would STINK. secondly, I'm FAT, and i have enough self esteem to tell myself that i don't deserve to observe myself in front of the mirror and let those fats be more prominent than it should be. if you knew me, you wouldn't say that.

you said i went out yesterday because i wore shinfung and c.simin's presents - socks, so i went out. WHICH fcuking rule in this world says that wearing weird socks = going out with friends? do i seem like that to you? I'm getting more self-disciplined, and i almost felt like just slacking off. I wore those socks because i was in the mood.it was white. it was cute. it was poking out of my cupboard. isn't that enough? and i went to school. I WENT TO school. it's not like i'm being all slack and everthing. whatever makes me disgusted is that even my own mother suspects me.

what is family without trust. what are you, if you don't trust your own daughter? if you take me as a slapping bag you can slap whenever you want to, there will be this day when you realise how immune i'm to the pain of slapping. that shows how much you slap me. i'm sure i told you before. i HATE people slapping me. i hate people accusing me. and i hate people trying to act like they know things when they don't. why do you possess all these three? why must i be the only one around who gets slapped, caned by my mother in secondary school? i feel like a primary school kid. i'm 16. i'm a freaking 16. I could do so many other things if i want to. but i chose to take care of my school work. i chose to be a good student this year. i chose to be a better daughter to fill up the empty space my model brother left behind when he went for NS. why do you have to make it so much more difficult?

and why must i hesitate? karma. if you didn't fall sick, i would have left this house. if it wasn't my fault, i would never be hesitating to leave this bastard house. i wish you could read this, and wonder what kind of mother have you been to me. curfews, canes, expectations. zzzz.

rant over.

yes, rant is over. :D LOl. i'm sorry, i'm really touchy when it comes to such things.

so i used the com since.... 6. :D HAHAHA. okay i'm sorry. :(

haha. okay. end post. and jiayou everyone for midyears(:

P.S. OMG. die. i better run away from her asap. :D (lucky never link) but no point to have it now right? hopefully...... :S

P.P.S. bio is untouched. damn time!!!!

P.P.P.S. swine flu should just quarantine the whole country! ok i was joking. (:

2009-04-29T23:11:00.002+08:00

It has been a looooooong time since i posted, since uh... free cones day?! LOL!

hmmmm. first attempt at imeem, and seems.. okay. LOL! anyway, the only two japanese songs in there are planetarium, and flavor of life in HANA YORI DANGO<3333333!>

hmmmm. midyears are coming........ drats. i only studied geography, and i spent a holy three days on it.. stupid proscratination. I can spent a crazy three hours on fold mountains -.- and most of that three hours is spent walking aimlessly around the house and doing absolutely random things, one of them include doing pushups. LOLLLLLLL. I had no idea why i did that, but yeah...

LOL. okay let's see. the highlights of last week?

tuesday was free cones' day.. wednesday was... house meeting and...

thursday was some crappy chair meeting, but was lightened up by crappers like junfei(?) LOL. and eve & I kept lagging, and lagging. we were jamming up the whole thing la! LOLL but nvr mind, it was.. fun. one of the mahjong sheets had some grammar/spelling errors, so we corrected that as well yay! HAH!

friday was.. nothing. i remember going home early if i'm not wrong because my bro came back and my dad went to fetch him, and i remember being all scared at home because i was alone and it was... dark...

and what's so scary about that darkness? lemme tell you, if you have a great imagination, you can easily scare yourself with EVERYTHING. i had to blast the radio to make sure i can sing along with the music and stop "hallucinating". i hate the darkness, it's pitch black, and all the ghost stories, ghost faces and everything starts haunting me =.= the story about putting some scary photo at the eyehole of the door since haunt me from leisure camp, and all those stories and things i'm afraid since young start creeping out like... shit.

oh btw, when i was young, i watched red riding hood, and i was very scared of the wolf in the story =.= frankly i ain't that scared now la.. lol!

sunday started studying geography lor. then monday was... normal? LOL. i duno, some chionging of things..

ytd was.. LOL. (ok two days ago) tuesday. was a stunning day for me. was ambushed at swing LOLLLLL. (winks) CID i chiong chinese, then talk and everyything lor..after school was so paiseh went into the physics lecture, and brian was like o.O you in physics meh? LOL! then i just handed those stuff to people and rushed out. leeteo didn't even notice me! :D HAHA.

then went home alone cuz no phone no nothing :( HAHAHA. yeah, i emo:)

anyway, why alone = emo arh?! LOLL no offense just thinking out loud HAHA. hmmm alone = ostracized = sad = emo? :S

and wheeeeee. today was wasted. finished geography though, but i study since sat sia! HAHA. then used com at 4 and playyyyyyy! illegally of course:)

and the stupidest thing happened. i wanted to print some stuff, then i want ask my mom to print for me...

so the convo went like

me: hello mummy can help me print stuff?

mom: hmm how many pages?

me: uh... i see arh.. got ** pages bah...

mom:......

me:?

mom: you're using the comp now? (confirmation)

me: ?! (shit) uh... yeah... yeah..

mom: NO NEED TO ASK ARH.

me: uh uh uh... need study mah then...

mom: you hao zi wei zhi! (hangs up)

me: (puts down phone and hangs myself up)

LOLLLL omg. how stupid could i get la. i just threw myself to the sharks sia. LOLL it was retarded la!!

2009-04-22T21:24:00.005+08:00

hmmm! i didn't touch my comp for one day, and i can't take it already! goodbye my self-study days, it's gonna be wasted if i stay at home... :( but oso cannot go school, my mom wants me to be a good girl and stay at home..

yesterday was... FREE CONES' DAY!! <33333!!!>

but before that was obviously school.

maths was uh okay? i did some maths la.. and finally i'm getting more and more used to math sia! yay! HAHA.

PE was disastrous. tkc exploded at us, and made us run 2.4km. LOL. omg. i realised km = kiamui~ so everyone ran 2.4 kiamuis. LOL. okay that was... random. back to the topic, he was damn pissed because none of us were moving? he was pissed because he ask people to move then people don't move =.= okay... though that's a valid reason, but 2.4 is crazy, i think 1.2 is better la! the more rounds, the more we will hate him sia. but still, i think it's sort of our fault in some ways too la! but still, don't like him anyway -.-

recess then CID. sorry people, i totally knocked out during CID!! :O HAHA. i can't remember what happened actually haha!

then chemistry and gave back chemistry paper.. was a bit sad. but i think can still... buck up? duno lah, HECK! (HAHA. spot the irony siyi and gl)

the queue made a loop around the ben and jerry shop, and go all the way to a halt, then there's another queue to the freebie booth. so when the freebie queue shortens, people from the long queue gets to go to the freebie queue liao! XD

some funny things; we were behind the ben and jerry store, then there was the uh... b&j person eating b&j icecream at the sink, which was super near me... and anyway, i was damn famished, was craving for food. then i was staring at it wanting to eat it la! she licked it then she look away mah, i had the sudden urge to just eat the rest of the icecream, and like the cartoons, she turn back and find her icecream gone.. just comical la, literally. XD

another one was when we were queuing past this cake (?) shop, then we were going crazy over food. all of us were hungry actually. then i was like scratching the glass panel in mock frustration to reach and eat those food the chefs were preparing, then the chef were like amused? LOL. then i waved at one of them and he gave me a skeptical look and all of us laugh like hell xD and we saw him putting white chocolate into cups though :( felt like eating HAHA.

then i got CHOCOLATE FUDGE BROWNIE. yay. great choice to me la. i love brownies(: many of us took that too! then we went to mos burger to eat! when we were eating, i was feeling rather... random. so i wanted to play 接龙游戏

then it was funny because stupid sharon kept giving very lame ones! and liuqiao always surprises us with her lack of vocab! :D yen pro! :D but anyway, we (ok me) wanted to play truth or dare so we played. then ask char then char ask me... that's no longer a valid secret anymore; it's not even true anymore la can! but still, please keep this stupid lame, insignificant secret, as a tribute to me being honest with the question!! :DDD

then i took mrt with the squad, then went past tiong bahru and i went all the way to lakeside with liuqiao, then i took it back xD fell asleep on the bus despite being very uncomfortable (coughcough) then to tiong i took bus... then reach home! but i went out to eat with my mom, then came back and stone. LOL. then i packed my bag very VERY thoroughly. I mean, i actually placed ALL my worksheets into clear pockets, then my bag is more organized now la! then go sleep le, was damn tired..

today was... half a bad day, half a good day..

first lesson was uh.. maths. LOLLLL. was okay bah..

recess had YOGHURTS! HAHA. it was pretty nice leh! :D

anyway, i said bad day because i was scolded again by nick. and he said he was 'disappointed' with me. oh well, i can't help it. i seriously did it la wtf, i did it since 2 days after he gave the effing wksht? so many people can be witness. zzzz. anything. wasn't too happy at first, plus was having a bit of headache for some reason sia. dunno why la!! i stood for 1hr20mins. XD stoning, ~~emoing~~, and playing calculator! :D haha. yay!

then it's a good day because it was house meeting? nah, joking xD it was ok bah. congrats alvin and the other one (sorry) then LOLLL. i tot someone called my name kiamui, and i froze for a long, long time. LOL. but luckily no one heard i think LOL. but anyway jiayou new house captains~ XD feel rather bad for alvin though, he has so many other commitments...

after school went to find tck but he wasn't there. LOL. right... then ruth amelia cynthia and me went to bpp to eat subway... on the way there i was feeling terrible again, maybe because i'm hungry? i duno, i was feeling a serious tightening of my head, then i feel detached from my body. ok maybe that just means i'm tired? LOL. so we had subway and i bought takoyaki!! <333!!>

the kids are crazy but cute. the same guy called me biantai sia, haressment. LOL. lucky he left early LOLLL. but it was cute at the end because we told ghost stories, then issac was so cute, he was listening intently and at the end i ask him if he was scared, he said he was, a little. LOL!

then went home, fell asleep on the bus, as usual. it's routine already la. then reach home at about...8? LOL. i'm gonna sleep soon, i feel like a zombie now.

2009-04-20T21:15:00.003+08:00

What would you do if you got a second shot at life? Class of 1989, Mike O'Donnell is a star on his high school basketball court with a college scout in the stands and a bright future in his grasp. But instead, he decides to throw it all away to share his life with his girlfriend Scarlett and the baby he just learned they are expecting. Almost 20 years later, Mike's glory days are decidedly behind him. His marriage to Scarlett has fallen apart, he has been passed over for a promotion at work, his teenage kids think he is a loser, and he has been reduced to crashing with his high school nerd-turned-techno-billionaire best friend Ned. But Mike is given another chance when he is miraculously transformed back to the age of 17. Unfortunately, Mike may look 17 again, but his thirtysomething outlook is totally uncool in the class of 2009. And in trying to recapture his best years, Mike could lose the best things that ever happened to him
- 17 again, http://movies.yahoo.com/movie/1810038675/details

17 again was a fabulous, inspiring and hot movie.

*****huge spoilers!*******

GAHHHHHH. ZAC EFRON<333333>

and he is none other as a perfect dad! he shows his love in the wrong way at first i.e. bringing his daughter to a children's cafe and insisting that she likes the same thing since she was 8.. but then when he becomes 17 again, he is sooooo cool! and funny too, because he's very act cool and weird! LOL. e.g. he was like "yes, i agree with you!!" when the teacher talk about sex education la! LOL. and he gave a huge speech about holding his baby girl for the first time in front of his daughter!! then the whole class' girls decided not to take the condoms HAHAHA.

but he is still so cute. i was almost gonna cry when i saw the part when he read an 'empty' letter to scarlet.. he said "i love you, but i have to let you go." OMG. the tears were shining in zac's eyes.. and he looked super vulnerable, as if he was about to break anytime.. and i felt super sad for him.. and the part when they reveal the letter's contents, i was at the verge of breaking down again, it's so touching!

sad moments, but there are funny parts too! XD and qianbian parts thanks to Ned. LOL. it's retarded seriously! LOL. and the part that the principal reveals she's a geek too is so damn stupid! they started talking in elfish language? and the part ned talks to her at the bb court at the end is sooooo stupid. LOL. "i need you to break my dungeon!"HAHAHA. it's just so cracky!

back to zac efron. he rocks my socks. LOL. i'm still very not over his super charming personality and everything... :) of course, he has a hot body. :D HHAA. i love this movie so much la! zac efron is just simply amazing.

******spoilers end********

few words: zac efron is the best. and i'm inspired to work better for my future(:

HAHA. so ytd went out with zijun and jiarong to vivo, and talked a lot(: had a great time hearing you spilling everything out(: i don't have much to share, sorry :S but got to update about you people(: happy! HAHA. the movie was just amazing, then took photos (one) then go home.. sounds short, but i cut A LOT of contents away. if not i can last for a 1000 words. but to all: be happy always, and be strong, don't give up(:

today was a typical day? HAHA. had talking session with siyi nobelle jas guanlin, and it was so fun! LOL. though i was constantly at a lack of things to say, but still, i'm glad i'm _______. at the very least i have time on my hands to think, and wonder. :D

nick didn't come today! so the snjgp (names) discussion was fun, and long, and super funny xD good luck everyone, ganbatte in your individual ways(:

then it was lang arts... was still chatting with snigp! :D HAHA!

recess went with snigp! but i was in the toilet half the time, i had a seriously bad stomachache.. :S then drank half of milo and just pour away :(((( then ate sandwich in class! HAHA.

then it was... chinese? i think. it was just a normal chinese lesson, boring all those.. but i was organizing the self-study forms and stuff lor!

oh yaeh! i'm happy because i successfully collected forms for the first time in this year 2009! congratulations to me! HAHAHA. :D i mean it was rather fun at some point of time, but it was damn tiring because i had a headache after i shitted in math again :( stupid overdue sauce for hot dogs la. :(

now i'm praying my butt won't explode, if it did, i will just die at home or sth. i ate so much so if my ass explode, it's gonna kill me sia...

oh anyway, math i went to toilet again.. i duno why. exploded, and i was seriously having a huge headache when i went back to class 10 minutes late. LOL.

then it was... bio? yeah.. results i'm happy with it la. i was stunned la. tot it was 30 at first lol... but yeah.. can use as secret weapon to manipulate my parents hehe. no la! joking >.>

to _______: don't be depressed k? i like the you who strive your hardest for your goals(: and with that it will definitely be better okay(: love you! :X

to ______: i'm going to just let go okay? i don't think i will look back anymore. be happy(:

2009-04-18T20:00:00.002+08:00

google chrome is pretty cool! (: just that i have to install flash player again.. but it says "opening in ~~21 hours~~ 2 days" so... i guess internet explorer is still my favourite!

friday, i woke up early! it was because i placed another TWO alarm clocks next to my pillow, and the first one failed to wake me up because i squashed it (NOT literally, you know, use your hand and "press" the top?) then the second one rang and my mother got pissed and woke me up! the wonder of alarm clocks (:

school was just school. heard about dance and choir, so smsed zijun and jiarong first time in the morning to walk track, in the end only walked with zijun bah.. cheer up everyone, everyone.. should look forward in life(: yeap... then didn't take much photos with teachers, but eve and i convinced ckc and CHNG HENG GUAN to take on monday!!! :O i called chg, and he answered the phone and i was awkwardly saying

"uh.. mr chng. i'm phyllis, then-"

"what???"

"i'm phyllis"

"what......?"

"I'M PHYLLIS FROM 3J LAST YEAR THIS YEAR 4J."

"oh... phyllis...!" (with that very cute way :D)

"can we take a photo with you on monday after morning assembly?"

"oh oh oh! it's ok..."

"really arh?"

"yes yes"

"ok, bye!"

"burbye!!"

