i'm abandoning this blog :)
relink!
http://saystheonewiththegun.blogspot.com/

okay fine, it's sort of noob too, but at least you ain't typing "feelmyheart-cry" which is plain noob!!! zzzzzzz LOL. i decided to change it.... (more details at the new blog)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESSLYN (before i forget again)
stay black, cheerful, and always laughy (?)

and adam lambert's version of no boundaries is pro.

"一个人　眺望碧海和蓝天
在心里面　那抹灰就淡一些
海豚从眼前飞跃
我看见了最阳光的笑脸
好时光都该被宝贝　因为有限
　　　　
我学着不去担心得太远
不计划太多　反而能勇敢冒险
丰富地过每一天　快乐的看每一天
Wooh～
第一次遇见阴天遮住你侧脸
有什么故事好想了解
我感觉我懂你的特别
　　　　　
你的心有一道墙　但我发现一扇窗
偶尔透出一丝暖暖的微光
就算你有一道墙
我的爱会攀上窗台盛放
打开窗你会看到悲伤融化
　　　　
我学着不去担心得太远
不计划太多　反而能勇敢冒险
丰富地过每一天　快乐的看每一天
Wooh～
第一次遇见阴天遮住你侧脸
有什么故事好想了解
我感觉我懂你的特别
　　　　
你的心有一道墙　但我发现一扇窗
偶尔透出一丝暖暖的微光
就算你有一道墙
我的爱会攀上窗台盛放
打开窗你会看到悲伤融化
　　　　　
你的心有一道墙　但我发现一扇窗
偶尔透出一丝暖暖的微光
就算你有一道墙
我的爱会攀上窗台盛放
打开窗你会看到悲伤融化
你会闻到幸福晴朗的芬芳"

- 郭静，心墙

omg. this song is super nice :) the lyrics is very exquisite, and i guess that's what i really appreciate about chinese songs. English songs have probably better beat, and music, but chinese beats english songs in lyrics hands down HAHA. but i'll be sticking with english, there are more varieties/genres of music to choose from? Chinese revolves about the same few melancholy ones i think, or some electronic ones that i cannot stand hahaha (even though i'm sitting down). i can't imagine "I Don't Care" by Fall Out Boy in chinese right? LOL. super weird too. chinese is less rebellious bah? i'm a january person, so i'm rebellious aquarius~ LOLLLL.

something random: isn't it weird about those so-called yearly horoscopes, when experts start talking about the year of the monkey, chicken, dog whatever? i mean, seriously, i used to think its crap, and i still think it is now -.- see, let's say the experts say that the people born in the year of the chicken are getting realllllly bad results, and will suck in studies. and then you think again: wait, isn't everyone in our year included? -.- that's the idiotic part sia, so the whole year 4 will fail tgt because our horoscope 犯太岁? HAHA. the funny part is that i'm born in the year of the monkey! :D

another randomness: birthday horoscopes. i think it's more believable, though still not... that believable -.- LOL. i believe because things seem to work out like that sometimes, but horoscopes are always vague, so believers will probably just relate to it in every single way :X but i think the description of aquarius does describe me and my friend qianhui in ways.. still, i'm not believing :X i believe in self-belief LOLLLL. even if i pray hard for something, in the end i have to work hard for it mah XD gods, to me, are beacons(?) of hope for people who lack self-belief :) like if you don't believe in yourself, believe your god you entrusted your hope to, and you will really work hard for it! really, no offense okay! :X

anyways, i have switched my comp on, for ... 3 consecutive days! damn shocking, i didn't expect myself to be using the comp for the whole of today.. but anyway! i did math like crazy, finished most of the ws, and i think angles really gg la. -.- i should get a good rest today, so tmr won't fall asleep in lessons :) somehow i feel that i'm finally breaking out from the slacking mood already!

FSC KIDSSSS:(

OMGGG. lee min ho is so cute. XDD he fell down hahahahaha! i guess he must be feeling really nervous, but whatever it is, he has seriously, very very very long legs. and thanks to this video, i'm ready to continue watch BOF, and let ftly at one side first (:

anyways, e-learning was hardcore SLACKING. i woke up at 7 plus, then i went back to sleep till 930 before i really woke up and switched the comp on!! :S LOL. i expected myself to be an early bird XDD in the end i was watching FTLY like hell(: till like 5 in the afternoon, then i printed all those important stuff to be done :X HAHA. so i did them on paper lor! CID i just did it :)

i did quite a lot leh! i did.. english, chinese, math a bit but not all, bio duno can do what, chemistry i study liao! :D

wanted to post about sth that happened in february, emo post, but i guess i just have to stop thinking about it? :X

i feel super proud of myself, i didn't sleep at all for the past two daysssssssssss!