LOLLLLL. the way he say bye bye sounded really cute HAHA. so that's for all mr chng fans out there xDDDD eve and i were laughing when we went off HAHAHA. cca was just pt, went to mark the papers with liuqiao, then in the end i was left alone marking because liuqiao was stolen by the teachers.. LOL. notice the 's'! LOL. then went back and wanted to play h20, but no one wanted to play, so i decided not to LOL. hope they had fun nevertheless.

pissness wore off after some time anyway LOL.. i just have to be used to it i think :S

then sang birthday song for yuting! and gave her my extreme ugliness card. LOL. it was so ugly la! but i redid it once and gave up, and went back to the first one. LOL.

then went home, and i realised my hair was... crazy. i look like some samurai seriously, my ponytail was edging onto the top of my scalp!!! omfg. why didn't i realise it!! o.o oh anyway, took dad's home, had dinner, and went home. read eclipse and i realised i'm starting to join the anti-twilighters club or sth. seriously, i don't feel anything for that series anymore, and i wonder if i should have bought something else then.. even better, i can just forget about buying eclipse, since it's sort of a screwedup series. and yeap, i'm sorry to those who love twilight, because.. i'm officially LOL. anti. XD

i just find twilight a very... weird series which is suited for people who wants a perfect boyfriend, and definitely 100% of girls want that! but the ending was... crappy. i think i'll just stick with the book for now..? LOL. i duno. maybe i will go back on my words when the new movie comes out

speaking of new movies, ANGELS AND DEMONS is coming~ yes! i wanna watch! 17 again is also super cool! wheeeeeeeee. :D i feel like rereading angels and demons xD

today:

in the end didn't go out with squad for dinner, so went out with family - brother, and my pretty/nice/cute niece and aunt! (: felicia was so damnnnn cute! shopped at suntec, and i was super happy i got my first pair of flats~~ HAHA. it doesn't look extremely beautiful or anything la! but i was happy enough (: i love shopping with my auntie, she persuades my mom to buy me things !! :D mom almost bought me shorts, but she was already at the cashier :(

then held hands with felicia and walked thru suntec. LOL. i was wearing super... fat. LOL. okay. i admit that D:

walked around, had fun with felicia! a toddler is just different, influences the atmosphere so easily(: i feel genuinely happy with her haha!

then took felicia and her aunt to their house then went home and everything... finished eclipse and decided to do work until my parents wanted me to go for dinner o.O LOL. then i had dinner which was uh... some kway tiao la. LOL.

then went home. was listening to emo songs like kiss goodbye, 他还不懂, etc...

then i thought about a lot of things, how some things have endings that are too soon..

i thought about saying goodbye to qianhui when she graduates from rv to other jc, while i continue in this crappy IP programme. and i started feeling down.

friends come and go, but some stay.

and congrats girl, told you! hope you will be happy with your decision HAHA.

no rush, no rush. and i just need to let go (:

2009-04-16T22:55:00.002+08:00

Hmmmm.. today was rather fun in a way hehe! (:

lessons were okay bah, took photos with all the teachers we met today except ckc and glh. we didn't dare to ask ckc because he seemed to be in a terrible mood LOL. and glh simply said she didn't kan shuang us so she refused to take the photo... -.- yeah right. LOL. the whole class was outraged la! but i guess she was pissed because she felt her game didn't go well. actually it went just fine. LOL. seriously.

recess was eating! LOL. i was so hungry. didnt have a proper dinner or breakfast. :( then went back for geography..... blahblah.

after school went with guanlin and eve to bus stop. eve and i went to ikea. LOL. sorry gl for leaving you there alone :( then ate hotdogs!LOL. both eve and i had 2 hot dogs + 1 curry puff! :D then went back to school and met estherzeng,ziying,stiffany,chenfang LOL. then went to eat curry puff, and yenzhang came....

uh, i think seriously, we have age gap, why everyone laughing so hard except eve and me?? :S oh well... then go back to class to read book, me breaking dawn, eve eclipse HAHA. then went out then met bingle LOL. whole day doing hwk one LOL. then go meet liuqiao and ph and we went carecorner lor LOL! XD then went home!

fell asleep on the bus cause i was thinking it was till the last stop anyway (interchange) so i just sleep very peacefully. then i woke up at the carpark!!! :O the bus driver didnt see me like wth!!! then he woke me up and i was all shocked. LOL. then i had to walk from the carpark to the interchange, and everyone stared. damn.... paiseh..

and yeap, siyi be happy(: cheer up k, if not i will strangle your friend for you(: LOL. does that sound like a threat, because it is! HAHA. joking! but seriously, cheer up. happy siyi= interesting siyi= talkative siyi= nice siyi= siyi LOLLLLL. i bet you're damn touched now right xD but it's ok, i don't mind if you want to buy me stuff to thank me:) XDDDDD cheer up cheer up! (:

2009-04-15T21:39:00.003+08:00

"If I got down on my knees and told you I was yours forever
Would you get down on yours too and take my hand?
Would we get that old time feelin', would we laugh and talk for hours
The way we did when our love first began?"
- I told you so,Carrie Underwood feat. Randy Travis

Carrie Underwood has an awesome voice, though i agree with dad, she seems to be screaming so much :S but this song is nice! highly recommended! (:

In the morning fell asleep on the sofa, so almost didn't go out to meet cherie LOL. sorry :X then went to school as usual, then talked to cherie, jiarong, mingjun (uh, he was there, but i pretended he wasn't)

then walked the track a little with jiarong. ok, in fact we were walking the canteen instead LOL. i bought mango! then ate it and was on the last piece when we both realised 9/10 of the canteen was gone for morning assembly O.O then we ran back to our class LOL. i brought my mango into class though, and i think it was extremely smellable, i think jiele smelled it LOL, she asked me about it XD

maths was.... tiring. it was x10000 tiring but i entertained myself by irritating siyi XD sorry people if i was too loud, i was trying to be awake :( happy that i made a nuisance out of myself~ LOL. nah, joking. xD i entertained myself sufficiently with 2 breakthroughs in pacman into the high scores' charts!! YAY.

chemistry was so damn cool! pro people like nobelle and gl and jasmine and siyi. LOL. am i the only one who haven't express my hatred yet? i should start plotting LOL.

nobelle's kb: nick was calling people to sit up straight, and he called nobelle. wow, i was wondering why would nick call nobelle when he saw nobelle's murderous face before? so nobelle said loudly back "I prefer to sleep in this position." LOLLLLLL i was stunned. didn't see nick's face, but he continued teaching anyway LOL. major slash!

guanlin: we were doing ws on our own. then nick came along and told us not to refer to notes because "you'all say you'all know, but actually don't know one, so don't refer..." then he walk away, and guanlin said extremely loudly "nag nag nag, like grandmother liddat..." LOLLLLLL i was laughing like hell with jasmine! second slash!

jasmine: we were doing the quiz for ASEAN then nick came along to collect, then he ask jasmine to write name then jasmine was irritated because nick talks damn loudly like shouting, so she said VERY loudly "FOR WHAT." "WHY." LOLLLL. third slash! LOLLLLLL!!!

i was telling jasmine nick must be crying deep inside la! but feel a bit bad for him cuz he wasn't really being bad, he was like being normal bah? just that he teach very.... :S

language arts was so gruesome, and urgh. at first i was sort of like tired? then we watched the video about circumcision and i was so grossed out after that. i didn't really get the female parts right, so at first i wasn't that disgusted, but then jasmine and guanlin explained to me, and hxr oso gave an insight to circumcision, and i was so urgh that i can't even say a single word!!!

why are people in Africa so brainless? denying woman of sexual pleasure is just an act from sexists. and causing them such drastic pain is just plain biantai, and the stupidest here is perhaps women themselves. practices aren't always the right way, and following them blindly makes you even more stupid than a pig! the worst part is implying that pain to your daughters, when you very well know there is no rational reason behind this. there's no need for studies to even figure that out! your relatives pinning you down for your circumcision is so disheartening!

the "sewn" women being more like a virgin is also so irrational. why are they trying to do? do they think putting thorn into their -toot-is deserving of praise, or high price? and plus, sewing it tgt doesn't erase the fact that you aren't a virgin! and after you served your 'master' you have to start sewing up your -toot- again, like some torn shirt placed together by playing with needles and thread!!! in the first place, that's a freaking, freaking human body. secondly, that's a freaking thorn you are talking about, some random thorn you found on the dirty floor, and you are sticking that into your... zzzz. no protection, no sterile, no anaesthetic!!! do you know why you have the highest death rate wah kao zzzzz.

damn frustrated to see this face of the africans la! and i was once saying that i want to go to Africa because it's a natural environment! let's start a movement to influence those africans to start thinking for themselves!!! ok LOL...... stupid africans should start being cleverer -.-

oh yeah!! the ASEAN round in LT was damn funny. LOL! congrats 4D XD and good job huimin! (:

After school chiong off to meet wenli to go BPP! then in the end met charlene amd bingle on 963! LOL.... damn qiao~ LOLL then fell asleep on the bus with wenli HAHA. then after that reach BPP, sat at macdonald alone doing hwk while wenli get her money hahaha! then go buy her brother's birthday present, then went for CID!

the guy with the fever last week was soooooooo noisy today. LOL. he ask this girl (who isnt uh normal) to kiss me and she seriously kiss my back, because i was facing away from her!!! :O i was shocked while the guys roared with laughter sia! wenli went off first, then i was screenin the cd when it became bad LOL! so i went home, and slept on the bus LOL. then i almost fell off my seat sia, lucky i woke up in time to catch the seat in front of me! then reach home at about 7 plus? LOL. was damn hungry la! didn't have lunch but some mango (again) LOL!

2009-04-14T22:41:00.003+08:00

:( we only have a few months left everyone... i will miss all of you, especially the 12 of you... oh well, we can always keep in contact right(: hahaha! i wonder how life for us will be in future when there is no more sjab circling us... but i shall look on the bright side, and that all of us will be as bonded as before!

today cca was like damn funny. the test was humiliating la... sian. said too many wrong things, then kept zzzzzzz ahhhh! ok, calm down. okay... then after that went to mark most of the scripts.. so far the results quite unexpected bah, liuqiao and i kept getting stunned by the answers and results.. highest is pretty high la! lowest i think not as low as i expected oso.. but a lot of failures (HEHE) sorry for the gl questions people, i wasn't exactly uh, at the peak of knowledge then LOL. ok i just cannot work w/o a fam.

uh lessons were quite tiring.. LOL. and math i sneaked out to get papers from my dad. sorry dad and mom, all cuz of my stupidity you had to be late for medical appointment and work :( and yeah, i woke up late today, at 650? i was wondering why the sky outside is so bright then i looked at the clock and realised i was late like crap! sorry cherie for scaring you haha! then i went to school, and realised i forgot to bring a lot of important things which was on my computer table!! then i was like being rather sad and stuff, super guilty too! then my dad came to give it to me, though he was late for work, thanks dad(: although he scolded me like duno what kind of shit la!

today i think was a very fun day thanks to after cca period! LOL. we did guangdongzhaomian, and we were like just random, then suddenly all of us got going "guang.... dong.... zhao.... mian... guangdongzhaomian!!" LOL. which was super random and lame! LOL. then played gimme tempo too! (: felt like that day we played at vivo and i was down with fever after that hehe! :D
JIAYOU SYF PEEPS! :D
:'(

2009-04-13T20:36:00.002+08:00

"But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song, you can't forget it."
- Demi Lovato, Don't Forget

Oh well. fyi, that's an extremely emo song. LOL. I think this song has rather cheesy lyrics, but I like how emo Demi Lovato can sound.. I heard it and was rather uh. affected? yeah it's a great song(:

today was just a normal day, i guess? eve ironed and chopped her hair :) somehow, through all those, her hair is still intact, and looks rather cute on her! haha! then uh.. as usual, we were highing in front... LOL. i like to laugh in front behind nick, makes me feel damn happy! :D

then it was chemistry, but eve and i could pon a while cuz we went for some interact briefing about photos! XD then had lang arts, i spent it reading magazines, and sleeping :) sorry hxr, couldn't resist, i was seriously damn tired :( though i find your lessons rather fun too!

recess, had wanton mee! HAHA. guanlin and me bought wanton mee, then i took her wanton, she took my charsiew! this is called a fair trade! (: then had vitasoy, and i was reminded of the china poisoning thing! oh well..

then it was chinese, i did my hwk! but she didn't to check zzzz. so many times i did hwk, they all nvr check one, obviously think i nvr do one la zzzzz. whatever -____-

geography was just a typical geography lesson. no point listening. makes me feel like swearing sia, i don't even know what an epicentre is

maths was vectors. AHHHHH. i hate vectors!!

rant: why must we try to figure out the 'flow' of arrows? it's not as if we will see ourselves trying to figure out, looking at a parallelogram that that line is coming from this direction, so this direction is the same as that blah. who gives a hoot about it when you already have the shape at your hands, and we definitely will not be ! in fact, i think this thing will probably nvr come out in our future lives what! i can't even imagine vectors coming out in practical life! ok, maybe i'm just unhappy because i suck at vectors..

ws 4A killed me after school, eve and i in the end concluded that v = u, then it was nonsenical anyway. in the end zhengyang helped to explain everything once for me. LOL. thanks! and yup psps, your answer correct la bl LOL! at least i think i can do the last question :)

sorry peeps in class, i was really noisy :( blah i should just keep quiet, stop singing in class, stop talking, maybe i should just sleep, it's my quietest moments definitely! in fact, i love sleeping. it makes me super alert, after that. i just don't like it when i wake up and my vision's all blurred, and usually i only wake up when my ears hear eve's voice "QI LI!" yeah.. :X went home at 5, then reach home and my mom was in a good mood, so i was off the hook! (:

LOL. speaking of hook. eve was asking me for the hooks we bought for the clocks for some reason, then yulu and i both tot she meant she wanted to include hooke in the list of impacting people. LOLLLLL. he is somewhere suntanning in australia or sth now anyway, after he got 'chased' away by the students. it's just damn cool to kb him, because i did, and nobelle too!! :D

LOL. and speaking of nobelle, nick was in class, then suddenly he went to the back and say "yes nobelle?" and nobelle's face was murderous. i meant it. murderous. she looked as if nick pulled her hair or lynched her friend LOL. her eyes were all BIG. and she was all solemn, like what i said, it was murderous. then siyi and i started laughing because it looked so scary, yet funny because it wasn't directed at us! LOL. and i remember how she could do that face to me last time when we sat tgt and somehow i'm not that scared. LOL. i think nick was a little freaked out. just a lot. it was funnnn seeing how the gang at the back always kb nick!

like that time, nick made some weird mistake, then jasmine said damn loudly "lan just say LA" (or sth around that line) LOL. and siyi always seems to be going against him and responding to his questions, and it sounds sarcastic. then nobelle has her murderous face to fend off people with bad hairdos! xD guanlin once when nick said that the four of us (a.k.a. siyi me jas gl) always very noisy, then gl shouted "WHAT???" LOL. nick just ignored her i think. ha,ha! eve and i support anti-nick actions! (:

oh btw, i'm making the sec 2 quiz now. XD have fun peeps. walao, it's so mind draining. >.<>

and i miss you bro though i get to sleep on your mattress,use your pillow, use your boster(?), use your blanket... but i guess it was still better to have you at home. i don't like having only my parents to look at when i always quarrel with them :'( hope you're having a... good time there, though i seriously doubt so.. so i hope you look good in your buzzcut... hope you can jiayou! (; if you can even read this, if you do, i'll just be shocked and freaked out. LOL. call us soon!! :)

2009-04-12T20:48:00.002+08:00

HAHAHAHA. niga higa is damn... weird, funny, interesting, and cool!! LOL shamWOOHOO!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=weIbm3m-Xbo&feature=channel - Niga Higa, Movies in Minutes, Harry Potter

GOSH. i couldn't stop laughing when voldermort started dancing all of a sudden LOL. and all the flying on broomsticks a.k.a. random idiotic stuff!!! LOL! the music when voldermort started dancing was super indianic, and is super... random. random ftw (as quoted from nigahiga himself) HAHA. i laughed my ass off ok!! number 21 was funny enough too!! LOL. twilight was rather funny too, the stupid car and how ryan higa cupped his nose and MERMAID.
LOLLL -_______-

ok sorry, i was in some really... nigahiga mood LOL! thanks to nobelle xDDDD chris brown one was HAHAHA. LOLLL. ok sorry..

bro went into NS yesterday, and i entered pulau tekong~ hahaha! at first we reached pasir ris interchange rather late, then we got on the bus anyway! hahaha. then i realised like, all lean people there, then my bro reminded me that all the unfit ones went earlier so i was like oh okay... xD HAHA. super many damn fit guys can? LOL. but seriously la. all the recruits are made to tuck in...

but anyway, i was seriously damn excited when i reached there, it's just like the movies! but left my bro at this junction while the relatives went for the tour, and the recruits went to pack their bags...

and well... the bunks were super... neat, and it looks exactly like the 学警雄心 show! plus, the beds are rather... soft. not as hard as i thought it would be! 1 bad thing might just be the cupboards, very dirty. they even have some leisure room with pool table, tv, and soccer table! this made me wonder, did they clean up the whole place before we came? seriously, i doubt the ns peeps get to use them at all... the food was not too bad, though my bro was like not even eating much because he was so choosy! he don't like cabbages o.O

witnessed the oath-taking ceremony, and they were seriously damn cool!
"I, NRIC no, Full name..." LOL. this part was interesting. the start was like I, S9303409J, Seah blahblah... but the thing is that everyone has a different NRIC no and name, so it was like very jumbled up, but still was rather cool! they have changing parades, which is like... O.O hahaa. i was telling my bro he better hope he's not at the top level, he would die during changing parades! they would have one hour of free time, if there isn't any night training! cool! and they even have games day to 'break the monotony of NS' wow!

then had lunch with my bro, and bid farewell to him lor. and.. i met shiwei. OMG. i was like damn O.O and then i ran away, so i doubt he saw me. the last thing i want is my parents interacting with the sirs, confirm a lot of complaints and everything zzzzz. then bid farewell to my bro as he go to cut his hair! XD they fall in sia! super cool! then the guy beside my bro was like.. crying? i duno, his face was all contorted and he's rather white, so it was obvious his face was.. red, and his eyes were a little puffy. who knows, maybe the sun is too hot? LOL.

at night my mom and dad talked to my bro over the phone then they totally freaking forgot about me, and hang up. wth, i wanted to like strangle them or sth. i considering lynching! walao, my bro is perhaps the only.. uh.. entertainment i have at home? :(

yesterday was another pissing day.. hate shopping with my parents la. GUH. i shall seriously, save money or sth. LOL. i shall try..

today was uh.. normal. just quarrelled with them again over CID project. they were like 'why must you go pasir panjang' ok... though i know it's damn far, but still, i think it's for project. PROJECT. shouldn't that be the magic word? they just refuse to sign that effing form. =.= and dad called me bird brain and dumbass countless times. zzzz.

2009-04-10T23:26:00.002+08:00

AHHHHH very touched now (: HAHAH. i love rvsjaby4. XD but really sorry to thwart your plans hehe! :D

yay, bro going pulau tekong tmr! i'm going with him! no la, not for NS, but as honorary family member! yay! i damn happy about going la! i'm gonna be so high! (assuming it's not some haunted place, i will just swim home or sth) and they say they gonna serve us camp food! OMG so cool! and my bro say it's gonna be a long jounrey, but still... i want to take photos of the scenery! (even if there isn't any) HAHA! once in a lifetime chance to enter campsite for a girl ok! :) and i can't imagine how my bro would look like when he returns from NS, gonna be so packed, and muscular!! i wonder if they learn drills too :P HAH! but still, gonna be out all day at some weird island, that makes me so high! (:

today was a wasted day, should have went out, or go easter thing... :( my bro didn't go out anyway so it was just my parents and i WALKING in vivocity. i hate walking in a shopping centre, it's not even shopping! it's walking past all possible shops, and just going into giant or departmental stores?? walao! i wanted to buy clothes, but in the end only bought clothes HANGERS home:( sad! i was rather pissed at first, because we were rushing in a shopping centre, i mean, how ironic can that get!! zzz! then my parents decided to stay and let me 'shop' LOL. should have caught a movie with my parents though, it has been ages since my parents sat in a cinema.. maybe because my dad fell asleep at the front row during harry potter and started snoring XD

oh well, i would like to thank my squadmates :) hahaha they are just super... nice. i was so touched when charlene told me, thankyou so much! :) you made my day just like that can! :)

2009-04-09T23:35:00.002+08:00

i'm sorry. i never had the chance to explain to you what exactly happened on that day. i wish i could say it out here, but i can't phrase it in a way that will satisfy my mind. and i understand your feelings. at the very least, you don't have to be like that 24 hours in a day.. for a moment, i thought like you.. but... sometimes, i know if i weren't like this, i wouldn't be me. that leaves me no choice. you have chosen another choice, and i hope this choice makes you happy, because i really want to continue to be your friend. maybe i'm just another passing sarcastic, fake person that will never be imprinted in your mind, but you won't be just a passing person to me. also, there are people around you, if you look closely.

2009-04-06T20:29:00.002+08:00

A GREAT, FABULOUS, WONDERFUL, (INSERT YOUR HAPPY EMOTIONAL LANGUAGE) PERFORMANCE BY THE RVSJAB TEAMS(; YOU HAVE DONE ALL OF RVSJ PROUD.

OMG. I haven't updated for.. 6 days? gosh. i was heavily addicted to studying, and i was sticking my head into the book every night. for now, i can take a deep breath, finally. biology sucks big time; it drains my head dry, and chemistry sucks even more, and i can't believe i had two major tests today =__=

no matter, i shall start my rants from.. 1st april 2009

APRIL FOOLS! HAHA! but it wasn't such an april's fools after all... at first, we wanted to put dustbin at the top and everything, but in the end it failed because it was an old idea from year 2008, oh well.. in the end i lost my passion for april fools, and instead did nothing bah. everything was just a normal day until...

class leader investiture. gosh, i still can remember how bloody hot it was under the "limelight" LOL. the stupid stage had no fans, so i was sort of dying under the heat! mind you, i was sitting directly below the stage lights! i was like sweating like no one's business, and eve too (LOL. she sweat everywhere, all the time!) then oh well, everything went well, my worries were not needed at all. i was perfectly keeping my equilibrium! XD didn't fall at all, but when i went up my class shouted "MEIMEI!" and i bet my face was all contorted when i shook hands with cks!! AHHHH! i was super embarrassed, lucky my class was sitting in front, because the people behind couldn't hear xD

went for training, then went home. was waiting for the bus, and couldn't find my wallet, so i ran back to school to find it! LOL. edwardmak was there at the bus stop, and i was like rushing back, and he was like O.O when i said "oh, i'm going to school to find my wallet" xD

i guess that was all for that day, i think...

2nd April 2009

it was pulau semakau! XD hahaha! i was rather high at first then didn;t get so high after all :(

there was siyi guanlin micole jiayi yulu l.simin elisa alicia shinfung jiele kenghwee chuye yinshiuan xD 14 of us!

then we went on the boat and siyi gl micole chuye kenghwee yinshiuan and i went into the VIP cabin! woohoo! XD hahahaha, with mr zong and nck HAHA. in the end a lot of idiotic things happened, one example..

chuye and micole were discussing sth about the houses at sentosa

chuye: each house will cost like 3 mill! (million)

me: huh.. three meals? 三餐？

wow, you should have seen micole and chuye's face of utmost sian diao LOL! i was like laughing when i realised it was million!

captain edward was awesome! he was damn, damn funny, to the max! LOL he cracked very funny jokes at the presentation and made us laugh like siao can! LOL. HAHA. however, due to some... complications, HAHA, was only laughing half-heartedly!

then the tour on the bus was emo. i was sitting alone, so i started taking pictures of the scenery, and then i realised that the scenery there is totally awesome seriously! then took a few pictures and stuff then got on the bus

went back to singapore again! XD HAHA. forgot what happened le!

3rd April 2009

the highlight was definitely bio test. i gave up studying at the end because i was drained, and i dont wanna study le! but in the end bio test was quite okay (:

4th april 2009

there is no other word to describe this day as victorious

LALKC - i told you, you can do it! all those worries were for nothing(: i could see your effort in your first aid and everything, you'all were so fierce and could see your want-to-win face! (: your intensive trainings have paid off(; you deserve the champ trophy for sure~

MZKXS - (: even though you didn't get champ, but still, i'm happy you did your best during the comp:) a lot of things doesn't need a trophy to show the effort during the comp itself (:

EZSKC - you did fabulous! congrats to your champ! (: your trainings have paid off! you did your best, and it showed through your actions too (:

CWWJY - xD HAHA! slackers in unisons? no, it was a fabulous foot drill session(: all of us were seriously O.O at your foot drill, it was super impressive ok! (: best leader:D HAHAH.

got commissioner badge too, but was like o.O when the others stood up and shouted "yes sir" and march there! charlene and i were going crazy while the ma'ams laughed :( LOL!

after that went to jurong point, but had to leave because my mom wanted me home by 10, so i left super early, sorry peeps! ):

5th April 2009

was a mugging day! LOL. chemistry completely killed me at night, siyi called me and we both were planning to go PSA building because we were suicidal

LOL!

today was just... a day.. LOL. it was so weird to have nowhere to go in the morning. eve was complaining because i kept walking around aimlessly instead of studying! then did nothing actually.then went to sjab room and rearrange trophies with charlene and bl, then rushed for morning assembly~

then go for chemistry test which was rather easy, but i gave up at the last minute so i wasn't sure i can pass. :(

blahblah >.> hahaha spent a lot of time laughing with siyi jasmine guanlin damn funny! XD

after school go talk to eve and charlene, then mug one question then it was math test. walao i still feel damn guilty about it. :( then go sjab room to stone LOL! then go home ~

2009-03-31T21:21:00.002+08:00

"No lor, it will stop at me."

LOL. i still don't get why is this sentence so nice about, jiarong? haha! xD but still, nice sentence? first time i kena quoted by others heh!

ytd was serious mugging day. reached home at 7, bathe, lazed around and everything, and officially started work at 8. took my bio encyclopedia, and i realised it's dusty=i haven't been studying like a student should be. LOL! then i cleaned it, and started mugging biology! (:

oh yeah! ytd morning, there was a dragonfly flying around during morning assembly, then eve and i were laughing our asses off somehow, because like, you can know where the dragonfly is without finding the sihouette, but because everyone were squealing and dodging it, then you can see a "dent" in the crowd where the dragonfly is! LOL. for high people like eve and i ytd, it was damn funny! LOL!

whee. i think i have an excess of dopamine, because i seem to be high one moment and another! ok fine, i'm trying to flaunt my "bio knowledge" here! xD but i mugged bio quite hard, till 12.30a.m. then my dad came to ask me to sleep! LOL. surprise, my dad wants me to sleep early because i'm mugging too hard! LOL. i think he thought i have been studying since 7 or sth =_=

but still, after intensive studying, i only studied nervous system. cheers! LOL. eye is untouched, and i completely hate that table of things to memorise for the parts of the eye. it looks scary -.-

and i decided to slack today, and mug tmr instead. my brain is bursting since ytd night!

made my phone scream P!nk's Sober to remind me it's guanlin's birthday! LOL! then smsed her happy birthday real early hahaha!

today was a quite fun day xD gl's birthday! i went to the bakery and got a cake, then went to school. stupid la, the full-u was obstructing my hands everywhere, and plus my hand was aching by the time i reached school because i used one hand to hold both my full-u and boots! zzzz! but still, it was worth it, hehe! gave it to the auntie in stall 1 to put in fridge~

morning assembly was rather boring as usual, but love talking to eve in front, so fun! LOL. we always are the odd one out, like to cheer when no need cheer and everything! HAHA! then had some class leader thing, then was just stoning i guess. crap, it's tmr. omfg. LOL! *goes into crazy mode*

damnitdamnit. ytd de rehearsal, 2 times rehearse, i tripped over the leg of a stupid chair 2 times!!!! DAMN. i seriously, freaking don't wan it to happen tmr. i'm happy enough trying to keep my legs off each other before they start tripping into some weird unknown objects! urgh. ok. i think if i don't get so scared it will just turn out fine. XD

so maths, then it was PE! XD haha! i ponned PE successfully once again~ talked to nobelle in the midst, and then siyi was damn fast (LOL. ego bah!) - 14.20 minutes! :) good run siyi! damn pro ok! HAHA! jasmine oso not bad, and i'm really glad that both of you improved your timings! (:

then it was recess, and i spent the recess stuffing myself with cakes. LOL! it's gl's cake! XD kena my face with cream though :( LOL. was thinking of stuffing cream on gl's face, but i was still considering living(:

CID was just chatting and everything, since cbh (LOL) came at 1130 instead of 1030 because he was occupied with the Indonesia visitors. then i just knocked out for a while and stuff.. then i started talking again and everything. and i realised something i should have noticed long time ago :(

zzz. i was damn irritated by this person la. =.= damn, damn irritated. seriously, i shouldn't even have stood up la. where the hell did my brain cells go? i could have easily escaped it by chionging it at last minute. in the meantime, i was standing up like some kind of retarded idiot, and got lectured again. somehow this time, i'm definitely pissed.

last few times, i told myself "it's true, i have to work harder" but now, i'm just extremely irritated. check out my organizer, it's filled with "ws 2B tmr! hand up ____ tmr! do this by today!" and those crap. i've been trying to do my hwk like crazy? it seems out of my lazy character to even do half of what i'm doing. i usually don't even do one single hwk at home =.= and my bubble of being hiong is burst. law by law la. whatever. if you can't appreciate it so easily, it's stupid for me to continue being hiong right. i'll just rather be any normal student. and just when i feel more motivated and happy being one, you have to break my happy bubble. seriously, thanks.

okay. i think i sounded super bad, and rebellious, but i really feel our life is a lot more difficult because of this. both eve and i agreed on that. just siting on the swing is being labelled as "why u liddat, because you're a _______" "you have to influence your friends, not your friends influence you" it's plain irritating.

hmmmm. today was cca! LOL. i think i'm getting used to the sec 2s. LOL! they are a very, uh... interesting bunch? LOL! liuqiao and i had so much laughter today! LOL. had bandaging and relay! (: then foot drill saw improvement, so tried to let them learn slow march, which was quite difficult sia! i forgot how i learnt it... i think i just watch other people do, at home just do it when i'm sian, then foot drill comp i somehow got it. LOL!

first aid was... hilarious. no other words to describe it. i think every cca session liddat is gonna be damn fun! LOL.

trivia; timothy was making me laugh with his very weird tying method of elevation or arm sling. LOL. kelvin oso was being... entertaining, yenzhang oso? he was uh... very high. he was practically laughing hysterically, somehow. LOL. yihao was a normal human at the very least until i checked his elevation sling and asked him "what's this" and tugged at this weird piece of cloth, then he tucked it in with a very... weird look on his face. O_O tikou!

LOL. liuqiao and i noticed it, but act like nothing, then we both discussed it and we both cracked up! LOL. liuqiao completely stumbled onto the board! LOL!!!!

HAHAHA! okay, i was damn high. LOL. then foot drill and everything. and yes, i got

the commissioner badge~ LOL. charlene and me! XD haha but the thing is that i think it's super lame to take that badge, to be frank. i think it's so paiseh la... :( but still, i'm gonna pull my ass there that morning!

jiayou LALK! (: you can do it! i realised i haven't been to your trainings lately, missing alot out:( but still, saw your foot drill today, and was damn shuang! HAH! jiayou~

2009-03-29T21:59:00.003+08:00

looking back, i suddenly wonder, how long can this peacefulness last? i said i was happy, but perhaps it was just a disruption to this happy life. i stared at the picture, and wonder if it would make any difference. perhaps i'm just being paranoid, as usual.

edit: i guess this is a sure-sign that I'm definitely over it.
and... my mom don't allow me to watch drama le :( zzzz! i can improve my chinese like that you know! :( gah. if i can't do it legally, i shall do it illegally!

2009-03-29T21:32:00.002+08:00

"I don't wanna be the girl who has to feel the silence...
The quiet scares me 'cause it screams the truth
Please don't tell me that we had that conversation
When I won't remember, save your breath, 'cause what's the use?"
- P!nk, Sober

Wheee! i realised something again: justin timberlake has an awesome voice, and i think he is super super cool! XD perhaps he is the only man on earth who looks hot in a buzzcut

today went to the temple to pray, and prayed till 1, then went to my aunt's house for lunch. i realised my cousin is very lonely ever since he broke up with his gf, and he isn't as cheerful as ever.. usually he won't even bring a book to the temple, and will always chat around and tease people, but this time he brought a book and spent most of his time studying a book.. and he sits alone, away from his bro, but that because his bro is with his gf, but i guess he feels lonely somehow :S sat with my bro while my bro played PSP, i read 佐贺的超级ahma then he didn't really talk, just read his book, then walk away alone, then sit back to read again.. oh well, i'm sure he can recover from it soon(: and he is super shuai, so he definitely can find a human girl that won't break his heart once more, hopefully! (: went to aunt house, and my mom made me so paiseh la! got this chocolate fudge icecream cake, so my cousin (ong senior) gave me, then cause i ate before that and stuff, then my mom kept saying very loud i keep eating all those! WALAO! paiseh la! LOL! ;D

hmmm. comp is this sat, i really hope the teams are ready(: and hopefully my parents won't be guai lan and disallow me to go.. :(

tmr got rehearsal for class leaders. zzzz! i almost forgot about it until eevee reminded me because i tot it was training tmr HAHA! but it's gonna be so boring. and i reeeally hope my 平脚 won't result in some humiliation on wednesday :( i always have phobia of falling in front of an audience sia. i shall walk damn, damn, damn carefully! hate it la!!!! :( damn scared oso.. AIYA. nvr mind, got jiarong, qianhui, eve,munmun, bingle who are experiencing it too~ LOL. good luck everyone!

and yeap, i'm gonna be normal. be normal. be normal. which is being unusually high.. :S

2009-03-28T23:07:00.003+08:00

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG
OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG.
I'M POSITIVELY GOING CRAZY NOW.
wuzun kissed ella! OMG. i duno why i'm so crazy over that, but still >.> LOL! OMG. OMG. i was like O.O LOL!
wheeeee!

2009-03-28T20:48:00.003+08:00

"When I hear your voice
It's drowning in the whispers
It's just skin and bones
There's nothing left to take
And no matter what I do I can't make you feel better
If only I could find the answer
To help me understand"

- Simple Plan, Save you

I'm a sinner. and I really hope it won't turn out weird on monday.

friday was just friday, long lessons! language arts was ok, jiayi bombed me to read this passage, then i had a lot of reading mistakes and everything la! LOL. then i remembered in primary school, i actually can read a whole passage without stumbling much i think. i remembered i had to present in front of some jap people, then there was an translator over there! and i remembered vividly that i forgot my script, and was desperately trying to remember it. wonder if I can do that again...

had chinese gong han, and I flunked it, I think. i was chionging it at the last minute, and i didn't notice that there is a time limit on the board... then last minute almost forgot to write the person's name at the back! LOL. uh.. after that duno what liao la, just a very normal day..

cca was cca bah, took sec 1s, quite interesting o.O LOL. went thru hypervent bah... felt quite bad for not taking sec 2s, but i bet they don't miss me anyway, so who cares xD hope they learnt stuff too today hehe! LOL. i think they did case again or sth like that, so yeah that's great! (: i think i'm like half 1 and 2 uh trainer? or instructor (like what bl said =___=) LOL. but still, happy bah(:

yup. since you told me not to think about it, and be normal, i shall. but it will serve as a lesson in my heart forever.

today:

tuition was TIRING. damnit. LOL. only eve and i go, then i was walking around teaching everyone and stuff. mazlan kept interrupting my conversation with others la, irritating la he! LOL! but he's cute(: LOL. i got to know this girl, because she was doing poems, and it was really fun! the title is flowers, so i asked her what she like about flowers, then i guide her along and stuff! super fun~

at the end didn't really get to talk to ali and adha, cuz got an ACSI guy took them mah, too bad! LOL. but i think ali is really clever, his english quite good(:

after that went to eat at hawker centre and wait for ph and liuqiao, then went to je swimming complex, the very nice, very fun one! OMG. i was like so jealous! couldn't go swim, and didn't bring my swimming suit ): i went with them to change, then go sit there while they had fun for a while, then i left at 2. LOL. walked all the way back to the tuition centre and take 198 again, then before that bought seventeen, so was reading it on the bus till i fell asleep.