okay, that's not too much :X but i'm usually the first few to fall dead onto the table, seriously.. so i think it's a good effort to stay awake.. even during the killer lessons i.e. geography!

mmhmm. hoping to go home early today but i failed terribly HAHAHA. stayed back and ate with jiarong and eve, then eve went to do hwk, and then xinmun came along, and talk talk talk yapyapyap, then xm went to do hwk too, then decided to leave, then eve left with us, then handed up stuff, then....... waiting... LOL. then wait for bus.... AND I MISSED THE FIRST 57!!! thanks arh jiarong HAHAHA. she asked me to wait with her for 963, then in the end 963 was right behind 57!! sian sia. in the end eve left too on 61 left me sitting there stoning and listening to mp4 :) emo kia! :) in the end met bl LOLLLLL at the bus stop. then bus came and faster went up liao, damn long to wait la!!! -.-

i wanna go back to fsc :( miss jack, maiyuan, alicia, nicoles, etc etc... don't wanna give up like how i did with loving hearts, and then regretted it so much.. gahhhh. mazlan!!!! :( i promised him a watch, but in the end i quitted before i could buy and pass it to him.. :( i feel super bad la.. but go back now oso weird liao..

carecorner! i want to go back to carecorner and have CIP dept talks XDDDD damn fun one la :) and i feel like an adult organizing!! :) but we are handing over liao, no point trying to do another CIP right :( aiyo. one year passed by damn fast, felt like ytd we took over and everything. though i didn't do much, but oh well, i will miss sjab in some ways.. and hopefully y4 squad won't split.. i want to go genting with them one leh~ my parents still saying no, but i think it's not that bad la, they probably will tag along :X HAHAHA. so weird. but yeah. maybe i should ask my bro to come along heh heh! but will definitely be weird for me lor. i'm totally different at home and outside.. LOL!

hopefully sjab chalet will be in december heh heh. :) i want midnight cycling!! but again, got people nvr learn or perfected.. -stares at auntie- :( maybe can double bike lor! omg la. midnight cycling will rock, but i must, must, must perfect my biking first HAHAHAHAHAHA. though it's perfect already.. -shrugs-

hahaha. listening to chinese songs to attempt to make myself more china :) but it's a failure so far, i can't identify the songs HAHAHA.

chey la, i tot i was over it. as usual, i can't let go so easily la. -.- jiarong was right, chey.. LOL.

tmr's someone's birthday, dun want say who HAHAHA. see my mood tmr then if got time i blog hahaha! :)

i really, really hope the plan bill isn't coming soon, i don't want to die at such an early age.. then again, i have been saying that since the plan started o_O (----- this emoticon very cute HAHAHA.

i want nobody, nobody but you (clap, clap, clap) :D the song damn addictive HAHA.

edit: i fell asleep during maths. not really fall asleep. i just... dozed off, and leaned against the wall, woke up and saw yijin sniggering HAHAHA!

monday was youth day, the day for youths! and my parents had to work hahaha! looks like i will need to suffer that same fate someday soon :(

anyway, went ice skating with squad. OMG. it was a horrible/enriching/embarrassing day! LOLL. when i got into the ice skating rink, i fell after like, 5 minutes or so? shit la and plus people pull me down, and my legs slipped again! so paiseh :b but anyway, the ice floor was totally, like what sharon said, frictionless!! seriously when you're gonna fall, it felt like your legs are going haywire o.o seriously sia. i had no idea how i could not fall when i was going to fall LOL! somehow i managed to perform a very... exhilarating 'dance' move because i regain my legs HAHAHA.

so i held on to railings most of the time la! but still tried to let go but too many people then if i fall then i so malu la XDD then second time i was desperately grabbing on to sth, in the end i grabbed onto yen, and pulled her down to fall toooooooooooo :b sorry yen!!

there was once, i sort of tripped over this kid's uh... thing. okay not THAT thing. i meant, the kid was holding on this thing that resembles what elderly hold to support them? yeah. i can't find the word/picture to describe it.. yeah so ..

me: woahwoahwoahwoah shitshit!! (almost fell and didn't fall)
boy: o.o
me: oh, sorry.
boy: .... you need this?

walao he is right out trying to tell me i suck la! LOL. and he is just a fricking kid!!!! :( LOL.

anyway, one guy swept past in front of me, and i lost concentration, and i seriously started PRANCING around on ice to maintain balance. and that guy stared at me like i'm some retard with no equilibrium (?), but actually if he didn't shock me i wouldn't be in that state!!! horrible sia! LOL.