OHOH yes. I almost fell off my seat in the bus! you know the seats in 166/97/any double decker old bus, got one aisle, and the seats are aligned next to it right! i was sitting there and sleeping. then the bus swerved, and i flew forward la! omg, i was like damn shocked. then i hold on to the pole, if not i will fly to the opposite seat! and lucky no one was sitting at the back, only a few in front, who were doing their own things. LOL. my heart almost flew out!

HAHA. hana kimi jap version was cute, but somehow i find taiwan version cuter. wasn't used to ella at first, then slowly got ok, and wuzun is so cute! LOL! and tangyuzhe is super cool too! LOL. i am a little crazy over it now~ i understand why jesslyn like wuzun le, he's super cute LOL!

still not over hanayoridango, but i think sooner or later my obsession will subside, hopefully!

and yes, i bought siyi eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeek. LOL. (that was her reaction too ok!) in facebook

wish i can go swim with them la!! next time go with squad(:

ok, i go watch drama liao, cya! :D

2009-03-26T21:57:00.002+08:00

"Baby you're all I want,
when you're lying here in my arms
Finding it hard to believe, we're in heaven."
- DJ Sammy, Heaven

2.4km was just scary, everyone run very fast! lucky i have my mc (holds it up like a shield)

lessons were killing me today, i just wanted to sleep, is that so difficult??!!?!?!?

today was just a slacking day after school! LOL. at first stay back for nothing cuz no training, then i stay back with jesslyn for fun, then charlene stayed for a while then left for home.. then bl come and stayed, and jess bl and i and zhixiang were crapping and talking a bit, then zhixiang left for physics test (?) then just keep talking blahblahblah! i copied a lot of stuff though from bl, bio(just 5 words) and 3 pages worth of maths! OMG. HAHA. i shall flaunt it tmr(:

and in the end went out of school with jess bl adam who came out from AEM, but i took my dad's car to see a doc. but my dad come at 645, then we left the school at 530? yeah! then i walk to bus stop with them, then wait for 97, then walk off and met fatty sharon, then go wait for her dad's car with her, then i walk to main gate to stone, and emo! LOL. i was like listening to my mp3, and stoning, occasionally playing my phone! then i left for the bus stop because my left leg started aching, then i just sat there and read QINGNIANWENZHAI. can you believe it?? LOL!

then my dad came and took me to see doc, and doc is as usual useless. cannot do a single shit about my leg anyway, so i just took the mc and left, and it was free MUAHAHA. if it's like this, i can have mc forever la, just renew yearly! LALA. the doc kept insisting that i see a specialist, and i remembered that my mom was the one who rejected the MRA for me.

then had dinner, but my stomach was aching because of my p_____ then i just had some weird chicken grilled, then just go NTUC buy eggs and stuff (due to my bro's requests) then go walk around aimlessly, and my bro kept sneezing and saying "fatso" under his breath while sneezing! lol! noob! LOL. then my dad still go check out some hawker centre while the rest of us slack in the car... then finally get home at 9 plus!! what the! then i bathe everything and come out discuss CID for about 10 minutes then everyone left le :( haha! PI finally can send liao, even though i was hoping i could edit everything...

omg. code geass is fabulous. the song tracks are just great! (:

and yes. i'm craving for something to do! no games, no nothing. :(

and yes, i'm not too over it.

): HAHA! cya~

2009-03-25T21:59:00.002+08:00

"Do you catch a breath when I look at you,
or are you holding back, like the way I do? "

-David Archeluta, Crush<3

GAH. gl made me super crazy over CRUSH. i know it was a over song, but i found out about the lyrics, and immediately fell in love with it again!! i always thought it was "are you holding back like the way you do" and found it stupid, and was lazy to check it out! now i realised, OMG. i'm totally crazy over it! ok, it just keeps playing in my head, but maybe that's just because gl keeps singing it in class :D

yesterday basically was just a normal day? cca was just rather tired. i was super tired, i couldn't concentrate and stuff, and i got irritated by those who didn't put in effort, because it was so obvious! but didn't make them go crazy with running because i'm tired, they're tired, and it's not right. (you get what i mean) and talked to them, and in the end decided to just forget it, i didn't know what to do because my head wasn't functioning. then had a simple test and stuff... lol! was rather screwed up but still, i quite impressed with the sec 2s. yep...

ONE funny thing was that ph came, and she wanted to scold them because they were super slack, then she counted down "5...4...3...2..." these 4 syllables all went off tune somehow, and the funniest part of it was that at 3, she cupped her mouth, and was holding her own throat like she trying to strangle herself, which was damn, damn, damn funny!! another funny thing was that xm and yen were watching because suddenly ph shout mah, then all of us heard and started chortling! lq and i went crazy LOL!

today the new zealand girl sat beside me! (: i talked to her just a bit, but was quite awkward most of the time, since i have nothing in the world to talk to her about! and yulu introduced me as "meimei", bash you up la! and i realised, newzealanders have super beautiful eyes, blue eyes! and i think she's very clever! like dl was teaching math, sets, and she have never learnt it before, but she nods at his words, and copies down notes super dilligently! not only that, i was at first thinking she was just copying from the board, then i peeked and realised she made notes! OMG. i mean if i were her, and i knew nothing about that subject or topic, i most probably will just turn into stone there, instead of understanding without basic knowledge!

then it was recess and stuff, ate rice again lala! then it was just uh.. chemistry. LOL. eve didn't come to school so i qi li and xing li myself, and it went well because i was on the 100% alert ok! :D but then language arts i died, i fell asleep, and i refused to wake myself up LOL! but woke up at the last few moments to say qili and xingli xD

PDP was.... okay.. i think it was funnier than usual because nck is being retarded! LOL! he was talking halfway then he just suddenly made a very weird noise, just random la! LOL! we laughed a lot, and we kept teasing him xD (ok not kept, but a little)

after school went to pasir panjang to do CID, and watched this musical thing. super cool! the kids there are very energetic oso! :D after that took 963 back with jiarong and was super worn out, then when got off i fell asleep and woke up at the interchange! and i reached home at 8... lol! two times in a row liao!

2009-03-23T23:03:00.002+08:00

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

2009-03-23T21:36:00.004+08:00

"Accipere quam facere praestat injuriam."
To suffer an injustice is better than to do another an injustice.

whee! changed blogskin! (: LOL. direct reaction to lihui's tag HAHA!

and i'm telling you, i hate it when i get very tired. i lose things, i forget things, and the worst, i forget that i lose things LOL. like my STUPID. STUPID. belt. =.= i'm sick of it pestering me, and i have no idea what's gonna happen tmr. and yes, there's pe tmr, i forgot to get my long term mc from the doc. if this goes on, tkc is gonna force my ass into that sit and reach station!! ok mental note: see doc asap. and okay, i shall run 7 rounds for my stupid belt (:

first day of the term once more~ i can say it's a quite ok start, though i got scolded a lot of times today because siyi was going so high and crazy! :( i very kelian right xD HAHA! wonder if she will see this and kill me hahaha! but still, fun day la, i can ignore her and be entertained

chemistry was hell. going thru the practical work was terrible, i wasn't able to see the words on the board. but according to ng "as long as you understand the essence" but still, i need words to phrase them out right correct! and i always dread practicals still, as usual.. everytime i think of practical, i feel like stuffing myself into some anti-glassware mechanism or sth, because everytime i enter the lab, it means destruction for lim! i still quite pity her, though she's always entertained. LOL.

lang arts was quite okay. in fact i think i'm starting to like the way mr hor teaches; i mean, if he stands in front of the class, and expect everyone to give comments and everything, i can sort of bet no one would respond cuz it's just very weird to start jumping up and shouting answers out! so he goes from table to table, individual to individual, and it definitely helps to let me express myself! though i get distracted and stuff, when he comes back to us, i will just get back onto the tracks! (:

recess was just plain eating LOL. what else to do during recess? XD i'm not going to diet or what, it's horrendous, and i hate that growling feeling of my stomach, makes me very frustrated! especially this morning going to school, i kept groaning that i was hungry! and cherie was eating her homemade beehoon, yinshan her morning bread:( FRUSTRATING!

chinese was just ok.. i think lessons are rather interesting actually. the problem is i forgot what happened during chinese today, i only remember glh and her black shirt talking at the front of the class but no sound, cause i can't remember the content :S

geography was uh. speechless. i can't understand anything, because apparently, ckc isn't going on about anything meaningful =.= i don't understand how he can jump from some random news, to work, then stray off again! sometimes i fall asleep, and wake up to realise he is on the exact same thing because he went off track!

math was ok, i was trying to calm siyi down, then dl was like damn irritated with me because i was very noisy :D LOL. most of time i was staring at him, with siyi talking, and i listen to her, but just put my sight there LOL.

biology was light, because according to tsy, it's first day of the term! HAPPY~ just went through practical. again practical :(

okay. since jiarong gave me the challenge to spread LOVE around, i shall spread my love too~

NUMBER ONE; you've have beside me ever since the week of school even though we have separated in some ways. and i still can remember how we met; i fell on you! but still, it has been 4 years, and looking back, we haven't even fell out before. ok minor misunderstandings here and there (2 i counted) but it didn't affect anything at all(: and i never say it, but i enjoy those long chats too, and i really appreciate the way you share things with me first-hand, even though i'm sure i'm not as share-y as you. and yes, we have almost the same personality, and yes, we are perhaps the only two around who can coordinate at such level, having reactions, having inner thinking almost identical! it has been really interesting how we both can suddenly think about this thing, and when one of us mention it, we gasp and realise that is exactly what the other has been thinking about. i deeply appreciated everything we have walked past, and i really hope that this will last forever and ever. and you are my number one(;

NUMBER TWO; you've been beside me for 4 years, but we officially knew each other well for 3 years(: you're a keen listening ear, and talking to you always impacts me(: i think it had been such a long time since i opened my heart out and talked this much. the most amazing thing is that everytime i tell you something, you will always, somehow, make me feel better. telling you things is second nature to me because i know i trust you more than the majority of everyone(: and you will always be there in my heart, because you are such a huge impact on my life! and always, i love to hear your voice while trying to comfort me. i love you(:

NUMBER THREE; you have been there for me these two years(: if not for you, i definitely won't even know how to handle anything. our personalities are different, but always, our different personalities put our friendship even closer(; we have laughed together, and we've always looked out for each other. i perhaps have never shown appreciation to you, but everytime you scold me and everything, i do listen, and i do reflect. i'm sorry i always bring trouble to you'all, but you never harbor any hard feelings(: you can be said as my motherly figures in place of the real one, because i know i can count on you about every single detail. for that, i thank you, and i love you(:

NUMBER FOUR; you have been with me 4 years, but it has perhaps been 2 years since we got closer(: i love the way we always cheer each other up, and make each other's lives happier than it really should have been. because of you, i look forward cca even more, and i always crap and insult you, but you should know by now that i'm just killing myself doing that :O as always, everytime we laugh till our stomachs hurt, i always feel happy, high, and everything. a sad day can be made into a happy day because of your presence. i want to cheer you up in future too, and i love you(:

NUMBER FIVE; 4 years together, i can say i have never been a vital part of this. but i can always remember the fun times we had together. how we insult each other, and make each other laugh will always be etched in my mind, because i have never felt such bonds amongst such a big group of people(: you're the reason why i turn up for trainings, because i don't want to let you down, and i don't want to lose this feeling of bond. somehow, we always listen to each other, and you have been with me in the ups and downs of this puny life. and i will definitely, definitely have a reason to cry once we leave, because of you. i love you(:

NUMBER SIX; you've been part of this life since primary two. thinking through it, i haven't been exactly the best friend, the best person. knowing that both of us are imperfect is always a comfort, and everytime this msn window pops up, i feel like i can say everything out, and that makes me happy. i still remember calling you doctor, because you always give me a great talk, and at the end of it when i go to sleep, i feel as if my burden has been removed. i hope it has been the same for you, but i'm also really sorry i hardly notice your presence in msn, being preoccupied 99% of the time. thankyou for always taking time off to talk to me, even though i'm sure your life is experiencing downs and ups too. like how i depend on you, i want you to depend on me too, put some burden back onto me(: and i love you(:

to each and every person who i love, i want to apologize for being such a stupid and clueless person all the time. i know you're irritated with me at such times, but i want to let you know, i will try to improve. i will try to be more alert, because i don't want to cause inconvenience to you(:

2009-03-22T20:13:00.002+08:00

(: yesterday was a rather fun day in the morning hehe!

saturday, 21/03/09
had tuitioning, and i got to know this pair of twins, ali and adha! XD
they both look exactly the same, and they wear the same shirt and shorts too!! moreover, they have like, the same shoes, same hairstyle, same skin tone, same face... everything same la! i was shocked when they come in, cuz i was very early thanks to mazlan!!

he sms me tell me come early, in the end he himself late 20 minutes! LOL! but i was stoning, cuz only got this uh, ACSI guy stoning, and a few boys i dunno, and they seemed to be entertaining themselves. then ali and adha came in and i was like O.O OMG! are you twins? i asked (quite obvious, but it's just a greeting!) then they nodded, so i decided to teach them since they looked lost, should be their first few times in that tuition bah? yeah lor. so i taught them english...

at 10.10a.m. mazlan called me and ask me where is the centre?! what the?! LOL. i was thinking omg, dementia at this age arh? then i went out to fetch him, but actually he was right outside the centre, just he pushed at the door that wrote "PULL" then he thought it's the wrong centre =.= LOL. he damn cute la!
so i taught mazlan and the twins = 3 people! then there was this boy who walk in, then he started grinning at me for no reason, so i was o.O back at him, then he started laughing in some hysterical voice that made me totally shocked! in the end he got taught by some guy LOL. i was like thinking uh, you siao? i almost wanted to say out, but it's rude xD

then teach teach teach. then i realised mazlan's hwk was actually just checking 20 words in the dictionary! LOL. piece of cake right! so i left him alone to do his own hwk for a while! after half an hour i went back, he was still on the first word!!! then i was like walao, let me check for you la! LOL. i checked the first word and went thru with him how to use a dictionary, which was weird, cuz i dun remember learning these stuff sia! then i left him alone again to do! then i taught the twins comprehension cloze, which was super fun, because you can put any word into the blank as long as it makes sense what!

then went back and realised he is stuck on his third word so i helped him again, and he was very amazed how fast i could find HEH. (felt super cool!) then he in the end made me find all the words, tell him which page, then he copy. LOL. and i owe him one bubble tea, with the twins, cause i promised them(:

today only eve and i went tuitioning :( HAHA! but still, i will continue! LOL. sharon and lq don't want go liao, i think its super early la, then quite tiring, especially when your kid is super distracted, and naughty (e.g. lq's one, who is super bad, or sharon's who is super aggressive) yeah lor...

after tuition, i went to eat with eve, at the hawker centre opposite the tuition centre! at first just wandered around, then we found out two things:
1. the swimming complex is so near!!! OMG. the slides, and the wave pool all those! a definite swim next sat sia! (:
2. Chinese garden mrt is very near also! no need to take bus and waste money to get to mrt station!

then eve ate the kuey, then i ate roti prata. was quite full but not shuang, so we walk around again to find food! then we ate rojak! and eve ate the half-boiled egg! :S HAHA. super nice la! XD
then took 99 and eve lent me her papers for me to photocopy, cuz all my hwk under my table! then i took 99 go interchange...

LOL. eve told me to find what opposite, got void deck then got one with printing service lalala! then i was like ok! then i lost my way at the interchange, and i walked around aimlessly for one hour without a clue where i was, cuz i was deep inside this HDB area LOL! then i walk out, then i suddenly noticed some small houses at the clementi central there! then i was like SHIT i was so dumb LOL.

so i walk quickly there, and i realised the shop eve mentioned only provide printing FOR PHOTOS. LOL. i was like standing outside for a while wondering where is the photocopying machine, then the shop was quite busy, then the guy was like oso wondering why i stone at the shop so long. then i asked "got photocopy service?" then the guy was like "uh no. only photos" LOL. i was so embarrassed la! then i walked around aimlessly for 2 minutes or so, then i noticed a photo booth again, then i was crossing my fingers got photocopy service, then in the end got! :D HAHA! in the end the shop i was supposed to be looking for was super near the bus stop actually, and i made one whole big round around the central xD then i wanted to walk back to interchange, and i realised i dunno how to walk there, then i was like trying to trace my footsteps again, then i walked into mrt, go down the other side, and i saw it!
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BUT IT WAS RAINING. and i had no umbrella, so i walk back to the bus stop to take a bus to the interchange! 45 cents wasted! =____=
then i took 99 again to go back subcentre, cuz eve they all have staff sergeant interview! then on the way i listened to 98.7FM LOL. then eve sms me say their interview finish, then they are going back to bb! then i was like asking her where she was now, cuz if they at subcentre i still can make it! then eve say they board the bus liao!

at that time, 99 was near the JE mrt, and i quickly got down the bus and walk very quickly to the mrt XD walao qianbian la! return a paper go so far! LOL. was quite sian diao and a little bit wet, so i stoned on the mrt until eve call me and say they at bb liao, HAHA and she say sorry cuz i travelled very far lol! but the feeling of a wanderer is so so so damn fun and interesting!

then got down to bb, met eve then we went mac to do hwk... was quite sian cuz i duno how to do the math qn, and i dun feel like doing yet mah, then i left early for home! my mom was quite shocked i reach home earlier than the promised time LOL. i think everytime i say 5 i will reach home at 7 LOL. then watch drama until quite late then my saturday was off~
overall, it was an interesting day, thanks to those set of papers!

Sunday - 22/03/09
hahaha! today was just an ok day
woke up at 11, then went to eat kway chap~ omg, i feel myself growing pui!
then went home and talked to jiarong on the phone for a LONG time. 1 hour! but it was a happy and satisfying conversation(: both sides got talk a lot about our daily lives and everything(: and wednesdays would be out for me, yay! going cip AGAIN. omg. i want that big hearts award! :D
did a bit of hwk, but cannot finish anything! geography i don't know how to do, math i dunno how to do, chinese under my table LOL. win right? i know!
cya tmr! (; school's reopening!
and yes, i have gotten over it, and i officially feel at my best!

2009-03-20T20:16:00.002+08:00

OMFG. keith urban has a FREAKING sweet voice! believe it or not, his voice totally made me sit up you know! and i may use ^^ sometimes, not too many times though LOL. cuz it is the only emoticon that can describe my feelings right now!!! :S

KEITH URBAN- SWEET THING (explains his sweet voice ^^)

When i picked you up for our first date baby

Well, your pretty blue eyes, they were drivin' me crazy

And the tiny little thought that was so amazing

Is they were lookin at me.

I held open the car door for you then you climbed

Inside and slid on over

To the other side..

i thought my, oh my..

Sweet thing

The moon is high and the night is young

Come on and meet me

In the backyard under the cottonwood tree

It's a good thing and i'm wishin

C'mon sweet thing

Won't you climb on out of your window

While the world is sleepin

Cause you know i need you

And there's no way i'll be leavin

Til we're kissing on the porch swing

Oh my little sweet thing
Yeah i know i'm gonna see you first thing tomorrow

But i just couldn't wait so i had to borrow

Uncle jake's mustang, its his favorite car

And so i can't stay long..

Standin here feeling like a love struck romeo

All i wanna do is hold you close and steal a little

More time, is that such a crime?

Sweet thing

The moon is high and the night is young

Come on and meet me

In the backyard under the cottonwood tree

It's a good thing and i'm wishin

C'mon sweet thing

Won't you climb on out of your window

While the world is sleepin

Cause you know i need you

And there's no way i'll be leavin

Til we're kissing on the porch swing

Oh my little sweet thing
Sweet thing, sweet thing..
Oh my sweet thing

The moon is high and the night is young

Come on and meet meIn the backyard under the cottonwood tree

It's a good thing and tell me i'm not dreamin

C'mon sweet thing

Won't you climb on out of your window

While the world is sleepin

Cause you know i need you

And there's no way i'll be leavin

Til we're kissing on the porch swing

Oh my little sweet thing

Oh cmon sweet thing, sweet thing, sweet thing..

Yeah, cmon now a little now..

Do do do do doo do do do do do do

Oh my little sweet thing, yes you are

Do do do do doo do do do do do do

i'm sorry for the weird spacing, i dunno what happened! but those words i underlined are those words i totally love his voice in. somehow he sounded super cute xDDD

HAHA. anyway, today wanted to do hwk, then in the end i couldn't because all my hwk under my desk in school!! :O LOL.

and seriously, i think i'm losing all reason... :(

2009-03-19T22:34:00.002+08:00

i wanted to change blogskin AGAIN. but thankfully, i couldn't find any that has abstract words, or a nice background to put hidden words, or decent sized words, or a background that fits in with my tagboard (since i can't change the tagboard's color), so hahaa! no change for this month then (:

suddenly i realised it's stupid of me to think so much, and it's always the best to think this much, it tires my ass out, and i definitely don't feel like doing that again! talking to others definitely helps a lot(; and i really hoped i didn't ps people today, i feel as if my day was wasted...

AH. I WISH SCHOOL CAN OPEN SOONER. I'M ROTTING. I'M ROTTING. I'M ROTTING INSIDE OUT!

2009-03-19T21:21:00.002+08:00

AHHH! david archeluta is super cool! he has an awesome voice!

DAVID ARCHELUTA - A LITTLE NOT TOO OVER YOU
It never crossed my mind at all
It's what I tell myself
What we had has come and gone
You're better off with someone else.
It's for the best, I know it is.
But I see you
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside,
And I turn around.
You're with him now.
I just can't figure it out.

Tell me why you're so hard to forget
Don't remind me, I'm not over it
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you
Not over you....

Memories, supposed to fade
What's wrong with my heart?
Shake it off, let it go
Didn't think it'd be this hard
Should be strong, movin' on
But I see you.

Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside
And I turn around,
You're with him now
I just can't figure it out

Tell me why you're so hard to forget
Don't remind me, I'm not over it
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

Maybe I regret everything I said,
No way to take it all back, yeah...
Now I'm on my own..
How I let you go,
I'll never understand
I'll never understand, yeah,
oohh..

Tell me why you're so hard to forget
Don't remind me, I'm not over it
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you
Tell me why you're so hard to forget
Don't remind me, I'm not over it
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth
And I really don't know what to do
I'm just a little too not over you
Not over you, oohhh..

OMG. this song is seriously nice. (: i heard it once from 98.7 and found it somewhat like David Archeluta's voice, then i saw it at the top of the charts! :D
i realised the holidays are almost over, just imagine! only about...3 more days or so? crap, all my worksheets are still under my table! :(
wednesday. which is yesterday, i went to school for training, and i handed up ws 2D XD a load off my mind la! then training continued and stuff, i was having a weird head, like it weighs more than it should then i was casualty thrice for estherzeng's team, the second time they spent some time at the CPR dummy, so i fell asleep!! OMG. i'm so sorry LOL! was a little shocked when they patted me LOL! HAHA!
somehow lihui was laughing her head off when i was replying kialuck's question...
flashback:
kl: hey, are you lactose-intolerant?
me: ?! who's lactose-intolerant?
LOL. ok maybe i sounded like i'm refering lactose-intolerant as a name, but i wasn't!! i was meaning like "who is lactose-intolerant?!" LOL. yup LOL.
played some bmt, and i missed playing bmt with siyi gl and jasmine sia XD especially singles with siyi, can sweat out a lot sia!
then went to queensway for lunch, laksa, then went back for training...
then at the end everyone played bmt in the field, so i stoned in the canteen, and i fell asleep! XD i was sitting on the bench, leaning on the railings! (: whee!
went home on 57, and i fell asleep again! LOL. then took 275 and fell asleep AGAIN. LOL i almost missed my bus, i was almost falling over then i realised i was passing the loop near my house la!
then i went home, sat in the shower for half an hour! i set the heat to maximum so my body doesn't feel that the water is cold la! so i sat there so the water can warm me up a little, then i went to sleep in my blanket~
at about 8? i went for dinner, i forgot what i ate...
12a.m. my mom woke me up to go into bedroom, i sat up, and stood up, and i fell back onto the sofa, then my mom was like O.O LOL! then she touched my forehead, and say i got fever. i just "ok...." then my mom go get some panadol, and i went to sleep again in my bedroom!

this morning 6a.m. my mother wake me up and tell me dont go training liao, and i was only half awake, so i went back to sleep LOL. and the next time i woke up was about 10-11? then realised my fever better liao, then my bro went out and i slacked xDDDDD no la, i went to study biology can! dendrons, dendrites, Central nervous system, peripheral nervous system etc etc....

2009-03-17T22:44:00.002+08:00

hmmmm! today talked a bit about UG camp, and i realised i was really damn bad, go scold my platoon so so so so so much! :P but in the end, i hope the secondary ones did do their best to shout or sth (which i doubt, with the exception of kevin perhaps)
oh ya kevin! he was a very good example of a sec one that improved! first day he was still blur blur, and he was the flagbearer! :O but soon after that he picked right up, and he was one of the most constant repliers of the sec ones in the platoon, perhaps more than some sec 2s, i duno! sometimes i say sth, i don't expect replies, but he always stuns me by replying! sometimes even his seniors too engrossed with other things, but he will lead the replying! OMG. keep it up kevin! (: i was very proud of him! and he was in my combined UG camp group! hahaha and everytime i talk to him he will talk to me really respectfully, until i myself feel uncomfortable! and the group mates still 'wah so hiong?" hahaha! but i was really proud of him, seriously! he can be said as one of the best improvers i have seen so far in my platoon!
the seniors wise, they lead well, shout loudly, and everything(: at some times, they will be very tired then will forget to shout, but it isn't their fault. the juniors should take initiative and not expect seniors to SPOONFEED them LOL. this is to make sure i didn't make the same mistake again and again lol! xD but still, good job everyone in my platoon, even though i kept scolding you people, but i hope you people can understand that i didn't love doing that, if you saw my face everytime i scold you! i only scold when it's unbearable e.g. people not shouting, people shutting up when i'm standing right beside them, etc etc! all of you hopefully improved on your self-discipline after UG camp, because frankly, i'm expecting you too! LOL xD especially secondary ones! jiayou, just shout your heart out, it can be fun at times!

camp i/c wise all damn good, i doubt i can do that last time! luckily i was never the camp i/c or sth la, if not i will drown myself in the pits of hell, and then kill myself again and stuff. i won't be able to lead so effectively la! (: good job!
throughout this camp i think everyone showed great leadership, and improvements in some! effort i see a lot, so i was very satisfied hehe! (: and sharon was right, being a senior and watching is different from those in the squads shouting~

oh wait. why am i talking about this now? LOL okay, i think i'm extremely high now because i finished watching hana yori dango the japanese version, and i'm totally going crazy agaiN! LOL! omg la. in the end it was tsukushi and tsukasa, not my favourite guy, but still somehow i love them nevertheless! AHHHH! XD HAHA!
today rushed to school, then rushed home again :S

somehow, is it just me being paranoid, or......?
it's not only happening there. it's happening even here. just not that obvious yet...

2009-03-17T00:03:00.002+08:00

whee finished hana yori dango returns, watching the movie liao~

2009-03-16T21:05:00.003+08:00

yay, back from UG camp! (:
had a half great time lor xD
day 1 was ok, though it must be hellish for the cadets, i hated running with bags! HAHA! but the night trail was screwed like hell! at night stayed up and i had an adrenaline rush XDDDD slept for 45 minutes, a serious knockout!
day 2 was rather bad, very tired, and it was a whole day leh! hike was ok, i kept pestering xueli about the platoon's attendance! slept for about 45 minutes too!
day 3 was bad, because some things i wanted to scold nvr scold very uncomfortable xD captains' ball a.k.a netball was quite funny but short :( went home and collapsed, ignoring my mom's pestering about packing my bags out MUAHAHA!

think that the seniors in this camp showed a lot of leadership, especially camp i/c and can see a lot of volunteers and stuff.. and i wanted to scold juniors cuz they rely on seniors in the end scold wrongly and kena laughed at by everyone, and i was super, super, super embarrassed la! angry facade drop off LOL and 'spoonfooding'. hate to scold like that cuz later will get very agitated then will say sth wrong, it's not the first time already la!!! =.= AHHHHHH! :S
i think i scolded like super much la, poor blues :( actually poor sec 1s, i kept arrowing them
thankyou for your comments(: (no sarcasm intended) at least we know why and how already, not kept in the dark... but some things must see from our POV, it's not what you think at times.
edit: we didn't intend to sound like that, but in the end it sounded wrong ):

this week all trainings :( sian! but tmr going out with dad and mom :S dunno whether can attend talk sia!

2009-03-11T21:48:00.004+08:00

today got back GPA and stuff... i was actually quite shocked at it, so i was quite ok with it in the end lor
oh ya! lemme upload photos! ok before that i shall update;
today was rather tired, but still a little bit of happy bah! i told siyi why i so happy le HAHAHA! yeah i'm a flowery idiot -_- oh yeah i was doing maths and stuff then i just put my head on my arm, then i stared at the questions, then suddenly, my pen fell off my hands, and i fell asleep!! :O LOL. omg the first time sleeping in maths sia! (i slept quite obvious too) my eyelids were drooping like siao, then i slept dreamlessly for quite long leh OMG. until my phone vibrated and woke me up xD
then it was recess and i ate wanton mee again! but i'm getting sick of it liao hahaha! and milo is nice! (:
then it was chemistry practical and YES. i didn't break anything at all! yay! hahaha! in fact i was so careful can! the practical was easy, so i did it very fast so spent the rest of the time doing the practical book xD
then it was lang arts! i didn't sleep~ hahaha! i think? we were doing some olympic crossword puzzle, so it was quite fun throughout LOL! i was like looking at this W_T_R so for some reaosn the first word to appear in my head was "WINTER" so i was like omg this one is winter! then siyi was like, WATER la! the question was _____ polo mah! then siyi was damn loud saying "WHAT WINTER POLO LA" walao then got people laugh la! paiseh sia :X
then it was pdp, give back GPA lalala. so in the end i got 3.0, and i was quite ok la! then after that was career talk, i didn't really listen hard, was writing notes, but caught quite some important details!
oh yes. so after school had briefing then i went to vivo with lq to find eve and ph! then found them in giant hahaha! then went around buying things, then in the end we had 2 trolleys sia!!

yay we were on the escalator~

eman and amin! the cute brothers peering over a 'spot the difference' book!

my beloved MAZLAN~~ :)

me and him! i;m wearing some o piang shirt la!

HAHAH. we were resting while taking photos!

A photo i took with qiao quite some time ago, it's in my phone! i liek this photo, if not for the lighting!

yeap.. a lot of things!

hahahaha i look retarded but a nice photo!

2009-03-10T21:45:00.002+08:00

hmm hmm. i was in high spirits today somehow, and i couldn't stop talking and crapping and talking crap xD
aiyo, even munmun is getting her downs ): cheer up everyone! smiling is the best facelift!

and reading her blog reminded me of how weird i was in secondary one. ok, maybe i'm much weirder now, more spastic, more crappy and stuff xD but still, i realised everyone is growing up and facing a lot in life, and somehow i'm not LOL. i mean of course i did grow up, but somehow my mind is stationary at this point whereby the world is perfect. ok this is because i refuse to budge from this position because if my world turns into darkness, i think i won't survive being a cynical person! I hate thinking too much, trying to figure out what everyone around me is thinking about.

ok i do budge from that position at times because i'm emo. when i say emo, it's serious emo, not just being quiet, it means trouble for people around me. e.g. siyi gl jasmine LOL.

just imagine how many times i lost control of this stupid idiotic pessimistic thing called emotions in front of them, how many times i had to scold myself, and kill myself emotionally to try to make up for those mistakes. -_________-

over here, i want to apologize to people who witnessed the most down part of my secondary school life so far, and even got dragged into it somehow. i think i had been so unstable, i can't even believe myself, just bursting out, then regretting it and stuff. the best part is, i can't even remember how come my emotions went out of control. i usually can take things into my stride, but it's just so many times that i completely lost control and fumed. it's a wonder how my friends could stand me when i myself look back and want to kill myself

so yep, i'm sorry...........!