phototaking was fun, if i could stop moving backwards involuntarily! LOL. totally had to hold on to everyone to make sure i stop moving like shit!! HAHAHA. but in the end took a few photos lor :) most of the time i was trying reallllllly hard to skate. okay not that hard, if there were fewer people, i bet a million dollars i will fall like 20 times cuz i will be hiong in trying to desperately grasp the iceskating ;b

but it's fun la! after that took out the skates, it was horrible. cramped up twice and was in immortal agony LOL. charlene was sort of o.o LOL. not really actually LOL, it's routine :) then wore shoes. OMG. it's the best feeling for a long time :)

then wanted to go out but adam lost his ticket so i lent him 10 dollars. best part is he said

"oh 算我倒霉，lend me 10 dollars. there's no choice!" LOL. i have no fricking idea why he must add the first part, it sounded extremely, extremely qianbian -.- but lent him anyway if not i cannot get out cuz he's blocking o.o LOL.

then wanted to go marina barrage because it felt like a very very short meeting only, but everyone tired le bah, so yeah lor.. at night tried to sleep but to no avail in the end i ended up reading shaonianwenzhai and smsing eve -.- trying to motivate her to do her hwk, when i'm not :)

today was uh.. normal lesson day lor. but tired :X but i never sleep at all~ geography almost fell asleep but stayed awake and stared into blank space :)

CID was quite interactive so never sleep heh heh! and we are the 5th group leh~ happy ahahhaha! chemistry prac was crap thx to nck LOL. eve and i like dao him and stay in class and the whole class oso stay then nck called my hp O.O omg. i tot cannot use phone in class one?! LOLLLL. but i just ignore, and faster rush to chem lab liao :X in the end kena scolded hahaha, and confirmed that it wasnt a free period :b

then math was just the quiz then after that going thru the circle thing LOl. i couldn't really hear so i gave up LOL.

ahhhhh i very tired, XDD night.. :)

zzzz i tried to blog today twice, once on the phone but my parents came back so i had to off the internet, second time i tried but there was an error! AHHHHHH. so frustrating!

but anyway. i was just blogging about this week:)

uhhh.. monday was movie with jiarong, transformers HAHA! didn't like it much though, probably should watch transformers one first right? :X but anyway the guy looks very cute, he looks like a preschooler but probably cuter than that :P megan fox is hot la, but there wasn't much scenes featuring her, so i didn't take notice much XD maybe transformers one should be the one which does the impression!

tuesday was 'checking sec one attire' day. LOL. left quite early and everything lor. but still funny in some ways HAHA. i tot everyone will turn up since it's supposed to be a day all of us are free.. but in the end only a few turned up :(

wednesday was sjab day, had good and bad experiences, but was damn paiseh to be greeted with eve in front of mrs look sia. LOLLL. it was so random! anyway, was paiseh when juniors greet me, and everyone ask me "why eve has so many badges you so little?!" WALAO!! LOL. i got chief com badge one okay! :X but anyway after that waited for charlene and bl then had camwhore session :) i love, love, love photos!

sidetracking for a cheesy while. i think our 'era' is sort of ending, and i really hope that we will not drift, but asked jesslyn and she said it's quite impossible we won't... probably we will be close in cliques? it made me quite sad actually, looking back, i probably didn't make so much memories with the rest since they had comp tgt and everything, but the last two years had been the fun years that i'm super, super scared i would forget about :( therefore, we MUST. i repeat, MUST take photos regularly so that i will remember every event we did tgt, even when we part and start to forget each other's names, faces, or may not recognise each other when we walk past each other..

thursday was training, as usual, quite useless at trainings that are not foot drill one la XDD but anyway, just wanted to spend time and everything. try to make myself useful in little ways -.-

friday too XD but the highlight was probably the photo taking session and dinner oso :) funfunfun! but i look horrible in most of the photos, so will leave my dp like that for some time XD thanks eve for uploading the photos! the dinner was with jesslyn eve xinmun bl zhixiang adam :) had dinner at The Mussel Guy in vivo! but anyway it was really paiseh at the end because i had ALOT of coins, no notes, then very paiseh when i poured the coins out and starting counting them like some measly amount.. LOL. but was fun, talked and laughed everything :) took one photo!

today was a very sian day bah? woke up all groggy. last night i reached home, then bathed, and it was about... 9 plus? i just lay on the sofa, and fell asleep. then when i woke up it was 10 a.m. and i was at home o.o HAHAHA. but i think i woke up at 4 plus in the morning bah? biological clock of my cerebullum(?) LOL. but was woken up because my leg was hurting like shit, couldn't reach for the fricking phone and only could get it when i sort of half-crawled to the phone hahahahah! for some reason i duno why, the pain is getting worse, is it because the physio's not due yet? duno leh XD i just hope it isn't like this every morning, it's going to go back to that wake-up-30-minutes-early-just-to-walk period :(

MONDAY IS SQUAD OUTING. XDD happy happy! ice skating leh! yay! it's gonna be damn fun :X i believe so! :) wheeeeeeeee! must take photos:)