LOL! ok back to happy mood!
sunday went to jack's place to dine to celebrate my bro's results LOL. :S i was rather ok la, didn't emo since i was happy i could eat too! i had ribeye! don't worry, just be envious xD
monday was just a monday hahaha! after school stay back for training, but in the end liuqiao and i go pei eve xD (wait, it's eve cheng PEI ying! LOL lame sorry)
and before that it was just eve adam bl me in sjab room lor. then the sec 2 were training, the sec 3 dancing hahaha! (feel like dancing with y4rvsj:( )
i was patient for first case with AIDS. LOL! i was like emoing over dying and stuff, reminded me of lim once

we were talking about sth then i was like
me: aiya.. each person only live 80 years, one day oso will die one, early die or late die no difference one...
lim: uh! why you so emo arh!! (LOL it's the way she said it i think)

i burst out laughing ok! and xiao hua the patient (a.k.a. me) was super emo, and kept saying "why are you here for, just leave me to die la.. AIDS confirm die one..." HAHAHA! i was having quite a good time sia wheeee! then just after that stoned around siansian... then just watch the sec twos do dressing blahblah.. then liuqiao came and i started slacking liao xD

today:
as i said before, i was in high spirits HAHA! i think i know the reason now liao xD HAHAHA!
math was just math, leaking my brain fluids through my ears and trying to struggle between my extremely high mood, and my growling stomach (HEY i didn't have breakfast ok! and my dinner sucked)
then badminton! YES. i love bmt like crap ok! i mean i'm happy when playing it, especially when i was playing singles since i totally suck hopelessly at doubles because i really cannot coordinate with people, like different wavelengths can! plus i miss like 50% more in doubles than singles!! but today didn't play much la, at first still can play with gl one, then tkc made me go find plastic shuttle, then i just went around finding people, then in the end the plastic shuttle was in the hall -__- LAME! so my recess kena skipped oso xD
so CID i was rather dead, no i was VERY dead. LOL. i think bmt keeps my spirits up one hour then the next i just fall dead >.> had some presentations and stuff, then i spent the last 15 minutes sleeping peacefully finally! my stomach was growling and there was sth painful too
then bought roti prata to eat, and went back to class. then i realised it's my muscles bah, maybe stretch or sth! cuz it only hurts at some angle!
chemistry was doing chem ws! HAHA! i like doing chem ws in class now, a lot of time to chat, and still can learn a lot you know! i do one question must refer the notes like crazy, i'm like totally hopeless without notes! then siyi was just studying and studying so can do notes easily then i was like just not taking notice at first... then i decided to see where she reading, then i saw her drawing her trademark cow and chinese words, so i was like o.O LOL!
afer that was chinese! chinese quite fun, did some character test, and realised i'm same kind as quite a lot of people in the class! and LOL, i forgot what my character is supposed to be -_-

hmmhmm. then it was CCA. and cheer for me, i lost my belt AGAIN. somehow, i keep getting the feeling it's somewhere waiting for me to get it again, not like i lost it or sth! LOL. what the hell la! then in the end i took charlene's belt to use, since she had to leave early anyway hahaha! adjust a lot >.> LOL. i think bl's right, i'm losing my items like every term LOL. last year he found my skirt (i duno how to spell that cu-locks thing) 3 times? LOL. what the la! i have the tendency to leave things lying around, so if my belt is in sjab room, i shall be a happy kid and take it back(duh!)

then i took the secondary ones, and i had quite a good time. at first was rather strict, then slowly i got crappy again, and there's sth wrong with my ears again today, especially like i can't hear things 3 meters away or sth like that? what the! LOL. i embarrassed myself a million times today LOL! taught them PT, which is rather interesting, i don't remember learning it on paper at all i think! then allowed them to play wacko, then we had quite some laughs! then it was Q&A for UG camp, to prepare them mentally in case they plan to take it like sec one orientation camp liddat! first aid for a while, then last parade le bah!

after that just did a little bit of drill then go back sjab room le bah! LOL i wanted to learn new drills but someone dont want teach then anything lor -_-
then crapped a bit bah, it went like uh
someone started it i wonder who;
someone: phyllis is stupid, so if you wanna say something is stupid, just say it's phyllis!
so stupid adam wrote on the board

phyllis : (N) a stupid person
(ADJ) being stupid
so they can like go eve you are being phyllis! -__- HAHAHA! LAME LA!
major ZZZZZ! and i'm getting cheeked by ADAM GOH which is seriously insulting! HAHA! joking la! xD
so i retaliated by saying adam means scarecrow, and adj means very thin HAHAHA!
so we started making our names into words in our imaginary dictionaries...

jesslyn: (N) darkness
(ADJ) very black;very dark

xinmun: (N) pandemonium
(ADJ) to describe one being crazy and spastic

eve: (N) nothingless. LOL. (seeing how i can't see her when we both are standing)
(ADJ) very short

bl : (N) a sucky person (?)
(ADJ) being sucky (?)
this one is made by mada, i have no idea where's the link, but okay.....

yen: (N) clever person
(ADJ) being clever?!?!?! LOL!
yen i think maybe motherly fits in too LOL

WHEEE! i was like high? LOL! then i waited with all of them for jesslyn's father's car, then i took bus home! listened to flavor of life throughout the bus trip, and finally don't feel so high liao woah, horrible man. LOL!
then went home kena scolded! HAHA told you no matter what time i still kena scolded one what!

and i chionged finish chemistry ws!!! OMG. i'm damn happy! :)
tmr maybe running, or not bah! i very tired :(

2009-03-09T23:20:00.002+08:00

GAHHHHH! hana yori dango returns!! :OOO

HANAZAWA RUI is freaking cool and shuai and cute and sweet and nice and &*()*)(*(&(^*&
hahahahah! (add your positive, emotive comments) xDDD
OMG. >.> LOL. i just can't imagine hana yori dango in real life, i will like seriously sit at one side and be a nice standby asshole who put rui and makino tgt!!! ok i like Domouji too :S

"When you say thank you to me,

for some reason it hurts,

Like a magic spell that doesn't

get undone even after the good bye.

the faintly burning pain.

The flavor of life

Neither friends nor lovers, in uncertain terms

like an un-riped fruit dreaming about the day of harvest

because of being unable to just move one more step forward

It's just so frustrating

When you say thank you to me,for some reason it hurts,

Like a magic spell that doesn't

get undone even after the good bye.

the faintly burning pain.

The flavor of life

Sweet talk and tasteless conversations.

i have no interest in them

even when things do not go the way I want them

you make me believe that there is still something in life

When asked "whats wrong"

I answer "its nothing"

The smile that disappears after goodbye

I'm not like myself anymore

The more i wish to believe in you,

For some reason it hurts even more

"i like you" instead of "i love you" is more like the person I knew

the flavor of life

I wish I could cherish the white color of the falling snow like I used to

by the time I would remember the scent of the person

I've nearly forgotten

A future tender and warmer than a diamond

i want to grasp it, in this limited time we have,

i want to live it with you

when you say thank you to me,

for some reason it hurts,

Like a magic spell that doesn't

get undone even after the good bye.

the faintly burning pain.

The flavor of life "

WHEE. it's such a nice song though it has been so long xDDDDD

2009-03-08T17:43:00.002+08:00

hmmmm! saturday was a total screwed day in the morning! went to school earlier under the pretence of seeing a teacher, when i just wanted to mug last minute for KOTO
oh anyway KOTO is some test about jerusalem and sjab's history which goes back all the way to AD 600! and i totally cannot remember dates, and here they give me extremely linkless dates :(
and koto itself was rather ok, a lot of repeats, and ALOT of typo! and thanks sharon for attempting to recap with me some info, even though you knew i was looking at the answers!
so tried to study in the canteen but the band playing really nice music then i kept stopping to listen sia! hahaha! distracted a little lor. but in the end got on the bus and gave up studying la! xD
but the test itself was alright la, but i dunno if i passed or not -.-
then after that went to eat and stuff with the juniors LOL. we went all about and cannot find the burger king LOL! and found out more about something while finding that burger king which is sth i have expected quite long time ago
so we settled on this shop to eat. so charlene annies me ate with william chiunyuan and junbo LOL! it was damn funny because the guys were damn, damn crappy and lame la! hahaha but it was entertaining nevertheless! then jesslyn yen xinmun bl adam came and then we went for training(:
at first was rather emo and sad, then it got better and i even got a little high xD
then there was this ppt thing with GORY pictures. gosh, i was like covering my eyes like crazy? it reminded me of final destrination 3, it completely killed me xD
then went for dinner and shopped for some stuff lalala. went home, and slept really early, but woke up again to eat, then sms jiele and dingrong happy birthday, then i went back to sleep xDDD

2009-03-06T22:06:00.002+08:00

congrats bro, you got all As. and now it's my turn, isn't it? damn you. =.=
i'm just not as clever as him, is that just so hard to accept? it's not as if i have the same IQ as him. it's just because i was born from the same womb that i must undergo such comparison. i really look forward to tuesday, when i get the report card.

2009-03-06T21:17:00.002+08:00

blah,blah~
lol, i screwed geography and chinese up haha~ and i haven't study for KOTO yet, and the test is tmr?
ytd went to queue and again, got cut off LOL. qianbian like siao can! LOL. then ran 4 rounds, and thankfully i didn't stop omg! i mean it's a first step mah, then i can slowly increase the speed somehow, then i'll not be last! and i realised a lot of things is linked with endurance. like i was feeling rather bad for those 4 rounds, but i just pushed on and told myself if i stopped i won't start! whee!
okay then on thursday went out with jiarong jasmine qianhui zijun!!! OMFG. it has been forever since we went out, because i kept saying i can't can't go, and jasmine oso busy, then it's like it has never been a full clique outing! xD i wished we could stay longer though, can get high mah... :(
then i went home, gonna take bus then i realised i lost my wallet, so i CHIOOOONG all the way to ben&jerry to get my wallet again =.= LOL! the nanhua people were quite nice leh xD they nvr take my wallet~
so i found it and went home!
today was a tired day. i was a zombie going to school, and i fell asleep (knocked out) on the bus LOL! my biological alarm clock woke me up in time sia! then blah....
lessons damn tiring today leh! lang arts was ok, i didn't sleep, and i did dialects, which was canto la, then i was quite proud of myself! then recess (eat roti prata AGAIN) then it was chinese... i got c LOL. i seriously think my mom will screw me la LOL...
then it was geography. shit i knocked out for the whole lesson sia! crap, i was trying to keep my eyes open, but i failed and i fell asleep!! :O LOL. then it was math which was ok because got hands on at the very least.. then it was biology practical LOL. siyi lim and i did only a bit, and no time liao! LOL.
then cca - sec one orientation
was quite messy, but it turned out ok i think, not too sure. had a lot of time to stone and play other games xD
then after that went for dinner with my parents and here i am at home! xD

sometimes i really hope everyone had the same sentiments as me. and sometimes i'm really scared it won't work out. we both have different schedules, so in the end it's all a misunderstanding, but who will listen first?

2009-03-04T23:30:00.002+08:00

zzzzzzzzzzz. saw someone's blog, and am rather irritable now. =.= hahaha, as usual >.>

2009-03-04T22:17:00.002+08:00

ytd glh made us do this funny funny thing about friends. so there are basically 4 kinds of friends:
1. only tells happy things to people, keeps the sadness to oneself
2. only tell sad things, drown in sorrow, and will thus recover fast (?)
3. tells everything, and expects people to tell them everything too
4. original, and will not be swayed by people, can comfort and cheer people up easily (:

ok to be frank i think it's rather crappy xD hahaha! seriously, i mean not everyone falls within these boundaries, and there are some things people rather keep to themselves, while others people can tell what, it's not like everything can be classified under "things" because sometimes there are other reasons! and i think i'm more of the 3rd type, but i really, really don't expect people to tell me things. i mean, i will ask, but won't keep bugging la, just respect privacy de lah! so there ;D

i realised chinese lessons are getting a little more fun, with the fill in the correct word game, and the thrashing of girls over boys (ratio 26: 5) and how we scream to get the correct answer, and occasionally retarded answers popping out from nowhere!
e.g.
glh said the word starts with a xian
so i said "八仙过海" -_-
and,
glh once gave a ting xie, and she said shan dong (fanning?)
i wrote "山洞" and when she asked us to make a sentence with it i wrote "山洞里有一只老虎"
LOL even though i knew it was wrong from the beginning, i retardedly continued with it!

LOL! i still find the shan dong one stupid and lame! xD
anyway, my running spree is getting strong! ytd i ran 4 rounds with siyi and jasmine (running about one on my own) and had bmt in the afternoon which i sweat like siao because i was playing with siyi who has a super fast reaction!
today ran in the morning for squad morning run, in the end only pnghang eve bl adam turned up and me la! the rest say want come never come... so i just ran with eve lor, and eve's speed is NOT my speed, definitely. i always end up last in my class, and eve is in the fit group? yup. maybe eve was slowing down throughout xD but yeah, i wasn't really dead beat at the end, very lazy, and sth funny is wrong with my right ankle (i think i sprained it minorly since one pt session) and bleh tmr's 2.4 plus 2.4 (morning run and pe) i will just die in pe, it's first period fyi LOL!

hmmmm first thing in the morning a lot of us went to QUEUE for this funny eportfolio thing for our parents. and the thing is that the queue is so long, it was from lt2 to the laboratory, and the queue still made a u-turn! LOL. we were walking there, then i was wondering huh why so many people? then i saw nobelle they all walking to the labs, so i was like "OI! wrong side!" then nobelle was like -.- "uh, that's the queue" LOL.
oh yeah math was just math. everything was just numbers and everything, and i kept getting stupid integration wrong. luckily i have a math pro sitting beside me to help me out
recess i ate roti prata again with sugar. SHIT. i really love roti prata + sugar!! but.... :(
then it was chem practical! LOL... lim damn ke lian can. i broke a beaker today, and eve was like asking me 'hey how many things have you broken?" LOL. i think this year i broke 2 test tubes with a beaker (: LOL. mr ng was like -.- and rather pek chek :O
LOL. i kept dropping things today and i was like warning lim to keep glassware away from me because those things will be the next on the ground! haha!
then it was lang arts, quite fun, the video again, and i think mr hor's lessons are quite interesting too! (what's left is geography if you realised :S)
then it was assembly LOL. it was total sjab question session? LOL. the lecturer called jesslyn to answer question, then jesslyn called adam since the answerer can sabo others (from other class) LOL then adam sabo bl, and bl sabo me LOL. i wasn't even listening to the lecturer can, and the answer was rather stupid LOL because the question was so obvious. so i sabo liuqiao:D at first i was thinking sharon or charlene but their classes already called so too bad :D
then went back class and we didn't do emotional rollercoaster. instead we did feedback session to mr ng. i didn't really write bad stuff, i hope i sounded friendly and nice, because i don't want to hurt his feelings like siao. plus i think it's sad we kept comparing him to chua tung kian LOL. so i just suggested for him to adopt his own character into teaching, like his style, and put his character through teaching oso. i think it's easier for us to accept him like that (:
then it was training, and i realised i was so exhausted. i was practically falling asleep everywhere, and i almost knock out in the classroom when everyone leaving! if they nvr call me i might be still sleeping in that classroom? LOL (exaggeration)
then it was a lot about AED, and i think it's pretty cool! hahaha! oh yeah because i was slacking and bored, i took a pole and did martial arts with liuqiao LOL! (i wonder why we started from round 3 instead of 1) HAHAHA! we laughed like siao. and i tried to look like a blind person and lq and charlene laughed like siao, because i was cork eyed LOL!
sth's wrong with my msn, so i had to use windows messenger ;'( LOL! hmm, tmr going out with clique!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D omg. i'm so looking forward to it (:
and vietnam, i'm afraid i can't see you! :(

2009-03-02T21:32:00.002+08:00

it's so damn interesting to read blogs with such fantastic way of blogging

an excerpt from http://chasingcenturies.blogspot.com
"I have never hated a book more than I hate Frankenstein. It's the book that WILL NOT DIE. I mean I hated Stand Alone but at least that was easy to skim through, and it didn't have letters and different modes of communication and three narrative modes that all sound like they come from the SAME DAMN CHARACTER, nor did it have 5 paragraphs of scenic description of ~sublime~ waterfalls and rivers, followed by 4 paragraphs of Victor Frankenstein orgasming over his own frenzied emotional conflict, followed by 1 paragraph of ACTUAL PLOT-MOVING INFORMATION, and it definitely didn't have laughably clumsy introduction of background information; like what the hell, Elizabeth? "Oh Victor, you probably forgot how Justine joined our household even though you were LIVING WITH US AT THE TIME, so let me go into detail as to exactly how we adopted her into our family, in a way that is totally not a blatantly obvious and lazy method of revealing key information to the reader. So YAH. THIS IS WHAT HAPPENED: _______. Remember??"

And also, when a huge 8-foot-tall murderous monster is running towards you at superhuman speed, WHO STANDS THERE AND EXCLAIMS 'Devil, do you dare approach me? and do not you fear the fierce vengeance of my arm wreaked on your miserable head? Begone, vile insect!"What? WHAT?! Shut up, Walton Victor The Creature Mary Shelley. I don't even know who's narrating what any more."

I laughed like crazy reading this thing because it's so funny. i mean, reading frankenstein definitely didn't give me such inspirations to crack a joke out of it! it's rather tragic to me (even though i always wondered how a monster writes in perfect english) i wish i could get timothy's way of writing, or this chasingcenturies' writing, or nobelle's friend literacy. it makes blogging so much more fun! i remember nobelle's friend blogging about twit, and it was so funny, i laughed out loud when i read it with nobelle can!

anyway i'm rather crazy over latin phrases now (:
A posse ad esse , from possibility to actuality! my new favourite phrase, and anyway
i realised that alter ego is a latin phrase and now, it's sort of english? cool!
tmr morning running, wednesday try to run, thursday run again. wow, nice slimming method!

2009-03-02T20:42:00.002+08:00

hmm, i never thought my life as a drama, but it certainly is starting to resemble one. you know those kind of drama, the stupid people never get a rest from the problems in their respective lives? LOL. i'm experiencing that right now ! @ # $ % ^ &* ( ) _
aiya, no matter what i just live my life to the fullest (like what char said) and not emo over this kind of unchangable seem-imaginary-but-may-not-be-so-imaginary stuff (though i can't say the same if i get it as a fact)
no more yawns, no more sweets, no more freaking glucose for god's sake! and i ate roti prata with sugar today, i'm practically stabbing myself right now right? and this kind of life is rather sad, no sweets :(
grandma had a hard time while she passed on, so i dun want that for myself either ):
today was a relatively ok day, i mean everything's fine, just myself thinking and worrying constantly... chemistry was just doing chemistry ws, so i can slack because i have already done it! omg la! i felt so shuang ok! lang arts was watching videos, and i was relating it to amin and mazlan (let's leave out syafiq cause he broke my pen -_-)and talking and talking to jasmine while guanlin slept and siyi was doing maths i think.. then it was recess with the killer of a food roti prata with sugar 0.O
then it was chinese, just did some funny thing about love. 真爱是______? then mine was so long, i so paiseh can! because frankly i oso duno, i just crapped those book contents -_- and we got the 红楼梦 book! i can't really wait to read it; it's super cool according to siyi, and love novels are super cool in chinese because sometimes chinese can express feelings better than english xD
then it was geography. i got a C5/6 in geography overall, and i'm really upset over it. i mean it wasn't really bad... but it's my parents' expectations of me which kills me like hell, they said no more Cs in my report card. and for once i tot i can get away with a moderate B for lang arts finally when i'm not failing it, geography comes along to screw my report card up -_- i can't wait for the report card LOL!
then biology copy notes like siao, and end of school! then did hwk with eve and charlene in the canteen while the guys went to see the flag painting, then liuqiao and jesslyn and pnghang came along (: LOL.
i was broadcasting about my deadness and charlene&liuqiao can still laugh! o.O i think only eve, jesslyn and bl took it seriously LOL! liuqiao and charlene took it seriously when i finally look dead xD
vietnam i hope we can all stay in singapore instead, have fun with our own schedule la! (: but just a thinking, maybe i can be a otaku too over the holidays!
then went home, and talked about some stuff to seniors. either way, i'm still not very glad la, but can sort and thrash out is good!
went home and lied to my mom i reached home at 5, when i reached home at 6, and my bro didn't hear because he was playing computer! hahaha i can't wait for thursday either zj, i'm serious! had a great time talking to you at the tracks(:

2009-02-28T22:41:00.002+08:00

YES! i finished almost all the homework i can remember!! XD
i have decided to do my best for these two weeks, and for the whole year if possible. finish all homework! (:
oh friday was quite fun, after cca, somehow it feels like holidays again xD
saturday was tiring!! i didn't go for breakfast with the rest, and i left early la! so in short, i didn't really have any contact with them la! but the happy thing is i was tutoring amin, and iman, and in the process i got to know a pair of brothers~ haha! we were like reading this 'spot the difference' book and was having a lot of fun can!! hahaha! and amin kept telling me he is top scorer for his school hahaha! then he told me he duno what school to go, and he thinks he cmi because he is in the worst class. so i sort of lied to him, saying got people in the last class who got top scorer xDDD and he believed me and decided to work hard! (i wonder is it bad or good)
after the thing, i went home straight,and i reached home at 1 o.O damn early can! so i did homework, and read harry potter (: i realised harry potter is a nice series!
ok i shall update some other day, and geography test coming back on monday. i have a huge feeling i won't do as well as i hope ):

2009-02-26T22:03:00.002+08:00

hmm, i think i haven't been keeping myself in check, that's why i'm constantly quarrelling with everyone around me

ok, somehow, i shall try to be less irritable... and more 'happy', since jiarong and zijun both says i look sian diao, dao, and emoish. :D

today finally got to talk to zj in the morning. omg la.. i'm really, really happy i got to talk to her!! i mean, it has been almost a month since we really talked! i was really so happy ok(: and zj, it's not your fault, so chill. it's mine ok! dont steal my line XD

training today was rather fun! LOL. ali has a great figure! o.O hahaha! linda too xD
i'm scared. i'm really, really scared. i don't want to feel like that.

2009-02-25T22:14:00.003+08:00

oh anyway,

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY SHARON FAT OW! xD

muahahha!
ytd was a relatively fun day! i shall not talk too much about the planning, but yeah -_-
ytd after cca, i called my mother, and then she scolded me and made me promise to reach home by 830, even though i know it's actually impossible. (it was 630 that time) we acted as if we had to leave for home, but then rush to vivo to buy presents, and get a quick 'dinner' (old chang kee) SQUID HEAD FRITTER IS SUPER NICE! (:
then we took 166 to sharon ow's house LOL
on the bus i called sharon, on the pretense of asking if she wants her parents to go UG camp watch. LOL, even though i already knew her answer without asking xD it was to confirm she was at her house!
then we got off one bus stop late thanks to eve -_- hahaha! nobody trust me can, i know the way one hor! hahaha! okay, then we walk, walk, walk to her house.. and took the lift up!
then we rang her door bell, and sharon ow's door open revealing sharon ow the fatty! and we shouted 'HAPPY BIRTHDAY!' hahaha! and gave her presents. she was like speechless? and we took photos, then i smiled at the wrong camera o.O
then i was rushing for time because it was 820 le, so i totally was waiting for the bus, praying it would come faster! then the others at first wanna cross the road, then in the end took 166 with me to dover then they alight (: thankyou (even though it's not for me XD)
then i was rushing home, smsing cherie loh 'hey don't be surprised if i end up knocking on your door" HAHAHA! then i reach home, my mother refused to open the door, so i stood outside waiting.
then my bro came home. he was like 'huh, what you doing?!' then i was like 'oh, mummy don't let me in' then my bro go knock the door very loudly shouting 'mummy it's me!' then my mom oso refuse to open door, then my bro knocked until like DAMN loud shouting 'OI!!' (LOLLLL), then my mom then open HAHAHA! then my dad oso came back, and my mom said 'don't you dare come in' to me. so i obediently stood outside for one hour, sat down at my door step for 2 hours xD i would have walked away if not for my stupid hp no batt. i didn't want them to like go crazy when i go missing and unreachable (see i'm sensible!)
and yep 12a.m. my dad open door, saying that it's very hurting to the reputation of our family with me sitting outside. actually no difference one la, i already sat outside for 3 hours, most of the neighbours saw me liao! then my mom talked to me with a cane (literally) she was holding the cane, and talking to me. LOL. all i hope now is that her illness isn't worsened (prays)

today:
was a depressing, and emoish day in the morning.
mr ng was talking to me privately, and telling me that the teachers all complain about me, and think that i shouldn't be a chair, because i'm not up to it. no hwk handed up, all those taboo stuff for a model student, i did them religiously =.= so i'm given 2 weeks to show myself.
so i was thinking maybe i should just give up, and tell mr ng choose someone else. but the look on eve's face when i broke the news to her shook my belief LOL. it was O.O. i guess it's the same for me if whatever happened to me happened to her (somehow..), i would be damn worried, because i can work with eve very well and imagining about how we cope and coordinate with another person is rather difficult because we see so much of one another. so i decided to try to be a good kid. (try.)
somehow, i'm tired, even without trying and when i haven't been trying too hard till now, because i feel a little stressed. but phyllis seah says no to giving up, so GANBETTE! (:

LOL congrats to bl to join the chair gang again, and in the case i get kicked out, have fun with eve and munmun! xD HAHAHA!
today training was quite emoish too. and we decided on some stuff...
yep i reached home late, yet my mom didn't scold me....?! LOL. i duno what's she thinking, but i think she trying to apologize for locking me out, so yeah. but in return i won't go training tmr :)

2009-02-23T20:51:00.002+08:00

friday 20 february 2009:
4J sang birthday song for eevee! hahaha the first time i said "1,2,3" for the singing leh! HAHA!
didn't go cca, but went to visit balloons instead. in the end i was having a smelly shirt, and a headache when i went home! eve drooled a lot xD

Saturday 21 february 2009:
it was eve and zhiliang's birthday! and it's internal mock comp!
reached school at 815 and go arrange tables blah blah, then i realised i didn't give my card and food to LALK! so i gave it to them in the waiting room -___-
LALK did really well (: was getting really happy over the results xDDD nursing and long case was happy happy~
the juniors did really great too ;) their effort is seriously very very very li hai!
all the teams pro!
after the thing we sang birthday song for eve for the second time le (class gt sing once mah)

after that took 97 to je interchange charlene,jesslyn,xm,yen,eve,pnghang,bingle,adam,chiunyuan and me!
the bus ride was rather stony at the end, because i lost steam hehe! then we reached je and jess,char,eve,ph,chiunyuan n me went to imm (for some reason, i'm frequenting that place like crazy) while the rest went for AED course (feel bad) and went mos burger. then we kept trying to entertain chiunyuan who was the only guy, and the only junior amongst us. ;D
so we kept firing questions at him and we keep waiting for his answer because he will look up, ponder, and then give us a very neutral answer

for example,
me: cy arh, are you happy with today's comp?
cy: *looks up* *ponders* hai hao la...
major -__________________- for everyone!
charlene: oi, no more hai hao la ok!
me: do you like your trainers?
cy: *looks up* *ponders* ok bah..
=____________________=

HAHAHHA! it was quite funny at this point of time:
me: omg, it's the first time i'm here at mos burger you know!
oh no, 这是我的第一次leh... (tries to sound biantai)
cy gave a very disgusted look that everyone laughed at!!

then stoned around, because everyone were tired, and went home le lor.. so tired can! xD

22 february 2009:
i was wondering how i survived waking up that day =__= and i woke up late, so i rushed over to commonwealth without my breakfast. in the end i reached at 7.45a.m. and i was so damn early o.O so i bought some funny funny egg tart and ate it (it crumbled before i could eat it :( )
then i realised the whole guys' team + reserve reach damn early can! so i sat with shijing and stoned....
then a fat pig came over a.k.a. sharon hahaha! i felt her fat aura when she left her house xD
then more and more people came lor..
so we went to the center, and then we went into our different duties!
ivan was xtremely funny. he put me incharge of the "video room" in the end i only brought them to the room only what! hahaha!
then we went downstairs for the ceremony and stuff le!
eve and i were at first stoning around, because we realised we don't have much to do xD
so we went to get balloons, and we showed off to the pd ppl (who wore full u, so sad) aka yen jess adam and bl xD then yen wanted the balloon, so eve and i set off to get another balloon!
then during the ceremony there was this event when a balloonman was on stage, and he was fabulously cool! he made daffy duck, bugs bunny, tweety bird from just balloons you know!!

OMG. then the most important thing happened. the balloonman came down stage, and he asked this girl beside me whether she wanna go up. but i think the girl very scared or maybe got a little... uhh, disorder, so she don't want la.. then the balloonman (with a whistle in his mouth) he counted to 3 with his fingers, and with one Beeeeeeeeep, he pulled me on stage O.O ok he pulled me, i staggered forwards, so i went up on stage xD
eve liuqiao ph were so envious lorrrrr MUAHAHAHA! lihui, felicia, and linda oso lor HAHA!
so i just watched him in action lor, it was super weird because i dunno what kind of facial expression i should have mah! so i just stoned (giving appropiate faces at appropiate times) and then was very embarrassing at this part the balloonman he reached into his pocket, and stare at me. so i stared back at him puzzled, and i was reminded forcibly of mr chan somehow, then he suddenly took out the white balloon and shook it in front of me. WALAO. i was like totally shocked!!! (so paiseh, my shocked face is super unglam!) then i so paiseh, lihui they all and eve they all all laughface was super OMGOMGOMG! hahahaha! then he gave it to me, then i went down lor. then ph and liuqiao told me that the girl who was supposed to go up was staring at me la! wth!

so in the end i got an elmo. according to eve, when i realised it was an elmo my with this longing look in her eyes lor. so i gave the elmo i braved humiliation to her! xDDDD

i was at first rather sad la, 'cause i really wanted a balloon ever since that balloonman started performing mah.. then i gave it to her lor. even though i know i would regret it like hell if i didn't give it to her, i still quite sad la! then towards the end of the opening ceremony, i realised the elmo wasn't the prettiest balloon around (perhaps tweety?) so i just nvr mind le lor!
then after that ivan made us do crowd control and stuff..and it was quite boring at first, then it got more interesting le lor!
hahaha i oso caused lq's balloon to fly away hahahahha, her baby face was damn funny!
after that went west mall bb for a while then go home.. then my mom totally scolded me lor.. so i'm grounded xD

today:
it was a relatively happy day, because i wasn't extremely tired, even though i fell asleep in geography and was all groggy for math test....
i bought economical noodles to school!! wheeee! and i was quite full for lessons!! hahahaha!
chemistry test was back, and i am actually quite ok with the results, even though it's a B4?
lang arts was interesting because of toto-chan! i remembered how mrs tay in primary school would read a chapter of toto chan everyday, until one day when she forgot about it HAHA!
recess was just a lot of delivering, no eating i think (since i ate the economical mee!)
then chinese and everything. it was just corrections for the zuo wen, but i was really, really very upset with something else glh wrote to me on my ting xie paper, even though i didn't really say it out, or look like it
she wrote like "jiamei, this is the first year you're chairperson, is this why you have no time to finish your homework? you have to listen in class, and be a responsible chairperson. then you can lead 4J."
i was damn guilty and sad when i read it once when i got it, twice when i just glanced at it, and thrice when i was walking home. sometimes i think to myself about how irresponsible i'm, how unqualified i'm, and how much trouble i always bring to others thanks to my own stupidity, especially eve and people who i rely on. so many times in class, i'm the noisest, and by the way people look at me, i know i'm not a role model, perhaps just there for show. i'm controlling myself little by little, i really am. i'm really very sorry to those who had to always remind me to keep quiet, or help me out in every single situation. i know i'm a useless freak who can't manage things without others and hopefully i can tame myself.

oh anyway, in case you're wondering why i decided to rant here, it's because the other blog is cmi, i can't post in it for nuts!
hmm after school went home straight because my mom grounded me (see above)

2009-02-20T21:40:00.002+08:00

omg. mock comp is tmr!

today went to commonwealth again for cip. LOL. balloon stinks like crap, and my head still hurts somehow! and all the balloons damn low quality can! like you pull a little then it break liao! then how to pump?! LOL. and we were having a lot of fun pumping balloons and talking and crapping xDD

a lot of funny things happened, and the games were fun! had a mini dry run and eve was so freaked out by the bursting balloons! XDDDDDD (sadistic)

ok then we left for home.

LOL! i was laughing because eve kept quoting something from lesson and she never fails to ask "were you awake when whoever say sth?" LOL. that shows how much i sleep in class. either i space out, doodle, or sleep. occasionally i listen xD

geography and chinese were screwed like hell. and geography was supposed to be a pushover. i can't believe that my mind block had to happen during such tests. and my stupid assholic mind kept inserting weird words instead of keywords. in the end i forgot how to use 'blanket effect' and i got the currents wrong. the climographs are rather weird too...

chinese was just chinese. i duno how to describe it. it's difficult to an extent, but i was damn worried because i only wrote one page and a half, and siyi wrote so much O.O

oh yeah... tmr is mock comp. and my papers run out, i searched all over the stupid place, and found not even 4 pieces of paper -.- my foolscap ran out too... i dun think they will see this though xD most of my wishes are in the v day messages leh -.- haiz. that's bad!

dear LALK,
jiayou for tmr ok! (: even though i haven't been an active trainer, but i really, really, hope to see your do your best tmr xD all my wishes are in my valentine's day messages sia!!

GAHHHH i shall just type it out, hopefully i can make those messages smaller so they can squeeze into 3 papers :(

2009-02-18T21:51:00.002+08:00

one thing's for sure: I WANT TO DANCE WITH THE SQUAD ONE LAST TIME!

LOL. i still remember how hilarious our stupid dance always turn out (except the cute stephenie sun dance xD) the SuperModel one was HAHAHA, but it's super cool, i think it's super like, interesting, and it looks great! eve's dance was screwed LOL and damn tiring! xDDD
and like always, i laughed at adam and bing le dancing. mada looks like an awful black stick while bing le looks like a hooligan! XD

I realised, i'm a screwed person since i was born. put me into quarantine asap, thankyou.

i'm gonna have a private blog, and put up stuff that i'm confused about, those useless rants that have no conclusion no matter what! and i'm not going to give the URL out. maybe only to one or two, no more than 2 i guess! because useless rants are always the ones that make people sian diao with a blog post, like now

i admit i'm losing passion. and i feel that people around me are losing it twice the speed, twice the intensity. and thanks bl, that post made me wake up slightly, not totally, but just a little xDD i love feeling motivated!

i hate cip like crap man. we're like doing cip stuff for 3 days consectutively can? and it's sickening stupid. oh yeah! this is the cip department:
boss - png hang
General Manager (GM) - eve
Discipline Mistress (DM?!) - liuqiao?!?!
SM (Service manager) - me! xD

HAHA. it was damn hilarious saying "yes boss!" because it reminds me of Mazlan. and it deeply saddens me to realise, i can't see him anymore!

today was a boring day. chemistry practical, screwed again, thank you very much! LOL i got white ppt when it's supposed to be NO ppt LOL!
i went out with jiarong today. like seriously it has been a million years since i went out with her haha! went ikea, met jas and guanlin, bought a lot of hot dogs to eat lalala! talked a lot too hahahaha! i didn't really feel like going home actually, but i had curfew

yay geography test is screwed. why? because i'm blogging now. LOL joking! it's because i can't memorize, my head very woozy, and i get frustrated with myself because i can't get things into my head xD HAHAH. forget it. just let me fail. at least it's not english anymore.

2009-02-16T22:37:00.003+08:00

hahahha a funny thing i saw in Hana Yori Dango:

Even for you, sleep talking is talking when you're sleeping, talking while you're awake is not sleeptalking. So if it is sleeptalking, talking when you're awake is okay too, but if it's not sleeptalking, its talking when you're awake, talking when you're awake, it means not sleeping...

my first reaction was totally O.O LOL. i laughed like hell for this one, because it makes no sense AT ALL. ok first sentence is ok.. but the second was making no sense already!! AHHH. domouji!! :3

2009-02-16T21:41:00.003+08:00

today i told guanlin:
"i'm losing it, i'm not feeling the same anymore." (of course, cutting out a lot of crucial details)
somehow, i hoped, and tried to make that feeling come back. but its no longer the same. every night i thought about it, and i asked myself again and again: what's the point? I'm failing everything. Even a stupid, stupid exercise, i can fail it. gl herself was shocked i said so.

valentine's day was rather fun, in a way! in the morning gt pissed off thanks to someone who say "i duno! i duno!" when i ask for almost a week liao. then go class leader workshop, and sat with qh and jiarong and melvis, and then after a while eve came to join in! :D

the workshop wasn't that useful, but at least not only I am having problems -___-
then after that go see training a bit then left

omg benjamin button is a good show, but i fell asleep twice, because it was too long, and all the classical music are getting to me like shit! LOL. omg la! read sharon's post for more info xD (i lazy)

today was a fun day too xD i like the class a lot better hehe! ;d
was very tired at first and i fell asleep in LA AGAIN. *bangs into the wall* LOL. how many times must i sleep in front of nice mr. hor to make me not as tired! maths was fun not because of a little PMS-ed DL, but because siyi was damn high. but i wanted to sing so much!! :( then she kept scolding me :(

after school ate wanton mee for the second time of the day (recess!) then went to and fro class. then train so little (like nothing), and liuqiao eve ph and me went to cip! ;D
bleah bleah bleah. then it was rather late. so we went to LJS, and ate! LOL ok i didn't eat, but i koped from liuqiao xD hahaha! and we did math. then i realised i can't concentrate in math in front of others!! :O
then another thing happened. 2 boys started shooting ice balls at me (or us). you know, you crush the ice in your slimy mouth, and you take a straw and 'shoot' at your target? you know at first i was wondering huh, why is my arm a little wet? then i turn to my left and i saw the 2 hooligans! wtf! then i was like o.O at first because i was wondering why they shoot at us. then i turn away and continue then they shoot again!!! this time i was irritated so i stared at them. then one boy went "hello, what's your name?" i replied with a rather happy "hi" LOL. ok i admit it, i was stupid xDDDDD
then i was really angry, and i was like glaring at a girl who stood up. they seem to know each other, then she was like "no, no it's not me, it's them." i glared, and said "i know." LOL. how cool!! then the boy tried shooting from different angles, and i stared him down like hell xD
then he left lor, but i didnt know, so i was happily saying "wow, they seem scared by me!" LOL. =.=
then dad came to fetch me and i went home~
through it all, i found a group of friends that share the same belief as me always. I'm very happy to find them; they make my life a lot lot more interesting and everything. but somewhere deep in my heart, i wished the rest were part of it. Everyday is just a vicious cycle, that I get tired, tired, and even more tired. I tell myself it may end someday, but I don't want it to end like this. Ending like this makes my years all wasted. What about those days, those fateful days, when I felt as if things were not impossible. Right now, those are the perfect days I sought to look for. But will they come back? Looking at the photos make me sad. Where are those feelings? As i say i share the same belief, part of me wants to return to the other side. But the rest wants to stay there. No matter what, someday, that few words will be taken away from me, and i cannot stop it.

2009-02-11T22:32:00.003+08:00

HOP, STEP, JUMP!

LOL. sorry for the random opening.
i feel like blogging in eve's style, it's not as time-consuming and it's very neutral xD

today i was very irritable in the morning. I met yinshan and cherie, and cabbed to school because i had to pass a shirt. maybe because i was in a very bad mood, and i hate waiting for taxi at taxi stands, i was very irritable. i went sjab room, passed shirt to bing le and adam. resisted the temptation to shout at adam in the morning when he took the envelope from me. and again, i was irritable, so small things can just get me very angry. bing le asked if i was tired, i guess i was. went back to class to chiong math, and remembered maybe need markers. took markers and walk back to sjab room. in the end, they no need. got irritated again and went back to continue chionging. in the end, i can't finish the math ws and was forced to go for morning assembly. eve came in the morning, and saw how my face looked like when i'm in a bad mood. she didn't really dare to talk much.

miss lai retirement. i was sitting with yinshan and olivia, we were sort of talking. i was excited when my message came up on the ppt. thanks eve. it was 2 pages long, and it represented sjab. found miss lai very pretty when she was in her teenage years. then after that, went back to class for math.

suddenly, i was in a great mood again. siyi was sort of freaked out by me. so studied math, and finished math ws on the way. after that was recess. bought just a few stuff and listened to music while reading newspapers in class. emo.

then after that was chem practical. screwed up again. jodee and limsimin were right, i suck at chem prac. the worst part is, i'm paired up with lim, who isn't good either. i spilled zinc nitrate while measuring 10 cubic centimeters. at the end, i was the last few to clear up again. but spilling wasn't the worst thing that happened to me before. i was putting a boiling tube over the fire, and the bottom flew off, all the contents spilled onto the fire. lim still laughs about it.

went back to class for language arts. fell unconscious while reading the articles. when siyi poked me awake, i was drooling subconsciously. then i went back to sleep until i heard eve's voice. so i said 行礼.

after that went to lt. eve and i were damn flustered and stressed because we have no idea where to go. asked around for clues. glh gave us wrong information, and we entered, exited and entered lt 2. after that i went out and overheard glh wondering out loud to a friend isn't LT 2 for 4A, B, C, D? felt like kicking her. angml is so much more reliable. next time i have to use computer every tuesday. mental note.

sat in the LT with eve, and listened to lecture about total defence. was quite awake, and listened mostly. then eve and i started becoming random and counting the number of "singapore" and "singaporeans" in the text given to us. we counted the number of Os on the ppt slide. we counted the no of words on the ppt slide. we counted the number of tiles on the walls that were perfect squares. we counted the number of chairs that were red in the room. then it was the panel discussion. cheered for edmund and chuye. didn't cheer for anyone else, though clapped hands for junming. laughed at edmund's crap, and chuye's hand gesture at the end. laughed quite hard at weihao's words.

after that listened to 歌访.
gefang is super cool. the singers are great, especially cynthia (since i only saw her performance) she sings very well. she has a nice low voice. watched and listened. then bing le talked to me about something that i cannot remember, then a girl talked to me. i don't know her. she commented about gefang, and i thought about the words sour grapes briefly. got the flyers from dixun and joined jesslyn eve bing le talking. jesslyn told me about si zheng, and i laughed. missed the days in 2L, every discussion can be so funny, and can expect jokes everywhere. felt a teeny weeny sad about it. then bing le started singing all the time. i recommended him to join gefang. he sang a song he claimed as 期待爱, but i didn't recognise it.

went back to class with eve and pnghang to do work at first. but lihui came, so went to for team talk at the swing. found out about quite a few things that shocked me. agreed on a few issues too. suddenly realised the team is really something i can use to spur myself on. then eve came to nag at me to go back for homework.

went back for a while, made pnghang do math for me. jesslyn and bing le came in and we talked briefly. i went to buy stuff. asked yin shiuan whether i was weird yesterday, because he was laughing. realised i was too soft-spoken, and was somehow flattered. i never knew i can be soft. looks like math test won't be counted after all. no wonder mada was moaning about it.

at 5, chuye and alvin came in and they were doing ASK maths. i finished 报章报道 in the canteen, and went to see the stick-ons near the staircase. was extremely happy to see "i will protect rvsj'09, especially y4'09" then saw my own one "i will protect eve and phyllis" and found it a little lesbianic. went to hand up stuff and then accompanied pnghang to see the stick-ons again. then waited for eve, and realised my wallet was missing. i pray that my wallet is not lost. went home with eve and took a crowded bus. almost couldn't get down.

i reached home and started sneezing and feeling horrible. hopefully can feel worse tmr so no need go school. lol, just a joke. i sneezed into my papers, and they were wet. irky. i fell asleep after using the new eye massager for about one to two hours, and i am still feeling tired.

i haven't studied chemistry 60%. i only studied 40. duno what is going to happen tmr. i should have went home early today if not for the hwk i owe everyone.

i don't like how things are like now. nor do i think that friends who always get punished are embarrassing. i feel responsible for it.

2009-02-09T22:36:00.003+08:00

OMG. i really love Eyes on Me~

Faye Wong - Eyes On Me
Whenever sang my songs
On the stage, on my own
Whenever said my words
Wishing they would be heard
I saw you smiling at me
Was it real or just my fantasy
You'd always be there in the corner
Of this tiny little bar

My last night here for you
Same old songs, just once more
My last night here with you?
Maybe yes, maybe no
I kind of liked it your way
How you shyly placed your eyes on me
Oh, did you ever know?
That I had mine on you

Darling, so there you are
With that look on your face
As if you're never hurt
As if you're never down
Shall I be the one for you
Who pinches you softly but sure
If frown is shown then
I will know that you are no dreamer

So let me come to you
Close as I wanted to be
Close enough for me
To feel your heart beating fast
And stay there as I whisper
How I loved your peaceful eyes on me
did you ever know
That I had mine on you

Darling, so share with me
Your love if you have enough
Your tears if your're holding back
Or pain if that's what it is
How can I let you know
I'm more than the dress and the voice
Just reach me out then
You will know that you're not dreaming

Darling, so there you are
With that look on your face
As if you're never hurt
As if you're never down
Shall I be the one for you
Who pinches you softly but sure
If frown is shown then
I will know that you are no dreamer

AHHHH! i duno how long ago i went crazy over this song. perhaps p4? i forgot. but listening to it stirs up a lot of happy emotions, even though it sounds like an emo song ;D HAHA. in fact i think the lyrics are super happy can! i think it's a little mushy though, but whatever! today was a normal day. not too tired, not too awake either. (don't dare to claim myself as tired after seeing eve) but i wasn't a too happy person XD
gl asked me what i want to pray for, and i wanted to wish for something at first. then realised that i should pray a little for myself. then i calm down and thought about it. i realised my life is rather fulfilled, a much better than a lot of people's ones around (at least, that's what i thought, before i got my results back) so i wished for something i'm achieving already. i think it will come true, because i'm already halfway through! JIAYOU.
then i discussed sth with siyi, and i was rather traumatised. LOL! then i was like cannot be one la. then i thought about it, if it was true, i would definitely consider it. i regretted it once because of my indecisiveness, and now, if i were given another chance, i may just go for it. that's what i promised myself as i slowly draw myself away ;D

then sort of got back geography assignment, and i got lowest in class. i did anticipate it before, but i was quite sad actually. so the whole lesson i was stoning, and doodling. I dunno, just disappointed. eve was like shocked. (i mean, i'm not a good student, but just an average person) i dunno, i really hope my geography won't fail me. i placed quite a lot of hopes on it, since it has been a copy and paste subject to me all along. if i fail it this year, i think i will just drop it totally. LOL. ok that's what i plan to do even w/o failing it -___-

then got back math test. 26/30.

DL was totally qianbian la! he was like 'wah, you oso can get 26 arh?" -____- not like i so stupid mah, at least i'm not retarded like how he think i am! :S then i was like a little stoning beside siyi who got full marks.

i'm definitely not suaning anyone. (i know, 26 is a good pass, and an A to top it off) i can't say i worked my ass off for this test, but i know i placed some hopes and work into it. you don't see me doing math work religiously last year under chng, do you? nope. i don't even bother understanding anything in class, because i'm just not bothered to. but here comes sec 4, and i can't slack as much anymore. suddenly, i realised, that even working hard doesn't give me the desired results. i'm worried that i can't promote. ok, sorry, i shouldn't be emoing over an A =.=

arrrggghhhh my bio test is screwed too. consolation: got 5 dollars! :D
then went for training for a moment, then went off for CIP meeting! hahahaha it was damn high on the bus, and xm with us.
we were like randoming calling each other surnames and add "zi" behind. so
eve = cheng zi (orange)
liuqiao = liu zi (idk)
png hang = png zi(idk!)
phyllis = seah(xia) zi (blind man)
xinmun = PHANG ZI(fatty)

HAHAHAHHAHA. i totally burst out laughing and cannot stop at all!!! then xm stamped on our feet (eve and i) and we were like finally feeling the horrible feeling adam and bingle feels every moment with her :( HAHAHHA!
then we laugh again because xm was on the phone so eve said "hi xm's friend, i'm xm's friend!" then she was objecting loudly "it MAKES sense!" when xm stamped on her foot! LMAO!!! i laughed like hell la!! i duno why, my huge laughing moments are always with eve, when she isn't a total joker! LOL! eve laugh until she sweat like hell la! i shook hands with her, and her hands were wet! :O

then we reached commonwealth, and we shopped around in Sheng Siong. LOL! then eve went missing, so we went searching for her. so it went like this:

pnghang: EVE WHERE ARE YOU! (staring intensely at the floor) -incase you didn't notice, we were emphasizing how small she is-
liuqiao: got microscope or not!
me: ohohoh! you see here! (a tiny space) she's here!!

and everyone were like o.O HAHAHA!! damn funny can!then we went for the meeting!
so ivan looks rather different. we were thinking if he was like 80 years old or what, and i was mimicking a way a old man will talk. HAHAHA! then alan came in, and i kept laughing w/o stopping. AND IT WAS A RATHER SMALL COSYROOM!! totally, liuqiao was beside me and i kept vibrating with laughter. LOL! i realised his hair is super centre parting, and it's so hilarious! and i left the room to see eve make a call or sth, then the door stuck to his chair. as i close the door behind me, i saw liuqiao bursting with laughter LOL!
then alan had a private discussion with us and i kept from laughing because of his face! LOL. then liuqiao kept jotting down rebuts to his words, which were quite funny! he was like 'so...the driver of the ambulance are your la!" then liuqiao jot down "HOW CAN WE BE DRIVERS?!"
then we finally finish everything. and left for home!! :D a rather fun day overall! :D

2009-02-08T20:44:00.002+08:00

KYAAAA! IKUTA TOMA!! he is super shuai! OMG! LOL. this is the nicest photo i have of him *_*

hahahahha! mom's birthday was a fiasco, cuz i woke up late, forgot to order birthday cake, and completely forgot to stay up to wish her happy birthday!! :O LOL. but i hope she enjoyed the dinner, i left a lot of food for her (which is unusual for me)

friday was miss lai's retirement, i was a little sian because i flunked bio test. i totally was having a headache, and after that i can't remember the answers i gave for any of the questions, which makes me so scared. maybe i forgot to finish something? sometimes the questions people ask me what answer i have, i oso duno. this is damn scary can? then eve and i did the charade stuff outside sjab room while we dealt with our individual headaches LOL. eve was in a bad mood, so she kept calling me to 'shut up!' :"(

then the concert itself (ok. not so considered as one) was errr.. okay? i duno, i didn't expect much mah.. but i do hope miss lai herself had a little fun (those games were supposed to be brain-teasers, since she's super clever) then the charades part was rather screwed up because nobody was really listening to the game, so yeah.

sat was mom's birthday, then learnt of sth from pnghang, and was damn pissed. i hate people who don't make things clear, and order people around.

then i realised it was CIP training day, and nobody go for sjab!! :O LOL.

at night had dinner, and stuff... then went home, and watch dramas.

OMG!! ikuta toma is super hot! and he is a real life guy, for once!! :O

and he is super funny too, the usual kena-sabo-guy HAHAHA!

honey and clover! then hana yori dango! :D

i realised japanese dramas are better than a lot of drama i've seen, their jokes made me laugh (at least) HAHA!

ok bbbbbbb! and v day is coming, yes zijun! :D HAHAHA!

2009-02-04T20:43:00.002+08:00

mom's birthday is coming, but i have no idea what to buy .... SIAN. i duno what she wants, then if i anyhow buy, also very bad.. (especially when i saved like 200 dollars)

thanks a lot to guanlin and jasmine for the sweet/marshmellow pile on my table(: i'm much better le HAHA. thanks to gl again for counselling me =.=
ytd was badminton! LOL. i realised, i'm worse at doubles than singles. i could play with siyi singles for quite some time, especially when she has a very fast reaction time, but i always screw up at doubles, can't hit, cannot coordinate blah blah -___-
i damn angry this (or yesterday) morning, i woke up late because my mom didn't wake me up. ok she pushed me a little, then she herself went back to sleep =.= what the la! then she scolded me like so much, and still called me "笨猪" in the morning what the la. it's not completely my fault can, and i'm damn tired ok! then i ask my dad to take me to school since i thought cherie got my sms le, and left first. then she scolded me again, and say what i lazy go school then don't go, all those crap. i was so damn angry, i just took my bag and left house la =.=
shit, i keep mixing today and yesterday up -__- i think my mind a little woozy liao LOL.
training la! can't remember anything about it (shit, i'm senile)
then today training laze around then go home le =.= something very "funny" happened today. duno whether i should be angry or not, so i just sian diao LOL.
then went home early because i didn't feel like staying, and saw some bags that i don't want to see. then go buy bouquet blah blah! omg. it's damn ex, 35 dollars leh and it's about the cheapest around???
blah. i have nothing to say. just damn tired.
oh, and 我爱的人 is an emo song, i realised. (maybe tat's why i love this song)